Hello there,

Wow! You guys are amazing! Here I was thinking that I have a sick imagination, and I probably do, but you liked my story! I was so happy when I read the reviews! Thank you so much for reading and telling me what you think about my twisted ideas! Keep up the good work ;)

To be honest, I didn't plan to keep this story going on for too long, and I still can't figure out where to take the plot in the long run, so probably this is going to be a short fic. Like 1-2 more chapters and that's all. I really have no idea where to take it any further than my existing ideas...

So anyways. Let me know what you think about it! Liked, didn't like. How should I go on? Should I go on at all? And well this chapter doesn't really reveal much of where I'm taking the story, but all ideas welcome if you have some for this story.

Good reading,
Crysania

Ed Tucker weighed his options really carefully. Lucy was out of the picture. It was the middle of the night after all. He couldn't call Rollins. She had her own kid. He should really call Fin but he would ask too many questions and would probably talk Olivia out of a checkup. So he was left with Carisi. He was young enough to be flattered when a captain and a lieutenant called him for help and probably wouldn't ask too many questions. So he dialed his number from Olivia's phone and hoped that the young detective hasn't headed to the closest bar after they have all left the hospital.

Carisi sounded sober. And willing to help them out. So Tucker was left there with Olivia curled up on the couch still completely out of it. He needed to inform her that he decided they were going to the hospital.

'Hey,' he said sitting down next to her gently stroking her arm. He wasn't sure how was she going to react to his presence, or his touch, not to mention his idea of doing a rape kit. Well, maybe he should leave out that detail. Yeah. That's a good idea.

'Liv,' he tried calling her name but she still didn't show any indication that she actually could hear what he was saying, so he decided to continue and wait for her reaction when he told her that he's taking her to the hospital. 'There might be complications after what you… After what happened…' Still no reaction. Maybe she wasn't listening after all? 'I think you should see a doctor… Just to make sure everything was okay?' Absolutely no reaction. Not a flinch. Not a deeper breath. Then there was a knock on the door and she practically jumped off the couch.

'Oh my God, no, no… I can't…' she whined and he had no idea what to say. If she freaked out that much only from the thought of seeing a doctor, a hospital er would be a great adventure. 'I don't want to see him…' she cried clinging on to Tucker's collar. It was the closest she has been to him since she got home. And it has been the closest to his heart breaking since she got home. She thought it was the Deputy Chief by the door. 'Send him away, please, send him away,' she said barely audibly from her tears choking in her throat.

'Okay, just calm down. Sit down her…'

'No. Send him away.' she demanded with her whole body shaking.

'Liv, it's not him. Look,' Ed took the few steps to the door and opened it with a swift motion to reveal Carisi standing there.

'Oh my God…' she snatched her hand in front of her mouth as if to stifle a sob, suddenly unsure whether she was happy that it was Carisi standing in her door instead of Dodd Sr. or not.

'What the hell happened to her?' he asked the second he laid eyes on the lieutenant. He has never seen her so devastated. So broken. So small. And he was ready to punch Tucker in the face. 'What happened to her?' he growled facing the captain.

Maybe he should have called Fin after all. Carisi seemed too enthusiastic to interfere.

'Back up, Detective…' he put a hand on the younger man's shoulder giving him a gentle push backwards. 'I called you for a favor,' he went on when Carisi seemed able to focus on what he was saying, but he didn't remove his eyes from his superior. Olivia Benson, the strongest woman he has ever seen stood next to the couch, clutching at her chest and staring intently into the distance. 'I need to take her to a hospital. I think she's in shock and…' should he tell him? He had no business knowing what happened to Olivia. But he dragged him there in the middle of the night, he might as well trust him and tell him the truth.

'I'm not going to the hospital,' Olivia spoke up bringing both men out of their stupor. Her voice was quiet and broken, but there was no doubt she was not going to give in.

