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Thank you so much for the reviews, favorites and follows! I didn´t even think it would get some attention, so thank you thank you thank you. Hehe, here is the next chapter.
Try to hear my voice
You can leave, now it's your choice
Maybe if I fall asleep, I won't breathe right
Maybe if I leave tonight, I won't come back
I said it before, I won't say it again
Love is a game to you, it's not pretend
Maybe if I fall asleep, I won't breathe right
Can nobody hear me?
I got a lot that's on my mind
I cannot breathe
Can you hear it, too?
And again, I woke up to my favorite band and sang softly with them as I got up. I wandered around the room at first, trying to find the reason why he was on my mind the whole time. Never, ever have I been like this, you know. It´s weird, but it gives me a tingly feeling. That´s just stupid, I reminded myself and laughed. ''Stop it.'' I muttered under my breath and got dressed. Maybe you remember or maybe you don´t, but I always wear jeans and something with long sleeves. The hiding, remember?
After my daily morning routine, what means getting Prim and me ready and bring Prim to school, I went to school. Because I was getting late, I ran as fast as I could without paying attention to others. As I ran around the corner, I bumped into someone. Stupid me. The student and me fell onto the ground and only then I realized it was him. Peeta Mellark. Well I can tell you, my face was heating up within seconds. Well.. fuck.
Instead of glaring at me, he broke into that cute goofy smile again. A smile formed on my lips too and we laughed softly. ''Sorry.'' I said quietly and he helped me up. ''It´s okay. Are you okay?'' He asked, at which I gave him a small nod. How stupid it sounds, I basically walked off without saying anything else. At first, I heard nothing so it was alright, but then I heard the footsteps. ''Wait. Wait. Uh.. do you have.. uh.. biology.. too?'' I smiled at his awkwardness and nodded. Next thing, we went to biology together and sat next to each other.
It scared me to have someone next to me. I always sat alone. In class. During lunch. Everywhere on school! Hoping he wouldn´t ask me anything, I listened to the teacher who was talking about girls and boys. Great subject in this situation, Mrs. Undersee. I placed my hands on my cheeks and closed my eyes, getting lost in my thoughts. It was a hard choice though. Listening to Mrs. Undersee talking about a.. uh.. lets say.. male part while you sit next to Peeta Mellark or getting lost in that dark mess what´s called my mind. I prefer the last one.
But when I felt Peeta turning to me, I got back to reality. ''Do you want to do the project together? Like.. project partners.. P-partners for the project, y-you know?'' He asked. Huh.. what project? Oops. And that wasn't even the thing I was most confused about, it was his question. Why would someone like him ask someone like me to be partners with? ''Yeah.. sure, Peeta.'' I replied after a short silence and I could see the smile appearing on his face as I said it. My mind drifted off to his stuttering and I laughed softly. ''Okay. Want to sit together during lunch? So.. we can talk and make a plan for this.. uh.. exciting.. project?'' He laughed a little and I nodded again. This was getting kinda funny.
A few classes later, the bell rang. Lunch break! I have to admit, it gave me a nervous and excited feeling at the same time. He probably wouldn´t even come, I reminded myself.. but the spark of hope was getting to me and I ran to my locker, then to the cafeteria. He wasn´t there yet, but I was trying to convince myself he would come. I sat down at a table somewhere in the back and took small bites of my sandwich. Looking down at my legs, I thought about all of it.
Ten minutes later, he still wasn´t there. I looked around the room and gasped as I saw what was happening. Peeta was sitting at the popular table with Cashmere on his lap. I heard giggles from the girls, while I couldn´t really decide what was going on in Peeta´s mind. I should´ve expected this, I really should´ve. Tears were burning in my eyes, so I stood up and packed my bag, then ran out of the cafeteria.
For the second time today, I bumped into someone. This time, it was worse though. Glimmer. Great, great. Everything was so, so great. I tried to escape, but she already got hold of my arms. ''In a hurry?'' She smirked. ''Aw, now you have to wait honey.'' Only seconds later, Clove came by and they were pushing me into the janitor´s closet. Laughing, they pushed me onto the floor and got their make up from their purses. This only meant one thing... I was going to look like shit.
I tried to fight back, but they pinned me to the ground and it hurt. It hurt like hell. Once they were finished, they gave me a small beat up and left the small room. I could feel the blood trickle down my forehead from a deep scratch. Damn you, fake nails. I wiped my face as I fought back the tears. I was not going to cry over them. No. No. No. So instead, I started singing a few lines of a song. A song by another band I love.
All that you desired, when you were a child
Was to be old, was to be old
Now that you are here, suddenly you fear
You've lost control
Do you like the person you've become?
Under the weight of living
You're under the weight of living
Under the weight of living
You are under the weight of living
The weight of living, the weight of living
It all crept up on you, in the night it got you
And plagued your mind, it plagues your mind
Every day that passes, faster than the last did
And you'll be old soon, you'll be old
Do you like the person you've become?
Under the weight of living
You're under the weight of living.
So, here you go! That was chapter two of my story, I hope you liked it. Please let me know what you think about it. Hate it or love it? Spill it out in the comments! Haha, thank you for reading.
Aaaaaand, the first song is Hear Me by the perfect Imagine Dragons. The second song is Weight Of Living, Pt. II by the also perfect Bastille.
Okay? Okay.