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Rated T for language, violence and same-sex relationship. Light sexual activities later on.

I hope you'll enjoy my little story. Here are the first two chapters. Just let me know how I did.

Betrayal, pain and love

Chapter 2 "Choices and Consequences"

Dean looked into Seth's eyes and wanted nothing more than to believe that he still cared. But he knew that life never treated him kind so he just couldn't. He's been through enough. His crappy childhood, the years when he started working, the wrong turns he took and now this whole chaos with Seth. No way, he could let himself be the one who got hurt again. Dean didn't know if he was able to hide his true feelings but he knew he had to try. He slides down the wall in a seated position and told Seth with an emotionless and cold voice. "You don't want to hurt me. What could you do to change my mind? Hmmm! Let me see? How about turn back the time? To the day when we met. And remind me that I shouldn't talk to you so we never become friends. Can you do that for me, Thie?" All the bitterness in his voice was almost too much to bear for both of them. Calling Seth by his nickname was hurting so badly. Dean thought his heart was torn from his chest. Seth was shaking in pain as he heard the nickname Dean always used for him in the good old times.

This sentence brought Roman back to reality and that little spark of hope he had was gone. 'Damn it, how could I help my brothers? Both of them.' Because he knew they were both in pain. Up till now he had no clue. "Dean, please. I get that you're still pissed even if I don't know why. But you got to listen to me and cut your show I can see right through it. This crap you're talking here is nothing but bullshit. If you have to lie then think of something more believable. I am sorry for…" No matter how hard Seth tried Dean could see that he was hurt by his harsh words. His soul shattered again and again to see him like this. It was even worse because he knew he was the one who caused that pain in Seth's eyes. But he had to play his part further. "You're sorry? Seth, you know the most shit in my so called life. I trusted you like I never trusted anyone before. And all you did was ripping out my heart and shove it down my own throat. Just to show me that I shouldn't expect something good in life." He smashed his head into the wall behind him with every word he spoke. "Dean that is not true. You didn't want to talk to me anymore. Don't put this all on me. And stop that!" Seth took a step towards Dean but when he saw his eyes he froze in his movement. "You are telling me I shouldn't blame you? I can't believe you. Seth, you wanted more and more. I wouldn't have stopped you if you wanted to go and play the 'big dog' in the business if you would have talked to us. Neither would have Rome and you know that. I knew you can be self-centered but this was too much. Do you have any idea how much pain and doubts you brought to me and especially to Rome? He thinks he has to proof to me that I can count on him. He feels guilty about hanging out with you and the knowledge that it hurts me. He is sitting in the middle of this whole mess we are in. Stop making this all about you. There are other people that are affected by your actions and don't try to talk your way out of it. You brought this upon us. You might be hurting too even if I doubt that." Dean couldn't control his temper anymore even if he was talking in an icy static voice. He still smashed his head into the wall behind him. His hands were clinched into fists so hard that his knuckles turned white. He got up from his seated position still smashing his head into the hard, cold wall behind him. He wanted to throw some punches.

All of a sudden he felt a large hand between his head and the wall and a strong arm across his chest. "Dean, shh, calm down. I know you don't want to hurt him and please stop hitting your head." Roman's deep and calm voice went straight to Dean's head. He stopped immediately. He looked in Rome's eyes and asked in a low voice. "How long are you here? Did you hear what we were talking about?" He saw in the taller man's face that he was moved by the words he heard a couple minutes ago. Roman didn't mean to spy on his brothers but their voices increased with each spoken word. Dean had to fight the emotions within him. Anger. Hurt. Pain. Resignation. Rage. Roman pulled him closer to give his brother some comfort and petted his head carefully. He turned around to look at Seth who was shocked to see Dean in Roman's arms as he tried to calm down. Roman smiled weakly at Seth and said in a friendly voice. "It is better if you leave now. I will see you tomorrow around 10 am at the gym. I think it's better if you give Dean his space now. I don't know exactly why you two were arguing but I have to make sure this is not getting out of hands. So, bye Seth. See you tomorrow." The tall Samoan turned back to look at Dean and told him soothing words. "How are you feeling, Dee? Do you think I can let go of you, without you're doing something stupid? If you are ready I will take you home, okay?" Dean nodded carefully and said. "Rome, you can let go of me. But let me smoke a cigarette before I come down to the parking lot. Would you mind getting my duffle bag from the locker room? I will smoke and meet you at your car. I need a moment to breath." Dean spoke very quietly because his throat was very dry. He was shaken by all of his emotions. He looked to Roman for his friend's approval. Roman nodded. "No trouble at all, bro. Take your time. I will wait at the car."

