A/N: Hi guys, next chapter awaits! So I'll skip all the boring crap and just move on!

In another life

I would be your girl

We'd keep all our promises, be us against the world

In another life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

The One That Got Away- Katy Perry

"Leah, sit up and stop slouching. I don't know what is wrong with you today!" My mother scolded me, but her words went through my ears. I had been like this for almost a week, catatonic, dumbfounded. I couldn't be pregnant… Could I? I don't know, do I dare get a pregnancy test? Are they even reliable? Should I go to the doctors? In Forks, definitely, too many familiar faces here.

I pushed my food around with my fork as my disgusting pig of a brother shovelled in food by the mouthful. Some of it had splashed onto my sleeve. We were related… What happens if my son turns out like that?

"Excuse me." I said hastily, pushing myself away from the table and running upstairs.

My father called after me. "Leah you didn't even touch your food, you are not excused!"

"Oh shove it up your ass!" I yelled back. "Or better yet why don't you invite Emily over and feed it to her?" Silence. Perfect.

I threw on my boots over my jeans and tied up my long hair, shoving it under a knit hat and throwing on a jacket. I threw my window open and climbed gently over the ledge, as I had so many times sneaking out to see Sam back during our early years, crossed over to the branch of our giant tree and shimmied down it with expertise. Then I called an old friend. "I need a favour."

And then I was off to Forks hospital. Technically La Push didn't even have a hospital, there was a "medicine man" and that's who we went to, because of these silly superstitions about the Cullens. But this was an emergency, and it's not like I believed those legends anyway. I just hope that it wouldn't take too long, my parents do have a tendency of overreacting when I'm "missing."

I sat down in the waiting room as the bitchy nurse at the counter told me that Dr. Cullen had left the hospital, and that a doctor would be with me when they were available. Apparently she didn't know how bitchy I could be.

Tap, tap, tap. went my feet on the hard floor of the hospital. How long had I been here for?

Oh my God.

Just when I was about to get up and leave, the exam room door opened and Dr. Gerandy walked out, along with two boys from the Rez. I recognized one of them immediately, the son of my father's good friend Billy Black. Jacob or something, a freshman at my school. The other one had a name I couldn't remember, all I know is that he was a bastard.

The doctor was talking to him. "Now, Jake, next time you want to jump off the top off a cliff, please try not to break your arm again. Or just don't do it. Leah Clearwater? Come on in."

Almost on cue, the two boys turned and looked at me with their mouths open, gaping. I grabbed my bag and walked past them. The nameless one was smart and snapped his mouth closed, turning away. Jacob blushed. "Hi Leah." He mumbled.

There was just something so dorky about that face that I just couldn't act like myself, like a total bitch. So I spoke back. "Hey."

As I was walking into the examination room, I could hear the other one whispering excitedly. "Dude, Leah Clearwater totally just spoke to you!"

I could tell Jacob was blushing. "Shut up Embry."

I almost laughed out loud for the first time in a while. No wonder I couldn't remember the kid's name. I thought my name was bad. My father wanted to name me after Princess Leia, but thankfully for me, my mother refused and they came up with this name as a compromise. Better than the latter.

I did end up snorting to myself and the doctor gave me a chuckle, which stopped my amusement in my tracks and reminded me why I was here. "Dr. Gerandy…"

"You want a pregnancy test." He said right off the bat, no question in his voice or anything. It was just a cold, hard fact. "You're from the Rez, and you don't seem to be deathly injured or anything like that, so my assumption for you coming here would be because you don't want to be recognized. Am I correct?"

I nodded, too embarrassed to speak. "It was a dumb idea anyway, I'm probably just over imagining things. I should go."

He reached out and put a hand on my arm. "Leah," his voice was kind and gentle. "I think you should do the test."

I don't know what time is it. I don't have a watch and there's no clock. It was dark and cold, but I couldn't get up. I couldn't go home.

Sam was getting a hell of a lot better at ruining my life. I gave him my love, my body, my everything. When he decided that there were more important things than going to university, when he dropped out of the school that we had both decided to go to, I followed him. I stayed here, so that I could be with him. He left me. Crushed my heart.

And now I'm having his baby.

I wrapped my arms around myself, I stared out off the top of the cliff and I could feel it behind my eyes, the pressure in my head.

But I didn't do it, I didn't cry. I stayed there all night, lost in my thoughts and my life.

I didn't go home until early morning, not by choice, but by the fact that I could hear Sam and Emily talking and laughing down the beach. I just wanted to leave after that. I tried to be quick, quiet, but they both noticed me. "Leah! Is that you! Sam, it's Leah! She's not missing after all!" Emily called out. And then dear God, the bitch ran at me and hugged me.

I tensed up immediately. "Get off of me."

I could see the hurt in her eyes, I could feel the hurt, it was radiating all around her, but she blinked and let it pass. "Sue has been calling me all night, crying. Apparently this is the second time you've wandered off in the last couple of days…" I shot Sam a glance but he avoided my eyes and I gave myself a wry smile. There's no way that he told her the truth. And then Emily surprised me. "Leah, can I talk to you alone? Sam, privacy for one quick second please."

