Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.

Warnings: Angst, OOC, lime.

Pairings: L/Raito.

Summary: During the handcuffs, Raito has a secret. What will L do when he finds out the secret?

Notes: Wow, thank you all who have read the first chapter, reviewed, favorite, and alerted. I am happy to see that you all enjoyed the first chapter. So, I decided to continue this story. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Please review and tell me what you think. Thanks.

He is kissing me! Why? Is this a trap? L pushed the younger man back, giving him space. He stared into sad honey eyes. The teenager dropped his head, hiding his eyes behind his bangs. The detective wanted an answer, but he couldn't voice out his questions. What was the meaning behind the kiss? Is he Kira and trying to deceive me? Damn, that kiss was hot though. No. I cannot think like that. I cannot let my body over win my mind. I have kept my demands in check all these years, I can do it again. Glaring at the younger man, he growled, "What the hell was that about?"

"You really have to ask." Raito replied without lifting his head. He was rejected and it hurt. Now, L was upset with him. He didn't want that. All I wanted was him to return my feelings. It would have been perfect. We would have made a perfect couple. I wouldn't have to down my intelligence. He would understand everything I say. Well, there is no hope now. Damn Luke for putting that idea in my head. Look where it has gotten me. L is mad.

L lifted Raito's chin. He had to see those eyes. He had to figure out what the other was planning. Those eyes only read sadness. Why was Raito sad? He sighed, "I do not know what Yagami-kun was trying but I will not be fooled."

Anger soared through his body. He thinks I did that because of Kira. I'm not KIRA! I'm not! How dare him? The teenager stared and growled, "Leave Kira out of this. If you want to reject me, fine, but leave that murdering bastard of it. I AM NOT HIM!"

"It is hard to do that when Kira shares my room." L remarked calmly. Raito glared at him. He had to make the other stop from making a move on him. The only way to stop this conversation was to get the other upset with him. I can't let my attractive toward him interfere with my judgment.

The teenager glared more but flopped onto the bed and turned his back to the detective. He couldn't say anything else because he was so angry. How could the older man still believe in that? He wasn't Kira. The more reason why I want to catch Kira. Why couldn't L just understand my feelings? Once again, I have to ask myself why do I like him. He is cruel. The only reason why I am around is because I'm a suspect. If I wasn't, he wouldn't give a damn about me.

L sighed in relief. It was one thing to be attracted to someone that was untouchable, but other thing to have said desire return that attraction. Is he really attracted to me or is he trying to play me? With anyone else I would know the answer, but with Raito I can never tell. He leaned his head against the headboard, thinking. He heard a small noise and he glanced over at Raito. He saw the teenager's shoulders shaking. Is he crying? No. That can't be true. Raito would never shed tears. He leaned over but Raito would move closer to the edge of the bed. He whispered, "Yagami-kun?"

"Leave me… me alone." Raito chocked out. He didn't want the other to know how upset he was. He could talk to Luke about everything but sadly L would over hear the conversation. Just great. I'm chained to the man I have a crush on and he doesn't return those feelings. Now, I can't even talk to the one person who knows what I am going through because my crush is with me all day long. Why did it have to be me? He felt more tears roll down his face and he wiped them away, angry at the fact he was shedding tears for the cold man next to him.

L didn't know what to do. He never had someone cry in front of him. He didn't know how to act around people's emotions. He always shielded himself away from it. He remembered what Watari would do with some of the orphans. He laid his hand on Raito's back and rubbed softly. Feeling the other man tense by his touch, he spoke, "I am sorry for hurting Yagami-kun." He knew it was his fault. He just never thought Raito would feel something for him. He still didn't. Maybe Raito wanted someone to mess around with. After all, Raito was a teenager. That made a lot of sense except Raito told him that he never slept with his past boyfriends because they weren't the one.

"You don't even know why you are apologizing for." Raito remarked sadly. He pulled away from the comforting hand. He didn't want the other to touch him unless he meant it. He knew L was calculating every move he makes. It hurt badly. It felt like Kira was giving him a heart attack. He wiped his tears away again, trying hard not to sob loudly.

