All I Ever Wanted Chapter 2: Everything seems to fall in place

Loren's P.O.V

Everything seems so dark, and I felt like I was trapped in a never ending nightmare. It's weird my mind was just blank and I couldn't picture anything at all. No images whatsoever were popping up in my head. Where was I? I could hear sounds such as sirens, and people screaming and crying. What was going on and why did I hear theses piercing screams. I felt like someone was screaming right in my ear, but I couldn't really respond at all. Suddenly I felt the touch of someone's hands on mine, and I could feel their tears drop gently onto my arm. The feeling it gave me was really unexplainable, and I felt a sense of comfort and security. Seems like this person was devastated about a certain something, but I couldn't do anything to help this person at all. Suddenly as their hold on me got tighter I heard the sound of a door bursting open, and I heard people saying "move out of the way sir." What in the world was I hearing, and why was I not waking up. I felt a huge wave of shock hit my chest, but that was all and I kept on feeling it again and again. I heard the piercing screams become louder and I could make out that it was a male voice. I heard him saying repeatedly "Loren wake up", but I just couldn't bring myself to do so it was too challenging and difficult. Wait no it couldn't be his voice. He had forgotten about me, and I was a mistake put way back in his past apparently. It couldn't be him my mind had to be playing tricks on me, but then again I would recognize Eddie's voice anytime. Even his slightest whisper would suddenly bring sudden memories rushing into my mind. I remember it all now every single little memory we both shared, and every memory carried was not exactly such a light subject. The pain he had caused me, and the feeling it brought me came back into my heart. Hearing his voice made me think about all those gruesome painful past times. Eddie was a sweet guy at heart, but I guess at the end his stubbornness got the best of him. I love him and I still do till this day, but it's hard to just jump back into a relationship with him after all the heartbreak he had brought me. They say to forgive and forget, but that saying didn't exactly come to me so easily. He was the person who brought light to my day, and he was always standing there with open arms whenever I needed a shoulder to cry on, but then in an instance he changed. I have no clue if he's that "guy" he used to be, but by the sounds of it sounded as if he still cared about me, which means he realized his mistakes and he now changed his cruel vindictive ways. This showed me that he changed for me, and I was definitely glad because of this sudden difference in a persona. I was smiling on the inside and out, my heart was no longer frowning because I now realize that people actually do care about me. Maybe you could see my smile on the out. I really hope Eddie saw it because I didn't want to hear him going through this pain. What was even happening anyways why was I in a complete trance. I couldn't open my eyes, and they were shut tight like it was supposed to be this way. I needed to find a way back to Eddie and all the others; I needed to find that ladder that would lead me back to reality. I was going to try my best, but not always everything goes my way. Maybe I will wake up maybe I won't, but that's not my decision it's all up to faith at this point.

Eddie's P.O.V.

What the hell have I done, I just let her slip away so easily and now look where she's at lying on a strecther heading to the emergency room. Everything was just moving at a fast pace, and these past few minutes have just been filled with chaos. Loren's Mom had gotten home from work just in time to see her daughter lying on a stretcher, and the screams that came from her mouth explained the pain she was enduring. My screams were ten times worst though, and the pain I felt was once again chewing away at my heart. I let the love of my life get away, and not being there with her it ends up resulting in this. How could I let this happen to such an angel like her, and a better question why did she even do this to herself? Concern and worry were my main emotions, what if Loren didn't turn out to make it. No I couldn't think about the negative or the possibilities of this happening, because that would only bring more worry to the situation. Still the question was lingering in my mind what possessed Loren to commit such an act, and she looked so happy with her life now look at her. That beautiful heart of gold would never do something like this unless given the right motivation, don't worry I will find out eventually who was the cause of all of this. My main focus right now was to make sure she was okay and out of harm's way. Right now the ambulance had left with Loren in the truck, and Nora following right behind them. As for me I told Nora I would meet her there in a bit, I just needed to do something real quick. I was actually snooping around Loren's room searching for some type of answer as to why she did this. I was still standing by the doorway, and I brought my hand up to my cheek gently wiping away the tears. My nose sniffled, and I soon turned around only to start walking around Loren's room. The first thing that caught my eye was her sparkling pink phone that lay on her night stand; I was a little bit hesitant to check her phone though. That would be a total invasion of privacy, but then again it's a necessity to know what Loren's motivation was. So I now listened to my gut, and made my way over to her nightstand therefore checking her phone. I plopped myself down on her bed, and I felt a warm feeling take over my body and a wave of security came rushing my way. The feeling used to come so naturally to me, because I used to live with Loren, but now she lives in her house with her mother. I tried to brush off the feeling her bed gave me, and I quickly focused on the task. I looked through Loren's messages and was left shocked and lost for words at that cruel words I had read. These two no they couldn't have done this, and Mel no she would never say such a thing. This whole time Chloe and some other girl have been tormenting Loren, and I have done nothing about it seeing that I barely found out now. I can't believe Chloe would have the nerve to stoop so low, and she really had to recruit somebody else in her evil plans. And Mel she couldn't be a part of this too Chloe must of faked this text or something. It would just seem so out of character for Mel to say such a preposterous thing like this. I quickly set Loren's phone back down on her nightstand, and rubbed my eyes making sure I was facing reality unfortunately to my dismay I was in reality, and I was not waking up with Loren beside me. Well now I find out one of the reasons why Loren did this, but there had to be more to it. So that's when I found the note on her floor, and there my questions were finally answered everything was explained in the letter, and the words that were written within it were most untiringly shocking. My poor girl she was stuck in a deep depression and nobody was there to help her. Tears were continuously streaming down my face as I thought this was my entire fault. I instinctively slammed my hand on the ground realizing if I would have never let her go none of this would have happened. I guess faith had a different plan in my mind though, after all everything happens for a reason. I quickly got up from the floor, and put the letter in my right pocket seeing that it would hold some useful info. With that I quickly made my way to the outside of the house and got into my car making my way to the hospital. Is everything going to be okay or will everything just end up going down in flames? Well only time will tell, but right now I needed to get to that hospital to see how Loren was doing.