He obeyed immediately. I stared at her blankly, waiting for her to speak. "Leah. I want you to know that I forgive you for sleeping with Sam."

He told her. He actually told her.

I didn't give her any sign that I was surprised, I just kept staring at her. Was this all she had to tell me? Did she expect me to say something? So I turned to leave, when she grabbed my arm. "I think it's time you forgave me too."

I stopped in my tracks. What the fuck? "Let my arm go, or you'll regret it." I snarled. She didn't let go, and I would have broken her arm if Sam hadn't restrained me. Holy shit, the bastard has his arms around me. I struggled, but it was like being encased in cement. "Get off of me you ass!" I remember screaming a bunch of curse words like a sailor.

"You're not going anywhere until you listen to what Emily has to say." His voice was firm. I was pissed.

Emily was rambling on. The only words I heard were forgiveness, and time and understanding and all this crap spouted out of her mouth. "Fine, you know what? I forgive you. Forgiveness granted." I managed to yank myself out of his grip. "Hope you're very happy together. Now bye."

"Leah, wait!" Emily called.

I turned around. "What! What more could you possible have to say to me? I listened to what you said, I forgave you okay? You stole my boyfriend, you took everything! Do you want my family too! Fine, take them! I am helpless against you!"

Tears sprung into Emily's eyes, but Sam put his arm around her. "Let her go, Emily. It's for the best."

"Yeah for the best, just leave Leah in the dust like you always do! Screw you Sam, screw you and just screw everything!" I ran the whole way home.

"My baby!" My mom exclaimed when I walked in the door. My dad and Seth were beside her, looking relieved.

"Just leave me alone, all of you."

I slammed my door shut and fell to my knees.

I love you, Leah. Don't ever leave me, please don't leave me. I need you.

I'll never leave you, Sam. I promise.

"AGH!" I screamed, picking up my alarm clock and hurling it at my mirror, which smashed into a thousand tiny pieces. What's another seven years of bad luck anyway?

I put my hands around my stomach. Maybe there's hope… I don't have the best motherly instincts but I will try damn hard to be the best one I can.

I could have gotten an abortion, but I didn't. To me, that means something.

I'm going to be a mother. To Sam's baby. I guess that's what I've always dreamed of… Except, he was there with me. I wonder what people are going to say when they find out…

No, I'm not going to tell them. They don't need to know who the father is. For all I care to tell them, I'll just be Virgin fucking Mary.

Innocent and pure… yeah, that's definitely me.

Guess I should clean up this mess. Unfortunately, I meant the glass. There's no fixing my life.

I need to get out of La Push.

I went downstairs to my mother, who was sitting at the kitchen table the next morning, and sat down across from her. "I'm reapplying for university in the fall."

"Oh honey, that's great news!" She exclaimed, grabbing my hands from across the table.

"I think that if I get away for a long, long time, things will get better."

A long pause. "Is that what you really think?"

"No. But if I don't think that, then I'm going to have to keep thinking that life is going to suck forever and I might go crazier than I am now." Another pause, this time by me. "Mom, I need to tell you something."

I could trust her, right? She's my mother…

She smiled. "You can tell me anything."

Oh, mom… I wanted to cry but it was like I had forgotten how. My eyes were dry, nothing came out. I wiped my face clear of my emotions, it was the same stony face that I had been using for the past year. "Mom…I'm going to have a baby."

She broke her favourite wine glass at that very second, because it slipped out of her hands.

"Please don't yell, please don't raise your voice… just try to understand what I'm saying." I said calmly.

"Well from my understanding you are having a baby, right? With Sam. Or is it another guy? Is Sam the only one you've ever been with?" I nodded. She sighed and pulled a hand over her face. "Well, this is going to cause a stir on the Rez."

"I don't want anyone to know. At least until it becomes super obvious and I cant hide it. And under absolutely no circumstances, is Sam the father. It was a one night stand that I don't remember, and that's it. Are we clear Mom?"

She blinked. "But what about after the baby is born? If we cant tell anyone about the pregnancy, how will we be able to set up adoption and everything?"

"I'm keeping the baby." I told her. "I'm hoping that I'll be out of town before the birth. Everything is going to be fine, Mom."

"You are a child yourself.."

"I'm almost nineteen. That's not a child.."

"Leah…"

"Mom please. This is want I want. I can do this. It'll be a whole new life for me, a new start."

She looked so confused, so sad and yet… "I wont question your choices."

"Don't tell Dad."

A long, heavy pause. "I won't." She got up to get a broom to throw away the broken glass. "What about prenatal care, Leah? If you don't want anyone on the Reservation to know…"

"I'm seeing Doctor Gerandy, in Forks."

"Oh good! I'm glad that Cullen left town, so you didn't get stuck with him."

I moaned. "Not you too! Mom, these are legends!"

"Leah. These are our legends. Who am I to this tribe if I don't believe in our own past? I have to be a believer, I just have to."

My mom's words made perfect sense. "I would never disrespect you behind your back."

"I believe you, my luna." She kissed me on the head. "Everything will be just fine."

And despite my best efforts, I couldn't believe her.