What does he want from me? I cannot stop thinking about the case. That could be dangerous for everyone. I need to keep my head straight no matter what I feel. L pulled away and sat on his side of the bed. He grabbed his lap top from the night stand and began to work on the case. There weren't clues yet, but he still had to go over it. He kept hearing some whining noises from the other person in his bed and his heart was clinching at the sound. I never thought he would cry over something like this. I guess he has never been rejected. He must be upset about not getting his way. There is no way he would be attracted to me.

Why? Why? Why do I have to feel for some cold bastard? Why did I let my emotions over rule my logic? I should have kept my feelings locked away like I always do. No one would ever understand me. Not Luke. And sure the hell not L. I am alone like always. Raito wiped his tears away, closing his eyes, feeling more tears run down his face. He decided to ignore the older man for now. Maybe he could figure a way to stop his heart from breaking.

Typing on the computer, L couldn't focus on the work. He knew he should but his mind kept drifting toward the younger man. He was trying to figure what the kiss really meant if it meant anything. Was the kiss real or was it sexual tension? He didn't know the answers and it was driving him mad. What would it be like to be with Raito that way? Do I even feel for him? I know that I find him attractive, but everyone does. I hate to admit it but I do care for him. But do I care for him because he is a friend or is it more? This is driving me crazy. He closed his eyes as he pulled his legs closer to his chest, sticking his thumb on his lower lip. He needed some rest. Maybe tomorrow he would figure everything out.

Raito turned over and stared at the man of his dreams. He knew he couldn't ignore the other man. It would be too hard. L was his first true friend even if L was lying about their friendship. He had to be lying. He just wants to catch Kira. Of course, I do too. But he thinks I'm that mass-murderer. Why can't he see that he is wrong? Ha. That is funny. L would never admit he was wrong. He is childish. He always has to be right, but this time he is wrong. I am not Kira. He swept his hand over L's for a moment and rolled back over. He needed sleep unlike the detective. He closed his eyes only to be haunted by his dreams.

The room was dark and he felt a cold breeze swept across his body. He realized he was naked, bared to the world. He glanced around the room, trying to see, but it was too dark. He felt someone on top of him. He turned his head to look. In the dark, he could see the pale skin. He raised his hands, sliding them over the muscles. He felt hot. The coldness was not taking away the heat in his body.

'Raito.'

The way the name was said made blood rush down to his cock. He never heard someone speak so heatedly like that before. Well, at least for him. The teenager whispered, 'Say it again.'

The other man leaned over by his ear and whispered huskily, 'Raito, I want you.'

The teenager ran his hands up the other man's stomach to his chest, toying with the pink nipples. He needed more. He wanted more of the older man. He groaned as he rubbed his need against L's pale nude body, 'I want you too. I want you so badly.' He felt hands run across his nude body finding every sensitive spot. He moaned, 'L.' He didn't know why he called the older man by that name but he only saw the other as L. He squirmed under the detective. He wanted the other more than anything. He whined, 'L. Please.'

'Raito wants me.'

'Yes.'

'He wants me to make love to him.'

'Oh god, yes.'

'My Raito.'

The way L was talking was making him feel things he never felt. It was driving him into a fit of madness. He ran his hands over the older man's body, trying to make the other do more to him. Their bodies rubbed against each other as they both explored each other. He was sweating from the intense heat that was coming from both of them. The teenager whispered, 'L, please. L, oh god, please.' Two slick fingers probed his entrance and it was driving a heat in his body.

'I will give Raito everything he desires.'

The one thing he desired was the older man and now he was going to gain it. He moaned, 'L. L. L.' He wanted more and he wanted it badly.

L glanced over when he felt the other man tossed and turned in the bed. Is he having a nightmare? They can be horrible. Should I wake him up?

"L. L. L." Raito moaned.

He is calling for me. Why? L leaned over the other, looking down at Raito's face. He saw sweat running down the other man's face and pinkness on his face. What is he dreaming? Why is he calling out my name? Honey eyes opened and stared up at him. He pulled back and mumbled, "Yagami-kun, are you all right? He was tossing in his sleep."

