So the first chapter was released yesterday, and I think it was good enough that I got 3 reviews
Skylar18: Bingo! Everyone's gonna hate me after this lololol
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VeronicaChase: Well I hope you like incest hihihi
^^ I originally posted this story on Wattpad, so if you wanna read a longer (and unbeta) version, search it with the username Aina_Akabane.
Well, that's enough of talking. Let's go to the story!
This beautiful lie,
My one last lie to you,
Even if it hurts,
I hide myself under mask to hide the truth..
"Kurokocchi.."
The door creaked open, revealing a blond male standing behind the gap. You could see him from the small crack, his eyes filled with worry for the phantom player. Kuroko could only glance at his teammate before breathing in and out, composing himself. Trails of tears were only found on his cheeks, not a stray tear but evidence. Just the way he didn't want it to be. Yet there was no way he was going to let his teammate- or more specifically, Kise - see him in such a worthless state over a simple, but wretched break up. He wasn't that weak, he couldn't let himself be that weak. "What is it, Kise-kun?" He asked, slowly sitting down. His voice was hoarse from crying, and he cursed himself with the way his voice cracked so simply; "Did you see?"
Flinching, Kise turned away before nodding sheepishly and hesitantly, his hand rubbing the back of his head. "I left my towel here and came to get it. I didn't know you and Aominecchi were... Y'know, fighting." Kuroko pursed his lips with the mention of the male's name, fluttering his eyes shut with a slight pained frown, feeling his heart clench by just hearing his name. He didn't know what should he feel. Aggravation? Sorrow? Self-pity? Helplessness? He didn't know, and more so, he didn't want to know.
"More importantly- what about you, Kurokocchi?" Kise entered the room, about to console Tetsuya regarding his break up with his former light when he stopped his steps after the sixth man told him two words; "I'm fine."
"No, you're not." Ryota only narrowed his eyes at Kuroko, disappointed and not trusting the latter's words of façade, taking a step closer towards the tealnette. "No one would be alright after a break up like that. I've been in enough relationships to know where this is going." Another step, closer and closer. Just close enough to see that Kuroko Tetsuya, was nowhere near fine. "I've been dumped by a bunch of girls before, so I know how you'd feel-"
"No, you wouldn't." Tetsuya firmly replied, his voice as cold as ice that even Kise stopped his own words from leaving his mouth.
In front of him wasn't the Kurokocchi that he always clung to. In front of him was someone he absolutely didn't know, someone broken and was building up walls. Someone who needed to become strong for himself. "You've been in a lot of relationships, right? Yes, you've dated before, but you have no idea how painful it feels to have someone you loved so much push you away when all you were trying to do was to help them. You have no idea how empty can one feel after being called 'worthless' by someone who you trusted. You have no idea how excruciating it is when someone who told you to aim for the top is the reason you fell rock bottom.
You have no idea, Kise-kun."
Kise was stupefied and seemingly speechless with the statement coming from the male before him. His Kurokocchi was emotionless, yes, but one would be able to see how happy he was whenever he was with his friends, or with his books, or anytime they'd notice and walk past him. The Kuroko Tetsuya he knew always had this faint happiness around him, and he was sure everyone could feel it, be aware of it. But now, seeing the third year student on the floor, leaning against the lockers, glaring daggers at him; Kise Ryota felt as if the room's temperature fell to 0 degrees. He knew he had to do something. Something, just anything.
He inhaled deeply, preparing himself, before walking towards Kuroko to only wrap his arms around the petite young man. Kuroko was about to yell at him, to yell at him to let go but Kise's hug just got tighter. "I'm sorry," he whispered, "Of course I wouldn't know how you feel. I wouldn't know how agonizing it must have felt; when the one you cherish the most hurts you. I'm sorry, Kurokocchi."
Kuroko slowly relaxed in his arms, burying his face in the other's shoulder. Slowly, his own shoulders began quivering as he let out a faint whimper. "Kise-kun is an idiot, that's why he doesn't know." He stated as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Usually, Kise would flinch and say "How cruel!" but at that single moment, he just smiled, placed a hand on the other's head and whispered, "I know."
Ryōta ran his fingers through the light blue strands, whispering soothing words to help him relax. His weeping being droned out, though the two didn't part just yet. Instead, Kuroko pulled him closer, loving the warmth Kise radiated with, while Kise was playing with the back of the Aquarius' hair, which the latter didn't mind. Instead, he felt safe in the blond's arms.
