Volli- Warning to horsesrocketh, putting my story on your favs and not reviewing is not ok! You need to review this chapter or else!
Volli- Sorry if my story really isn't that great, I just got my braces and I'm in a hell of a lot of pain, one of the brackets fell off this morning. School is starting in four days. Plus I rammed my hand in my dresser and this morning I found out I have high cholesterol. So I am in a rank mood. Please bear with me!
Warning- Mentions of serious depression
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When you're Tala and you know it your friends can really mess professional doctors up!
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Most people like Saturdays. I usually do but this time I just want it to be over, it's all thanks to Mr. Dickenson. He decided to put us in therapy.
"…And how do you feel about that?" asked my therapist for the millionth time.
"Well disappointed." I responded
"And how do you feel about that?" she asked again
I rolled my eyes this woman was unbelievable! We were talking about how I liked Japan, and I told her how I was disappointed that the Japanese don't hold dances were anyone who wanted to dance could. Most of Russia doesn't but the city where the Abby was always held yearly celebrations and festivals just to extend the beauty of art in all of its forms. We all loved watching the performers and most of the time we were allowed to dance as well, I don't know just spending a year earning money so I could buy candies and play games was something I used to live for. Plus we had to pay Boris so we could leave the grounds.
I smiled at the thought, which seemed to please the woman, man I just can't remember her name!
"Well Tala I think we have made some progress!" I just stared at her. She didn't seem to notice, "Tala your friends aren't done yet so will you please wait in the other room?"
I blinked "Um sure."
I got off the couch thingy (anyone knows what they are called?) and walked into the waiting room. To my shock Kai was already there and he was crying. I quickly ran over to the couch and pulled him into my arms. He winced and tried to pull away until he recognized me (it told about 3 seconds). He gasped and buried his head in my shirt his small arms wrapped around my neck.
Deep down I know I don't really care if he is hurt or not and it bothers me that all matters to me is that Kai doesn't leave me. It's sad to emit but I have monophobia, the fear of being alone.
Years ago in the Abby Boris made Kai continue his training with his grandfather miles away, shipped Spencer off to the military for almost 8 years, yeah he was under aged but they were happy to have him, finally he locked Brian up in a room where he saw slowly stripped of all emotion. What did he do to me?
Nothing I continued to train and work hard but slowly I became depressed, I started cutting myself, not your average Emo cuts no I was raking my pocket knife all over my arm. I still have truly gruesome scares all over my left arm and up my neck, one of the reasons I always wear turtle necks.
Anyway Boris saw what I was doing to myself but let it continue really he made it worse, he had a guard follow me and tell me awful lies about how no one cared that I was in pain and how they were happy I was alone, that I deserved it. Every night I would lie in my bed trembling knowing that no one would come and comfort me.
They kept had Brian in the Abby and I wanted to be comforted so badly that I became a killing machine (exactly what Boris wanted me to be) and murder the scientists and guards around the room they kept Brian in and I almost killed Brian too but somehow I stopped.
There is more detail to the story but it hurts to much remember. Please don't think I'm a monster and that I don't care about Kai and the others, because I really do, I love them more than you will ever know! I would die for their happiness! I just become desperate when I'm alone. I don't mean like when there's no one around no I need people to interact with me and make me feel wanted. I know how corny this is going to sound but I've lived most of my life as a lone wolf and it almost killed me.
"Kai talk to me, tell me what's wrong." I cooed gently
He gasped and cried harder. It broke my heart. What did the therapist talk to him about? I started to shake. Dang it, I was starting to react to him not answering me, because somewhere in my mind he was ignoring me and leaving me behind. My breathing started to quicken until I was gasping with every strained breath. I tried to stop it but I couldn't. My vision started to go red.
Suddenly strong arms raped around my chest and gently pulled me away from Kai. Hands gripped my arms desperately trying to get Kai out my reach. Finally they succeeded and I started to fight agents the arms around my chest trying to get Kai back.
A voice started to sing to me, "The black jewel is in the sky calling to all who will listen, do not my love it is a deserver, we've seen it kill and plunder, do not my child for it wants you to suffer, it thinks you the perfect solider, without emotion without love, but I know you better, I know that you have a soul," The voice paused then hummed.
I'm not sure how long it took me to realize that it was a lullaby we would always sing in the Abby. It helped us keep hope, even if it was little.