Raito felt his face heat up even more. He woke up before his dream was fulfilled. He closed his eyes, trying to will his need away. He lied, "It was a nightmare." I can never tell him what I was dreaming about. He would never believe me. He would think I was trying to gain something from him. Well I am but not because I am Kira. I want him that it hurts. Will he ever see me for me?

He is lying to me. Why is he? What was he dreaming about? Could it be about Kira? L sighed, "I hoped Yagami-kun would trust me as a friend to tell me things."

"Everything I say, you try to use against me to prove I am Kira, which I am not." Raito remarked back coldly. He wanted to forget about this nightmare he was living in. It would have been better if he never met L. Then he would never have to feel this way.

Doesn't he see that I consider him as a friend? I guess I cannot blame him for thinking that. After all, I am trying to convict him as a mass-murderer. L laid his hand over Raito's as he spoke, "Yagami-kun is my first friend. I know this must be hard on him but believe my words on that."

"Friends do not try to convict the other for murder." Raito snapped as he pulled his hand away. Doesn't he know what he is doing to me? I want to kiss him. I want him to make love to me. These little touches are driving me mad because I know he doesn't return my feelings. Well, at least my desire went away. I really need to be away from this man, but that will not happen.

L sighed and went back to his side of the bed. There was nothing he could say to turn down Raito's anger. He closed his eyes. There were a couple more of hours before they had to get up. Why won't he tell me anything? I want to be there for him. What am I thinking? He is Kira, or at least was. I cannot let my emotions in the way of justice. If I get too involved, I might lose everything.

Raito turned his back on L and hoped everything would go back to the same. I don't want it to be the same. It was so boring and I hated feeling alone. It doesn't matter. I'm still alone even with sharing everything with L. He closed his eyes and hoped for it to be better tomorrow.

The next day, L sat in front of the computer still thinking about last night. Let's think about this. Raito kissed me and got upset that I accused him playing me. Then he was crying and when I apologized, he said that I didn't know why I was apologizing for. What could this all mean?

Everyone was silent, waiting for L to speak but he just sat there, staring off into space. The teenager sighed annoyed. He knew L figured everyone would just get into work and not wait around. He coughed, "Hmm, Ryuuzaki."

"Yes, Yagami-kun?" L asked without looking at the teenager. He still was trying to figure it out. He didn't understand Raito at all and it drove him mad.

"I think everyone is waiting for you to say something." Raito hissed. Why isn't he looking at me? Does he find me disgusting now? Please don't say he hates me. I couldn't bare that. Even if his words are all lies, I still consider him my first true friend.

The detective turned around to face everyone and said in a monotone voice, "Let us catch Kira." He didn't understand why the team needed him to speak all the time. He had something else to think about; Raito. He still couldn't figure out what the kiss meant if it meant anything.

Why doesn't he show emotions? Maybe if he did I could figure him out. I want him to like me more than a friend. Maybe he is straight. I can't tell with him. He still isn't looking at me. It would seem I ended our friendship with that kiss. Why did I have to kiss him? Raito glanced around to see everyone working on the case, but his mind was far from the case. Of course, he wanted to catch Kira but his heart was falling apart. He watched his father approach him with a lab top in his hands. He smiled even though he didn't feel like it.

Yagami spoke, "I thought bringing your lab top will make you feel more at home. I brought some clothes too. They are in your room already."

"Thanks dad." Raito replied as he smiled. He didn't want to smile or be polite. He just wanted to find someone to be with him. He turned to look at L. For the first time today, those grayish blue eyes were looking at him. What is he thinking? Why can't I tell?

Does he have information about Kira on the lab top? I will have to check that out. I should do it now but what if he had something private on there. When have I considered other people's privacy? It is him. L sighed and turned around to stare straight at the computer. He couldn't figure Raito out. Raito was the only person he couldn't figure out. Without glancing over at the teenager, he asked, "What do you have on the lab top?"

