Full Moon

Lilith.

Trying to overcome the feeling of deep, deep over rush of adrenaline I tried to at least get up from the lost touch of reality. I wasn't in my room. I was sitting on a tan very comfortable couch. A damp rag was on my forehead, and everything was unnoticeable to me, like I was on some unknown place. Then as I switched my body to look outside there were shapes of misty like white smoke. Dancing everywhere, pressing my hand to the glass I found that the outside was cold, on a temperature I could no longer feel warmth. In my heart I felt warmth, like something or someone close was smiling down at me. Maybe my guardian angel of light. Yeah that was it. I finally became conscious enough to realize I wasn't on the ground or on my death bed anymore, I was flying in an airplane. this was going to kill me now, the heartbeat in my chest beat rapidly, it was then I steadily got up to see the airplane itself, dad was reading the newspaper and mom was sleeping on another movable tan chair. He looked up to me his saddened green eyes scared me like all hell froze over. Something Steve would say if he was here. Oh, great, now this whole trip I would be thinking of nothing but Steve, this sent my whole head spinning.

"Dad how long do we have until we land?" I asked. Putting my hand to my forehead again, the uneasy feeling of needing to fall was overcoming me. This was unusual like there was some completely different sensation completely taking over me, and right now it was driving me to the nearest bathroom. I was in there several minutes throwing up the last of my meal that was hours ago I had eaten.

I heard him come to the door of the bathroom and knock stiffly to see if there was any possible tone or fragment of a voice. I wouldn't speak, I was more sick than anything at the moment. And the exchanged 'sighs' from us both sent me into a whirlpool of disturbing little headedness. I gripped my head a bit trying to get a hold of myself. Suddenly as it came, it stopped and I regained my posture and sense in everything.

"Newton's first law is…?!?!" Upon hearing that I knew that my old loving dad was there that moment. I was a six when I experimented with an apple like Sir. Isaac Newton himself and watched it drop to the ground in amazement. I did it again and again just to watch it fall. Wondering why it fell? And How? An understanding that it was all apart of the greater good of the balance towards the Earth. I shakily came to open the door and give him my big puppy dog eyes, and whisper quietly enough for him to hear, "Gravity. Everything has gravity, attached to it." He nodded happily, seeing I wasn't completely gone out of my mind. I walked into his embrace giving him a long and teary hug for going to a distant country without knowing why or who I would be next to as for friends. In this moment, of a families time I was complete with everything around me.

"We will be arriving in thirty minutes once we get there, we need to go directly to the new house get dressed and go to the new career. Plus I want you to get a feel for the place itself. I made another look because I wondered how long I was asleep, dad looked at my face, it had turned pale, green and blue all in the same matter at once, sending the uneasy sickness back, I plopped my hand on my stomach trying to ease the pain from acting up. This was abnormal, at least that's what came to my untied down mind. "I have a present for you as well, your mother and I will give it to you once your feeling better and she is up." I looked at mom, she was stirring as everyone's ears were popping. I had a great deal of pressure built up in mine, dad had gave me a pack of gum to subside my issues until we landed. The last of the airplane ride was gradually coming to an end as I slipped into my poet state of wanting to writing down some strands of lines when I didn't have an paper. Which made me edgy. I wasn't use to not writing and having it built up inside of me. It was something I didn't want about me I needed to get it out and open so in my mind I eased to just saying the lyrics, hoping that would be good enough.

A new journey awaits.

A binding time clicks and waits; towards my greats fates.

Something in my mind turns the clock back.

To something back to basic book of electric track.

My new life is troubling my thoughts, driving me into the ground.

I just aimlessly look around.

I got off the entrance ramp looking at the people all around in the terminal, they looked like everyday people in this day in age. There was really nothing scary about them, then why did my heart pound so much? Why was is racing like a mad hound or horse? I didn't understand any of this and it was causing me to look back again on what Steve would be doing. I started to grow tears into my already girlie hazel eyes. Mom grabbed my hand, like I was loosing track of time, we stopped at a subway, grabbing some food to help us bid towards our new life together. I had order a three cheese and herb roll, a gilled chicken beast with provolone cheese smoked, and last but not least the leafy green of lettuce and red luscious taste of tomatoes I was at ease because my hunger was greatly gone, and now I was ready to go home, to awaiting the news of what was to become of my life. Dad and mom were throwing out there last reminisce of garbage when a young woman walked in to greet them. I grabbed my I-pod from mom's purse and turned on Within Temptation the sound was The Howling. This was the world I lived in most of my life as a child, whose parents were always working, or when mom and dad had something to do else where. She, the young woman looked about moms age mid thirties and counting, she had shimmering black loose curly hair, and these welcoming warm yellow cat eyes. I learned from my eavesdropping hearing that her name was Madeline Destler the managers wife, none the less.