My vision started to return and my breathing became normal, I wasn't shaking anymore. I looked up at Spencer who still humming softly was rubbing my shoulder. I looked around still trying to get myself back. I saw Kai slouched up against the wall trying to breath. I realized that I had strangled him.
"Spencer what happened." I asked softly. He knew about my phobia all my brothers did.
He answered "The therapist had Kai talk about the time he had with his mom and dad as a child"
I looked down at the floor, "Oh." Was all I could say.
Slowly I got up and stumbled over to Kai. When I knelt down next to him he looked up at me and reached for my hand.
"Tala… Tala I'm s-so sorry!" He said weakly, still crying. I shook my head pulled him closer to me. "I was being selfish I should have opened up…" He gasped and coughed
"Kai I'm not mad at you, really, I'm sorry I choked you. Are you all right?" I asked gently. Kai nodded and looked up at me. "When we get home you can tell me what happened, okay?" Kai nodded
"Spencer is Brian out yet?" I asked looking over at him.
He shook his head looking at a door down the hall. Then we looked at each other and the same thought came to us, `the door is closed!!!'
Spencer jumped up and ran to the room and pressed his ear agents the door. "Soundproof." He muttered
Let me tell you why this is severe. Like my fear of being alone Brian has a fear of closed doors. I think it happened while he was trapped in the room I told you about. It's not claustrophobia; no he can be smooshed in a hall-way or something and be fine. All though some innocent people might become victims to his frustration at being stuck in a hall-way full of people, he isn't frightened because he knows there is a way out and he isn't trapped there. If he is in a room even when sleep and the door is shut he will get really restless and destructive trying to get out, he usually is okay if there's an open window.
Spencer knocked on the door and tried to open it. The door was locked and answer.
"Did we or did we not tell them not to close the door?!"Spencer yelled in frustration. "How much do you think this door is worth?"
"What?" I asked.
Without responding Spencer slammed his torso agents the door, with a load snap it collapsed inward and Brian sprang out tackling Spencer to the ground.
I could see him shaking from where Kai and I sat. Spencer wrestled with Brian for a bit then finally managed to calm him down. He kept shaking though. Kai and I looked at each other and got up. Kai being the inquisitive thing he is ran to the door way and looked in.
"Spencer I wouldn't worry about the door it's pretty cheap… maybe 1,500." Kai said "I personally am more worried about how much the room's furniture is, not to mention the skinks' medical bills."
I poked my head around the corner and gasped. Maybe 6 different doctors plus the secretary were scattered all over the room.
`None of them are dead… shame there are just way------- to many therapists in the world.' Kai thought
`And lawyers.' I thought back. We looked at each other and smiled. Sometimes we're on the same brain wave and can talk to each other with our thoughts, not all the time, (now that would be awesome!) but sometimes. I always feel at peace when Kai and I do that. It really helped when he was in Japan and I was still in the Abby.
`Hey Kai'
`Yeah?'
`Guess!'
`Um, you need me to scratch your back?'
`No, try again!'
`Um, you have a crush on me?'
I blinked `Where did that come from?!'
'The therapist pulled that one on me.'
`Oh… should I talk to him?'
'Its fine I kind of walked into it.'
`Yeah I can see that happening'
`Jerk.'
`Will you two please stop messing around and see if those people are all right?' Spencer's voice suddenly came out of no-where. Kai and I jumped and looked at him.
`How long have you been listening?' Kai asked
`Since you guys confessed your love.'
Kai blushed the cutest pink color ever `Meany'
We walked into the room and checked for survivors.
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"How was therapy Tala?" Mr. D asked me when he came to pick us up.
"Well let's just say the experience is worth about 3 million dollars." I said with a smile.
Spencer snorted and Kai shook his head.
"Mr. Dickenson I need to talk to you." A man said walking up to us.
Mr. D glanced at as skeptically then followed the man into an office. When he walked by the caved in door I saw him pale.
"What do you think Brian, how much money is Mr. D going to spend?" Spencer asked gently putting his hand on Brian's shoulder.
"More than he wants to." He responded.
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Volli- Hey! Thanks for reading! Sorry it was so--------- angsty, I know it's a humor but oh well it's my story. Again horsesrocketh you need to review! Thank you so much guys!
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Bye for now
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