The silence didn't end. Time just slowly snailed by as he stood there, crimson red eyes locked to the small opening in the door and locked at the familiar blonde thing. Everything was just quiet. Nothing moved, nothing happened. His feet wouldn't move, his body wouldn't allow him to walk away. The only thing that kept moving in his thin and pale body was his heart, his heart that was beating faster than he thought something this small would make it. It was horrible. Orihara Izaya did not freeze over just the sight of something that seemed familiar. He just did not. It wasn't right.

He ordered his body to move, even if it was just a little bit. He wanted to feel it could move and nothing was wrong. But even when his brain ordered his limps to move, nothing happened. He just continued to stand there in the hallway, frozen in front of the slightly closed door with the familiar blonde. It shouldn't bother him this much. It just shouldn't!

A light sigh passed the underground doctor's lips and he lowered his head. He knew he couldn't keep everything a secret for very long. Especially when the man he was keeping it from was an informant, who wanted to know everything about everything and everyone. It was just not possible to keep it a secret for ever. Some day the man had to find out. All he could do, was to keep him from it for as long as he could, keep him from the horrible secret.

Thinking the informant had already left even though he didn't hear a door shut, Shinra finally pulled himself up to stand. He had to go check up on the only patient he had. The patient took all his time and he didn't care. As long as he kept him alive and away from everyone, who might end up hurting him, everything would be fine.

As he walked towards the hallway with the few patient rooms, he could slightly hear the heart monitor beeping slowly. Guess he hadn't closed the door completely. The second he entered the hallway, his eyes was locked on the raven standing in front of the door, staring into the room through the small opening. Oh no...

"Izaya-kun! I thought you left already?"

He tried to sound as calm as he always was but he knew the truth about the man inside that room might have been spotted by the informant. No, it was no might. It was definitely what had happened. If he knew the informant well enough, and he did, the man would already have guessed who was lying inside the room, only being kept alive by a machine.

Izaya almost jumped in surprise by hearing the voice. He was roughly pulled back to reality, forced to twirl around and face the underground doctor. His lips slowly curled up in a slight Cheshire like smirk, making it a facade, a mask to how surprised and for some reason worried he actually was. He had found out who it was in there and he had no idea what the hell the man was doing. If the man was dead or alive was just one of his thousands of question running around in his head.

"Shinra, I can't just leave when something catches my attention. And now I'm just curious to know, why the hell you lied to me? You know a lot more about what happened to Shizu-chan, don't you? Don't tell me you don't, because I can recognize the monster of Ikebukuro miles away and that, in that room," he pointed to the door before he began talking again," is definitely Shizu-chan. So why don't you just go ahead and start talking, Shinra."

The entire hallway was filled with silence for a few moments, the only thing that could be heard was the small beeping sound coming from the patient room, that the informant pointed to. Lowering his head again, Shinra looked down at his own shoes and let his hands slide down into the pockets of the lab coat he was wearing.

"Okay, fine." He sighed shortly before he finally started to tell the informant the truth. "Shizuo-kun was shot 6 days ago in an alleyway not far from here. I have no idea who it was, but whoever it was had to be a professional to shoot this good. But you already know that."

"Wait wait... Shizu-chan has been shot before. It won't kill him."

Izaya started to feel that feeling again; worried. It was the monster, damn it. The man he hated most of all. He wanted him gone then why the hell did he feel this way? It was just not right. Something was wrong. Sure it would be boring without his monster to bother all the time, but he would never miss him. Never.

"Yes I know. I was the one to take the bullets out. He was barely hurt then. However this time is different. The bullet went in right under his heart and has damaged it. It's a miracle he's still alive. If he had been normal, he would have died on the spot. But I doubt he will stay alive for much longer, since he hasn't woken up yet. It's been 6 days and when it's been a week... I'm afraid I would have to pull the plug."