Dad started speaking to her and pointed at me with warm eyes, they, the trio looked at me from afar, Madeline gave me a warm trusting smile, something said in my mind there was some type of terrible demon that lurked underneath.

I walked out of the plaza finding a small girl with caramel blonde pin straight hair looking at me with curiosity. By, god could no one give me piece? I walked to an arcade there was a DDR platform that I stepped onto. Placing a decent amount of money into the machine I was ready for anything I needed to blow off steam. I took my shoes off and put them on the floor a smaller pair of shoes were next to mine. I looked to the left of me, the little girl was there standing. She looked at me with intense eyes, I had never before seen in my life and then asked me the most absurd question ever.

"Have you ever been in love?" She said in the tiniest shy girl voice ever I looked down at her giving her the chance to beat me at DDR first. She was wearing a yellow sun dress and a hat that covered her hair and shinning blue eyes. I choose a song. The rhythm started the pace began slow and turned up, she kept up, such a gifted child she was, and then I saw as I was looking down to the next song, she had a metal fixed leg, in meaning she was like an bionic girl almost with her metal 'fake' leg. Once she saw that I found it she stopped and starred into my forgiving eyes I paused the game and kneeled down to her level, she gave me a hard look like, how dare you judge me or something like that, but I was nothing like that, she looked like a good girl and the leg just added to her girlness, now I, had the real bad problem she was lucky. It looked like she was about to cry when I started first she looked confused and puzzled. I pulled her in for a hug, at first she didn't put her arms around me but was shocked, after she too started to cry. I didn't know why this was all overwhelming to me but I had to get this out.

"I'm Karin, who are you?" She said between breaths trying to wipe away the tears from her pure unstained face.

"If I tell you, you have to promise to keep it a secret okay? Don't go telling people who I am alright?" She nodded, such a curious child Karin was. "My name is Lilith…Lilith…." I couldn't finished as Madeline came over and saw that her daughter's secret was now blown she grabbed her arm slightly and took her out of the arcade forgetting to get her shoes on the way out. I never got to answer her first question in the first place, like she wanted me too. Great the next time I met her I would have too. Dad and Mom were waiting near the Subway entrance with there stern looks on there faces.

"What? What in the good green earth did I do now?" I looked at them for an answer. They didn't say anything, mom rolled her eyes at me like I was in big trouble, I didn't see how I would be, I didn't do anything wrong. Unless it was because they were worried sick about me. Oh great I forgot to tell them that I was going to the arcade…

That slipped my mind kind of why they were giving me the glares. The reasons were obvious now. I wasn't going to give in though, like they'd win, so I also stood my ground.

Erin.

I was in my room composing music when little Karin walked in she looked a bit upset and happy, the mixture was a new one to me. I didn't set down my work she would understand why I didn't play with her this afternoon. All I got was a confession look upon her face like she wanted to talk to someone. I put down the blood red pen and closed the note book full of hopes and dreams I wasn't ever going to get and turned my body towards her. She was in a basking light when I looked at her, purity of an angel was going to at least save one of the Destler's from hate and betrayal.

"I met a girl today, with the new leads." She said at last her eyes were fixed on the bird next outside the window. She didn't move so I got up and moved to my desk chair, she turned to look at me like I was a priest, just as I was going to tell her to go to the catholic church to confess her sins she opened her mouth again. "She is different, then others that I have met, quite different."

Theses words coming from her were very strange, she never spoke of another person being different, unless they had a compassionate nature which around here was unnatural to find unless that someone was Diana. Which now was taking up my entire mind at the moment, of how I was going to make that plant grow. I did not know how that would come into play that very moment but my plan was starting to come together. Unlike any other brother I wasn't listening to what my sister was saying so she started to whine and that's when I came back to reality, unlike some of the people I live with, she is the most innocent and normal one in this family, she must have been a mistake, when the stork was bringing mom a child. I started to listen to her again, she was rolling her eyes at me like I didn't know anything she was talking about, all she said that caught my hearing was pale, yellow strike and beautiful. These few stained my mind. I didn't know anything else she was talking about. See what I mean when I say apathetic? Or just I don't care right now? Yes, this would be something like that, but I chuckled that thought off as dad started to walk up the stairs, he was waiting on my next piece for tonight we were hosting the new leads to dinner. Here at our house and they wanted me to play a piece something I took the time to create, with my will and skill. This was a gift I was born with since I was a child. I always wrote music and lyrics. I loved it the most like a real best friend. I never really had any friends besides well, Jasper… Josh Khan's son. A family friends son who was two years older than myself.

