Uruha smiled as he looked at his friend in the bathroom mirror. The blonde was humming as he played with his hair a bit and fixed his makeup again. The brunette rolled his eyes as he pushed himself from the wall.

"You almost done?"

Reita turned with a quizzical expression. "What?"

"You've been touching up for ten minutes now. We have to get back to band practice in five minutes."

"Oh yeah." He mumbled with a faint blush. "I forgot."

The guitarist smiled as he patted his friend's back. "He really makes you happy, doesn't he?"

"Yeah." He mumbled. "Let's go."

Uruha shook his head with a smile as his friend blushed with embarrassment. The brunette was happy for him though. Reita has been so much happier the past couple of months because he was dating the guitarist of Dir en grey. Die has helped the blonde out a lot, whether the two realized it or not. He scratched his head and smiled as he walked out of the bathroom and down the hallway to the studio. He walked in to find Reita smiling as he texted on the phone and bit his bottom lip. Uruha sat on the couch and crossed his legs.

"Something going on?"

Reita looked up, not losing his smile. "Yeah. Die wants to go out again tonight right after practice."

"Oh? You to have been going out a lot. Anything else happen?" He asked suggestively.

The blonde face grew bright red. "Th-that's none of your business." He stuttered, making his friend laugh.

"Ok fuckers, let's get started!" Aoi shouted as he walked in. Uruha rolled his eyes and got up as Reita finished his text.

Kyo growled as he walked over and smacked his papers across the back of his guitarist's head. The brunette flinched before he glared at his singer only to get one back. "What was that for?"

"You're supposed to be helping us practice, instead you're standing there like a girl texting her boyfriend."

"Hey! None of you guys are working anyways, so what's wrong with me texting?"

"We're supposed to be practicing and it would help if you wouldn't act like nothing is going on." Kyo raised his voice, but the brunette just rolled his eyes and continued what he was doing.

"Who are you talking to?" Toshiya asked as he leaned on Die's back earning a groan.

"None of you business."

"Oh?"

"Would you two stop so we can get to work." Their vocalist growled. The bassist took this opportunity to snatch his band mate's phone.

"Hey!" Die yelped as he went after it.

"I can't wait to see you tonight. Don't worry, you're sexy in anything you wear. Ah! Die has a girlfriend!" Toshiya laughed but yelped when his friend launched at him. Before he could attack the bassist though, Kyo jumped on him, taking him down to the floor.

"Add to it!"

"Don't you dare!"

"Kaoru help me!" The short man yelped as Die started getting up. Their leader, finding this to all to be too amusing, got up and sat on his friend along with Kyo.

"How does this sound guys?" Toshiya announced. "I can't wait to see you tonight. Don't worry, you're sexy in anything you wear. Though I'm hope we can go to my place afterwards and have a nice evening of me ravishing you. I also want to try something new. Something with toys."

"Oh my god don't you dare!" Die yelled.

"Send it!"Kyo laughed.

"Sent." The bassist giggled as he pushed the button. Die's face grew red as he lifted himself and threw his friends off his back. He jumped to his feet and stomped to his band mate. He gripped the brunette's shirt and was ready to punch him when his phone started going off. They all looked at the device for a moment before Die quickly snatched it from the hand. He hit the button just in time to answer it.

"H-hello?"

"Um…Die." Reita's voice was quiet, almost nervous sounding.

"Listen about the text, I didn't send that. My jackass friends did. I'm really sorry."

"Oh."

The brunette heard the disappointment in his lover's voice and glared at his friends before walking out of the room. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing I was just…kind of embarrassed is all."

Die smiled as he picture the blonde all red faced. "We could still do it. Without the toys of course, but I don't mind ravishing you after we get done at the club."

Reita laughed. "I wouldn't mind that."

"Good because I intend on doing just that."

"I can't wait."

"I'll be picking you up around eight."

"I'll be waiting."

"Bye." Die sighed.

"Goodbye."

The brunette closed his phone and slipped it into his pocket. He turned with a smile on his face, but it changed to a frown when he saw his band mates peeking their heads through the door. He glared at them as he headed back in.

Reita packed up his bass and looked at the clock only to smile. He grabbed his suitcase and went past his friends, who were cleaning the room up, down to the bathroom. He sat the bag down and started playing with his hair and touching up his makeup. He pulled out his white tank top that cut off above his belly button and quickly changed into it, then he changed into a clean pair of baggy pants. As he put on some deodorant, the bathroom door opened and Ruki walked in. The short vocalist smiled as the door closed it behind him.

