a/n: I promise to update this as often as possible, as long as I have something to work with. I can see this being a good story to my Cabenson lovers.

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It had felt like time had stood still while Olivia sat in her office thinking about Alex. She laughed at herself for how pathetic she was coming off. They were just friends, nothing more.

Olivia laughed again. Who the hell was she kidding?

Alexandra Rose Cabot had been the love of her life at one point, and she would have done literally anything she asked. Things were a little different now, Noah was in the picture, but truth be told, Olivia still would do anything for Alex. Olivia knew things definitely had to have changed between them… After all, it had been nearly six years since they had worked together.

Yet again, Olivia had gotten lost in the thought of Alex and didn't realize Amanda was now standing in front of her with her arms crossed. Liv shook her head and met her brown eyes with blue and smiled.

"You've been completely out of it for the last ten minutes, are you good?" She asked crossing her arms, looking at her superior.

Olivia smiled and nodded. "Honestly, I'm fine. I guess.. Just hearing Alex's name. Old feelings." She smiled and sat back and looked at her. "I'm sure there's going to be a huge rumor going around about us soon. Word travels fast around here." The brunette laughed shaking her head.

Amanda offered a smile and sat down. It was nice to finally be on a friendship level with Olivia. Amanda truly had worked her ass off to finally win over her trust, and slowly but surely, it had happened.

Amanda admired Olivia, in many ways. She was beautiful for starters, funny, caring, compassionate. Amanda would never admit it, but she did have a slight crush on her boss, but she knew that was strictly off limits. The blonde detective was just blessed that she was finally on the good side of things. They had a great friendship, their kids got along so well, they worked incredibly well together. Amanda knew she didn't deserve the little things Olivia did here and there to help her out when needed, but she thanked her lucky stars.

Staring at Olivia had just made her realize how lucky of a woman Alex could be if they had finally given in to each other.

"Quit staring, you weirdo." Olivia finally laughed as Amanda laughed with her.

"Sorry, Liv. I'm just thinking. You and Alex? It's gonna happen." She grinned playfully.

Olivia shook her head and raised her brow. "I just found out about 20 minutes ago that a woman I used to love is about to be working on a case with us, I don't know how to fully process that information."

Amanda smiled and looked at her. "Have you ever told her how you felt?" She questioned.

Olivia couldn't help but laugh at that point. "Look, Manda. Alex and I… We were very complicated. I wasn't even sure I was interested in women then.. I had gotten out of a relationship with a man who was completely in love with me, and it was just… Weird. I was learning who I was as a person… And as much as I loved that person I was with, being around Alex all the time... Yeah." Olivia laughed again.

"We talked about relationships… Men we had been with, people we had loved, but we never crossed that line." She sighed softly. "I mean.. We did come close one night." She laughed softly, remembering the night they were in the hotel together.

"Anyways," The brunette smiled at the blonde. "I think I really do still love her to this day, but I don't see it happening. Her and I are a lot alike, but different. I don't even know if she wants kids, and you know Noah and I are a packaged deal." She laughed a bit.

Amanda smiled and reached over Olivia's desk to grab her hand.

"Anyone who loves you, is lucky enough to experience raising a child with you. You have taught me so much about being a mom and shown Jessie and I so much love over the past few months. I do believe that if she was the love of your life at one point, and you hers, she would do anything for you." Amanda spoke honestly and stood up to give her friend a hug.

"I'm not going to lie, I am a little jealous and do hope I find someone who talks about you the way you talk about her. You've got a sparkle in your eye, Liv." Amanda smiled and withdrew from the hug and planted a kiss on her cheek.

Olivia couldn't help but feel a rush of emotions come over her. She was incredibly blessed to have a strong woman in her life to help raise a child with. She had thought about Amanda in that way every now and then, but she never dare cross the line. She knew it could get messy, and with the way her and Amanda's friendship had blossomed, she didn't want to take the chance and ruin it.

"Your words mean the world to me, Amanda. And I'm very grateful to have you as a friend." Olivia smiled and squeezed her hand.

"I'm going to head down to the DA's office.. Maybe I can talk with her before we jump into a case." Olivia smiled and grabbed her coat.

Amanda smiled and nodded in agreement. "Good luck, Liv. Get your woman." She teased playfully as Olivia chuckled and rolled her eyes.

"Fin, I need to step out. Call me if you need me?" Liv smiled as she submered from her office, following Amanda with a big grin on her face.

"You got it, boss." Fin nodded and looked at Amanda. "I don't know where shes going, or what you said to her, but it's good to see that smile again." Fin smiled, happy to see Olivia happy.

"I told her what she needed to hear, and we'll see how it plays out." Amanda smiled sitting down.

Olivia made it to the elevator when she had felt her phone vibrate in her pocket.

Alex Cabot popped up across her screen. She smiled a little, she didn't think she'd ever get over the little butterflies she got when her name was seen or said.

"Alex.." Olivia spoke into the phone as the elevator doors closed.

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