iWill give you no absolution
by NihilisticAmbition313
Disclaimer: I sold iCarly to Schneider. I'm still waiting to get paid.
A/N: Sorry it took so long to update this one. I've been on a writing frenzy as of late and just neglected this particular story. But here you go. Eat up children.
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Chapter 2
Sam's view
It was all I could do to get as far away from Fredward Benson as possible. I left his apartment and went back across the hall to Carly's. I didn't even bother knocking. I let myself in. I assumed Carly was still upstairs, but I didn't go up. I sat on the couch in the living room and examined my wrists.
They were beet red from the force of Freddie's grip on them...
I kept replaying what happened out on that fire escape. All I could think about was how Freddie grabbed me then pinned me down. He was angry, and he was going to make me suffer, the same way I made him suffer for years. Looking into his eyes, I could see pure hate. Not the kind of petty dislike we'd always shared, but real, honest hate.
I can't say I didn't deserve it though. After all, I went out of my way to make his life a living hell. Tonight, he just finally snapped. I should've saw it coming, but I didn't care enough to. But it's like they say, payback's a bitch, and I got mine in spades.
"There you are." Carly said from behind as she came from upstairs "How'd it go with Freddie? Did you apologize?"
"Yeah..."
"Sam, have you been crying?"
"...Maybe."
"Why? Was it that hard to apologize?"
"It's nothing." I said as I wiped my eyes with my forearm, bringing my wrists to Carly's attention
"Oh my God, what happened to your wrists!"
"Freddie." I flatly replied
"Freddie!"
"It's no big deal Carls. The boy just finally snapped on me."
"Snapped!"
"Dude could only take so much of my shit. I got what was coming to me."
"That's no excuse for hurting a girl! I am going to give him a piece of my mind!"
"No, don't. I'm a big girl, I can take my lumps."
"But he hurt you!"
"I'll live. Don't worry about it."
"I'm going over there!"
"Leave him alone Carly! He may take it out on you too if you go over there defending me, dummy!"
"Ha! If he tries, I'll just get Spencer to kick his ass."
"You don't fucking get it do you? That guy across the hall isn't Freddie. He had me..."
I was about to describe what had happened, but a lump in my throat made me stall.
"...He had me pinned down, he was on top of me. I couldn't move and I couldn't breathe."
"Oh my God..."
"I looked into his eyes, Carly. He wasn't Freddie, he was somebody else...He was enjoying himself, but not like how I enjoyed messing with him. This guy was sick, Carly...Just leave him alone."
"I don't get it. What did you do to make him snap? I thought you apologized?"
"I did, then I just had to go insult him again...He insulted me back, and I got in his face...I sorta pushed him, and that's when he came charging at me. It happened so fast, before I knew it I was on my back with him on top of me."
"So you're saying you started it?"
"Yeah, but Freddie took it too far."
"Yes, but you started it."
"You're defending him?"
"No, of course not! I'm just saying that you shouldn't have gone over there looking for trouble!"
"I wasn't!"
"That's what it sounds like to me!"
"I don't believe this! You're on his side! No big fucking shock, you always have been!"
"I'm not on anybody's side!"
"Whatever, Shay!"
I was so angry that I had to leave before I did something to Carly that I would have regretted...
Freddie's view
I had to apologize to Sam. What I did to her was beyond uncalled for and completely out of my nature. I knew she would go straight to Carly's and tell her what I did, but I had to chance going over there. I had to make it right.
I came out of my apartment just in time to see Sam storming out and slamming the door, looking even more hurt than when she left me.
"Sam, there you are. Listen-"
"Don't you come anywhere near me!" she shouted with just a tinge of fear in her voice
"I just want to apologize!"
"Fuck you! Fuck you, your apology, and your precious Carly!" Sam yelled as she ran toward the emergency stairs
What the hell? Why was she mad at Carly?
The door to Carly's apartment swung open, and the brunette herself came almost running out.
"Sam, wait! Come back, please!"
She looked over at me, and her exasperated expression instantly turned into one of anger. I knew I was about to get the tongue lashing of my life, and I was going to take it. I deserved it.
"You!" Carly shrieked as she marched toward me
"Carly, before-"
"Shut up! What the hell is wrong with you! How could you have done that to Sam! You ought to be so ashamed of yourself!"
"I am."
"You're a boy, and boys aren't supposed to hurt girls!"
"I know."
"Shame on you!"
"Yes."
"You owe Sam an apology!"
"I know, but she doesn't wanna hear it."
"...Well, she has to." Carly, who could never keep up her anger for very long, said in a more calm but stern tone
"How? She doesn't want to be anywhere near me, she sure as hell won't answer any phone calls or anything like that...I really screwed up didn't I?"
"...Freddie, everybody has their limits. I'm not saying what you did was right and I'm not happy with you for it, but I can understand."
"...That mean you don't hate me too?"
"What? No, Freddie, I could never hate you!"
"Heh..."
I was so afraid that Carly would disown me for what I did, but I should have remembered that she's one of the most forgiving people in the world. I just wish that Sam would give me a chance to apologize. I said so to Carly...
"I know you do, and you have to try. Maybe not this weekend, but definitely starting Monday."
"...Carly, why is Sam mad at you?"
"Oh...She sorta thinks I took your side. I told her that she started the whole snafu with you, and she thinks I'm saying she deserved it, which I am not by any means."
"Damn..."
Nice going Freddie. You managed not only to ruin your relationship with Sam, you managed to ruin Carly and Sam's friendship too. You're on fire tonight big guy.
"...You wanna come in?" Carly asked
"No, thanks. I think I'm gonna go wash up and hit the hay."
"Oh...Good night then."
"Good night Carly."