Hiyas whoeva is reading this (if there I anyone :0D)! sry it took soo long for the update my computer was stupid and deleted this 3 times before I could save anything. Also this chapter and the nxt one was supposed to be one, but then its supa llllooonnnggg! Ill have the next chap up by Monday night! Don't own Degrassi ladidida…..:(

…AND HERE IS CHAPTER DOS …

Clare's Point of View:

It feels as though I spend eternity staring at those five letters printed across the card sitting opposite my own. Finally I look up to Eli. His eyes are nearly popping out of his sockets his jaw clenched. I stare intently into his eyes trying to decipher if this could be true, or if we were just looking at random cards from a pack. But then just for a millisecond I see a flicker of something in Eli's eyes; fear, shock, worriedness, everything expected. But, then I saw the worst thing. Understanding, even …recognition?

Eli's Point of View: (DUH NUH NUH NUH NU-NUH!)

This is my fault. I can't be happy! I don't deserve to be happy, especially after Julia! And because I gave my heart away again and am happy I have to go through it again, with Clare this time. As these thought circulate around in my head, I can feel tell that I'm not hiding back my feeling like I always do. I quickly look up a Clare trying to look normal, even trying attempting my smirk. But, instead of making Clare blush like it usually does, she just seems more scared than before. I stare at Clare taking everything in. Her inner and outer beauty. How she radiates with purity and goodness. How she always looks for and finds the best in people, now matter how terrible everyone else thinks that they are, like she did with me. Finally I look into her dazzling ocean blue eyes, sparkling in the light, looking at me with some much caring…love? I love her, that's why I have to do this… I remind myself. This isn't how I want my final time with Clare to be, and it's definitely not how I want her to remember me. So I delicately take her small, soft hands in mine and pull her from the table. I wrap my arms around her and pull her in for a kiss. When our lips touch it was like electricity. I can feel her warmth and our lips move in sync. I put all the passion I have into that single kiss.

Clare's Point of View:

This feels so right I think as I wrap my arms around Eli's neck entangling them in his long hair. I've never felt so much for someone ever before. I would do anything for Eli, and it scares me to think that he might do the same for me…but that's what being in love is like. He pulls away, one of his rare smiles that light up the whole world, flash across his face. He envelops me in a hug and as though I'm not supposed to hear he soo quietly whispers, "I love you." I can't even respond because the next thing Eli does is run away from me.

What was that is the only thought that I can conjure up. I am even too confused to chase after Eli, I can only stare in shock at the spot he filled in front of me two seconds before. I waste about half an hour searching every possible place I could think of in search of the one person I love unconditionally and I know feels the same way about me. I was about to just head back home, and wait until school break was over to solve my problem, but then came up with a plan. If I can't find Eli, I'll have him find me.

I spend a good ten minutes looking for Adam; I needed him for my plan to get Eli's attention. Yup, I have some tricks up my for noticing me.

Finally I came across Drew he might know where his brother was. I asked him and he said that last time he saw Adam he was going into the House Of Mirrors, but that had been a while ago. I decided to check it out anyways.

"Adam" I called walking into it. I kept walking through not bothering with to look at my distorted reflections. As I turned a corner I see him. He is standing in front a huge normal mirror that showed himself. But the person staring back into Adam's eyes was not him. It was a girl wearing a dress that could have been Adam's identical twin.

"Uggg!"He grunts loudly extending his left leg until it connects with the mirror with a loud crash, a million sharp slivers of glass crashing to the floor. As a scream escaped my mouth Adam turns around with shock and flabbergast sketched all over his face.

"What was that for?"

"Did you see my reflection in the mirror?" Adam immediately responds, avoiding my question.

"Yes what was that?"

"Uhh-mhhh-it was…"

"You don't have to tell me." I say seeing his hesitation.

"No…I want to. I'm a dude, like one hundred percent. But I was born in a girl's body. I'm an FTM; female to male transgender."

"How do you know that you're not just a tomboy, or gay?" I ask intrigued.

"I just know, I guess."

"Cool."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

"Hey, why'd you even come in here?"

"I was looking for you. Eli's kind of ignoring me, so I have a plan to get his attention. But I need your help, you in?"

" Course."

I explain my plan to Adam and we head over to the knife-throwing booth. Through the speakers I hear "Are there really no volunteers in that entire crowd? "I expected this.

"We would like to volunteer." I offer raising my hand and Adam's hand. "Fantastic." Says the knife thrower as we move towards the stage. The cracks in my plan become apparent, as I am strapped to a spinning wheel as Adam whispers in my ear "Are you sure that you want to do this?" I began to shake and tremble as he backed away and was handed a sharp knife. He grabbed it's thick handle and watched the flashing carnival lights glinting off of the pure silver blade. A red bandana was rapped around Adam's head and the fear dwelling within me grew, as it became his blindfold. He took his stance.

The knife was just going to leave Adam's hand as he was plowed over by a dark figure. He landed a few feet away sprawled over the floor, Eli standing over him.

"Adam! Eli?" I yell pulling on my restraints until they gave. "What was that for?"

"Oh my god Clare what were you thinking? He could have killed you!"

"He wouldn't have, I told him to aim far away from me. It was just a stupid plan," I say pulling from the stage, " to get your attention."

"You did this just for my attention!" he yelled at me in a way that I'd never seen him act before. It scared me. I backed away slowly. "Please don't make too much of it. It ain't that serious."

"Not that serious, Clare you could have died!" he exclaimed his deep green eyes turning so dark they almost looked black.

"Eli!" I chase after him; I can't let him leave me for the second time in one night.

"Clare, stay away from me." He growls under his breath immediately causing me to screech to a halt.

"Eli I love you too!"

"Too? I never said I love you Clare I don't." He gives me a death glare before walking away.