A/N: Thanks to Rawenclawbabe, Bob, BadgirlGoesWorse and Mystique84 for the reviews.

Bob-Heh, like the name-generic. The name I use when I don't want to give out a name or don't know some guy's name. Anyway, yes, I have an idea of how I want this to end, but that could change. It sometimes does. I won't give where the story is headed because that's no fun. That's called a spoiler ;) .

Chapter Two: After Effects

Lily felt herself trembling in a panic. She took a couple deep breaths to try and calm herself down. She did not know amortencia could cause this. She did not know it could get someone into bed with someone else like this. Nervously, she watched Severus begin to arouse next to her.

Severus opened his eyes. This was not his dorm. Where was he? He grabbed his head and moaned. His head felt like it was in a vice. He did not remember getting drunk or anything the night before. What had happened to him? "My head." He mumbled.

"Yours too?"

Severus jumped at the sound of the familiar voice. "What the hell? Where am I? Who is talking to me?" He wondered. It was a woman's voice. He looked over and to his complete shock, he saw Lily. She was beside him, covering herself. He sat up and noticed he did not have anything on. "If I am unclothed and she is apparently unclothed, then... Oh shit! Did I slept with her? No, that was not possible. She would not have done that with me. She doesn't like me. We aren't friends anymore." As he thought this, the memories of yesterday and last night came rushing into his mind. He gasped in shock.

"Oh damn!" He had slept with her. They had done it several times. What were they thinking? "Dammit!"

"You drank a butterbeer yesterday. Did it smell," She paused. "off to you?"

"Yes. It smelled amazing. It smelled like you." He blushed. "I thought I was crazy. I, never mind."

"Oh, my, god." She swallowed. "It smelled like you. My drink, the amortencia, it smelled like you. It smelled like home and you."

"Amortencia, but that's, how, what?" He twisted his lips in confusion and ran his hand across his brow.

"I think it was love potion. I'm sure of it."

"It smells like what attracts us." He blushed again. "We both drank it, but who put it in our bottles."

"I don't know." She paused to think. It was not Severus who had laced her drink the day before. His had been laced too apparently.

"I didn't do it if you think it was me. I did not lace your drink with love potion. Why would I have drugged myself with it anyway?"

Lily nodded. "I believe you. I don't think you did, but someone did." She took a deep breath. "It makes no sense. Who would have done that? Who would have wanted us obsessed with each other? I mean, most people I know would want me to end up with James. I can't think of anyone though who would have used a love potion on me and you."

Severus held the covers to his chest as he laid there. "No, it makes no sense. I mean, it doesn't make any sense."

"What doesn't?" She asked, her mind swirling with confusion about all this.

"Amortencia-it causes obsession, but not sexual desire, just desire. It does not make people want sex. I mean, people can and do sleep together under it, but it does not elicit desire. And certainly not as strong as what I felt last night."

Lily rubbed her temple, her hand still trembling. "What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that the potion we were given was not amortencia. At least not normal love potion."

"It had to be some sort of love potion."

Severus turned to her suddenly. "How strong of a desire did you feel for me yesterday? I mean, sexually."

Lily blushed. "Why?"

"I need to know."

"Fine." She huffed. "Very strong."

"Never as strong before?"

"No."

Severus pondered this uneasily. "Lily? I think we were given a different love potion."

"What potion?"

"One I was working on."

Lily looked at him from under her hand. "What potion?"

"I played around with the last potion, the love potion I made for our NEWT practice. I had a few different things I was playing with, different ingredients. One was meant for couples, to elicit strong desire for the other, but yet get them relaxed while they were together. It was just a silly potion."

Lily put her hands down. "I gave you that bottle. You gave me mine. But wait, I did not feel that way about you yesterday so how could it do that if we aren't even together. I mean, if it's between couples-"

"Well, it hasn't been tested on anyone yet. It was for fun. I had the recent one in the cabinet of Slughorn's office. Someone would have had to have taken it. Maybe they thought it was the amortencia. The label says Love Potion No. 5. It was a joke name. If that's the potion they took, we may be in trouble."

Lily felt panicked. "Sev, an untested potion-"

"Don't worry, nothing harmful is in it, nothing dangerous or fatal."

"How do you know for sure? That it was your potion."

"I don't, but it might be from the sounds of it. I need to make a warning that it needs to be for couples only if it was my potion."

