Author's Note:
Alright, I was so immensely happy that I got a comment -xD- that I decided to continue this. Don't blame me if it sucks though! I wasn't planning this. Sorry... but you'll have to wait on the yummy yaoi.
WARNING: YAOI. BOY X BOY. Well, actually, with this chapter, it's safe. NEVERMIND.
I DON'T OWN ANYTHING EXCEPT THE PLOT.
Enjoy~
"...I need some air." I exclaimed before promptly walking out the door. No one gave me so much as a glance, as I anticipated.
After shutting the front door, I sighed. I seriously needed to get away from all of the shenanigans going on lately. You'd think with how I'm rich and all I could just hop on a plane and take a vacation, but no, Father hasn't been allowing the use of excess money lately.
Subconsciously my gaze directed itself at the moon. Upon realizing this, I noticed that I had no idea where I was, considering I was walking the entire time and my head was in a daze. I stood there, dumbfounded, staring at the beautiful glowing orb. I noticed it was a full moon, and smiled.
I wish I was a star. Right next to the moon. Then I wouldn't have to deal with all of these stupid feelings. I wouldn't have to deal with all of this pain. I could simply stare at the ravishing sight for eternity... or at least until I become a black hole and suck everything up.
Dammit. Why do I even have to deal with this anyway?
I allowed myself to drown in thoughts once more, even if they always seem to go back to that night. I can't believe I went and did that on his pillow... I wonder if he noticed...
But more than that why did he do what he did? Why did he kiss me of all things? I understand that I made him mad and all, but did he have to torture me so much?
And doesn't he understand that he can have Haruhi? It's not like I'm going to take her away from him or anything, I mean, I love someone of whom I'm not supposed to.
...Unless he knows. I-It couldn't be possible, could it? He could have known and just did that to torment me because he knew it would hurt so much. I mean... no. No! He's way too dense to realize. And he's not so cruel to do such a thing even if he did know. And I hide my feelings for him so well! I mean, I have to. It's not exactly something that I want to scream to the world... after all, it's not like these feelings are exactly acceptable.
I looked up to the sky once more, clouded, not unlike my mind.
Dammit Hikaru. Why'd you choose Haruhi? Why'd you leave me?
Why...? You abandoned me... after all I did for you. I was always there for you. I nursed you when you were sick. I helped you open those doors to the host club. It was my hand you held when we were younger. It was my pain you shared when our maid turned out to be a robber and told us that no one would tell us apart. It was with me that we tricked those girls... remember?
"It was me." I whispered to the wind, hoping it would sooth me, comfort me.
I was the one who gave you that date with... No... It was my fault. I set you and Haruhi up... It's because of me...
I fell to my knees. This time, I accepted the tears that begged to be revealed in the darkness of the night.
I looked up once more. It's funny. The moon. It's scarred, just like me, yet... somehow... it's still so beautiful... unlike me.
My Darlings~
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