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Uncontrollable circumstances

Song: Suffocate

Artist: J. Holiday

"Don't wear stockings anymore!" Edward growled as he removed my stockings, my skirt was pulled up right bellow my exposed breast. He was an expert, how could he manage to remove my clothes, tease my nibbles with his tongue, yell at me and still have me trembling at the same time. I couldn't answer I was afraid that if I opened my mouth, the sounds that would come out of me, would alert the entire building that in the basement where the archives were kept my body was in flames. My eyes rolled to the back of my head when his tongue found my sensitive clit and started its delicious attack. I couldn't think my mind had gone into blind lust mode, I couldn't understand why lately my mind went berserk when he was anywhere near me.

Earlier that morning:

This morning Mr. Cullen assigned Edward and me to the archives for a week, something that would usually make my life miserable, however if Edward was with me nothing could. On the elevator down to the archives, that is literally a safe full of thousands of multi- billion dollar secrets, from the beginning of the company's history. I was tense and quiet because on the inside a storm of sexual need ran amok, making my insides burn to a crisp.

"What is wrong with you?" Edward asked pinning me. I stopped breathing because of the power he had on me, I had a feeling that I could find him by his scent alone in a room full of people. It was intoxicating. Edward is melting chocolate, smooth and sometimes bitter sweet, strong like aged whiskey that warms you on cold winter nights as it slides down your throat, inside his hard shell you find all this and more. It would take me more time than I had to love him, no matter how long my life would be, it would not be long enough. Everything about this man made me lose control, I was like a starving woman and he was my meal. Edward lifted my face and looked into my eyes, reflected in his pure green wonders; I could see my brown eyes blazing with desire.

"I can't be around you, I can't understand." I spoke breathlessly as his eyes grew darker with desire. "I need to touch you, feel you and it's like I'm addicted. A hunger I don't understand…the more I get the more I want. It's not like me to be so out of control." Edward backed away from me a little and stared at my burning face, his sexy lips turned up in a teasing smile, I automatically bit my bottom lip in response taking in an unsteady breath.

"You sound like a vampire." He chuckled amused, but his eyes weren't amused they were black with excitement.

That is how we ended up against the wall, than a book self now he was spreading my legs as I laid on a desk. I could see his change happening and instead of fearing it, it excited me beyond words, I wanted to throw my head back and scream my pleasure as he teased my entrance with the head of his penis. He looked at me with hungry eyes and I bit my bottom lip, he thrust into me in one smooth painless motion. He inserted himself all the way into my wetness and I could feel him in all of me, I arched my back to meet his thrust as he began his rhythm. As I felt my walls tighten around him, Edward growled "Not yet!" He then proceeded to remove himself from inside me; instinctually I hissed my disapproval at him. He responded by lifting and turning me around, he impaled himself inside me, as he pulled my hair, and pulled me to a kiss. He thrust in me and kissed my lips as I met every one of his thrusts.

I felt the tug of something unfamiliar, yet natural start to change in my body. I could feel my body getting stronger; my senses were in hyperactive mode, I could hear it all and sense it all. Fear crept in and left in less than a millisecond. I could feel his orgasm coming and I was not far behind, his release brought my own. The spasms hit me like shock waves and I trembled and tighten on him, he kept a slow pumping motion until we were both numb and pleased. Edward was not an awkward after we made love; he would always pull me to his side holding me tight under his warmth. He buried his face into my hair inhaled and exhaled in satisfaction. I felt my heart swell up with joy; I kissed him slowly flavoring his lips, letting the taste of him fill all of my senses. I prayed silently that he never realize how far our worlds were, I prayed I could always wake up next to this godlike creature the way I had for the last three months.

"Edward, I need to know something." I turned to him as I picked up my shirt from the floor.

"Yea" He seemed a little distracted as he tugged his shirt in place, a pinch of jealousy hit me because with his speed he could do things faster than I could. He must have read it in my eyes and he was all a sudden by my side my clothes collected and in his hands.

