When he first got to basic training he was still that scared little boy that he saw in the mirror for the past 18 years.
He didn't have anyone now. He thought he was prepared for that but he quickly realized he wasn't.

He never did well with anyone yelling at him except maybe when Rachel did it.
But that is all he heard every day of basic training. He hardly made any friends and
the guys he did talk to were just not his type of people.

He thought back now as he laid in bed trying to fall asleep. He remembered how
much he had missed Rachel and his family at first. He still talked to Kurt , probably more than Kurt
appreciated at this point but he knew he couldn't call his mom and Burt and tell them how he had
pretty much turned to alcohol to be his best friend.

He always wanted to talk to her. He thought about her every single day. He knew he really
messed up. At first when she had written him he was stubborn and thought she deserved
better than him and refused to write her back. He still thought she deserved better. He never
really asked Kurt about her and he never brought her up. It was kind of a mutual understanding that it
was a touchy subject. He had really messed up but he knew that he could never change the past.

In the back of his mind he knew that this isn't what he needed yet he had a want for it.
He was going to be 21 soon but he was also going home. He wouldn't be able to really hide his
life if he was going to have to stay with his mom and Burt. He hoped maybe Kurt would come visit
a weekend so that he would have someone to talk to. He finally passed out.

After stressing out all night before he slept he didn't rest very well.
It was a long day everyone was just in a poor mood cause most of his unit
was ready to be home already. They missed their families and some even had kids.
Finn had himself. Not that his parents and his brother didn't count but that wasn't
much of anyone. He knew in the back of his mind who he missed which is exactly why he needed a drink.

"Hudson, If you're gonna come back obnoxious yet again try to keep it down when you call your whoever."

Half the time Finn didn't even remember calling Kurt. He only knew cause people would tell him or his call log would.

Kurt never brought it up. If Finn asked him about it when they talked other times Kurt would just pass it off and say it wasn't a big deal.

"Okay. I'll try my best."

BAR

"Hey Hudson! Good to see you."

"Hi Mark. How are you tonight?"

"I'm pretty well. The usual?"

"Yeah."

Mark the bartender slid him a whiskey after it was poured.

"Mark, I see you wear that ring. Are you happy like that?"

"I wouldn't leave myself in any situation I wasn't."

"I should be there."

"She on your mind again?"

"Do I really talk about her that much once I get going?"

"Hudson, I could write a book about the girl with the softest skin and the prettiest voice."

Finn put his head down and finished his drink.

"Another please Mark."

Another after another was ordered.

"Alright Hudson this is your last one."

"WHAT! I'm not even feeling it yet."

"I know what your limit is to make it home safe."

"Screw you Mark. I am a man. I can make my own decisions and I say I'm not done."

"Hudson, don't be like this."

"I'm not doing anything. You're the one creating the problem."

"Buddy just leave before you make me have to throw you out."

"Some times I think you are my friend and then you stab me in the back like this."

Finn stood up and turned to walk out.

Sitting on the sidewalk outside the bar he decided he needed to tell his only true friend how awful people were here.
No one could even have his back.

"Hello Finn." Kurt said with a yawn.

"Kurt, you know you are my only friend."

"Yeah, you might have mentioned it."

"I can't believe sometimes someone you think you know just sticks the knife in and just keeps a twisting."

"Did Mark cut you off before you were ready again?"

"Kurt, why does everyone have to betray me?"

"No one is betraying you Finn. I tell you all time."

"I can't wait to be away from these people and be back in Lima and show everyone what I have done."

"Yes, Everyone can't wait till you're back."

"Oh the heck with that Kurt. Everyone who! You're all I have left."

"Finn you know that isn't true. You have your mom and my dad."

"Who wants their 21 year old son back to drag them down?"

"Your mom really worries about you."

"Yeah well,...we both know that is your fault. Sometimes you are such a lousy friend. You probably make her."

"Finn, You should go get some sleep."

"Don't tell me what to do Kurt!"

Kurt sighed. "I'm not Finn."

"Yes you are. You always have. You such a bossy person. Thinking you're better than me like everyone does. I'm gonna show them."

"Okay Finn."

"You don't believe me! Fine! I'm gonna show you. You'll see. I'm going to go home and start packing now and coming up with a plan."

"Ok Finn. Night."

Kurt hung up the phone and sighed. At least it wasn't for hours Finn kept him up.

Rachel walked out into the living room and yawned. "Kurt who were you talking to this late? Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, just a telemarketer"

"Oh is the telemarketer named Finn?"