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Chapter 1

Jeff's eyes slowly blinked open and then quickly slammed shut. A piercing pain in the back of his head a quick reminder of how much he had to drink the night before. He slowly cracked his eyes open and waited for them to grow accustom to the light. Sitting up he waited for the moment of dizziness to pass. Finally turning his head to the left and then to the right observing the room around him. It was a hotel room not unlike his own but wasn't his. He glanced down quickly breathing a sigh of relief that he was still dressed. He chewed on his lip trying to think back to how he had left the party the night before. He could remember seeing Hunter having a conversation if that is what you could call it. But after that he drew a blank. A flash of an image was triggered as he heard a voice singing in the bathroom. He was throwing himself at Shawn not caring who was watching. He cringed and glanced at the bathroom wondering if he could get up and out before the Heartbreak Kid appeared. Standing slowly he looked around the room finding his shoes and pulling them on quickly. He walked over to the bedside table grabbing a pen and a small pad of paper the hotel provided grateful to see that Shawn was staying at the same hotel as him. He was about to write a quick thank you note to Shawn when the bathroom door opened and Jeff turned to see Shawn standing in the door a towel wrapped around his waist. "Leaving without saying goodbye?" Shawn entered the room walking over to his bag at the foot of the bed.

"No I was going to leave a note just wanted to head to my own room grab a shower and crash for a few more hours." Shawn nodded looking at him slowly up and down. Jeff shifted uncomfortably "Umm look thanks for last night for letting me crash here and not taking me up on my umm offer." Shawn chuckled as he pulled clothes from the bag.

"Look kid you were drunk and obviously hurting so I let ya make a fool out of yourself and brought you back here to crash. If it weren't for the fact that one of my best friends is in love with ya I may have taken you up on your offer. You do have one helluva body." Jeff blushed shaking his head but sitting dejectedly on the side of the bed.

"Hunter isn't in love with me. He broke up with me remember he is moving on with his life. Hell if I remember right last night it looked like he may have a thing going with Shannon of all people." Snapped Jeff slightly angry as that last fact popped into his head. Shawn just burst into laughter causing Jeff to look at him startled.

"Hunter was only flirting with Shan because you were all over me. Eye for an eye or some shit. Shannon would never do that to you and politely asked Hunter to stop hitting on him more times then I can count. Course Hunter didn't listen until Shannon walked over to Matt and Mark and sat between them for protection. Now about that first statement yes Hunter does love you. You just don't seem to love you. How long can you expect him to sit idly by while you try to destroy yourself? How many pills you popping to make the pain stop? How often do you wake up and not remember the night before? How many times are you going to screw up in the ring or just do something completely crazy that makes Hunter want to go vomit until he sees that you are moving and have let the referee know you are fine? He loves you so much that he won't sit around and wait for you to crash and burn so he ran. My advice get it the hell together prove to him that you'll keep it that way. Then you'll get what ya really want Jeff. You'll get Hunter. Or you could continue on this making him jealous road and maybe get him back for a brief period of time before he remembers why he left in the first place. Your call Jeff but if ya really love him then make some changes. No one else but you can change you." Jeff chewed on his lip damn if he didn't feel like a child getting lectured by his parent. He wanted to be mad at Shawn but couldn't muster the energy he was right on some levels. He sighed and stood beginning to pace.

"Shawn I haven't taken pills in months, granted I am drinking more then I should but Hunter drinks right with me. Everyone makes mistakes in the ring sometimes and I have toned down how many big spots I do. I am trying nobody sees it though. I don't want to make Hunt jealous he's not the type to buy into that crap anyways so what's the point. It's over I'll move on eventually and so will he. I just need some breathing room maybe a vacation away from all of this. Thanks again for taking care of me last night but I really have to go." He walked to the door pulling it open quickly and stepping back at the hand a few inches from his face that was about to knock. He watched as the eyes of the man he loved took in the scene before him. The rumpled blankets Shawn standing in nothing but a towel. The events from the night before all came to the wrong conclusion but before Jeff could say a word he was being pushed aside wincing as his shoulder hit the edge of the door but turning quickly in time to see Hunter's fist connect solidly with Shawn's jaw.

"I trusted you" growled Hunter in an almost primal way his voice sent butterflies into Jeff's stomach.

"Hunter nothing happened he brought me back here and I passed out so chill." Jeff spoke softly rubbing his shoulder as Hunter spun on him. He glared at Jeff for several moments before walking over to him. Walking probably was the right word in Jeff's mind more like a tiger stalking over to his prey. Jeff backed up so his back was against the door. Hunter closed in his body pressed to Jeff he caught Jeff's chin in his hand making Jeff look him in the eyes.

"Tell me again nothing happened." Jeff swallowed Hunter's lips were so close that a part of him wanted to reach up and kiss him.

"Nothing happened Hunter. Shawn would never do that to you." Hunter saw the truth in Jeff's eyes and stared intently. Lowering his lips to Jeff's so they were only a few centimeters apart.

"Your right Shawn would never do that to me. But you would wouldn't you Skittles." Jeff winced at the implication as Hunter stepped back quickly. "Sorry about that Shawn I'm going to go call me later we'll grab lunch" Hunter called over to the man sitting on the bed rubbing his jaw. Hunter moved Jeff aside and left the room. Jeff looked after him longingly brushing his fingers over his lips and sliding to the floor. Shawn stood grabbing a can of soda from the mini fridge he placed it to his jaw.

"Yeah Hunter doesn't do jealousy, doesn't work on him at all." snorted Shawn evaluating Hunters words slowly in his head. "Jeff did you cheat on him is this where it all started from. Jeff looked up tears pooling in his jade eyes.

"He thinks I did that's all that matters." Shawn slid down the wall beside of Jeff and placed his hand on his knee.

"Why would he think that?" Jeff picked at the carpet with his fingers noticing the black nail polish needed to be reapplied.

"He was told by the other party that I had an affair with him. But I didn't, not willingly anyways" muttered Jeff lowly. Shawn barely caught his words and it took a minute for them to register. He took a deep breath and turned Jeff's face towards his.

"Jeffero did someone hurt you? Were you raped?" Jeff shook slightly but nodded telling someone for the first time the truth. He didn't know why he was talking to Shawn when everyone else had been trying to get him to talk for a while now.

"Who? Who hurt you?" Jeff quickly shook his head "I can't tell you he'll hurt me again?"

"No he won't Jeff. I won't let him just tell me who it was." Jeff swallowed the lump in his throat shaking slightly

"It was. . ." Shawn rubbed his back encouragingly "It was Chris" he said softly.

Thanks for reading this. Reviews are great like cookies lol. I am writing this as it goes so ideas are great. I have no clue what's going to happen next. My Jeff muse just likes to take over.