Damn him. He believes I have something about Kira on my lab top. When will he stop thinking me as Kira? The teenager growled, "School work." He refused to tell what else he has on his computer. He wouldn't want his father to find out what he does in his spare time. The other man didn't spare him a glance. Why do you do this to me? Don't you see you are breaking my heart? I feel like curling up and sobbing out my pain. He would never see me except as Kira. He will never return my feelings. I should give up but I have never given up before.

He is lying. What else does he have on the computer? I should look at it now but maybe he has something not parent friendly. I will have to check it out later when no one is around. This is not like me. I never let other people's feelings in the way. L sighed and glanced at the teenager who was making his head spin. Was the kiss real or was it to mess with my head? What are you doing to me, Raito? I could test the meaning behind the kiss. That is what I will do later.

Raito stared at the computer, not really seeing the information. He knew he should focus on catching Kira and clearing his name. Sadly, his thoughts were on his capturer. He typed but he wasn't paying attention to the information popping up.

"Oh Raito, who is Luke?" Yagami asked as he stared down at the documents.

"Luke?" Raito asked frightened that his father find out. He didn't want his father to know. He was positive that his father would not support him.

"He called a few times. I answered one time. I never heard of him." Yagami explained as he looked up at his son. He never heard his son mention a friend named Luke.

Raito blushed and mumbled, "He is an old friend. I guess he was getting worried that he hasn't heard from me. He got a hold of me last night. I'm sure he won't call at the home anymore." He tried to hide everything from his father. He wouldn't be able to cope if his father disapproved of him.

He is an excellent lair. If I didn't know better, I would have believed that statement. That makes me wonder about the kiss again. He could pull it off and wanted to fool me. L looked between father and son. Yagami nodded his head and went back to work. He knew Yagami wouldn't question it again. He wondered why Raito was hiding the fact he was gay from his father. He typed up something on the computer and sent it to the teenager through email.

Hearing a beeping noise, Raito opened his mail to see who was sending him something.

'Why does Yagami-kun hide the fact he is homosexual?'

The teenager sighed and turned to look at the detective. This was not the time to ask these type of questions. Also, it was risk. What if he father walked over and saw the email? He deleted the message and whispered for only L to hear, "Ask later. Do not ask while people are around." He turned back to his work. Well at least he is speaking to me in a way. Maybe I didn't end our friendship. Maybe I can still keep our friendship even though I would like it to be more.

L glanced at the young man. He saw Raito working but he knew the other wasn't focus on the work. His eyes were showing him that. He turned and looked at everyone hard at work. He knew this was a new Kira they were chasing, but no one would believe him. Of course that was because none of them believed Raito was Kira. He closed his eyes and sighed. He felt a small touch to his hand and he opened his eyes. He stared into honey eyes. What are you trying to tell me? I cannot figure you out, Raito.

Raito reached for a piece of paper, lightly touching L's hand. As those dark grayish blue eyes looked at him, he felt his heart speed up. He wanted nothing more than to kiss those taunting lips. He wanted to taste the other again. It was heaven the first even though L didn't return the kiss. He wondered what it would feel like if L returned the kiss.

Some time later, L leaned his head back, listening to everyone shifting papers about. He was bored and there was nothing for him to do. Yes, he should be working but he didn't feel like it. He did have a few of the team ask if he was all right. He answered 'yes' to them all. He wanted the day over so he could talk to Raito. He glanced to the clock and sighed, "Everyone has worked hard enough today. Go home and take a break."

"We need to keep our focus on Kira." Yagami argued.

"Yagami-san, there has been no leads as of yet. Also, it will not help if everyone is dragged out. Please go home and rest." L replied without emotion in his voice. He just wanted to tell them to get the hell out, but that wouldn't be like him. He watched as Matsuda grabbed his stuff quickly, leaving the others behind. Aizawa sighed, but got his things, leaving too. Mogi and Yagami were the last to leave. Yagami saying farewell to his son.

He wants to alone with me. Oh god, stop thinking that way. He just wants to ask personal questions. Well, at least he is asking in front of everyone. Raito felt his hands sweat and he wiped them off on his pants. He stared at the computer. He didn't want to look at L. He might do something else that he would regret.

"Why does Yagami-kun hide that he is homosexual from his father?" L asked emotionless. He wanted to know. It would depend on the answer whether he would say something in front of Yagami or not.

