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I should have been the one accompanying her throughout her sorrow, but I didn't.
I should have been there for her when she needed someone beside her the most, but I wasn't.
I loved her, from the moment I saw her, my words were just a façade; I didn't dare approach her, to face her, to confess, all because I feared rejection, like I had once experienced. I had dreamed of a perfect life with her, us loving, with many of our kids roaming the house, a perfect family.
But I was too late. In just moments my dreams were shattered.
I saw her, I saw her falling, even when falling she was as graceful as ever, her dress billowing in the wind. Even at death, she was beautiful, she looked like an angel.
I should have stopped her. I should have prevented her death. I should have eased her pain. All that I should have done, I did not do.
I could have stopped her from dying. But all because of my cowardliness, she is gone. If I had approached her, I could have stopped her.
But now she is gone. I have lost almost all meaning of living, if not for my duty of having to protect Sakura. I would gladly exchange my life for hers, just to see her live on, a happy life.
Meiling, you were my life, my hope, my joy, my light; why did you go...?
Okay, I wrote this a long time ago. I admit that it really isn't good, on hindsight. However, I'm just keeping it up, let's just say for memories' sake.
xoxo