Then as father knocked at the door I found my mind was scrambling on the ground, it looked like a broken TV. screen in black and blue. Like almost broken memories. It was something so unseen as I clutched my head, Karin got off my lap and opened the door. I looked up calming my nerves. My headaches were getting that bad, I would have to be hospitalized soon, and when that day came I hope I was dead and married to Diana. She will be the end of my legacy. Our legacy, and love will go on forever. As I planned on it too, even if I have to steal her away from her family.

Dad took a seat, Karin sat on his lap, her eyes casting towards the floor now that he was here, compassion filled the room, and so did sadness an over due amount of it.

"Erin do you have that piece done?" He said as I grabbed the black folder from my desk and handed it to him with the most careful hands possible, he opened it and looked it over, after a couple ahmms, and smiles and such he closed it and looked up. I wondered what he was thinking in that moment. And then he spoke his piece. "You show such emotion in your work and yet your emotionless, like a cold hearted fool on the outside? Tell me, what do you plan to do after I die? Bury me, take up the business? Or do you plan to just sell everything and basically live off what your grandfathers and I worked for?"

The question struck me as a obstacle, I needed to dodge it with something else. Like mention mom or something, that would send him down to the road of hell again. So I decided to distract him with the mystery surrounding my music. It wouldn't be easy he would be able to see through my deceit if I wasn't careful. So I needed to choose my words carefully.

"So Karin are the new leads, peaceful?" father asked. She nodded, her eyes saying the same thing, but her expression was puzzling and drawing me in something was on her tongue and she needed to say it.

"There child, Her name is Lilith. She, I think she's different from the rest of the human race. I sensed it when she saw me first at the terminal with mother, and when we played DDR she wasn't laughing at my leg or calling me names, anything, she bent down and cried, as I cried on her shoulder. I'd make her my ally if I were you." Her last words were straight towards me. And father seemed pleased with himself having his little spy, check on the new leads, something that should be down afterwards, after meeting all of them. This was a bunch of lies, it must have been there has been no human that has come close to a descent human since father met mother and he brainwashed her into thinking he loved her, when in reality he had created a monster of a wife, she was a new breed, a demon now, her human characteristics were completely gone.

"Karin would you leave us for some minutes so your brother and I can speak?" She nodded. " Oh and go put on that nice new dress that Grand-dad bought you okay?" She nodded again. Man that kid was going to be ruined by father himself. Why was I the only one seeing this? Did it actually mean I did care about something in this world? Karin, and Diana, were these the only two people I cared about besides Esther? Esther was my twin sister, she is older than me by two minutes, uniquely gifted in many talents and has the beast of my mothers demon within her, it scares me half the time to talk with her, she plans to watch the world burn and make it suffer. We don't see her much and when we do, she usually is drunk, angry or she comes to torment all of us until mother gives her a job to do, she goes and does it and gets fired then is left on her feet for several months then the events repeats itself.

"You really need to be married by the end of year. This is my last warning to you. If you do not find a bride you will be disowned from my family. Do I make myself clear, it is either this road or you speak to your great-great-grand father to bestow the curse. Remember Erin my son, your time to find a woman and bestow an heir to me is ticking. Would you want the Destler name ending?" I shook my head, but I really did, the legacy of the Destler name should die with me. I was the cruelest monster of them all I had almost killed once for something I wanted the most, I was once a talented musician and yet now I was a broken man. This was something, the tables were turning on me.

" I understand father, but what about the little problem we 'Destler's' are cursed with? I mean do you intend my son or daughter to have that type of mark on there head. It would mentally scar him or her the rest of there lives, I wouldn't want to put them through it. Even if I did find a descent woman, and she would have me, I wouldn't want my child to live like that. This curse needs to end." Dad just looked at me with glaring eyes. Like I had said enough, I wasn't true to my word as he wanted me to be. Oh well He would understand later on in the year.

"And where would you be without this monster of a father? I mean that's what you just said, my son, you called your old man a monster, like I didn't deserve life itself? Well consider yourself lucky the one thing wrong with you is your warped soul."