Sighing deeply, Raito turned his chair and looked at the older man as he answered, "My father doesn't like homosexuals. I guess I do not want him to be disappointed in me."

"Parents should support their children no matter what." L replied.

"Sometimes that doesn't happen. My mom and sister know."

"Why are you with Amane-chan then?"

"It is a cover."

"I thought Yagami-kun would never use others' emotions like that."

"All right! I don't know why I was with her! Stop trying to use it against me! She is the one who found me and wanted to be my girlfriend!" Raito yelled. He was tired being accused of being Kira.

L stood up and walked toward the younger man. He wanted to test something out but he wondered what the reaction would be. Seventy percent he will be upset with me. Ten percent he would harm me for using him to test out my theory. Twenty percent he will be hurt. But I have to try. When honey eyes looked at him, he leaned down, sealing Raito's lips into a kiss.

WHAT! He is kissing me! Oh god, it feels so good. Raito wanted to demand an answer, but he was too got up into the kiss. He wrapped his arms around L's neck, pulling the other closer. He returned the kiss. Why is he kissing me? Is this a trap? Who cares. I sure the hell don't. I want him to kiss me, touch me, and make love to me. I would do anything for his attention.

He is returning the kiss. I didn't think he would do that. What am I suppose to do now? Oh shit, I am getting hard. L pulled back, taking Raito's arms off of him. He backed up some. He knew it was wrong. First thing was he was seven years older than the teenager. Second thing was Raito was a suspect. He stared into those dazed eyes.

"Why did you stop?" Raito asked he stared at the older man. What was the detective doing? Didn't he realize what affect he was having on him? He stood up and walked toward the other man. As L backed up against the wall, he figured out the other was playing him and he growled, "Why do you torment me? Why? Why do you play with my emotions?"

L opened his mouth to say something but shut it. He closed his eyes to stop from seeing that hurt in honey eyes. After taking a couple of calming breathes, he opened his eyes and explained, "I thought Yagami-kun was playing me. I had to find out. I did not think he really had feelings for me."

Raito stared at the older man. He was testing me! How the hell can I be in love with this man! How could he play me like that! His hands balled up into fists. He threw a fist straight at L. As the older man slammed into the wall, he growled, "You bastard! How could you! If anything, I thought you considered me as a friend but you still test me!"

L wiped his lip that was bleeding. He pushed away from the wall and took a step toward Raito. He hissed, "Do not question me." He kicked Raito which made the young man fly back. The chained pulled him and he landed on the younger man. Before the teenager could punch him, he grabbed Raito's wrists and held them against the floor. He felt Raito's legs kick. Raito was squirming under him. He hissed, "I swear if Yagami-kun tries to harm me again, he will find himself locked in a cell again."

"My father would never let you do that!"

"I am head detective on this case. I will do anything I damn well please."

"I won't let you use my emotions to play me!"

"Does Yagami-kun really have emotions?"

"Everyone does except you!"

L stared down at the squirming boy. He knew he felt an attraction toward the other. He also knew he cared for the other. He whispered, "I do have emotions. I choose not to show them. Yagami-kun hides his emotions and plays a part that everyone wants to see. I do not."

"Yes you do."

"No…"

"You have been playing a part since everyone met you. This is not you at all. You don't want anyone to see the real you." Raito replied as he pulled his wrists free. He sat up, knocking L off of him. He stared into those dark eyes. He whispered, "Do not play me, L. Don't use my emotions to amuse yourself." His heart was breaking even more. He really wanted to be free from this man. He just wanted to be home and away from this case all together. He couldn't take L playing him.

He thinks I am using his emotions to amuse myself. That isn't true. There is no point in continue this conversation. It is over with. I got it out of my system. Now, it is time to ignore this for good. L turned around and began to walk toward the stairs, dragging the other man with him. He glanced back when he couldn't move. He saw Raito picking up his lab top. That was something else he wanted to check out. He muttered as he began to walk again, "I want to see what is on Yagami-kun's lab top."

