OK, I just want to say I LOVE Esme's original character but that just didn't work for this story idea. She is not going to be a nice person. And Carlisle is just tired of hiding his real self, the person everyone expects of him. He is his real self when he is with Bella because she accepts him, all of him…good, bad, and Carlisle could NEVER be ugly so ;)
Angela and I pull up in front of Victoria's Secret and see Esme, Rosalie and Alice standing around looking incredibly uncomfortable.
"You ready to do this?" Angela asks laughing.
"As I'll ever be, this shit's gonna be fun!" I reply.
We get out of the car and walk toward the front door.
"You girls can always leave if you are too uncomfortable here. I have a couple of things that I want to get now that I am here, but I can always catch up with you later." I say hopefully.
"No, we are fine. We got this far, might as well go ahead with it," Esme says blushing and looking down at her feet."
I open the door and Rosalie, Alice and Esme push ahead of me.
"You are just looking for panties, it's not anything to dread like this," I mumble.
The little sales girl walks up and asks, "May I help you ladies." I can't help but notice she is looking at me and Angela and trying to ignore Esme and the girls.
"Well I am looking for some sexy little nighties and I believe my friend here would like some thong panties."
"Ummmm, ok. What kind are you interested in?"
Esme stammers, "The...like the kind she has on."
There are a couple of men in shopping, honestly it looked more like they were just wanting to see some good ol' T&A so I decide to give them some, much to Esme and the girls' disapproval. I am having too much fun! I lift my skirt and say, "See she wants some like this, the satin kind. Of course I just had a Brazilian wax done so they feel really good."
That catches the men's attention REALLY quick. One nudges his buddy and they start walking over for a closer look. I smile and wink at them. Rosalie never misses a thing.
"But my friend here didn't want a wasx so is satin really going to be her best bet for fabric or should she go with something else?"
"Uh, well we will see what we can come up with. Do you need help finding your lingerie?" the girl asks me and I can't miss the hopeful expression on her face.
"No, I know my way around a Victoria's Secret store like the back of my hand. I guess if I need any help I can just ask these two handsome gentlemen for some expert advice. Come on Ang let's shop. We might both see something interesting here."
I am trying my hardest to make Esme as uncomfortable as possible that way I don't have to follow her home! I kind of feel bad for being such a bitch, but I am so close to Carlisle now, being with him is the only thing I can think about. I walk over to a rack of clothes and the men end up following me. Might as well really play it up, so I talk loud enough for Esme to hear, then again it is not a very big store so it wasn't that hard.
"Hi you handsome things, I want to get a few little sexy somethings, but I just don't know. I am so glad you guys are here so maybe I can try some stuff on and you can help me and my friend here pick something out."
"Oh yeah! I am Mike and this here is Tyler."
"My name is Bella and this is Angela. I so appreciate you being so willing to help me out. Now his favorite color is blue, but he likes me in white or black also. My favorite color is pink so he humors my love of the color. I am thinking something lacy and sexy. We can find something pretty but I really want a man's opinion."
"Oh, lacy, that is see-through," One of them, Mike I think, whispers out.
"You're right, if you don't want to help..." I pout.
"No! No we want to," Tyler chimes in quickly no wanting to lose this opportunity.
I give Mike and Tyler my most dazzling smile and they just melt. Rosalie is the one who is really paying attention to every single word out of my mouth and every move I make. I come out in a barely there see-through pink babydoll and thong and strike a provocative pose.
"So boys, what do you think?"
"Oh my God!" Tyler croaks out.
"I am never sure about babydolls, I don't want to look too much like a little girl," I put my finger on my mouth like I am really thinking hard over this.
"You do not look like a little girl," Mike says eyeing me up and down.
"I am not sure about the fabric, come feel it and see what you think."
"Are you serious?" Tyler's voice cracks at the end.
"Of course, I need to know what a man's opinion of this would be also I want to know how it will feel against my skin when he is caressing me."
They both come up and start caressing me and groping my ass and my breasts. I just close my eyes and moan.
"Yeah, that feels great. One more question then I am going to try something else on."
I walk away a little bit and then bend over and put my ass in their faces, "How does it look from this position. This is a favorite position for him."
"Holy Shit, Sexy! I have never been so fucking turned on in my entire life," I think that was from Mike.
"So this is a good one then?"
"YES!" they both say at the same time.