"But how did our drinks get mixed that way? Who would have wanted us together like that? I didn't do it and you didn't do it, but someone did it."

"I think it was a mistake. No one wants us together. Someone probably wanted to be with you or wanted someone to be with you."

Lily huffed in frustration as she laid her head on her pillow. "Most people like James and I together, but-"

Severus frowned as he pondered who did this to them. "Could Potter have meant the potions for you and him, but somehow I got his potion laced drink? I mean, together, the potions could certainly get someone to sleep with them."

Lily turned to him. "I doubt it. It did not seem like something he would do. I already know that he likes me and I just don't see it from him." She laughed. "His friends want us stay together really bad. They want us to be together. An item. Spiking drinks with love potion sounds like something Sirius would do."

Severus's eyes widened and he looked at Lily. Lily suddenly stopped laughing.

Lily took in a quick breath of air that was almost a gasp. "You don't think he-? He wouldn't-"

"Well, Black is not one to think about the consequences to his actions now, is he?"

Lily knew he was right. This was too bizarre and crazy, this whole situation was insane. Her head spun in confusion, but it made sense if Sirius had tried to lace the drinks for her and James originally, but the plan backfired when the bottles got mixed up somehow and Severus and Lily had handed each other the bottles laced with the love potion. She would not put it past Sirius to sneak into the cabinet and steal a love potion and it was entirely possible it was Severus's experiment. Sirius would not have known the difference between an experiment and the recent assignment.

"If it was Sirius, then he wanted James and I to get the potions. That makes sense, but it didn't work. I ended up becoming obsessed with, with you."

"I knew it was off. I mean, I always liked you, but not like, not like how it was. I was obsessed with you, madly, crazily in love." He admitted.

"Not love, obsession." She felt her fingers trembling. She wanted to run, but was uncomfortable leaving the bed even if he had already seen her uncovered. Lily knew running from the situation would not change what had already happened anyway. Why had this happened? She was falling in love with James and figured he would have been the first. She had lost her virginity to Severus Snape instead and that was not her intention. It was over and she could not decide how she felt. In a way she felt horrified, sick and upset. In another way, an even bigger way, she felt happy and excited and amazed.

"I already love you."

She turned to him. His face was redder than a beet with that admission. She felt herself blush. He looked down at his hands. She looked at his face and that odd butterfly sensation from the night before re-entered her stomach. There was no way she still liked him. The potion's effects were gone. They should have been gone. She felt her breathing constrict. There was a strange sensation in her that was odd, but not like the feelings the love potion had. Was she falling for him for real? That was not possible.

"Is it normal to still feel in love even after the potion wears off?"

"I don't think so. Why?"

"Then why do I still feel in love with you so deeply? Not obsessed, but butterflies in my stomach type of feeling."

"I don't know. As I said, if it was the new potion, I don't know the effects of it on random people who are not lovers in the first place, but it would not last. Or maybe it was the amount of intimacy we had." He finally turned to look at her. "I mean, we did it all last night-all the intimate ways to do it, we did them. At least most of them." He could not help but smile as he remembered. It had been so great. He would have the memories of this as long as he could keep his memory intact.

Lily sighed. She was not sure what to say or do even think at the moment.

"Lily, the potion, if it was mine-" He saw her look at him. "Well, um, you see, Avery wanted me to add something in there to make it so the couple would, so it would, increase their-fertility."

She looked at him, scrutinizing his expression. "Are you saying that the goal was to get a couple to have sex, relax while doing it and get the girl pregnant so they can have a baby?"

"It was not meant to see the light of day."

Lily gasped in horror as recognition hit her. "Oh god, oh merlin, oh no."

Severus snapped out of his thoughts. "What?"

"I didn't take any potion."

"What?"

"Contraceptive. Stopping getting pregnant. I did not take any to prevent a pregnancy. Since we are each other's firsts, diseases are not a worry. I don't recall you using anything. Did we? Tell me you did."

Severus felt himself sink. He racked his memory and felt horrified. "I don't remember using any."

"Oh no, no, no, no. No, this isn't happening. What if I get pregnant? Fertility. Oh merlin no. First love potion in bottles, then losing my virginity are bad enough, but being pregnant. No, oh no, no, no."

"It was the first time." He said, trying to reassure her.

"So?"

