Macy hated to see him in such a state.

It had been so long since she saw him smile she had forgotten the contagious joy it caused- longer still since she heard him laugh.

She wished that she could pinpoint to when it first started- but with Stella and Joe's drama, Kevin faded nto the background. He refused to tell what had caused him such pain; despite the amount of times asked or hinted at.

Nick and Macy had many conversations concerning the eldest Lucas, and grew close- if only it was for a better reason. The two tried to cheer him as much as possible, Macy anonymously sent dozens of stuffed woodland animals with various instruments attached, Nick wrote ridiculously silly songs about anything from mangos to ducks in pajama's- and that was not easy for him. Frankie even got involved by ordering a flock of geese for Kevin.

Nothing would work, Kevin tried to smile for them- but they knew it was fake.

Macy was frustrated by the blindness displayed by Joe and Stella. She wanted to punch Joe, shake Stella and make them see the depression that Kevin was in- but they only saw each other. Macy often felt conflicted- she loved them both, yet at the same time she disliked them intensely. Macy mentioned to Stella that Kevin seemed down and Stella made an excuse- like she knew what was happening. Macy talked to Joe about the amount of blues Kevin injected into his guitar playing, and he waved it off. Macy soon gave up with the two of them. It appeared to hurt Kevin more that Joe and Stella didn't care- She saw the pained looks.

Nick opened the door to the firehouse and Macy stepped in- Kevin sat on the couch guitar on hand. He was lost in the moment while he played. Macy heard the sound of his devastation and felt her heart finally crack. He had reached a new level, and she could hear it. Macy glanced over to Nick and saw the deep worry of a brother. Macy hated Joe a little bit more- he lived in the same house, but was ignorant of his brother's pain. Now not just one- but two of his brothers.

Nick's eyes asked her to try, she could see that he was out of ideas and too troubled to properly think of anything new. Macy nodded to him and sat adjacent to Kevin while he plucked at the strings. Nick ran his hands through his hair and left Macy alone with Kevin.

Kevin had always played with passion; it was happy and freeing, uplifting. Now he made fans cry, he made Macy cry- she had even seen Nick lose control, the combination of Kevin's somber state and Joe's indifference to it was causing him excess stress. She saw how Nick stared at Kevin during concerts, with a look of upmost concern and complete helplessness.

Macy's thoughts turned to everything that happened over the past few months; the laborious efforts of Nick and herself, the never ending despair, the love that she had for Kevin. These thoughts mixed with the sentiments crying out from Kevin's guitar pushed her over the edge. Tears formed, she willed them to evaporate, but no such luck. Her hands reached to catch them- sobs shaking her.

She hated whoever or whatever had caused this whole mess.

The music stopped and she looked up to meet Kevin's searching eyes.

"Mace- what's wrong?" His voice tender.

More tears fell- he was asking her what was wrong? Wasn't that her question? Didn't he know that what hurt him hurt her as well? Hurt his family?

"Macy- tell me."

Macy's tears failed to cease- she was unable to speak. Kevin slid the guitar off his lap and wrapped his arms around her. Macy wondered how this happened- how was it that he was comforting her when the comforting was her job.

Kevin kept his arms around her until her crying calmed- she pulled away but remained close.

"Kevin" Her voice cracked. "Kevin what happened?"

Her eyes sought his, the emotions swirled close under his hazel ones.

"What?"

"Don't 'what?' me!" Macy responded a little too angrily, she tried to soften her voice "You've been gloomy for months. We all can hear it when you play."

"Not everyone." Kevin muttered- she heard the combination of bitterness and acute sadness.

"Well Nick and I definitely know- we've done everything thing we can think of." Macy promised slightly irritated.

"I know" Kevin whispered

"And nothing has worked! We can't think of anything else to do- and now you have sunk even lower into that pit of misery! Don't deny it- I just heard it. And Nick is just inching closer and closer to a complete meltdown. Did you think that your depression wouldn't hurt anyone? Because it's hurting him, it's hurting me!"

To his credit he looked taken back by this and a little ashamed. She knew he was the last person on earth to want to hurt someone. If anyone knew Macy did.

"And Kevin I can't take this anymore. I want you back. I want the Kevin Lucas that I know and love back. I need him back- not only for me but Nick and everyone who cares about you.

"I'm sorry" he offered

"Kevin- what happened?" She asked again, her voice growing soft. A look of pain crossed his face, he couldn't or wouldn't speak. Though she had just laid everything out for him to see- he failed to open up to her. Macy shook her head. "If you don't want to tell me- fine," Her tone bitter. "Just tell me what to do to help. Tell me this won't last forever." She pleaded

"I don't know." He answered honestly.

"Lie to me"

He didn't hesitate "It'll pass" His lying had gotten better.

She tipped her head in thanks and spoke again after a moment "There's nothing I can do?"

"Being here is more than enough." His words contradicted the last few months, but his tone was sincere. Macy nodded and let her head fall back onto his shoulder.

"I'm here." She whispered.