"I'm sorry to hear about you and Aominecchi, I thought he knew better." Kise clenched his fists, why did his Kurokocchi have to suffer this way? Before this, Aomine had always been with Kuroko, to the point he wouldn't even leave him alone! He was his light, for goodness sake! Kise had always wished he met Kuroko first so that he'd be his brilliant light. To be the one by Kuroko's side. Aomine had everything Kise wanted, everything Kise didn't have, so why did he throw it away? Everyone knew he was an idiot, but to the point of being this idiotic? To the extent of letting go of Kuroko? Unbelievable. Despicable.
"It's alright," Kuroko shook his head. "It was my fault for believing him. If I was a little more cautious, maybe then I wouldn't have been hurt. I guess this is what I get for being so gullible." He let out a hollow and dry laugh, averting his gaze to the side. Just how stupid can you be, Tetsuya?
"Kurokocchi," the model called, pulling the other close and lifting his chin. This, of course, caught him by surprise. Kise would usually hug him with this air of childishness and innocence, but for the first time, Kise looked different. "I wouldn't do anything like what Aominecchi did! I know you're hurting right now, and I know you probably don't want to be in a relationship, but how about I help you with your problem? I'll help you forget Aominecchi. All you'll be thinking about is me." He smiled brightly, determination reflecting in his eyes, his face moving close. "I'll make you feel loved twice as more than what Aominecchi did.." And with that, Kise leaned down and captured his lips with his own.
Kuroko didn't push him away. Instead, he kissed back. His arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer and deepening their kiss. If it's just to help me forget about him, then I guess it's fine..
"Kurokocchi, let's go on a date!" The other said at the other line, and got a sigh in response. Kise had called him after dinner, and was distracting him from doing his homework. Kuroko didn't mind much since the next day was a Saturday, but nonetheless it was getting annoying.
"Kise-kun, we already went to one last week, remember?" The latter didn't mind much, he actually thought going out for a date was cute. Even so, sometimes he really just wanted some time alone. Kise had been insisting they go on a date weekly even though they see each other almost every day.
"Pretty please~? I have something to show you, so please?" The Gemini tried again, and the tealnette swore he could feel the sparkles from the other line. There was a very short time where the two were silent, and the petite man broke it by releasing a sigh. "Fine. We'll go tomorrow at 4:30. I'll wait for you in the park."
"Yay! Alright, I'll wait for you there. See you tomorrow, Kurokocchi!" Ending the call immediately, he leaned against the bed, pinching the bridge of his nose. Honestly, he was getting a headache from all the dates. Kise was just too enthusiastic.
"You really think you should go out with him? He confessed as soon as you broke up. I smell something fishy. Are you sure you should be with him?" A voice came from the door, and when he took a glace at the owner, he saw him. His twin, his other half. "Takumi?"
Walking inside the small room, the older twin sat down on the same bed, looking concerned for his younger brother. "You shouldn't trust someone too much, Tetsuya. You're going to get hurt, one way or another." He reminded, frowning at the younger one. A warning. "You know much I worry about you. You should be really careful. My worst fear is having to see you leave because someone decided to bullshit their way to your heart and end up throwing it away."
"Language, dear Brother." Tetsuya released a sigh, closing his eyes. "But," he continued, "I should at least give him a chance. Kise-kun isn't the type to cheat on other people. I know him personally and you know him from videos and stories. You shouldn't judge books by its covers." Suddenly, he found himself being pushed onto the bed, his arms above his head and he couldn't move.
"What do you know about it?! You just knew him for almost half a year! If you think that you're not going to get hurt just because of his shitty humble and kind personality, then you're wrong. Every truth is hidden behind a fake smile. Why can't you understand that, Tetsuya?!" Takumi was indeed furious, his words harsh and filled with aggravation. How couldn't he trust his own brother's words when he could trust someone he barely even knew?
"You're hurting me!" He yelled, and the grip over his wrists only grew tighter. The other that was hovering over him leaned down, eyeing the younger Kuroko. "If you're too blind to even see that you're being used, then I don't even know what to do." Takumi leaned away, letting him go and stood up, making his way towards the door. He stopped once he took a hold of the knob, looking over his shoulder to say something to his brother before closing the door. "The world isn't kind enough to give away happy endings."
Tetsuya stared at the door, now worried and anxious of what Takumi said, if it were to be true. What if he really was being used? What if Kise didn't mean anything? What if Kise was using him?
He's so late, thought a certain tealnette. He was waiting in the park for almost two hours. His so-called lover did say that he was going to be late, but this late? That's just ridiculous. Kise had a photoshoot before, but it was supposed to end at five fifteen. Tokyo frequently had traffic jams, but it would usually clear up fifteen to thirty minutes later.