"Maybe we'll be okay?"

"What if we aren't?" Lily felt her eyes grow damp and a lump caught in her throat. "What will we do?" She sniffed, put the covers over her shoulders and looked away from him at the other two empty beds beside her.

Severus heard her sniffing and heard her let out a sob. He cringed. They had been so out of it last night with their obsession for the other, he knew they did not even think about the obvious consequence. He needed a heavy warning for that potion. It could be very dangerous. This was partly his fault. No, it wasn't his fault. It was locked in a cabinet. If Sirius or anyone took his out and used it without his permission and put it in drinks and it got mixed up, that was entirely on them, not him. He was experimenting. He did it all the time.

Regardless of fault, it had happened. He rolled over and put his arm around her. She was surprised to feel his touch.

"If, on the off chance you do get pregnant, I won't leave. I swear to you on my magic, I will take care of you," He paused. "and the baby, of course."

She turned over to look at him with tear filled eyes. "No, you can't. You want to be one of them. Don't you get it?"

"Get what?"

"You had sex with a mudblood. You're child will be mixed with a mudblood if I end up pregnant as a result of this. Your blood is dirty now and so would the child's. It's not safe. They will kill you, us. Please?" Her eyes pleaded with him. "Please, promise me? Promise you won't join them?"

Severus moved his arm off of her and slunk back to the other side of the bed. "Lily, I need to."

Lily turned over on her other side to face him. "Why? They are dangerous. They want me dead."

"I can protect you. They won't hurt you. I won't let them."

"You are living in a sick dream. They want people like me dead. You want to be a part of something that wants to kill people like me. Others are no different. I'm a mudblood. I have dirty blood. When they find out you slept with one and are in love with one and, if we are somehow really unlucky, had a baby with one, they will kill you. Don't you understand? Don't you see?"

He clicked his teeth in frustration. "But you don't understand."

"Then make me understand because no, no I don't understand. You are better than them, smarter, wiser, and kinder than they are. You don't belong with creeps like them. I know a lot of your housemates believe in the prejudice and desire to purge the world of anyone not like them, but they are pures. You aren't. You are half and I know you are not liked at times because of that, but please, don't join him. He's a dangerous man, an evil man."

"It will make me powerful."

"You want power? What the hell for?"

"Maybe I'm tired of being the weak one!" He snapped. "It will make me be the one in charge for once. It will let me be powerful for once."

"No, it will make you a murderer. That's not power, Sev, that's weakness. You are strong."

"No, I'm already weak."

"You have spent six years putting up with being bullied and mocked and teased. I'd say you are strong. Stronger than me."

"I let them bully me."

"No, you didn't. You all just hate each other and have from day one."

"I really am sorry, Lily, for calling you a, a, you know, when you tried to help me. I wasn't mad at you. I don't really think that about you. Honest."

"But you still called me that which means you think I am one."

"No, I don't, I, I, really, I, I just lashed out at you because, I don't know. I never meant it. I wanted to lash out at them, but I couldn't and it was the first thing I thought of. Everyone says it-"

"Only your wannabe Death Eater friends say that!" She snapped at him.

"What about your friends? What about Potter?"

"Don't bring up Potter! This isn't about him or any of the Marauders. This is about you and your friends! They do cruel, evil things, Severus!"

"So do James and his pals!"

"What? Using your spell against you? You and James hexing each other and you and Sirius throwing curses and jinxes at one another, while unnecessary and stupid, is not evil, Severus! Forcing people to do things they don't want to do is evil. Trying to use magic for rape or torture is evil and that is what they do! Killing things is not a pastime. It's not a joke and it's not funny to want to seriously hurt others as one!"

Severus glared at her. "But it's so funny when Sirius tried to get me killed that night at the willow?"

"You should not have been following them, but-"

"But that makes it okay?"

"Don't interrupt me!" She huffed in frustration. "No, it does not and I would have said that if you let me finish!" She sighed in annoyance. "What he did was apparently dumb and dangerous, yes, I agree. I don't know exactly what he did, but if James had to save you then-"

"Throwing that in my face, are you?"

Lily gaped and narrowed her eyes to him in aggravation. "No. I am just saying that it must have been dangerous if your life was at stake."

"Well, it was and you don't care."