'Olivia, what happened?' Carisi stepped closer to her before Tucker could get to her. He sensed something was off, it couldn't only be the death of Mike, but he couldn't pinpoint what it was. 'Did he hurt you?' he asked and she didn't answer but her tears started rolling down her cheeks.

'Liv, look at me,' Tucker stepped in finally, taking her hands gently into his. 'We need to go to the hospital. You can be hurt… We need to get you checked out… Okay?' he talked to her calmly and the young detective watched their exchange intently. He had no idea what was going on, but he hoped to God, that the Lieutenant would tell him, show, or indicate any possible way if she had been hurt by Tucker. But he was the one who called… What the hell was going on?!

'I don't want to…' she cried like a little child when he's faced with a visit to the dentist.

'I know, baby. But what if he hurt you?' Tucker continued trying to look into her eyes, but her gaze was tightly fixed on the floor. Then the solution came to his mind. 'Let's get you some kind of tranquilizer so you could sleep a little, hm?'

What if he hurt her?- Hurt her? Who?

Tranquilizer?

What the hell was going on?

- The wheels were turning in Carisi's head at maximum speed and he couldn't get to any reasonable explanation for the scene he found himself in. He just stood there, rooted to the floor observing the conversation of the two superior NYPD officers.

'I'm not doing a rape kit…' she blurted out regardless of Carisi standing a couple of feet away from her.

Rape kit?- He was a hundred percent sure he heard Olivia uttering those words. The young detective was brought back from his thoughts and forced himself to pay attention to the rest of the exchange.

'Okay. Okay…' Tucker sighed with frustration. 'Just let's get you checked out. Okay? I want to make sure he didn't hurt you…' he said tucking a ringlet of hair behind her ear. And Carisi by that time was fairly certain that someone has raped Olivia Benson. His commanding officer. His lieutenant. And he was standing in the middle of her livingroom, while her boyfriend was trying to persuade her to let the hospital do a rape kit on her. He felt like his brain was about to melt in a couple of seconds.

'Liv, listen to me…' Tucker spoke up after a couple of seconds of silence. 'I know you're confused now, but what if you'll change your mind and want to press charges against him in the future? We won't have evidence against him…' he explained patiently fearing her reaction.

'I'm not pressing charges against the Deputy Chief. Not now, not in the future!' she thundered stepping away from Tucker and her detective wished there would be a small opening in the floor so he could disappear from the most uncomfortable situation of his life. And then the words traveled through his nervous system, hitting his brain with extra force. She's not pressing charges against the Deputy Chief. The Deputy Chief, as in William Dodds? Father of Sergeant Dodds, who passed away in the hospital only hours before? Chief William Dodds raped Olivia Benson?

'Hold on, Lieutenant…' he broke his silence stepping in between the arguing partners. 'Chief Dodds raped you?'

'He didn't,' Olivia barked back out of reflex but her reaction was nowhere close to believable.

'He had sex with her against her will…' Tucker added with a raised voice. 'What is that if not rape, Detective?'

'It wasn't rape…' Olivia broke into tears and Tucker took a step back. He was getting really frustrated with her. She was protecting that piece of shit when he never deserved any kind of sympathy.

'He knew you were never going to stop him, to say no, because you felt sorry for him. His son just died. Any other day, you would've never let him get close to you… But today, he played your emotions against you, Olivia…' Tucker summarized the situation and Olivia felt like the knife was turned a bit in her heart. She wasn't sure she could take it any longer. The escaping sobs shook her whole body.

'With all due respect, Captain. Throwing the blame around is not going to get us anywhere. You're not trained to handle these kind of situations, but I am… Let me take care of the Lieutenant…' he said swallowing his discomfort, his fears, and any signs of mortifications for the conversation he was about to have with his supervisor. Tucker stepped back letting him get closer to Olivia. She was devastated.

'Lieutenant…' he spoke up, but maybe it wasn't the best idea to remind her that she was indeed his superior officer. 'Olivia,' he said and she looked at him with tears rolling down her face uncontrollably.