"You look good."

"Thanks." The blonde whispered as he grabbed a thin black jacket and slipped it on. Reita rubbed his blonde hair then looked at his body in the mirror. "I'm happy."

"We can tell and we're relieved. We were worried when you kept going out and sleeping with random people."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."

"We know and it's ok." Ruki patted his friend's back. "We're happy for you. Now you look great, so go out and have fun!"

The bassist laughed, but before he could say anything else, his ringtone started going off. He smiled when he saw the name and answered it. "Hello?"

"Hey sexy." Die said. "What are you doing right now?"

"Talking to Ruki."

"Well, when you get done, I'm down here waiting for you."

"Oh, I'll be there in a minute then."

"Take your time."

Reita smiled. "Alright. See you in a bit." He closed the phone and smiled at his friend. "He's waiting downstairs."

"Go on then."

"What about the studio?"

"Don't worry. We'll deal with it."

Reita hugged his friend before he ran out of the bathroom and down the hall. Ruki smiled as he grabbed his friend's bag and headed back to the studio to help out.

The blonde slipped out of the building and spotted his boyfriend's car. He looked around for cars before he jogged across the parking lot to the car and opened it up. He slipped in and leaned over to catch Die's soft lips. The guitarist rubbed Reita's cheek as he pushed into the kiss. They pulled away and smiled as Reita sat in the seat.

"Good day?"

"Yeah. I couldn't wait for tonight."

Die laughed as he started the car up and pulled out. "You're always so excited when we go out."

"Of course I am. It's a night I get to spend with you."

The brunette smiled as he gripped his lover's hand. "Let's get going then."

They pulled up at club a half an hour later and parked the car. Die gripped the blonde's hand and walked up to the door together where he handed the bouncer money for each of them. They immediately walked to an open booth and sat down together. A waitress came by to them and smiled.

"Reita, it's been a while." She smiled. "The usual for you?"

"Yes please and a beer for him."

"I'll be right back with that." She smiled as she walked away. Die raised a brow and rubbed his lover's back.

"I didn't know you came here."

Reita scratched the back of his head. "Yeah. I use to a lot before we got together."

"You say that at about every place we go to." The brunette huffed. "Are we going to see people hitting on you here too?"

His lover looked down with a sad expression, but he took a breath and crawled over Die's body. He sat on his lover's hips, the table forced them to press more together. Reita let his jacket fall off his shoulders and he tossed it onto the table before he gripped the guitarist's shoulders. "All of this, everything you see right now," He moved his hands down to get his lover to grip his hips. "Everything that you're touching, belongs to you. My body, my heart, and my love is yours. I want you to remember that."

The brunette sighed as he placed his head on Reita's chest. "I care about you, but I'm just so tired of it all."

"aww." They looked up the waitress putting down a beer and a glass full of a blue liquid. "I'll leave you alone then."

They sighed as Reita moved off his lover and sat properly. They waited for her to leave before they picked up their drinks. The blonde took a big gulp of his while Die sipped his beer. The brunette raised a brow. "What are you drinking?"

"Adios mother fucker."

"What?"

"That's what it's called." The blonde shrugged taking another drink.

"And here I thought you were a beer guy."

"I am, but this place makes these things so fucking good. Here try."

Die took the straw and had a sip. "What the fuck? Are you trying to get hammered?"

"No. This is probably all I'm going to drink."

Die sighed as he continued sip his beer. They sat there just sipping their drinks as people moved all around them, dancing to the clubs' heavy beats and sounds. Reita kept looking at his lover in the corner of his eye then back down to his almost empty drink. Previous insecurities coming back into his head as well as guilt. He started scratching his arms as he thought about all the different men he's slept with and all the time he's wasted. He felt so dirty now, but he tried his best to put it behind him and be happy, but sometimes it was hard. He felt like a used item that's been tossed around. As these thoughts ran through his head, he instinctively leaned onto his boyfriend's shoulder. Die wrapped his arm around the blonde's body. Reita looked up and gently kissed his lover's neck.

"Want to dance?" Die asked with a smiled. "Let me show what I have so everyone knows what not to touch."