Then Dean looked over to see Seth staring at him. It hurts him to see his former best friend so confused. "Seth … uh, it's okay … just go. I know we can do it. You have one more dream come true and I have my peace. Give me at least this much credit. I know this stunt is crazy but you should know me by now." Dean told Seth those words even though he wasn't sure if they were true. Seth looked at Dean and nodded. "Dean, are you sure? Do you think we can pull this stunt off?" He spit out his concerns. The other man pulled out a package of cigarettes and nodded. "Just leave me alone for a while. See you Thursday." He said it without looking at Seth as he lit his cigarette. Roman pulled on Seth's arm and said. "Come on, we're leaving. Like he said, give him some credit. He is the one of us who had the craziest matches. And you know it. We've seen some shit of Dean's hardcore and death matches. Let's go. Meet you at the car, Dean."

After the two long-haired men left Dean closed his eyes and let go of a few silent tears. Why was his life so fucked up? All he wanted was to believe Roman and Seth. He had no one left he could trust. He was tired and confused and broken. His heart was broken by the first person he truly loved and this certain someone had betrayed him. He really needed a break so bad. He pulled out a second cigarette after he stomped out the first one. He hadn't told even Rome what else was going on in his life. He didn't know why this shit was affecting him so much. He looked up to the sky one last time and then he left the rooftop to meet Rome at his car.

When Dean arrived at the parking lot he saw that Roman was sitting in his car and talking on the phone. He knocked carefully on the side window of the passenger seat. Roman looked to his right and signified Dean to hop in. "Okay honey. Yes, I will pick up some milk on my way home. And I will ask Dean. Don't treat me like a kid. I am your husband for crying out loud. Ha, ha … that is true. Love you, Lis. See you in a bit." Roman closed his cell and looked at Dean. "Family, man. I hope you don't mind stopping at the Giant. Lisa wants me to pick up some milk. Oh, and I'm supposed to ask you if you would like to join us for dinner. Lisa and Leila would love to see you again." Dean smiled at his friend and said with some pain in his voice. "Hey Rome, first hold close the ones you love and don't take them for granted. Second, I don't mind stopping to get some milk. I actually need some soda. And third, as much as I admire your wife and love your daughter, I don't think I'm a suitable company today. Please tell Lisa, I am sorry. I will make it up to her. Just bring me home after we got the milk and the soda." The young man's eyes were filled with pain and his brother was confused by his words.

"Dean, what's up with you? Such words of wisdom from you." Roman couldn't believe those words that came out of Dean's mouth. He felt that there was more to Dean's pain then just the mess with Seth and his feelings for the other man. Dean closed his eyes and answered in a pretend cocky voice. "Maybe I have a clear moment every once in a while." He grinned at Roman and petted the shoulder of his friend. "Dean, drop this attitude. You know I am your friend if there is something you want to talk about I am here for you." Roman looked worried in the blue eyes of his friend. Dean smiled weakly and nodded so Roman started the car. They got the milk and the soda at the Giant. And then Roman brought Dean to his home. "Thanks Rome, you're the best. I wish you a good work out tomorrow and say greetings to Lisa and Leila. Take care, man. See you Thursday." Dean gave Roman a hug and climbed out of the car with the soda in his hand and his duffle over the shoulder.

"Dean? Are you sure you want to pull off that stunt? Do you think you're up to it? Don't get me wrong. I know it's nothing compared to the shit you did a couple years back. But I can feel that there is more going on in your head, then what you are telling me. So please, let me help you! I am your friend and I'll be there for you. You don't have to go through this all by yourself. And don't you worry about me so much. Of course I don't like it that you and Seth are still not over the whole mess and I have to share my spare time between you and him. But you should know that I wouldn't keep up with that bullshit if I wouldn't be sure you two are my very best friends."

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