Taking out his phone, he dialed the other's number, only to be linked back to Kise's voicemail. Giving up, he took his bag and started walking back home. It was a good thing that he was almost invisible, or else everyone would have suspected that he was stood up. He turned to an abandoned alley, since it was the fastest way to get back home when he was suddenly greeted by something- no, someone, that immediately broke his heart.
Kise Ryōta was kissing Aomine Daiki.
"Kise-kun..?" He called, and the two turned towards the source of the voice. Tetsuya stood still, with his face indifferent and not showing a tinge of expression besides that, though he knew for himself his heart was only crumbling to pieces. "What are you doing here? You were the one who wanted to go on a date today. Why were you.. kissing Aomine-kun?" Of all people, why him?
"Ah.." The blond turned towards the tealnette, walking towards him. "I'm sorry to tell you this, Kurokocchi, but I'm done." The sapphire eyes widened, and he only staggered back. "You're no fun to be with. It's not that I was playing you, though! It's just.. I don't think we're suited to be together anymore. Besides, you've forgotten about Aominecchi, right?"
You're wrong.
"But.. With Aomine-kun?" He asked, his face never faltering even for a second. He refused to look at the young man who used to be his light, his boyfriend, his best friend, his partner. Past tense. And if he chose to even take a glance, it'll only make him break even more.
I never got over him.
A sheepish laugh escaped the blond's lips, "Yeah.. I realised I liked him a few days ago. But.. That's fine, right?" Kise gave his usual smile, a hand ruffling Kuroko's blue locks. Taking a deep breath, Kuroko nodded. "Of course it's fine. I hope you two will be happy." Happy that you broke me, I mean. Spinning on his heel, his back turned to the pair, he walked away from them stoically but his own tears finally betrayed him.
I was just beginning to like you, Kise-kun.
But unknown to him, there was a certain greenette watching his every move ever since he got together with the Gemini.
"How dumb of me. To think that someone like him wanted to be with someone like me." Tetsuya muttered to himself, hands gripping on his hair. He was currently in his apartment, alone. Crying wasn't his thing, but what would you do if you suddenly saw your boyfriend kiss your ex, and then break up with you, as if you two didn't have something?
Suddenly, the doorbell rang. Tetsuya decided to ignore it, but since it kept ringing every thirty seconds, he snapped and unconsciously made his way to the front door. Glancing at the clock, he murmured something almost inaudible about how late it was.
"You know how impatient I am, Kuroko." The uninvited guest said, leaning against the door frame. "You look like you're having a hard time." Well,obviously. Kuroko had to refrain himself from rolling his eyes at the comment.
"Midorima-kun, what a surprise for you to suddenly come down here." Not, he mentally said. The Cancer readjusted his glasses, brows furrowing as he looked at the other. "How unlikely of you to use such sarcasm."
Rolling his eyes, the tealnette opened the door wider, turning around. "Come in, I'll make you some tea." The other didn't argue, walking inside the place and making his way towards the living room. "Not much changed since the last time I came by." Which was about a year ago. Midorima had came to his apartment to teach Kuroko something he didn't understand in class. But let's get to the main part, shall we?
"What do you want, Midorima-kun? As you can see, I'm not in the most acceptable state at the moment." The other asked in a cold tone, placing two cups of tea on the glass table. He sat down on the sofa opposite of the other, taking his glass and sipping the hot liquid.
"I can see that. Breaking up with Kise like that.. You knew this was going to happen, and yet you still want to break yourself even more. Stop hurting yourself, it's not helping." The soon-to-be-doctor reminded, and that made the 'ghost' snap.
"What do you know about it? You, of all people, giving me advice on love? You hardly even show any feelings yourself! Don't talk as if you know me when you clearly don't."
"'Don't talk as if you know me when you clearly don't.' That hurt, Kuroko." The tealnette was suddenly pinned on the couch, lips suddenly being occupied as the other smashed them together. Kuroko struggled but soon gave up, out of breath. "I've always liked you. I never knew why, it's just that being with you makes me feel different. I don't mind if I need to prove it.." He whispered, leaning close to plant another kiss on his lips.
Kuroko, on the other hand, was shocked. This person who he only admired as a friend, who always said A-blood types and B-blood types wouldn't get along, liked him? He was now torn between deciding what to do. Give him a chance or reject him. If he gives him a chance, there's a possibility that Kuroko might get hurt again. But if he rejects him, it could be a very wrong decision.
Pushing him away, knowing how the latter carved his name to Kuroko's mind to fit fate that would only leave fatal flaws, he wiped his lips with his hand before saying;
"Give me some time to think about it."
It's alright if you leave my side,
I just want you to live your life,
Oh I'm, I'm a beautiful,
I'm a beautiful liar..
I hate myself for making this chapter lololol
[ Credits to my saltmate for editing ]