"I couldn't agree more." Reita whispered and slipped out of the booth. He waited for the brunette to slide out as well before they headed to the dance floor. As they moved to the middle, Die caught several guys taking long glances of Reita. He glared at them as he and his lover stopped to start dancing. Reita shaking his hips and pressed up against the brunette. Die spotted the men coming closer and he knew what was going through their heads. They think they can still his meat, but he won't allow it. He needed to show possession and he needed to show it now. He latched his lips on Reita's pale neck as he grinded against him. The blonde gasped when he felt his lover's hand going into his shirt and start rubbing his nipple. He threw his head back as Die's other hands rubbed his stomach and started slipping into his pants. The blonde moaned and bucked his hips as he gripped the limp flesh inside.

"Die." He whispered, "So good."

Die moved from the neck and saw the men backing off so he removed his hand, making his lover whimper. He kissed Reita's neck, up to his and whispered. "Not here. Later, when we get back ok. I can't let these people see what belongs to me. That includes your face when you orgasm."

The blonde blushed but smiled. "That's reasonable I guess, but we better get off the dance floor before I get too horny to help it."

Die gripped his hand and led him off to their booth where he sat down, but Reita stayed up. "What are you doing?"

"I'll go get us some more beer. Our waitress is a little busy with her boyfriend."Reita nodded over to her sitting in some guys lap then walked off. Die watched him walk up to the bar and lean on it, sticking his butt out. Reita wiggled his hips as he talked to the bartender then he looked back at the brunette and winked. As two beers were sat in front of him, a young man walked up to the blonde. His body showed how much he worked out, his spiked gel hair stuck straight up, and his height was more than most Japanese men.

"Rei."

The bassist turned and saw his old friend. "Sadao? Is that you?"

"Yeah." The taller man laughed. "I'm surprised you remembered me."

"It's been so long, but it's hard to forget you."

"It is hard to forget me, especially how good I made you feel in bed." He made Reita blush, but the blonde stepped back when he moved closer. "That hurts."

"Yeah well I'm not interested."

Sadao rubbed his hand down the blonde's arm and pressed up against him. "How are you not interested in me now? When the past, I don't know, six or seven times we met, you were more than interested."

"Please stop." He whispered.

The brunette smiled as he swiped some hair out of his face and rubbed his cheek. "Why don't you come back to my place tonight? Remember all the fun we had. How hard I made you orgasm. I'll make you feel like you're in heaven again."

Reita gasped as he felt the Sadao feeling his body up. "No." He whimpered when he felt the hand grip between his legs.

"You know you want it."

Die felt his body heat up with anger when he saw the tall man touching his lover and he jumped to his feet when saw the guy pushing up against him. He stomped over to them as the guy started moving hair out of the blonde's face and rubbing his body. As he moved closer he felt his heart ache as he saw Reita reacting in the man's grasp. The bassist squeezed his eyes shut as he gasped and Sadao took this chance to lean down and kiss him. Reita's eyes opened up and he pushed the man away. He raised his hand to slap him, but Die gripped the taller one's arm and turned him. Their eyes looked straight into each other as they stood at equal height.

"Never touch him again!" The brunette growled.

"Who the hell are you?"

"My boyfriend." Reita said slapping the man across the face. "Never touch me again. Don't even come near me!"

Die pushed him back before he glared at his lover. Before the blonde could say anything, he was being dragged away by the guitarist.

He winced from the strong grip as they made their way outside the club. He started stumbling from his lover's speed. "D-Die, what about the bill."

"I left enough on the table." He grumbled.

"Die, please stop. You're hurting me."

"shut up."

"I'm sorry!" the blonde pulled away from his lover. "I'm sorry that he showed up ok."

"Let's not talk here." He said seeing people looking at the two of them. He walked past the bassist and unlocked his car. Reita sighed and followed his lover into the car and got in.

The drive there was an eerily silent and it made the blonde shiver. He couldn't help but feel scared. He never felt so much guilt, even before was a lighter version of it, but now he felt like he betrayed his lover. He closed his eyes and hugged himself. 'He must hate me now. He's probably disgusted in dating a whore.'

Die glanced over at the blonde, but kept his eyes mainly on the road. He was pissed more than anything, who wouldn't be though? He witnessed his boyfriend getting off from another guy and got kissed by him. Sure Reita pushed him away, but he got off on it. Die was seriously contemplating this relationship they had. He stepped on the brakes as he turned into the apartment complex. He went into the garage and parked in his spot. They waited in silence for a moment, but Die finally stepped put. The blonde looked sadly at the door before stepping out as well. They walked into the building and rode the elevator in complete silence. It wasn't until they got into the apartment that Reita spoke.

