I'm sorry this took a lot longer to post than expected. Between finals and the Holidays, I've been busy but I have some time off now, so hopeful I can focus on my writing and this story.

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"I remember the way you made love to me
Like I was all you'd ever need
Did you change your mind
Well I didn't change mine
Now here I am trying to make sense of it all
We were best friends now we don't even talk
You broke my heart
Ripped my world apart"

"Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You" Kellie Pickler

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Elliot's Apartment, Saturday November 18, 8:15 am

"I'm coming," Elliot shouts to his closed front door as he walked up to it trying to put on his sock. The door bell rings again as he leans against the wall trying to pull the sock on the rest of the way, "I'm com…" he starts but stopped when he opens the door and sees. "Alex," he looked at the ADA with confusion he was expecting Olivia they were suppose to go for coffee like every Saturday morning since the separation of him and Kathy.

"Hello Elliot," she greets formally.

"Is something wrong," he asked worriedly as he looks past her to see if maybe Olivia was with her.

"I was sent to give you this," she holds out a white envelope ignoring his question.

"What is it," he asks looking at it skeptically.

"It's a letter just take it, please," she didn't want to do this.

"Who sent it," she let out a deep sigh and pushes the envelope toward him, "Please Elliot I'm a messenger nothing more," he reluctantly takes the letter from her turning it over in his hands before looking up to be meet with nothing but air and the wall across the hall from his apartment.

My Dearest Elliot,

I don't really know where to start I guess I should start by saying I'm on a plane right now south bound. I can't tell you where I'm going I don't want you to come and look for me. El, some things in my life just got very complicated and rather than drag you in to this mess I've made with me, I'm just going to take myself out of the equation. I'm fine and I will be fine but I can't tell you anymore than that I'm sorry. I just want you to know this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I don't want you to hate me. But I want you to know the night we spent together was the best night of my entire life and I wouldn't take it back for anything. But you need to be with your family I don't want to pull you from them. Maureen, Kathleen, Lizzie and Dickie need you no matter what happens with you and Kathy's impending divorce. I'm afraid I would just get in the way of that, so I'm leaving Elliot. I won't contact you. This is the last time you will have to hear from me, or put up with any more of my problems. I just want you to know that I do love you, you're my best friend and I couldn't not have asked for a better more wonderful man to be my best friend my partner or my one time lover. Thank you for everything Elliot, I will never forget you.

Love, Liv.

The letter fell from his hand as the tears fell from his eyes.

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The Precinct, Saturday November 18, 11:25 am

"She's gone," Don looks up from his letter to Alex who was standing with her arms crossed as she paces in front of his desk. She just nods and lets out a quite "Yes," before stopping and turning to look down at his desk where Olivia had left her badge and gun, "She's gone,"

Olivia hadn't told Alex where she was going but Alex made her promise she would contact her once she got to wherever it was she was going, in return Alex would deliver Olivia's letters. She hated it especially giving Elliot his, she had to walk away so she wouldn't cry in front of him because she knew the letter could very well kill him.

She walked out of Captains office and was meet by silent faces of Munch and Fin. "She's not coming back is she," Fin was first to break the silence.

Alex shook her head softly "No, she's not,"

"Where did sh…." Before Munch could finish his sentence the slamming opening of the precincts door turns all there attentions to see and angry Elliot stalking over to Alex, Fin rises from his desk eyeing Elliot.

"How could you let her do this," he spat.

Alex composed herself trying not to get mad at Elliot for lashing out at her reminding herself that he was hurting, "I didn't, she made her own choice Elliot, I told you I was just a messenger,"

"Where did she go, I know you know," his eyes were blood shot.

"Elliot calm down," Fin steps in between Elliot and Alex.

"Fuck off Fin," Elliot leaches.

"Where the hell did she go," Elliot yells making the windows shake.

Alex shakes her head wordlessly "I…I don't know,"

"Bullshit," Elliot screamed and turned to shove the lamp that was on the desk next to him, sending it shattering to the floor. Alex closed her eyes as Fin and Munch stand and watch, Don came out of his office by this point.

Elliot ran his hands over his face tying to hold back tears. "How could she do this to me I thought she lov…." He stops mid sentence the tears finally breaking though as he holds his hands over his eyes and face. His chest heaves as the other 4 people watch his breakdown, Alex wants to hug him tell him it will all be better but she knows her words will do nothing for him he has to deal with this on his own.

To say Alex felt guilty was and understament she felt horrible she let Liv leave, she should have talked her out of it told her that running would do nothing to help the situation but she knew Olivia had to deal with this in her own time, in her own way, and if this was the way she choice to deal then Alex had to respect her decision but it didn't mean she had to like it.

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Elliot's Apartment Sunday November 19, 2:40 am

Elliot lays in his bed shirtless staring at the ceiling fan as it goes round and round like his thoughts, thoughts of her. How could she do this to him, didn't she know how much he loved her couldn't she feel it. He would have left his wife for Olivia in a heartbeat if things weren't so complicated. And then the day came where Kathy told Elliot she wanted a divorce that she was sorry but she had found someone else. That she didn't want this to affect his relationship with the children and she would never take them away from him but she just wasn't in-love with him anymore. In a way it was a blessing in disguise.

And then the night drunken night came stumbling down the hall in her apartment, lips on lips, her skin on his Hot. Sticky. Sweaty. Heaven. he could never forget that night, the way it felt to be inside her, him pushing into her, her pushing against him. He could still feel her body against his almost smell her still, in the dreams that haunted his nights since that night. They hadn't really talked about it, the next morning was awkward both had laughed it off and chalked it up to a drunken mistake, they were both drunk and didn't know what they were doing, just to forget it and move on like nothing had happened. But in reality they both knew exactly what they were doing and he couldn't forget it even if he tried.

He just wanted to wake up from this awful nightmare and have her hold him, tell him everything was going to be ok, like the night she did when Kathy told him she was leaving him. She held him as he cried, and blamed himself for pushing his wife into another man's arms cried for what this was going to do to their children. And she just held him and whispered comforting words to him as he cried like a baby. She was his best friend, his partner, the one that was always there for him but now she was gone. He should be mad at her, hate her even, but right now he just missed her. He wanted her to come thought his door tell him it was all a joke, that she wasn't really gone, wrap her small but strong arms around him hold him while he cried. But tonight she was there to tell him it was all going to be ok, to hold him as he cried, his best friend left him so he cried himself to sleep.

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So this chapter took a lot longer than expected but I hope it made up for the delay. I hope the next chapter won't take as long to get up. Reviews are appreciated and accepted, please let me know what you think good or bad.