I don't own D. Gray-man.

Warning: yaoi and swearing (I think).

"Mana!" his lover exclaimed as they entered the house.

A tall and middle-aged man walked into the room, making Lavi wonder if this man was truly his lover's father.

"Allen, welcome back. How wa- oh and who might this be?" the tall man asked as he looked straight at him.

Lavi nervously smiled, knowing he should answer but feeling absolutely nervous and even afraid at being introduced to his lovers father. His lover must have noticed his nervousness, but who wouldn't, he was always hyperactive and talked just as much. So his quietness was definitely a sign of him being nervous.

"Mana, this Lavi. Lavi, this is Mana," Allen said with a smile.

"Oh so you are the famous Lavi I have heard so much about. It's nice to meet you." Mana said, as he stretched his arm forward and waited for him to shake his hand.

"It's nice to meet you too, sir." he finally answered, shaking Mana's hand and feeling proud he did stutter or do anything embarrassing in front of his lover father.

They eventually went to the living room, where Mana and him were left alone as Allen got some snacks. It was awkward to say the least, the only noise made was from Allen moving around in the kitchen.

"Thank you," Mana told him out of nowhere.

"Um for exactly what sir?" Lavi asked, feeling slightly awkward with the situation and with his formality.

Mana only laughed before he began to speak once more.

"You can call me Mana" he said before he continued. "You know, when I adopted Allen he wasn't... How do I put this? Well he wasn't happy."

Lavi only stayed quiet as he listened to Allen's adoptive father, which made sense since they looked nothing alike. Mana got more comfortable in his chair as he continued talking.

"He was only four, but he wasn't a happy child. He wouldn't show me his true emotions, always putting an act with a fake smile, but it never reached his eyes. My goal was to make him smile, a real smile, and I succeeded after two years," Mana said with a proud smile.

"Still, even after that, the boy didn't smile much. I was glad that he no longer gave me those fake smiles, but I wanted him to smile more and I got my wish. Maybe it's because for the first time in all his life, Allen has a place to call home, but he's been smiling more. I'm sure it's because of you and your other friend, so thank you." Mana looked at him with a grateful smile.

Lavi smiled and told Mana that he was grateful he brought Allen to them. Thais when Allen came back asking them why they were smiling, which they answered him that it was their little secret.

All in all, his first meeting with Mana was wonderful.

After Mana's death, Lavi finally understood what Mana said about Allen bottling up his emotions. The boy acted as usual, but everyone who really cared and knew him, could see the pain in that once brilliant smile.

Allen didn't cry.

Not even on the day of Mana's death, he just shut himself away. An empty shell that walks, talks, and breaths, but doesn't live.

Lavi wasn't much help, he couldn't, not with the guilt that kept eating him away. They held the name of a couple, but it didn't feel like they were in a relationship. Actually, his relationship and friendship at that time seemed to be going down hill.

Kanda had some how found out about his infidelity, and they fought. Not just with words, but with fists and Kanda won. Not because he was stronger, but because Lavi didn't try to fight him since he knew he deserved it. After the fight they laid on the grass of the park, where they had begun to fight, and he realized that he was not the only one in love with the white-haired boy.

"Are you going to tell him?" he had asked, already aware that Kanda loved his lover.

"No," Lavi wasn't shocked at the answer. Still, curiosity about why Kanda didn't use this information to his advantage, made him ask him his next question.

"Why?"

There was complete silence, until his friend sat up.

"Because... It's not my problem. You deserve to feel like shit, and I know that you do. It's eating away at you as we speak and you will break down, eventually. And...He deserves to hear it from you." Kanda said, before he picked up mugen and left to go home.

Shit, he's right.

After that fight, Kanda didn't talk nor hang with him or Allen, not even when Lenalee was around. That only made his guilt worse, since he knew that Allen was hurt by Kanda's treatment. They had actually become close on the day of Mana's death, since he had not been there for Allen, apparently Kanda had.