"I'm sorry. That man—"

"I've had enough." Die whispered, but then spoke louder. "I've had enough of all of this. Where ever we go, no matter if it's a bar, club, or restaurant, there is always someone who's hitting on you! There is always a guy trying to get into your pants or some guy asking you for a one night stand! Damn it Rei! I knew slept around before, but how many guys did you sleep with?"

The blonde kept his eyes on the floor. "I…"

"You can't answer that can you?" Die hit his thighs with his hands. "I can't take it anymore."

"No. Die please." Reita finally looked up, but was about to start crying. "We don't have to go out to clubs anymore. We can hang out here or at my place. Please don't do this."

"I got into this relationship because I cared for you. This was the first relationship I had with another man. It's worse than dating a woman because of all this crap! I am sick and tired of men touching you! I'm tired of you flirting back with them when I'm sitting right there. I don't care if you were being nice, you need to realize that we're supposed to be a couple! You're not doing anymore one night stands!"

Reita sniffled, unable stop the tears running down his cheeks. "I-I'm sorry."

"Is that all you can say? 'I'm sorry' is all you've said this entire conversation."

"I don't know what else to say." He whimpered. "I know I made a mistake. I know that…my body isn't top prize, but I…"

Die sighed when the blonde couldn't finish the sentence. "I think this has gone on long enough."

"No, please no!" The blonde cried. "I'm begging you! Please Die don't do this. I'll try harder! I'll work harder. Please I've never been so happy."

"You might be, but what about me? I'm sick of you only thinking of yourself! It's over Rei!"

Reita felt something inside his chest break. He gripped his chest and stepped back. "Over…just like always. It's over." He whimpered.

Die couldn't look at the blonde anymore and turned towards the wall. "I'll call you a cab."

"Don't bother." Reita said. He wiped his cheeks as he grabbed his shoes, but more ran down as he opened the door and ran out. The guitarist punched the wall and glared daggers at the door. The blonde leaving that way was all too familiar to him. He ran his fingers through his hair and went into his room, slamming the door.

Dark days followed for both men and even though they tried to move forward, their friend's could see how bad things have gotten. Ruki and the others were worried seeing Reita coming in every morning for the next week smelling like alcohol, sex, and coming in with hangovers. It wasn't healthy at all for the bassist. They tried talking to him, but he would just blow them off and say everything was fine when it wasn't. Die was no different except he wasn't having sex all the time. At first his band mates joked around about it, but they soon realized how serious it was. The guitarist wasn't really eating and was coming in late smelling like beer. The brunette really didn't talk much about it and suddenly he's acting like nothing happened at all. He walked with all smiles and even ate lunch with the group. When they asked him about it, he just shrugged and said it was time to move on. So practice went on as usual and even went on late into the night.

Reita was at his favorite bar sipping his favorite blue drink. He's been here for three hours and he was still working on his first round. He sighed, he really didn't feel like getting drunk and certainly didn't feel like getting laid. Nothing felt as good as when he was with Die. He wasn't talking about bed wise because even though the guitarist wasn't the biggest he had, he felt absolutely amazing with him. Even when they were just hanging out, Reita felt the best, the happiest, the warmest when he was with Die. He sighed as he looked to the side, but a clanking glass caught his attention. A fresh blue 'adios mother fucker' was sitting in front of him. He looked up at the waiter with a raised brow.

"Yours got watered down. Besides, a friend of yours bought it for you. He said as an apology." He pointed over at the bar. Reita looked over to see Sadao waving at him. The blonde sighed as he took a drink of it. The taller man smiled as he continued to watch the blonde down the drink. Reita sighed as he pushed the empty glass away and rubbed his eyes. His mind was still circling Die and what had happened. He was still thinking about how he was disgusted with himself and how he hurt the guitarist instead of making him happy. He sniffled as he rubbed his eyes again and looked around. His head was swimming and everything started to spin. He reached out for his glass and looked inside it to see it completely empty. He knew something wasn't right. He stood up, grabbing the table as the world spun. He looked back to see Sadao standing up and starting to walk over with two guys behind him. He whimpered as he rushed to the bathroom. He didn't care who he bumped into or if he stumbled, he had to get to safety. He got into the bathroom and into an open stall. He slammed it shut and locked it before sliding down to the floor. He pulled out his phone, almost dropping it as he dialed the first number on his mind.

Die and Kaoru were sitting in chairs in front of each other, playing a song together. They were almost done when a string on Die's guitar snapped. He sighed as he sat it to the side and moved to get another string from his case. He started restringing it when he saw Kaoru putting his guitar in his case.

