Authors Notes: I don't own KHR in any way shape or form.
Again when in italics Mammon is talking to out loud…only he is talking to Bel. Rather than himself.
Mammon's POV
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I love you Bel. And I always will love you.
I knew you so well. So why couldn't I see that you didn't like me back until now.
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You probably wish for me to be dead don't you?
Do I disgust you?
I had a meaning behind me suicide. It's not that I wanted to die Bel.
I didn't stand a chance against that guy; I knew I wouldn't survive in the outcome of that fight.
There was no way I'd let someone like that guy kill me.
So I had to do it myself.
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I love you're smile Bel. Don't put a fake one on your face. Don't force yourself to smile.
If it can't be true then don't do it. I know it'll be hard on you, just as my life was hard on me.
That stupid smile of yours, I miss it. Even though it pissed off.
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Why do you cry Bel? Princes don't cry and you know that. It's not very princely or like you to show that emotion. So stop crying over my death.
If you think people that cry, are better off dead then kill yourself already. I really don't care if you die.
But the reason I want you to die now is different from the reason that I wanted you to die when I was alive.
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You used to hold me tight so I can't get loose. You'd get too comfortable then fall asleep holding me.
You're just like a child. With a favorite stuffed animal… and I was that stuffed animal that you never wanted to let go of.
No. It's not that you didn't want to let go of me, it's that you were too stubborn to let me go.
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I'm tired of telling myself, this illusion of Bel is perfect it's just like him.
But all I'm doing is lying to myself.
No illusion can replace reality. And the same applies to you Belphegor.
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Ever sense I can remember you took over my thoughts completely. You're all I can think about now.
It's selfish of me. I don't want anyone else to touch or think of you besides me. Including that stupid Toad you're always around. that idiot. "Fran" I hate him.
If you were to befriend Fran someday. Then I two will try and not hate him anymore.
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When I was alive. I wanted you to be the one that killed me.
Not myself.
It's ironic how things turned out this way.
If every one's your toy then that includes me right.
Your toys are people in pain, aggravation, or depression.
You love the cries of your toys when they fall apart in front of you.
Sorry Bel, but even if you did kill me I would refuse to cry mercy to you.
Because the pain you give me is the best pain I can ask for.
I like being your toy.
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Did my death really hurt you that much belphegor?
Am I really that important to you?
Maybe I should have let you tag along with me and Colonello.
That way I wouldn't be in this mess.
That way we wouldn't have to suffer like this.
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I hate that you threw my books out of my hand just to make me listen to you.
Sometimes when you took my book away you'd replace it with some gory fairy tale.
Just to make me even more aggravated.
But Bel. Did you know that i thought those stories were annoying?
Did you know that I could think of a story more horrific if I wanted to?
You're a genius. I know you knew I could think of one…
I know because I'm an illusionist, and an illusionist has a good imagination, it's my specialty.
But why didn't you ask me to tell you one from my mind? Not some silly story book.
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Did you think that I was only interested in money?
I only made you pay me for the littlest of things. Because I like the look on the you face that tells me (I hate you, but I have to give in or else …..) it made me feel like I won. Like I could make even a prince aggravated fast.
And I could annoy you so easily with money.
That just gave me a better reason to like money so much.
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Did you know that you and fantasamma were the only ones I got along with?
Even though you never got along me. You hated me.
Your hate towards every one and everything, I found that adorable.
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I know that you never paid me after the missions I took care of for you.
I know because. I never once forgot to check my account after a mission.
Was it because you forgot? Or was it because you wanted to see me aggravated again.
I don't care which one it was. I' was happy just to make you smile and laugh… because you're just like a psychotic killing kid.
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The way you made Fran ware that hideous frog hat, it makes me laugh.
I thank you Bel.
For making Fran ware that hat.
He probably knows that he can never replace me.
And you proved that to him.
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I'm always here to listen to your problems Bel.
I will always be here for that.
Did you know the reason that I listened to you?
Even when you blabbed on about nothing in particular.
It's a simple reason, really.
Every one needs someone to talk to and for them to listen to you.
That's why I'm always here for you.
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I never told anyone you had flaws.
Because every one already new you had flaws.
Every one has a flaw, even a prince, and you knew that. That's why you never admitted it right?
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Do you know the reason why I never shared my problems with you?
I wanted to tell you.
But it never came out.
Every time I tried to tell you, it got replaced with something else.
Bel the reason why I never shared my problems is because…
Whenever I helped you with your problems, somehow I found a solution to all of mine as well.
Without you knowing it, you have already salved all my problems, that's why I never asked for your help.
I there was always one problem that I could never say, never tell you…
That problem.
The one I could never say.
"I LOVE YOU"
Never once did I think that you loved me back.
I thought you would pick on me, laugh at me… or something like that.
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Everything I do is for a reason.
And the reason I went in your room to talk about nothing on particular.
Is because I knew you were having a bad day.
Sometimes somebody just needs someone to hold and be there for them when something's bugging them.
Even if they don't want to talk about it.
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Please stop crying Belphegor.
Maybe I can Wright something to him... I can communicate through paper.
*Mammon sits beside Bel. And starts righting a letter to him….Bel can see that the pencil is moving buy itself, although he doesn't know why.*
[Dear Belphegor
Bel I'm here now. Please stop crying over me. Sure I'm dead but that doesn't mean we can't be beside each other right?
I know, it seems impossible for spirits to exist, I myself can't explain it.
I now know that you Love me Bel. But why didn't you tell me that sooner?
It could have turned out for the better. Did you know that?
Wright back please. This is the only way we can communicate, at least until you die. So stop being a pussy and get back your .
Love Mammon/Viper
PS. Did you know that Phantasama misses you too? ]
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The next chapter is Fran's POV…
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