It had made him jealous to know that while he was away, Kanda took his place, but then self-hatred would hit him. It was his fault for getting drunk and...

Just thinking of his infidelity was horrible and he did his best to forget it, but when he and Allen were alone, he could barely look at him in the eyes because he knew what he did was horrible and that Allen deserved to know.

But he was coward.

He never knew how cowardly he was, but every time he tried to tell Allen, his fear of losing him kept his mouth shut.

It wasn't until their one year anniversary that Lavi broke down and told Allen everything.

"Lavi!" he turned as he heard his voice, and smiled when he saw his lover. They had decided to meet at the park for their anniversary to have a little celebration, which he hoped would bring life back into Allen's smile and eyes.

"Hey" he said turning to face the white-haired male. Allen smiled, a broken smile, and looked at him as he threaded their hands together.

"So, I know what we are going to do today?" the smaller man said, squeezing his hand before they entered a restaurants they had reservations for.

"Oh really?" Lavi said teasingly.

"Yes, but you won't know until after we eat" Allen said playfully. It made Lavi think that he was back to normal, but he knew that Allen was hiding and pushing everything he really felt away.

He was sure that when he was all alone, the boy would suffer in misery.

Lavi knew because he was doing the same thing.

As they sat at their table, the one thing he was trying to hide and push away came to them asking what they wanted to order. He knew it was her, he had seen her face when he got ready to leave to go to the hospital as the girl slept. Since the deed had happened in the girl's apartment, that was far from his and any one he knew, he had been sure that he would never see her again. But there she was in front of him and his lover.

She recognized him, but she didn't say anything.

The girl took their order and left them alone. Even though she kept her silence, it didn't calm Lavi.

"Are you okay?" Allen asked him, looking confused.

He nodded and was happy when Allen didn't question him any further. She came back to leave their food, but that was all.

After they finished their food, Lavi paid for the meal quickly, and left with Allen without ever looking back. As they walked, Allen said that he wanted to stay over at his place and Lavi, whose mind was still on what happened, had said okay.

They rented a few movies on their way to Lavi's apartment. When they finally made it back to his place, Lavi was finally able to forget about his infidelity and focus on watching the movie with his lover.

While watching the movie, Allen kept moving closer to him, but Lavi didn't really pay much attention to it. That is until he felt Allen's lips on his neck, and before he knew it the smaller man was on his lap.

"Allen?" he asked, and later groaned when Allen sucked on his neck slightly.

"Lavi I'm ready." his lover said, when he finished kissing his neck. For the first time, since this whole mass, Lavi felt happy. Grabbing the back of Allens head, he crushed their lips together and started a heated kiss that left them breathless. They some how ended up with Allen underneath him on the couch and Lavi hovering over him.

They lost themselves to the pleasure, until Lavi was brought back to reality.

"Lavi," Allen moaned as he began to kiss his neck, and at that moment the memory of the night he spent with that girl came back. She had moaned his name in the same way, not as wonderful, but enough to associate the two. Horror at the memory made him violently push away from Allen.

He landed on the floor, shaking with disgust. He knew that he couldn't go through. Allen needed to know because, not only did he deserve to know, but also because he would regret giving himself to him if he knew.

Lavi was Allens first boyfriend, so he was still a virgin. He owed it Allen, and Mana who trusted him, to be truthful.

"Lavi, what's wrong?" Allen looked at him, with those eyes that still held sadness, and Lavi lowered.

"Lav-" Allen started, but he interrupted.

"I cheated on you." he said, not looking at Allen.

Silence filled the room and Lavi decided to tell him the truth.

"I...I cheated on you on the day of Mana's death"

Once again silence was all he was met with, and he felt his heart-break as he kept talking.

"I'm so sorry" he sobbed, wanting and needing Allen to say something, anything.

But all he got was silence.

Sorry this took forever. I had many scenarios for how Lavi was going to tell Allen, but this one won them all. I hope it was sad cause that what I was going for :b. Also thanks to all those who commented/followed/favorite my story, I love you guys :).