"Let me help you." He said placing a kiss on my lips. "Wow Bella, you are insatiable!" Edward accused.

"What do you mean?" I asked knowingly.

"I can smell your arousal; I swear you if I wasn't sure you were human, I would say that I found a vampire to match me." His laughter filled the room and he helped me into my panties, stockings than my bra. The rest he left to me saying "I already did the fun stuff, although I have to admit I enjoy taking them off much more." His voice turned husky and tempting.

"Stop it!" I said breathlessly and he laughed low and sensual.

"Stop what?" Edward lifted a perfect eyebrow

"Don't provoke me. We need to get the work done." I said through clench teeth. Edward hugged me around the waist and placed a heated kiss on my cheek.

"Who would have known that underneath all those horrible outfits, lived a tigress. Who not only has a hot body but knows how to use it. You know you learn quickly. It's impressive; your beauty is only exceeded by your intelligence. My favorite part is that I am the only one who gets to see that insatiable, ravenous woman you are." Intense pride lived in his eyes and his words filled me with more joy than any other person had filled me with.

We knew so little about each other; however in our moments of intimacy while we laid in his bed or mine, we spoke of all the things that made us who we are. When he asked about my parents, and I told him that I was an orphan, he didn't know what do or say to make it better. He asked me the usual questions, however I didn't feel pity from him only understanding, I didn't have to explain to him how I felt. He understood without any awkwardness, I was taken aback with how incredibly gentle he was. Edward knew when I need to be held, when I need to make love slowly and passionately and when I needed a random, thoughtless sex. Although nothing with Edward was less than mind blowing, the sensations he created in me were bliss, every time he made me his, I felt as though a piece of me was left behind, he always took a piece of me and I always took a piece of him. Little by little I could see him hesitantly give me a little more of himself, I knew that it was hard for him and I like giving him his time. However he never shared any of his vampire life with me and that was eating at me, I had to say something or I would explode inside.

"Edward I need to know something." I asked hesitatingly after a few hours of meticulous work, we stayed as far as possible from each other.

"Ask away." He looked up from his work.

"What do you eat?" I felt embarrassed to ask.

"Why do you want to know?" His voice was restrained with anger.

"I want to know, and why are you getting mad? You asked me which foods I prefer." I asked a little annoyed, he knew so much about me, but he kept too much from me.

"There certain things you don't need to know." Edward answered and went back to work; I just stood there furry building. I tried to push it aside however the hostility I was feeling towards him was overwhelming. My emotions were out of whack and when I felt the first signs of tears, I bit my bottom lip in a useless effort to hold back the traitors.

"Why are you about to cry?" His voice was soft but a part of me found it harsh and uncaring. That was the less rational part of me.

"I hate that you won't let me in. Why won't you let me in, why do I feel like you…?" I choked up with emotion. I started towards the elevator to escape the pain shooting holes with in me.

"Bella I don't want you to see that part of me. I am not human, I have a monster inside of me and you need to remember that. I may not be the best thing for you." I could scream my lungs out and still not express my frustration properly.

"Edward we can't be together, if I don't get to know all of you. I want to love all that you are, you don't trust me enough. Ughh I feel like you won't let me know you because you will leave me eventually. You are aren't you?" I spoke as calmly as possible; I could see in his green eyes that what I was saying was true.

"Bella I don't know any other way to protect you from what I am. I'm going to hit my thirties and I am not going to age again, I'm going to live forever and a life with me will be hard, I want you to have some normalcy in your life. I want you to have a normal husband and normal children and a man that can go into the sun with you and a man that won't fight his need to drain your blood every time he is near you." I could see how hard it was for him to let those words out, the pain, uncertainty and rebellion behind his green eyes.

"Well tough luck pal." I hit him hard on his chest. "You are either going to love me or let me go. And don't make decisions for me. Who do you think you are? Do you think someone else can make me happy? Would you be okay with someone else making love to me?" I hit him again. "Damn it Edward can you?" I was tearing and his expression showed the same desperation, I had seen when I told him about my childhood. The elevator opened and I walked in while he stood still his eyes never leaving mine and the doors closed. The ride upstairs was painful, but I compost myself, I walked out of the elevator and bumped into a tall redhead, with model like features and a body to match. She was at least five-eleven.