"What are you doing?"

"Let's call it a night."

"We should play a few more songs."

"Die, you're not concentrating. Your mind has been in a different place for the past couple of days. You need to settle whatever is going on."

The brunette shook his head. "I have."

"No you haven't. We've all seen it. You are acting different. Drinking all the time, napping on breaks and calling out his name all the time. Whatever happened is haunting you and you need to get in control. I'll give you a few days. Use them well." With that, the leader grabbed his case and walked out of the studio. Die ran his fingers through his hair before he packed up his stuff. He grabbed his bag and pulled out his phone. He clenched it when he saw the missed calls and voicemails on it. He knew who called by the ringtone and turned on vibrate when it went off earlier that night.

He sighed and flipped it open to hit the button to listen. A woman's voice spoke up like normal. "You have three new messages. First unheard message : Die," It was Reita. "I don't feel so good. I know it sounds like it, but I'm not drunk. I only had one tonight. I'm at Blue Sapphire. Please come and get me.' Next unheard message 'Die, please come and get meh. I don't feel…everything is spinning. They're knocking. Soh much. Sadao bought me… drink. Please, please come get me. I'm sorry I'm such a fuck up. I'm sorry I'm so dirty. I'm sorry I slept with so many guys. Please, I need you.' Next unheard message. 'Um…fuucl. Meh diel sa heme diesss. Close the door" A new voice, making Die jump to his feet. "Shit he called someone."

The phone call ended making the guitarist look at the phone. He didn't wait another second before he grabbed his things and ran down to his car.

He pulled up to the club, the same one that he last went to with Reita before they broke up. He got out of the car and ran up to the door. Tonight was really busy though and has a line down the side of the building. He ran straight up to the front, only for a bouncer stand in his way.

"Back of the line."

"Please, my friend is in there in the bathroom. He's…I don't know drunk but he called me and it sounded like someone drugged him. All I'm asking is to let me in and let me get him. You can have someone come with me, but please, he needs help."

The bouncer looked at his partner. "I'll be right back. Come on."

Die was relieved when he was allowed in. They went straight to the bathroom. There were several guys inside using it of course, but Die went knocking on the stall doors. He opened them one by one and he tried the fifth one. It hit something within a few inches. He peeked his head inside and felt his heart break. He felt anger welt up inside him. Anger for whoever did this and anger for himself for not coming sooner. The blonde was laying naked on the floor, his legs left spread open, and his clothes off in one corner. He knelt by Reita's body and carefully lifted it up into his arms. The bouncer emptied the bathroom and called the police. Die held Reita's body and grabbed his clothes. He tried his best to get the blonde dressed, but he started crying. His body shook as he held the bassist's body.

Reita opened his eyes to see a white ceiling. He looked around the room only to find his ex sitting in a chair by him. He set up, only to flinch in pain from his lower region. He rubbed his head trying to remember last night, but it was all just one big blank. He grabbed the brunette's arm and shook it, waking him up.

Die sat forward and grabbed the blonde's hand. "Reita. How are you feeling?"

"Like shit. What happened?"

"You called me last night." The guitarist moved sit on the bed and squeezed Reita's hand. "You were drugged and…you were r-raped."

The bassist gasped and tears instantly rolled down his cheeks. He pulled his body away and curled up against the headboard. "Please don't touch me."

Die moved closer and pulled him into a hug, but was pushed back. "Rei…"

"I'm dirty! I've always been dirty, but now…now I really am disgusting."

The brunette pulled him into another hug and this time he wouldn't let go. "You're not dirty. You were never dirty. You were always special to me and you still are. I'm sorry I hurt you. I am so sorry. I hope you'll forgive me."

Reita started crying on the guitarist's shoulder. "don't let me go. Please don't ever let me go."

"Never. I won't do it again. I won't hurt ever again, I swear."

"Promise?" Reita sniffled.

"I promise."

"My body hurts."

Die moved away, but smiled. "Let's get you out of here. If you're comfortable with it, I'll stay with you to help you until you're better."

"Die?"

"Yes?"

"Do you love me?"

The brunette froze, not taking his eyes off the blonde. "I don't want to lie. I think I am falling in love with you."

Reita smiled. "I love you. I want you to be happy. So if you don't love me, you can leave. I won't hold you to stay with me."

"I do love you." Die held the blonde's cheeks. "I want to stay with you."

Reita moved against his lover and hugged him. "Take me home."