"Then I will take this. Now let me try on the next one. Which one do think I should try on next, Ang?"
We walk into the changing room together and can hardly stay upright for all the giggling.
"Girl! I can't believe the show you are putting on out there!" Angela says.
"Me either, but damn it feels good to have someone touching me," I all but groan out.
I can't believe I am acting like this, this is so outside of anything I have ever even considered.
"I can tell!" Angela said laughing, "But have you paid any attention to Esme and the girls?"
"Not too much, I have gotten a little carried away. If things don't work out with Carlisle, I am totally coming back and picking up Mike and Tyler!"
"Together?"
"Why not, I mean you only live once, right?" I said laughing.
I am really having more fun than I should. I haven't had sex in forever and getting really turned on doing this. When the sales lady isn't trying to help Esme they are staring at me with their mouths wide open. Finally Esme pulls the sales lady aside while Angela and I are in the changing room.
"Frankly, I don't see anything in here like what I have in mind, I was hoping for something more conservative. But my friend over there; is it normal for ladies to come in here and do that? Just pick up random men and show EVERYTHING to them? Let them touch here where ever they want?" Esme asks totally appalled.
"Sure. A lot of guys, especially these two, come in all the time hoping that someone will do that. They usually have a lot of luck because frankly, they are sexy as hell. She picked right when she chose them two to help her out. They will end up running to their car as soon as she leaves."
"They plan on following her? She is coming to my house! I can't have these creeps at my house!" Esme yells in a panic.
"No, no, they just go to their cars and jack off then will come back in after they have cleaned up. They may just head on home through, I have never seen them, or any man in here, with that big of a hard-on as these two have right now. Your friend really knows how to turn men on!"
Rosalie is outraged, "But she is showing them...I mean they are seeing her at her most intimate, only her husband should see her like that and actually not even him! She is acting like a whore! And she is letting that woman touch her and look at her too. How can she do that?"
"She is just having fun, and she wants to make sure that her lover is completely satisfied. And to tell you the truth, by the way she is acting I can tell you whomever she is going to screw tonight is going to be one hell of a lucky man...or woman."
The sales lady walks off and comes over to help Angela, Mike, Tyler and I pick something out...for Carlisle, with his wife and daughters watching. I was HOT! Finally after about 20 more minutes I made my selections, get the guys phone numbers and "promise" to call them. We check out and leave.
"Are you really going to call those two?" Esme asks as I put their numbers in my purse.
"Nope."
"Then why did you take their numbers?"
"They offered them," I say with a shrug, "Men are more than willing to help you do whatever you ask if they think they are going to get something in return."
"That makes one a whore, does it not? Besides, I think they got too much already!" Rosalie says hatefully.
"No, I think they got just the right amount. You have to know how to use men to get exactly what you want from them. Esme, did you not find anything you wanted there?"
"No, the lady told me to try Wal-Marts, I told her everything was too expensive and there is not one stitch of clothing in there that Carlisle would approve of."
Angela and I shoot each other a look that no one else catches.
"Oh they have a lot of pretty stuff Wal-Mart too," I reply back.
OK so that comes out just a tad on the hateful side, but she doesn't seem to notice, but Rosalie and Alice sure do!
"Bella, may I ask what your husband does that you can afford $350 at the salon and another $275 on undewears? I can't believe he would let you spend so much money! Carlisle would have a fit!"
"Really? Well, sometimes it is fun to get them worked up a bit," I say with a cheeky grin.
"You are awful!" Esme says finally laughing.
I think to myself 'Lady, you have no idea just how awful I am' but I just smile at her because Carlisle has spent a LOT more than that on me for the exact same things.
"Bella, this afternoon was so much fun! And you are right, I feel so much better! Even if I didn't get a full wax like you, I still can't believe people do that! But I think tonight just might be the night that Carlisle and I finally make love again."
OUCH! But the funny thing is, I am thinking the same thing that tonight might be the night Carlisle and I finally make love again...wonder who will win? STOP THINKING LIKE THAT!
"Oh, uh yeah, you look great, I try to go every two weeks but life has been so crazy lately I haven't been in a long time."
"You spend $700 a month at the salon?" Alice screeches.
"Sometimes, sometimes more. Just depends on what I want to have done," I shrug, they are fishing for husband information and I am not ready to give that up.
"And your husband doesn't mind?" Esme asks.