'It wasn't rape…'

'Okay, so just tell me what happened, okay?' he tried to encourage her, but he was fighting an uphill battle.

'I don't want to Carisi…'

'Forget that it's me. I'm just a friend who wants to help you…' Carisi said with a tiny smile on his lips. It must have been equally uncomfortable for Olivia as it was for him. But he had no other idea so that might as well work. He definitely needed to get her to a hospital. If for nothing else but some kind of sleeping aid, because Tucker was right. She desperately needed them.

When she didn't say anything else, he decided to help her start. 'So I saw you leaving the hospital with the Chief. You drove him home… You made sure he got into the house. Offered him a drink? Or food? Both?' he guessed and she only sighed at his words. The new guy became a seasoned detective. In that moment he seemed too good for his own good. 'Did he ask you to stay little longer? He didn't want to be alone?' he asked and she nodded fixing her eyes on his.

'He poured me a drink too…' she spoke up finally and her voice was so tiny that Carisi could barely hear what she was saying though he was sitting right next to her. 'We sat on the couch. Didn't talk just sat,' she clarified and both men eagerly awaited the rest of her recitation. 'Then he laid his head on my shoulder and then put his arms around me and kissed…' her voice broke and she stole a glance at Tucker. He was standing behind the kitchen counter rubbing his forehead. It must be really difficult for him to hear what she was saying, and she thought for a second about just staying shut and leaving the rest of the story for Carisi to figure out.

'Then what happened?' he asked gently bringing her focus back to him.

'I was under him on the couch…' she said and she heard Ed releasing a giant breath. 'He fell asleep on top of me, then I sneaked out without waking him,' she finished her story and before anyone else could speak, she continued. 'I never said no, he didn't force me, it was not rape…'

Carisi sighed. He had no idea what to make of what he heard. It screamed rape, but if she claimed it to be consensual sex, then he couldn't really do anything at all.

'Did he hold you back somehow?' he asked in his final desperation. He was in no ways ready to hear more details of Olivia Benson being raped by the Deputy Chief, but he had to ask. 'Chokehold?' he suggested and his eyes traveled on her neck. There were no marks. At all. Not even a hickey.

'No. I was free to leave. My hands were free. I could've pushed him away,' she said and that time she didn't dare to look at Tucker anymore. He must have been mortified. His girlfriend just told another man in his very presence how she cheated on him.

'I don't know what to say, Olivia…' he spoke up finally and she felt even worse than she felt before if it was possible.

'I'm so sorry, Ed. I'm sorry…' she said looking at him with tears starting to roll down her cheeks again. It looked like she realized that she hurt Tucker with her actions more that she expected. As if the weight of her decision had suddenly crushed her. The decision to let Mike Dodds stay in the house alone. The decision that she had to be the one who Dodds Sr leaned on after his son died. And the decision that although she had her boyfriend and son waiting for her at home, she stayed with the other man. And she didn't only stay. She had to make him feel better… It was none of her responsibility. It should have never been her responsibility…

'Olivia, Tucker's right. You know he is…' Carisi said bringing them out of the silence that had enveloped the room after her confession. 'We need to get you checked out by a doctor… You can have serious injuries, if you…' he decided he was not going to finish the thought. They were all grownups. They all knew what he meant. 'Let me take you to a hospital,'

'Don't worry about that, I'll take her, if you could stay for another hour or so…' Tucker stepped out from behind the kitchen counter, taking unsure steps towards the couch.

'Actually, I think it would be a better idea if you stayed home…' the young detective answered ignoring the very likely backlash he was going to get from the Captain. There was moment of silence, then Tucker nodded.

'Alright. Like you said you are the expert…' he answered, his eyes fixed on Olivia. She didn't look back at him. Carisi took her hand and gently made her stand up from the couch. He held on tightly to her elbow, in case her feet gave out, and he walked her towards the door. It was going to be a great night.