"I never said I didn't care! Of course I cared. I think you were careless to even listen to Black in the first place." She huffed again. "But stop turning this to them. Listen to me about your friends. You would not listen to me before. I tried to warn you, but you never listen. Always changing it them instead."

"Well, they aren't good people."

"They aren't cruel people, but you are doing it again."

"I am not weak and I am tired of being considered weak!"

Lily was taken aback by that sudden statement. "You are not weak!" She said, nearly yelling now.

"That's not what everyone thinks!"

"You're precious little friends are the weak ones!"

"Oh, yeah, how so? They have more guts than I do."

"They are stronger than you?" She scoffed in shock. "Those friends of yours lack morals! They lack a conscious!"

"Weakness is not being able to stand up to your enemies. I am weak. I couldn't even do the crucio when they asked me to."

"You tried to torture someone?" She asked in disgusted shock.

"I couldn't do it. I was too weak."

Lily's eyes narrowed in anger at Severus. If looks could kill, Severus figured he would be dead right now. "Valuing life is not weakness! To not be able to kill someone or torture someone, even when asked is not weakness!" She softened her expression. "I consider it strength. It's hard to do what is right and stand up to people, but if you know it is wrong and refuse to participate, it makes you a hell of a lot stronger than just joining in and the arses doing it for some sort of sick joke" Lily paused. "And don't bring James or Sirius into this conversation."

"Who said I was going to?"

"No one. But you bring them into every conversation I have about your friends."

The room got quiet. "Are you and Potter dating?"

"What?"

"Are you two dating?"

"Kind of, yes."

"Great." He said. "We cheated on him. They will torture me when they found out what I did to you for certain now. You are in love with Potter. This was a mistake, I know." Severus started to get up. "Forget it. Let's just forget this ever happened. You can go be with Potter and I will go do whatever. No one will ever know."

Lily was very conflicted in her feelings at the moment, but she could not let the conversation end yet. She grabbed his arm and pulled him down.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

Lily looked into his eyes and felt her stomach flutter. She lunged forward and put her lips over his. It was like a bolt from the blue and Severus found himself sucking her lips back. Lily felt herself smiling as he kissed her back. As she removed her lips from his, she felt more confused than ever. There was definitely a deep connection to him that she did not understand. She tried to wipe the smile off of her face. At least she knew now that she could not put the new attachment solely on the potion.

"Sit down. Our conversation is not over yet."

Severus glared for a moment, but laid back down.

"I should apologize too, for calling you Snivellus and for making fun of your old undergarment that day."

"I deserved it."

"No. I was just mad because you called me dirty and we were best friends. I just thought maybe you would change before then. That as long as we were friends you would not get that deep, but you did."

"You did not deserve to be called that word. It was wrong of me. I loved you. I didn't want to hurt you."

"You aren't under the potion. You mean that? You always liked me. You loved me before?"

Severus realized what he had just admitted again. He admitted for a second time that morning that he did love her, always liked her. "Yes."

Lily felt more conflicted now than she did when she kissed him. "What are we going to do about this?"

"What do you mean?" He asked with confusion, his hand on her bare shoulder.

"I mean just that. What happens now? With us? We just made love to each other several times. I think we've been quite bonded now. I don't think we can just walk away and pretend nothing ever happened."

"No. I mean, yes, quite bonded, but no, it would not possible to just forget or pretend it never happened."

"You promise me you won't join them? Please?"

He let go and moved away, propping himself up on the bed with his elbow. "I don't know, Lily. You have to understand what a great opportunity it is."

Lily turned onto her back, her arms over the quilt that was covering them. "Opportunity for what? All they want is for people like me to be dead. He wants his power. He only wants to use you. He won't let you have power."

"I don't want you gone. I won't let them touch you."

Lily scoffed in disgust.

"You don't see what it can do for me."

"What? What don't I see that you are seeing?"

"I'll have a job, power, influence."

"You can have those things without becoming a Death Eater, Sev."

"No." He shook his head.

"What do you mean no? You are brilliant at potions. You could be a potions master or something. Do something with that. Or anything. You are too smart to fall into a dangerous road."

"I may be good, but I don't have enough influence. Potter stands a better chance at a good job in that field."

"You are too hard on yourself."

"Well, look at me. There's nothing attractive to see. My messed up nose, pale skin, dark, greasy hair-"

He found her finger on his lips. "Stop that. Stop doing that. Stop talking about yourself that way."

