Being one to seek approval I have composed a second chapter to Breaking My Heart, this chapter is not a song fic. So read and enjoy, this chapter is based off of Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional from the Spider Man 2 sound track
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that
I am Vindicated
"Vindicated" Dashboard Confessional
Chapter Two: Vindicated
Lightning ripples through my room, exposing everything in a pure light for an instant. Storms have always frightened me; I never really used to mind though because Robin was with me. He always promised that nothing bad would happen to me.
It does not seem as if he cares anymore about such things. All that matters is Slade. Just thinking his name makes me ill; Slade is the reason I feel hate. He has taken Robin away from me, my mind states this often, and I suppose that that is why I loathe Slade.
My body feels cold as the door slides open, "Star, close the window," Cyborg demands as he usually does, normally I would not oblige, but today I do. My windowsill is covered in water from the rain. "Hey, why don't you come into the living room and watch a movie with us?" Cyborg suggests. I shake my head.
"Perhaps another night Cyborg, I am quite tired." Which is not a lie, I will watch a movie with them another night, and I am very tired, but that is not why I will not view the video tonight. Tonight Raven will be choosing the video, which more than likely will be frightening, and Robin will not be there to inform me that the villains are not real.
So tonight I will sleep, and listen to calming music. Slowly I rise to rummage through my discs until I stumble across one that I have never listened to before, the writing is clear and reads Dashboard Confessional. I have heard the others speak of this band before and insert the disc into my box of boom.
The first song begins with a nice melody of guitars and the vocalist has a very soothing effect on me. He begins singing about begin captivated by hope, and the music grows louder. I rest my head on the edge of my mattress and feel at peace. Until a knock pulls me out of my calm.
With a small sigh I rise to answer it, it is probably Cyborg or Beast Boy trying to lure me out. I punch in the code to open it, only to meet the masked eyes of Robin. "Yes?" I ask silently telling myself, do not let him in Starfire, resist the urge to invite him in, he does not care about how you feel, and you heard him all that matters to him is catching Slade.
"Star, we need to talk. Can I come in?" His mask is rose higher on one side expressing curiosity, my brain yells no, tell him no Starfire, have you no pride?
"I suppose," I shrug casually ignoring the pestering remarks in my head. I move to the side allowing him to enter, shutting the door behind me, and flicking on the lights. He sits down on my floor and faces the box of boom briefly and looks curiously at me once more.
"This doesn't really seem like your style," he gestures towards the music. I sit on the floor as well and yet again shrug. He quietly begins to sing along, he sings beautifully, even if I am in the process of trying to ignore him. He stops abruptly according to his eyes he did not realize that he was singing aloud, he clears his throat and begins to speak again: "Starfire, are you mad at me?"
"No Robin, why would you think I was?" I ask. A memory of one of the wise things Raven has said appears in my mind Boys don't notice if you're lying or not, they don't really seem to pick up on the sarcasm, I remember this and hope that it works, for if it is true Robin will drop the subject.
"Because I can see it in your eyes," He declares gently, he is making being angry very difficult, "you're upset about something, and I'm taking a guess to say that it's because of me."
"Is Slade the only thing you think about?" I ask before I can stop myself. Some how I think he knew that my question would be this, for he does not look shocked.
"No," he does not sound defensive. "I think about other things too,"
"Such as," I begin for him. He stares blankly in thought. Foolish girl, you thought he would say your name; it is obvious that he will never feel such emotion towards you. "Never mind Robin, perhaps you should leave," He looks shocked momentarily.
"I'm sorry Star," he apologized. I look at him as if to ask why? He answers my silent question, "I'm sorry for being selfish and not spending more time with you guys. I just want to keep everyone safe." Oh brave heroic Robin! You are wonderful, my brain rejoices.
"It is all right Robin" I whisper trying to soothe him. "I understand."
"Star I've been horrible, how can you be so forgiving?" confusion is woven into his voice. X' Hal I will not cry, I think as my eyes begin to water. "Why are you crying?" he asks touching my cheek with a gloved hand.
I open my mouth to reply when another bolt of lightning strikes and destroys the lights. "Robin? Where have the lights gone?" I ask. I feel his hand upon mine.
"Don't worry it's just a power outage, the storm must have knocked the power out. Let's go into the living room with the others," I can feel him pull me up and we walk to the door, only to discover "it's jammed shut," Robin mutters. The electricity must have broken the doors as well.
"I shall retrieve the various flame bearing objects," I walk into my bathroom in search of my tiny torches until I find them. I place them around my room and light them with starbolts. "We have light now." I inform him. Robin nods and I join him on the floor. "What do we do now?"
"We wait," he answers
End Two
A/N: there will be one more chapter after this. I'm sorry if this was lame, I don't like the turn out, but I don't think I can make it better. To my lovely reviewers:
Flying Star too lazy to sign in: we seem to do that a lot don't we (not sign in to review) I feel special now that I know someone appreciates my descriptions of angst drama stuff. Thanks
S t a r s h in e W e ir do: thanks for the sequel chapter inspiration, I read your review and was listening to my Spiderman (I don't own) 2 sound track and heard the song Vindicated and said to my friend "I can so totally do a sequel to Breaking My Heart!" your little candle thing gave me some plans too
Inus-Kagome: Thank you, I'm glad you chose to read my song fic and enjoyed it.
SuNsHiNe10: I would say it is a very popular song amongst these parts. I'm glad to hear you like my style and happy that you enjoyed my non damsel Starfire, and fiend-ish Robin.
Waterangel17: thanks
I'll get chapter 3 up soon, I'll give you the title of it though: Tuesday Morning: it's a Michelle Branch song.