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The pain and the news was just too much too handle no it couldn't be true it just couldn't. Nora, Mel and I were sitting across from each other in the waiting room, and the both of us were experiencing an ungodly amount of depression, and sadness overwhelmed us. Tears were on going they just kept on falling from our eyes, and our hearts were torn completely in half. How could this be possible, and I just can't go through this again. I love her and I still do but now she will never get to know how I truly feel about her. If I could go back and change time I would. I would make every minute we shared together more lasting, and I would enjoy every sweet second of it instead of taking advantage. Loren I love you, and I hope you know somewhere in your heart this kind of feeling will never go away. You're all I ever wanted, and no other girl could and would change that. Even if there is a girl that comes along that I think I'm falling for her I have to face the facts and realize it's always been you. Ms. Loren Tate you are the person who gets my energy flowing every day, and you're the reason why I smile every day. You get my heart racing and I cannot shake these feelings off. Now though I will never get to share this with you, because the doctor said you will not make it. The news didn't really cope with me so well, and I couldn't help but cry hysterically just like I was when my Mom died. The same pain and heartbreak was being relived in this moment. My life just can't get any worse can it? The love of my life apparently only had about a day or so to live, and that just did it I felt like I couldn't breathe anymore. The pain and the tears that were shed were clouding up the happiness that wanted to come out, but truth of the matter was there was really nothing happy about this predicament at all. Try losing that ray of sunshine you wanted so badly back into your life, I'm sure some of you know the feeling. The doctor would be letting us say our goodbyes in a few minutes, and I couldn't bring myself to terms that she was dying slowly as the minutes past. The doctor claimed that he tried everything he could, but the pills were to overwhelming for her body to take, and the effect it had on her wasn't so good. She was in a coma right now, and she wouldn't be waking up anytime soon. I still had some faith in her waking up, but all that hope had now vanished into thin air, as I realized this was the last time I would see her. It's hard coming to terms with this kind of information, but sooner or later you have to face the facts. The doctor now called us in all together so that we could say our goodbyes. Mel had to literally drag Nora into their, and I could hear Nora scream as the pain of seeing her daughter hooked up on those machines hit. The screams slowly faded, and I now started to hear soft muffled cries. Why did Nora and Mel have to go through this they didn't deserve this. Yes earlier I had thought that Mel was backstabbing Loren, but turns out it was just a fake text making it seem like it was from Mel. I was standing outside the door to Loren's room, and I had my back leaning against the wall, and I just looked up at the ceiling wishing I could wake up and go back to the way things used to be. As memories of Loren came flooding back to my mind, I was startled as the door swung open and I saw Nora and Mel. Their faces said it all, and they just had blank expressions neither one knew what to feel at this point. The doctor told me I could go in now, and I slowly walked into Loren's room. As soon as I made my way in, tears were forming in my eyes and my lips started to quiver as the sadness took me over. I walked over to Loren and took a seat right next to her, she looked so peaceful in her sleep and she looked like an angelic beauty. I placed my hand on top of her cheek and stroked it remembering how comforting this made her feel in past times. Then I brushed her hair behind her ears revealing how naturally beautiful she was. Some of my tears had fallen onto her arms and I couldn't help but gasp at her glowing complexion and beauty.

I miss seeing this beautiful face appearing next to me in the morning, and I miss the feeling it had brought me. Why couldn't I have been given a second chance? I was sniffling as I tried to hide my pain, just in case Loren could hear me. I needed to tell her how I feel before it's too late, I know she could hear me and even if she didn't I still wanted to do this. I gently took hold of her hands, and gave her a light kiss on the cheek before giving my speech.

