Undisclosed Desires
Prompt: Song Lyrics
Rating: T
Late one spring evening, after Yukine had headed upstairs to finish the homework Hiyori had given him and Daikoku and Kufuku had retired to their quarters, Yato and Hiyori sat out on the porch. To Hiyori, Yato had seemed a bit distant all day, lost in his head and, consequently, rather quiet. Yato was rarely this pensive and it worried her.
The former god of calamity had changed before his friends eyes over the last few months, now that there had been a catalyst in his life to bring about the evolution he'd so desperately been seeking over the last few decades. The young half-phantom wanted nothing greater that for him to trust her with his deepest feelings, to know that their bond was truly as strong as it seemed.
After having brought the last couple of tea cups back to the kitchen, she returned to find those beautiful azure eyes turned upward to the stars. They sat in silence for a couple of minutes, with words poised on the tips of their tongues.
"Do you know why Tenjin is so insistent that we cut our ties, Hiyori?" Yato spoke first with pained words. Hiyori was about to regurgitate everything Tenjin had said before, but realized it had to be something different from what had already been expressed.
"Well, I thought it was pretty much because every thinks that going back to a simple human existence is what's best for me. But we've been over that," she stated plainly. "So...why else, Yato?"
"Because many would believe I am not the kind of god you should be faithful to," he admitted despondently. He looked down for a moment at his hands resting on his knees. "And I wonder sometimes if their right. I wonder if I am worthy of you."
The rosy-eyed girl held her breath a moment. Taken aback at how pitiful Yato was being, feeling so incredibly down on himself.
"Yato," she called him gently from his dark reverie, placing a hand over the one on his knee. "Do you trust me? I mean, really trust me."
"W-well, yeah, of course," he responded, a little shaken. "I just, seem to find myself in some really dangerous and brutal situations. I was a god manifested to bring about death and destruction on the behalf of humans who sought my help. Pieces of the old me are still buried somewhere inside me. I feel that ache sometimes, but I hate myself for it. My old life is full of regret and shadows of it still seem to haunt me. If anything happened to you because of that, I don't think I could ever forgive myself."
"Is this the first time you have others you wish to protect, and not because it's someone else's wish?" Hiyori leaned in closer, giving her words more emphasis.
The shaggy indigo fringe covered his features as he nodded solemnly.
Hiyori's heart overflowed with warmth, and the feelings she had been experiencing for a while all seemed to instantly come into focus.
If Yato's greatest desire was to protect her life, her desire was to protect his heart. All the guilt he felt for his past, and how it affects the present, she wanted to wash it all away. Both her hands picked up his hand clutched it.
"Yato..." she barely breathed his name, intense and full of emotion. "I trust you with my life. Please, Trust me with your heart."
Yato eyes widened. He knew she cared, but...this was something beyond any realization.
"I can't watch you suffer, and try to bear it all on your own," she pleaded with him, tears forming in her eyes. "Don't hide from me. I want you to tell me...everything. Show me the real Yato."
Yato's heart flooded with an indescribable emotion he'd never felt before. It was suddenly hard to breathe. The youthful god flushed from head to toe and decided to do exactly what was asked of him.
Leaning forward he rested his forehead against hers, the tips of their noses touching. Hiyori let out a small gasp as she anticipated his next move. There was no turning back. All the pain, the trials and tribulations they'd been through for the sake of the other: all of Yato's demon's haunting them, threatening the bond they held so sacred would be exorcised by the light of Hiyori's spirit and the love that they shared.
After what seemed like a small eternity, Yato pressed gently forward, cupping her jaw with his free hand. Burning like a thousand fires, inside and out, moist lips connected. Yato groaned slightly at the sensation as the object of his love and desires reciprocated his movements. He gently suckled her bottom lip and a soft mewl escaped Hiyori's throat. She panted through slightly parted lips. The passionate dance escalated as Yato took the opportunity to caress her lips with the tip of his tongue.
Hiyori covered his mouth with her own, as they blazed a new trail for their lives. They'd never look back. Her love for her wandering god was pure, surpassing her life itself. This kiss, it was a vow. To live an existence that would never be loveless and cold, whether near shore or far, as long their bonds are never broken.
"Undisclosed Desires" ~ Muse
I know you've suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied
Soothing
I'll make you feel pure
Trust me
You can be sure
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
You trick your lovers
That you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine
Please me
Show me how it's done
Tease me
You are the one
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
Please me
Show me how it's done
Trust me
You are the one