Everyone wishes for Silver and Gold
Chapter 2- What is this feeling
Disclaimer- I only wish that I was amazing enough to own twilight
Last Time
"Hey Alice, I'm not feeling so well, I'm going to go back up to the room."
"Oh!" Alice gasped. "Bella, do you want me to come with you?" She looked upset about something.
"No, it's ok Alice." I said. "I'll probably go right to bed anyways." I looked at the others at the table. "It was nice to meet you all." I said nervously.
I sat on my bed flicking through my journal. I came to one of the many pages covered in tear stains. I looked at the date and slammed the journal shut. My body shook. This was why I tried so hard to keep that date out of my mind. I wanted to shred that part of my journal but always found that I couldn't. That was a part of me, not matter how much I hated that part.
My eyes snapped up to see him standing by the door. His blue eyes glittered dangerously as he approached the bed. "What are you doing here, Mike?" I demanded. "Get out of my room!"
I had stood from the bed as a smile came to Mike's face. He looked like a predator as he stalked toward me. I trembled when I realized that I was his prey. "Don't be like that, Bella." He breathed. Suddenly he was right there, whispering in my ear.
I screamed and tried to run but the wall was there and as I hit it I heard Mike's cold laugh. I slammed my hands over my ears, closing my eyes and kicking out. I felt his hand grab my leg and something hit the back of my head. I let out a scream. I wanted Alice to come back to the room, I wanted her to bring Emmett, he could surely stop Mike.
"Bella, Bella, Bella, Snap out of it!" Mike's harsh voice changed smoothly to Alice's bell-like tone in a split second and my eyes flew open. My gaze met Alice's concerned golden eyes. "Oh my god! Bella, are you ok?" She asked me.
My eyes darted around fearfully. I saw Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie, and Edward standing at our dorm door. "Where's Mike?" I asked.
"Who's Mike?" Alice asked me. Her eyes flashed to Jasper briefly before looking back to me.
"The guy who was in here!" I nearly yelled to her. I felt my mind start to cloud with a foreign calm and I slipped from consciousness.
My eyes opened slowly and I felt very confused. I didn't remember falling asleep. I turned to my side to see Edward sitting on Alice's bed. He watched me as I raised a hand and pressed it against my head. "What happened?" I asked him softly to break the silence.
Edward studied me for a few moments and I couldn't help but do the same, his perfect figures were so extraordinary. His eyes dazzled me like nothing else could. My eyes wandered past his face to study his tight black jacket. It contrasted with his ivory skin beautifully. I was so absorbed in my studying him that I started when he spoke.
"How much do you remember?" He asked me gently.
I thought very hard but I couldn't remember anything after dinner. "Well, I remember Alice introducing all of you." I told him. As I thought back on the introductions I realized how strange they were. Alice was Rosalie's and Emmett's sister so didn't that make the two of them siblings? Not to mention that if Jasper and Rosalie were twins then wasn't Jasper Alice's brother too?
Edward smiled, I had no doubt that he could see the confusion on my face. "You must be wondering why and how my siblings are dating." He said, but I was still stuck on his breath-taking smile. Unlike the rest of him, his grin was crooked and absolutely gorgeous, I could hardly stand it!
I blushed when I realized I hadn't responded and my eyes dropped to the soft duvet. "I don't want to be rude, it's really not my business."
"It's not a huge deal." Edward told me. "We're all adopted."
"Oh." I said, now I was really uncomfortable. It really wasn't polite to ask about things like that, I could have offended him.
"Don't feel bad." Edward said softly. "Our parents, Carlisle and Esme, are the best that we could ever ask for." He hesitated briefly before speaking again. "Carlisle is actually the uncle of Emmett, Alice, and I. Jasper and Rosalie are actually Esme's second cousins or something like that."
I couldn't respond. I felt awful that my out-of-control curiosity had made him explain the situation to me. There was silence for a few moments and then, "Are you feeling alright?" He asked me.
"I think I'm ok." I allowed softly. "I just wish I could remember what happened."
Edward appeared to consider his words carefully before speaking. "We were all headed back to our dorm rooms about twenty minutes after you did. When Alice was getting off we could hear screaming coming from your room. We went running, it looked like a panic attack." He hesitated again. "You kept asking Alice where Mike was."
I froze at his name as I remembered. I felt my heart speed up as my breathing quickened. Mike had been in my room, Mike had attacked me. "Calm down, Bella." Edward said. My head snapped up and I felt my heart begin to relax, it was the first time he had said my name and I was shocked. He said my name so formally, with such old world elegance. "There was no one in here." He told me, "You were never in any danger."