Shinra sighed and lowered his head again after he had been looking at the raven. He knew what it meant if he pulled the plug. He would end the monster's life. If it was just the machine that held him alive, that was. If not, the man might wake up on his own soon.

Crimson red eyes widened at those words. If the monster didn't wake up before the next day... the underground doctor would actually pull the plug and end his life? Izaya's hands went into tight fists, his heart beating faster as he repeated the doctor's words inside his head. It couldn't be true. If it was, he wouldn't believe it. That monster couldn't die from something so simple. Of course, he could care less. He hated the man and the man hated him.

Even if he wanted to say something, anything, no words left his lips, no sound came from him. He just stood there, speechless and unable to speak. He hated this situation, hated how he couldn't find any words to say. And it was all the monster's fault. It was his fault it all. His fault that he now couldn't speak, his fault he couldn't find words to say and his fault... that he felt worried for some reason and had no idea what. It was... disgusting to feel this way towards a man he hated so damn much and just wanted to get rid off – as fast as possible. He would rather have the man die than stay plugged to a machine. But something in him just would not let him tell the doctor to pull the plug. Something in him wanted to keep this monster alive. And it was very strange.

"Damn it..."

That was all he could come up with, before he turned around and rushed to the slightly opened door. He didn't wait to get permission to enter. He just roughly pushed the door open and walked into the room. The first thing he noticed made him stop after just a single step into his room. Crimson red eyes widened slowly once again, his face completely pale in just a split second at the sight.

Lying on the bed was Heiwajima Shizuo, the monster of Ikebukuro, the man who had been shot 6 days ago, the blonde who had caught the informant's attention right before leaving and the man everyone thought was dead. His mocha or honey like eyes were closed like he was sleeping. All the things anyone lying in a hospital bed would have attached to his arm, was attached to this man's. The heart monitor was standing next to the bed, sending a short beep at every heartbeat from the blonde. The rhythm was slow and not like it would be at a normal and alive person's. It was way too slow and the man looked nothing but dead. The pale skin, the white lips. Everything showed death. Everything except the heart monitor slowly beeping.

Crimson red eyes locked quickly on the pale and dead looking man lying on the bed. Izaya stared at him, his enemy. The man looked so vulnerable and nothing like the Shizuo he knew. He suddenly froze again, unable to move an inch away or towards the bed with the men. He couldn't move. He just stood there, watching the blonde. For a second he actually thought this was the end on their little game of chasing each other, trying to kill each other and the endless fights. But then he remembered who it was he was looking at. This was Heiwajima Shizuo, the monster of Ikebukuro. He wouldn't die of something so simple of being shot. It would take a lot more to kill this man.

Shinra didn't even try and stop the informant. He knew it was too late the second the man turned around. Instead of walking away and leaving the two alone, leaving the raven to get used to the vulnerable monster on the bed, he just slowly walked into the room and up to the informant, lightly placing a hand on the man's shoulder and sighed.

"I know it's strange to see him like this. I have tried everything to wake him up but nothing worked. I'm sorry, but I can't wake him up. He has to wake up by himself."

Izaya did what he always did when facing a situation like this, even though it was the first time ever seeing the monster like this: he laughed awkwardly, trying to hide how he really felt. He felt hurt, worried and another feeling he couldn't put a word or explanation on.

"Shinra... I would be much happier if he never woke up."

The underground doctor simply shook his head and let his hand slide from the informant's shoulder down into the pocket on the white lab coat, his eyes looking at the vulnerable monster lying on the bed through his glasses. It wasn't a sight you would see very often. It was the first time and probably the last. If he survived there would most likely be another situation like this. But if he didn't... there wouldn't.

"Whatever you say, Izaya-kun. I know I'm just that he is staying alive, holding on."

Sighing, Shinra turned around and took the few steps it took for him to stand in the doorway, before he turned his head and looked back at the informant, who hadn't moved an inch. He could see from behind, that Izaya felt opposite of what he said. You didn't need to be an expert to notice that.

"All we can do... is to wait."

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