"Suit yourself." Raito hissed. It didn't matter if L saw what was on his computer. There wasn't anything Kira related. All he had was school stuff and some porn. When they got into the bedroom, he set up his lab top and pushed in his password. No one would be able to get into his stuff without the password. He handed it to L as he went through the drawers to find some night clothes. He could take a shower in the morning.

L browsed through the files, seeing a lot of school information. As he hit a file, he wondered what it was. He opened it and sound came out.

'Oh YES! There baby! More! Slap me harder!'

The detective quickly shut it down and stared at the teenager. He whispered, "Yagami-kun likes watching bondage porn?"

Taking off his pants off, Raito turned around and sighed, "Yes. It seems interesting and hot." He pulled night pants on and wiggled his hand to single he needed the cuff off to put on a shirt. After L took the cuff off, he quickly took his shirt off and put a T-shirt on. When the cuff was snapped back on, he jumped onto the bed and took his lab top. He browsed his sites to see what was going on. Then he saw he had an email and clicked on it. He hummed, "Oh, Luke sent me a porn video."

"Yagami-kun's ex sends him porn videos of himself?"

"Oh no. He finds them and sends them to me because he thinks I'll like it." Raito answered as he clicked on the video. He saw one man with blonde hair chained to the bed, him lying on his stomach and his ass sticking out. Another man with black short hair was holding a belt. He commented, "I think you would do that."

L glanced over to see a man with black hair slapping a blonde man with a belt. He shuddered. He glanced to Raito and sighed, "You yell at me for playing with your emotions but you are playing me too."

"I'm not playing with your emotions because you don't any. Besides you already have me in chains." Raito replied as he continued to watch the video.

'Yes. Oh god. Harder. More. Baby, please.'

L shifted on the bed. The moans, whimpers, pants, and screams coming from the lab top was making him horny. He glanced over at the teenager to see his face was pink. He remarked, "Yagami-kun is making himself horny."

"That is the reason looking at porn." Raito replied back, without looking over the detective. He was imagining L has the black hair man beating his behind with the belt. He watched as two fingers entered the blonde man.

'AHHHH! YES! MORE! I NEED MORE! AHHH!'

Raito felt his pants were getting tighter. He glanced down to see a bulge. He needed relief. How was he going to gain that when he was chained to the man he had a crush on? He wanted L to touch him, make him scream. He turned his head to look at L and noticed those dark eyes were on him. He whispered, "Hmmm, could I use the bathroom alone?"

"No. I cannot let Yagami-kun out of my sight."

"I know damn well you have cameras in the bathroom. You can watch me through them." Raito spoke. As he realized what he said, he felt his entire face heat. He bet his ears were even turning red. He turned his head away. He didn't want to see what L was thinking. He must think I'm a pervert. Yes, I want him but… His mind stopped thinking as he felt L's hand on his groin, rubbing it through the clothe. He threw his head back and moaned. What is he doing? Is he playing me again?

"I believe Yagami-kun can settle his needs right here." L replied as he took his hand away. He saw the black hair man thrust into the blonde man on the video. He had to admit it was turning him on. He was thinking Raito like that. Stop thinking that way. He is seven years younger than me and he is a suspect to the worse serial killer of all time.

Raito grabbed L's hand and placed it over the bulge, trying to get the man to please him. When he felt the hand move against the clothe, he whimpered, "More. Oh god, please."

L couldn't think. All he heard was Raito's pleading voice. He grabbed the hem of Raito's pants and pulled them down with his boxers. As he stared down, he saw the teenager's cock. He rubbed across the head, watching as the other buckled upward. Raito tossed his head back. In some part of his mind, he knew he should stop this. He is young. He doesn't know what he wants. He is too young for me to be doing this to him. Strangely enough, Raito being a suspect wasn't bothering him as much. He decided to give the boy some relief. He grabbed Raito's cock and stoked it. With his other hand, he played with Raito's balls.

Raito lay down on the bed, tossing his head from side to side. He couldn't believe this was happening. L was jerking him off and it felt amazing. He didn't care that the other was doing this to play with his emotions. He is touching me. Oh god, he is touching me. I want more. He moaned, "Lllllllllll."