Never in any danger? It took a while for that to sink into my brain. The terror and the pain had been so real. Though, it reality, it had been stupid. I left Mike back in Phoenix and he thought I was in Florida with Renee. His eyes studied me again but this time I could tell that he was wondering how much I could handle in one sitting. "Who is Mike."
I stiffened and once again heat flooded my cheeks. "No one." I said too quickly, but I knew Edward would wee through the lie. I couldn't lie to save my life.
Edward let out a quiet sigh which I was certain I wasn't supposed to hear. "Does someone know about him."
I nodded but once again the heat went straight to my face as I tried to lie. "You need to tell someone, Bella." He demanded his tone suddenly angry. He froze. "I'm sorry." He said stiffly. "I'm going to let Alice know that you've woken up."
As he stood and walked to the door, I wanted to call out to him. I wanted to beg him to stay because I couldn't be alone but I couldn't. I hardly knew the guy, I'm sure that he had a life and didn't have time for me.
Tears began to drip down my face and I threw myself onto my pillow with my face against the soft fabric. I didn't here Alice enter the room but I felt the strangely cold hand on my shoulder. "Are you ok?" She asked me gently.
I shrugged but I was filled with something I couldn't understand. More than anything, I wanted Edward to come back in. I wanted him to come in and tell me that he didn't care who Mike was so long as I would never see him again. I just wanted Edward in here so badly. I knew that he must hate me though. The way he looked at me during dinner and the way he got angry showed that well enough. I shuddered.
"What's wrong, Bella?" Alice asked me.
"Your family hates me." I blurted out before I could stop myself. I wanted to smack myself then. Fantastic, now Alice would surely me angry with me too.
Alice growled softly. "They don't hate you, silly Bella." She said, and I could hear her smile. "It's just been a long time before anyone got close to our family." She explained to me. "They're not really sure what to think of it."
I hadn't thought of it that way and I instantly felt bad which brought on a fresh round of tears. "Bella, was that really all?" She asked me gently. I sighed and shook my head. "Is it Edward?"
I groaned. "Can we not talk about this, Alice?" My request was muffled in the pillow but Alice got it.
"It can wait." She allowed. "Are you hungry?" She asked me. I sat up and rubbed my tears away as I nodded slowly. Alice stood and walked to the kitchenette and I followed. "Breakfast ended about an hour ago." She explained to me as she pulled a plastic container out of the fridge. She threw it in the microwave and we both sat at the table as it heated.
"So," I said, searching for easy conversation after my morning break down. "Where do you all live?"
"Well our current home is in a little town called Forks, you've probably never heard of it." Alice said to me.
My face split into a grin. "I know where it is!" I exclaimed, "That's where my father lives. I visit him in the summers."
"Cool!" Alice exclaimed. "So we'll be able to hang out on our breaks then." She let out a squeal. "Oh Bella it will be so much fun! We'll…" She was cut off by the microwave beeping.
She stood up and grabbed the dish along with plastic silverware and set it in front of me. "I could have got that." I told her, trying to keep my blush down I certainly didn't need anyone to take care of me.
"It's no big thing." Alice told me, waving it off. I looked down at the meal and saw scrambled eggs with sausage. I ate silently while Alice chattered non-stop about what we were going to do today. It seemed to mostly hover around me seeing the campus and the dance studios that Alice absolutely gushed about.
As I finished the food Alice quickly whisked the dish away and threw it in the trash can. "Go and get showered." She urged me. "We're going to head to the studio as soon as you're ready."
I sighed good-naturedly and entered the bathroom. Like everything else at this school it was huge and extravagant. There was both a walk in shower and tub with Jacuzzi jets. The whole room was painted crème with amber-colored glass tiles over top.
The hot shower felt great against my tense muscles. I sighed happily as I massaged my familiar strawberry scented shampoo into my scalp. Too soon, I realized I had no reason to waste more time so I stepped out of the shower and I wrapped myself in a fluffy towel. On the bathroom door was my dark blue leotard and a pair of black jeans. I pulled them on and brushed my teeth before leaving the bathroom. I went to the 'closet' and grinned at Alice who seemed couldn't decide on what to wear.
I sat at my vanity and grabbed my brush but Alice let out a squeal. "Bella, let me do your hair and makeup!" She begged.
I sighed but smiled and nodded. She squealed again and danced over to me. She pulled my hair into a ballerina bun before turning to my face. She kept it basic but it looked much nicer than it usually did. She put on a bit of blue shadow along with a tiny bit of black eyeliner with mascara. She put on a glitter-peach lip gloss and then I was done.
She grinned at her handy work as I thanked her profusely. "Are you ready to go and dance then?" She asked me as she finally decided on a black leotard with ¾ length sleeves. I nodded nervously and followed her out.
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