"It's fact, Lily."

"No. You look fine."

"Easy for you to say. You're completely beautiful."

Lily shook her head and gave a little scoff. "No, I'm not."

"I think you are."

"Don't flatter me." She said, blushing. "I am not."

"I will disagree. You look beautiful. I'm attracted to you. I admit it. So is Potter. He's much better for you. He will always have influence and power and money. He's far better looking, outgoing, athletic, he's perfect. Don't worry about me. We had our moment. He's the better option."

Lily groaned and shook her head in clear aggravation. "You are so stupid."

He was taken aback. "What? Did you call me stupid?"

"If you really think I should be with someone because you perceive them as better than yourself, you are stupid. Basing yourself on a notion of what someone will find attractive is stupid." She huffed in irritation.

"Well, he wants you. You'd be a fool to pick me over him. Just because I wanted you to like me means nothing. I can't offer you anything." Severus paused. "Well, I gave you myself, but that doesn't count."

"Well," She cleared her throat. "I'm glad my first sexual experience was with you. I loved it, though it was awkward and painful to start with. I mean, I have to admit that it was good and-pleasurable, very pleasurable, actually." She felt her cheeks grow hot after admitting to him how she felt about their time together.

"I'm glad mine was with you too."

"I am glad that it was with you, an old friend, instead of someone else. I mean, can you imagine what could have happened if someone else got a hold of your potion? Any of the other guys in the club?" She cringed at the thought. "I mean, I know we stopped being friends and all, but we were friends. At least it was not random. I mean, it was random, but at least it wasn't some random person. Does that make sense?"

"Yes, actually. You are glad if you had to have this happen to someone else but you and Potter, you were glad it was me, an old friend, instead of some random guy you barely know. I get that. I'm glad, very glad it was you and not some random girl I barely know."

It got quiet.

"So, this was a quick, crazy and interesting make up."

He laughed. "Definitely unexpected, but it all feels right."

She gasped. "Oh my god."

Severus moaned slightly. "What now?"

"It's nearly ten. We're missing breakfast."

"Well, we were up quite late."

"It's not funny. Neither one of us knew what we were thinking. We are in serious trouble."

"I was gone all night. What will I say when Avery asks where I've been all night?"

"Tell him the truth. I'm sure he'd love the story and be happy for you. All you guys love to brag about sex anyway."

Severus looked at her and shook his head slowly. "No, seriously, I am going to have to come up with a good excuse. Besides, no one would believe even if I told them the truth."

"No. It is a far-fetched story, but a true one."

"I made that potion. They would believe I somehow got into Slughorn's cabinet and used my own potion on you most likely."

Lily turned to him. "Sev?"

He grinned at her calling him that. He missed that. "Yeah?"

"Don't touch your potion. We need to talk to Slughorn."

"We can't tell him what happened!"

"No, tell him you are out of dittany or something. Go check the cabinet on your untested potion and check to see if any of it is missing."

"Fine." He pulled back the covers and got out of bed. Lily looked away and got out of bed. They put on their clothes and hurried to get ready.

"I need a shower." Severus mumbled.

"No time. We'll take one when we get back."

"We?"

"You know what I mean. Later and separately." She went to the door. "Let me see if anyone is around first." Lily went on down and looked into the common room. "Coast is clear."

Severus came down and they snuck out of the hole and hurried down for breakfast. She went in first. Severus waited about five minutes before entering so it wouldn't look like they were coming in together and arouse suspicions of them.

"Lily? The sleepyhead finally woke." James said with a smile.

"I was busy working on potions last night so I was up really late."

Lily started to eat. She was starving, but part way through, she thought about the possibility she could be pregnant. She looked down at her stomach. How likely was it that she was pregnant? I mean, one time? Well, several times, but still, the first night with someone? Most people take longer than that. Lily looked down to the other end of the table. She saw Severus eating and Avery chatting with him. Her stomach churned. She lost her appetite.

"Are you okay?" James asked.

"Yes, of course, I'm great. Why?"

He gave her an odd look. "You aren't eating and you have your hand on your stomach."

"Oh, I'm fine. Really."

He turned back to Peter and they started to chat about something. She looked down at her stomach and clinched a fist. She hoped to god that she was not pregnant. Merlin if she was, things would get really complicated and messy and things were complicated enough with adding anything else to the mix right now.