"Loren I'm so sorry for not being there for you, and I'm sorry for letting you go so easily. This is my entire fault, and you don't know how much I'm hurting right now. The pain I'm feeling right now is indescribable and I can't help but feel as if my life is over. You're my everything Loren, and I would give anything to have you in my arms again. If you could hear me right now, I just want you to know I love you and I always will. Loren you've got a complete hold on me, and I don't want to be set free because the feelings you give me are just magnificent. Loren Tate I'm glad you came into my life, and I can't believe I let you slip from the palm of my hands. I hope you know I'll love you forever and always it's always been you, and it's always going to be you. I loved you from the start, and I'll say this once again Loren Tate I love you." I kissed her lightly on the lips and as soon as I pulled away and opened my eyes, and in that instance I now had hope, and I could see that ray of sunshine opening its eyes again.

Loren's P.O.V.

You don't know it is painful hearing your loves one scream and cry thinking that you're gone. I was trying my best to get to all my loved ones, but I just couldn't seem to find to that ladder leading me back to reality. All I could hear was sounds and that's it, my mind was just blank producing no images whatsoever. I heard my Mom and Mel, and there words made part of my heart crumble into tiny pieces. At least now I realize that text was a fake, and people actually do care about me. Still though what I needed to know was if Eddie cared about me, and that would just make my day if he did. I don't even know if he even gives a damn about me at this point. I mean before my mind wanted to believe that he actually cared about me, but now I have lost all hope on that. I guess I'm just that type of girl and I don't really have faith in much things. Miracles and true love two things I still don't believe in till this day. I was just caught up in everybody else's opinion of me, and I just let the insecurities get the better of me. Now here I am in the hospital, and my loved ones are saying their goodbyes to me having the thought that I won't make it. I needed to prove them wrong, and most importantly I wanted to just get back to my life. Although I didn't have the best life I didn't want Mel or my Mom going through this pain. I now heard footsteps slowly inching closer by the second, and I could hear the soft but loud cried. No it wasn't my Mom or Mel; because they had already left it was Eddie. He slowly made his way towards me, and I could hear him grab a chair so he could sit by my side. I felt his hand stroke my cheek, and the feeling brought a warmness to my heart. It was nice to feel the touch if his hand linger over me again, my body was getting all tingly. Then he brushed my hair behind my ears, and this made my heart flutter with butterflies. His touch was addicting and it definitely brought comfort to me. He took hold of my hands and kissed me on the cheek leaving me wanting more. Just when I though he wouldn't care, and just when I though he didn't give a damn about me all these thoughts were proven wrong as I heard his heartfelt speech. Then I heard those 3 words I love you, and that's when I felt a sudden jolt in my body and my eyes were now beginning to open up. My heart rate was at a normal speed now, and I could now see Eddie's face with a wide grin on it. He immediately screamed for joy, and gave me a passionate kiss expressing all the love he shared for me in it. He pulled away about a minute later, and placed his hand on my cheek once again stroking it. I now realized all I ever needed was his undying love and touch to bring me back to the light. That sunshine that was taken away from my life now came back, and I could see myself slowly getting out of my depression. Eddie and I were now looking at each other lovingly and his eyes glistened in this light.

"You don't know how happy I am to see you awake again. I thought I lost for a second there, but I had a feeling you would wake up, and I'm glad you did."

"You'll never lose me Eddie never. I hope you know that I love you more than life itself, and I realize that I can't spend another day without you. Eddie I need you in my life, and I want you back into my life."

"I love you so much more, and I completely agree with your last statement there. So what do you say Ms. Loren Tate shall we give it another go or should I just wait another eternity."

"Yes Eddie we shall give it another go. I'm sorry I put you through this it's just that I didn't know how to get out of my depression, and I just felt completely worthless in this world. I figured you wanted nothing to do with me, and that I was just a mistake put way back in your past. And I just felt like you never even cared about me, and that's when I fell into that pit of depression. I though you didn't love me at all." He continued to stroke my cheek wiping away any oncoming tears, and I enjoyed this very much.

"Hey it's not your fault okay, I read the note you left and I understand why you did it. Loren you're anything but worthless, and truthfully you're the most amazing most beautiful girl in the world. Anybody who disagrees is insane; I loved you from the start Loren. I love you with all of my heart, and that feeling will never go away, because you're all I ever wanted."

"I love you too, and you're all I ever wanted too." He took my hand and placed a kiss on it, and a huge smile had spread across my face. In that instance my confidence was rebooted and I felt that I was leaving that state of depression. Happiness had begun to fill my life now, and it's all thanks to Eddie. Miracles and true love I now believed in all because of Eddie, After all we've been through at the end of the day we always ended up coming right back as one, and this is what made me believe we were meant to be. Eddie Duran you have changed me for the better, and I couldn't be any happier that you came into my life. All I ever needed was just his love and affection that's what made our love all the more worth it. Thanks for making my life fantastic now Eddie Duran or should I say the love of my life. I guess you could say we were a match made in heaven.

Yeah woo-hoo happy ending sorry if there is mistakes this isn't edited yet. Well hoped you enjoyed and my fanfics will be updated in a matter of time don't worry my loves. Hope you all had a good day love to you all

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