"I am so sorry; I wasn't paying attention to where I was going." She looked me up and down with a dismissive and disgusted look.

"I'm looking for…" The elevator opened behind me. "Edward darling!" She shouted and walked right passed me grabbed his face (my face!) and kissed him passionately. I felt nauseous immediately and I ran out of the building looking for fresh air to clear my lungs. Outside the doors I breathe in and out, in and out.

When I could breathe again, it still felt like I was fighting a losing battle against a boulder that had been hurled at me and was crashing the life out of me.

"Miss, miss!" A man with a beard and very dirty clothes yelled at me and I just stared at him without blinking. "Isabella, come back. All is well, I have found you!" His words registered however I couldn't process them. "I'm Charles Swan, I served your parents as chief of security and I gave you your last name. Bella listen to me you will awaken soon and danger will come. You must get away from this place as soon as possible." The man began to drag me away and I couldn't react, I was being dragged and an old memory hit. Something similar happen to me when I was much younger, 'how old was I?' four the voice inside me answered.

"Charlie?" I asked and lost consciousness.

I woke up in a very ornate room with Mrs. Cullen over me like a caring mother, her eyes were warm honey so full tenderness, that I couldn't believe she was truly a vampire.

"You need to stay away from my son." She warned and her voice was as sweet as honey, I stared wide eyed at her gorgeous face as she threatened me. "I smell him all over you. Stay away because you will only cause him pain and suffering. I am very sorry I can sense that my words cause you tremendous pain; however I must look out for my son's wellbeing. Victoria is his fiancée that is what the council has decided and you will stay away from him. My husband will transfer you anywhere you like; you do not have to lose your job." Her face suddenly softened and the harshness she was trying to keep up cracked and her compassion showed.

"Look Isabella I know that you have had a hard time your whole life, you're strong but my son he is fickle and he doesn't understand what real love is. He is infatuated with you because you are pretty, different and you amuse him now. But Edward will not truly love you; you are headed for heart break and I am saving you both the regret and the hurt." I stared unable to speak, her words were tearing at every bit of control I had, and I felt as if I was drowning in her words. I couldn't breathe, my heart stopped beating and my body felt as if the pain alone would crush me physically. 'How could I live without him now, I haven't known love from anyone as real as his. It has only been a few months and I have never lived, until I spend those days with him. I would endure it for him, I would move on.

"Thank you for caring for me Mrs. Cullen. May I say goodbye to Nessie please?" I swallowed hard when I saw in her eyes the answer I didn't want to hear.

"Sorry but I don't think that is a good idea." Her face truly looked sad. I felt my knees weak and I almost collapsed but she caught me.

"Why?" was all I was able to utter. I couldn't understand why all that I loved was being was taken from me. Still her arms I wailed like an animal in pain, no holding back and no pretending that I was fine. She held me caressing my hair, she cried and her tears were as real as mine. Something deep within me understood her as a mother, She wasn't cruel she need to protect her family and I was the person that would cause them harm. If I had a child I would do all I could to protect them, even if the meant hurting an innocent person.

"Charlie is an old family friend; he will stay with you and protect you. Please stay away and don't let anyone find you." Mrs. Cullen took my face in her hands and stared me in square in the eye. "Bella if the circumstances were different I would be honor to have you as my daughter. There so much you don't know and so much I can't tell you. Please take care of yourself and your future, please be safe child." Like a loving mother she hugged me tightly and guided me over to the car where Charlie waited for me.

"Do I know him?" I asked Mrs. Cullen

"You will, trust him Bella, please he is a good man. " She hesitated and just let me inside the car. "Be safe."

The car took off away from her from him, from all that I knew and loved, I put my hands over my belly and I whispered to my future.

"Don't worry, we'll be okay."

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