I walked into Degrassi and everything was normal, I got the few occasional glares and stares but I immediately saw Fiona and the rest didn't matter. I walked over to her and saw Holly J. She saw me and backed.

"Hey Fi." I turned to look at her and she looked angry.

"They knew, all this time you were losing control." I pulled her arm.

"Can we not fight here, in front of everyone." I knew I should of stayed home another day but she yanked her arm away.

"Oh so this is also another inconvenience to you too, just like you couldn't tell me." I sighed. Her voice was rising and I didn't want all the people staring to get the latest gossip on us.

"I knew how you would act, that's why I didn't tell you. Only Bianca knew."

"But why her! Why couldn't you just think that I wouldn't leave." I turned around but she grabbed my shoulder and forced me to face her.

"You just got back from rehab, I didn't want you to see how screwed up I am. You were on the right path I didn't want you to relapse because of me." I whispered feeling more vulnerable than I ever have.

"Isn't that my choice?" She was still yelling at me and it was pissing me off.

"Just like it was mine not to tell you. I never lied to you Fiona." I was angry and we were in each others face.

"No but you refused to talk about it."

"Your one to talk! You refused to talk about your drinking, you lied to me when you said you loved me. I had to deal with you not wanting to see me. God dammit Fiona you are my world. I didn't want to lose it!" I shouted at her and she backed. I reached out for her knowing I just said the stupidest thing I could of.

"You might of already did." She turned.

"Fiona... Fiona!" I shouted after her but she just walked off with Holly J. I slammed my fist into the locker next to me.

"Damn it." I stopped my self from beating the locker again and I ran my hand through my hair. I didn't need the clip or the burn to know I am alive, her walking away did that for me.

"Whats wrong young grasshopper?" I turned to look at Eli before I beat the locker some more.

"She walked away, found out that everyone knew but her." Eli put a hand on my shoulder to stop my pacing.

"Adam she is angry right now."

"She is beyond that." I looked to him sadly, I knew I screwed up and said some stupid things.

"Well video games is my remedy." I smiled at his attempt to cheer me up and I nodded, that did sound good.

"Alright." I dreaded that I had to go to art now with Fiona. I walked to class and saw her sitting in the back, no one else was here yet.

I had walked with Holly J to the memorial Garden and sat down on the bench.

"That Jerk. I can't believe him." I paced listening to the sounds of my clicking heels on the cement.

"Fiona sit down." I glared at Holly J who just looked cross with me and I sat next to her.

"Why would he say that, Jesus I am falling in love with him. I just can't think what if he would of died. Why would he not tell me?" I stared at my nails picking at them.

"Because he is falling in love with you Fiona, the last thing he wants is to seem weak infront of you. Yes everyone knowing before you sucks, but you can sit here and be mad at him, or forgive him like he forgave you. He is not like Bobby." I gave her a glare at the mention of that name.

"I know.. I know you hate that name but think of it from his point of view, you can't change the past only can you change the future. You can break both of your hearts or you can suck it up knowing that no relationship is easy." I leaned over to hug Holly J times like this I wished Declan was home and with me. But I knew if I went off to be with my brother that my heart would be left behind.

"I'm sorry." I sat down next to her she put her pencil down.

"For what now Adam?" Her tone was clipped and cold.

"I know you wanted to know and that you didn't want this hidden from you."

"I could of helped you." I shook my head.

"No, I couldn't help you with the drinking and you couldn't help with the burns. They are mistakes we made. I know you care for me Fiona and I know I haven't been exactly forward with you. I don't want you to hate me for not telling you but I didn't want to go back on my promise. When I broke it I was disgusted with my self. I didn't want to see disappointment in your eyes." She turned to me.

"You make it hard for me to be angry with you." I smiled and laughed.

"I'm just hurt that you didn't trust me enough to tell me." I took her hand.

"I did trust you, but after the first time, I was losing control. I remembered how good it felt to feel the pain." She looked at me shocked.

"Feels good to feel pain?" I shrugged and looked at her like I was sorry.

"When you go through as much as I have, you lessen to pain. Become stronger." She sighed and laid her head on my shoulder.

"Next time tell me when something is wrong. I hate feeling out of the loop." I nodded and kissed the top of her head.

"I will tell you anything you want from now on. I like you Fiona and I don't want this to end like that."

"I know neither do I." We sat there in silence until the room filled up, she was slightly reserved but I was fine with that. I would do what ever it took to have my princess trust me again.