"Oh, I spend my own money on myself," I say flippantly as I get into my car to leave, "I am dropping Angela off at her car then I will come to your house. She pointed out the road that you live on when we drove over here earlier."
"Oh my God! That was so much fun! I really wish now that I could go out with Ben's wife and do something like that, I can't stand that bitch!" Angela say laughing.
"It felt really good! You know, Carlisle has told me several times how great and amazing and beautiful she is, but I really think he was just saying that and not really mean it. I have gotten the impression over the years that she really isn't that good to him. But he has never really spoken badly about her."
"Yeah, I get that feeling also with Ben's wife. I mean in public she is a walking talking angel, but in private she is a nagging old hag."
"Exactly! Because some of the stuff I do for Carlisle, simple things, you know, non-sexual things, like go get his coffee in the mornings while we are on vacations and have it fixed just the way he likes it or I don't know, just little things, ask about his day and the details of what all he did and such. I ask about his patients or people from his church that he worries about. The way he goes on about me doing it, it is like it never happens at home."
"Yeah, Ben has been married to this woman for 25 years, they got married right after high school just a few months after we split, and she still doesn't know the things that he likes. I will cook dinner every once in a while, I know all his favorite foods and cook them for him and he says that she never cooks that stuff for him, always comes up with an excuse, but she cooks the same old things all the time and they are always her favorites. Or I will bake his favorite cookies for him and run them over to his garage...oh my gosh! I just thought of something, Ben runs a garage by Dr. Cullen's medical clinic...your Carlisle?"
"Yes."
"I know him! I know him! He is an amazing man! Now that I think about it I have also gone to his church before that is where I have seen Esme at! I knew she looked familiar. She is horrible to him! He has talked to Ben before about it. We knew he was seeing someone else and that some reason he stopped going to visit, then he said that she had started seeing someone else who lived closer to her and we never brought up the subject again. Honey, he has been miserable without you!"
I have tears in my eyes hearing how miserable he has been. Why didn't he just tell me?
"He doesn't have to be without me anymore. I will never let that happen again. But he is the one that started pulling away and wouldn't return my calls or emails for weeks so I just figured he was done. It was several months later, after not hearing from him anymore that I started dating James. My divorce had been final for a while and I was getting really lonely. I got divorced because I wanted Carlisle, and then suddenly Carlisle wasn't there anymore. His Facebook was always showing where he and Esme were going away on romantic weekends and all these vacations and camping trips and always something that his 'amazing wife' was doing for him. I was not going to stick around where I am no longer wanted."
"Oh Bella, that is horrible. I am glad you guys are going to be together again soon."
"Me too, but honestly, I am kind of scared that I am going to come up here and be rejected again. It hurt so badly when he did it before. I mean we are talking again and have been making plans on meeting up again, but just haven't found the right time yet. Part of me is afraid that the reason we haven't found the right time is because he is just blowing me off, you know."
"Honey, Dr. Cullen is crazy about you and was so upset when you started seeing that other man. I don't think that breaking up with you was all his idea."
"You don't think that Esme knew do you?" That thought makes me panic.
"Well obviously she thought he might have been seeing someone else, she admitted that much at the salon. He, of course, denied it. Maybe she was just getting too nosey and he had to back off. She couldn't have suspected you or she wouldn't have spent the entire day with you."
"Maybe, but why did he give no explanation, just started ignoring me?"
"I don't know, but I will give you my advice. Go see him tonight, see his reaction to seeing you again. You will be able to tell if he is excited to see you, even if he has to play it down in front of her. You will know."
"Thanks Ang."
"Well, I have to get home and start supper for my headache, I mean husband. Let me know how things go," she says laughing.
"I will. Even if we don't get back together, I plan on staying up this way. I already have a job interview lined up and scheduled to go look at a house tomorrow morning. I can just avoid him and this town if he is truly over me."
"He won't be, I promise."
All I can manage is a small watery smile.
"OK and I will call you in a couple of days to see how things are going," she says giving me a hug.
"Thank you for everything and for going with me today."
"No problem, bye honey."
"Bye Angela."
She shuts the door and I wait until she was in her car and had the motor going before I drive away. There was a sign in the middle of town pointing to Carlisle's church and I know they live just across the way from it so it shouldn't be too hard to find, and it isn't. Esme is still sitting out in her car waiting on me to show up. Great, here we go!