With that he opened the door with the piece of music in his hands and before he closed the door he plainly said within a few words, me too do this evening.

"You will be dressed, and you will perform your music to our guests this evening and you will by all means find a girl, even if its just a plain girl, and bear me at least one child." He said the last words working around in my head. It wouldn't stop, I didn't feel old enough to have a family this early and Diana she was only what, nineteen years old? She wasn't ready for a blood bond yet. I couldn't hurt an innocent even if I tried and wanted to. This was going to be harder than I thought was possible.

I still needed to prove to Diana I was the one for her. I'd prove it to her this evening. When our guests arrive. I will make my move. And she will fall before me. I indeed will promise my father that.

Lilith.

We had arrived home in the traveling car, the cobalt that I was going to be driving, to the opera almost everyday, since dad and mom didn't want me to go anywhere without a GPS installed in my hardware so they could keep a lock and key on me every time. I had about 3 hours until I needed to be showered, dressed and ready to go to this party. My poetry was running thin with me this evening and music was enthralled in my brain. I couldn't make out the notes but it was magical none the less.

I opened three boxes. One had my white slippers in there to go with the golden dress I was going to wear. Box two, had my dress in it meant for prom, but I was gradually getting ready not to go to that so this would be good for that, an excuse I could use against mother later. And the last box was for my basic shower gels and shampoo and stuff like that.

I lasted about thirty minutes in the shower priming myself for tonight, I felt the need to look my best like something wonderful was coming, unlike that uneasy feeling I got on the plane. I smelled like cherry blossoms with a pure satin smell. I put on my dress it was old fashioned and was a strapless piece, there was white and silver ruffles in the mist of it at the end covered by one golden see through piece and sparkles covering the sparkles itself. I finished with only a mere ten minutes to go.

"Lil, get down here we got to leave soon, you only have five minutes to finish whatever your doing." Dad yelled up the stairs. I finished the last curl, of my hair, that was from the up-do, I never did anything like this and it was unusual to see me like this. I felt different. I put on my slippers and descended the stairs, we all got into the car, mom was wearing her emerald green dress in the car and dad was wearing his tuxedo. Man was this going to be a wonderful night. Before he drove off me said these words loudly.

"Should you encounter a boy…" I waved my hand up first to shut him up.

"There will be no boy." I said. Dad's eyes were happy.

Mom looked displeased, she wanted me to date, I felt sorry for her.

We made it to the gates, dad entered his card into the machine and the gates opened, dad had parked the car and opened my door first and we walked over to moms door, they linked arms, such a pretty couple they made, my parents. I was always in awe of them. As Dad knocked on the door mom turned to me and gave me a wink, I had no clue what that was for but I think it meant, good luck?

As the doors opened we looked upon a gallery of art in front of us, this was a mansion of mystery and it was catching my interest instantly. I was jealous of whoever lived here. I mean I was ready to have dad buy It off the people who lived here. And then I saw Karin, she was wearing a white strapped dress with diamond earrings and a heart locket necklace. Once she saw my eyes meet her's she ran towards me. I bent down to give her a big hug, good thing she didn't start to cry this time, or I wouldn't have known what would have overcome me.

"You're here… I thought only the leads were coming but you came as well, I'm so happy you have to sit next to me at dinner. Would you please?" She asked I looked at mom she looked like she was okay with it. I nodded slightly. She took my hand as we went through each room together, I waved my mother and father behind. And who were the leads?

"If I get lost, just check the GPS!" I said in a low tone, they both laughed, I had my cell phone on me so it was good enough. She was dragging me into a room filled with more art. I was becoming engulfed with natural beauty and commitment to something wonderful.

"Lilith, I'd like you too look at something." Karin's hand lead me to a painting of a man with a white mask that covered the right half of his face, I looked at it carefully, this man's face was absolutely handsome, I touched the canvas with one finger tracing the eyes, they caught me first. And then was his smile. Or the smile that wasn't there at all. He looked very unhappy, and sad. I felt a bit of pain for him. I wish I could have helped him in some way. "This…" She stopped and pointed to the picture.." This is my great-great-grand-father." My eyes didn't go wide but I thought about it for a while just thinking. This sounds like a curse. A curse of what though?

There was a belling ringing. And a young boy came in his was small for his age, his name was Trevor, a servant boy to Karin's family, for dinner. We were led into a big room, in the right corner was a piano but there was nobody playing, I looked around everyone was here and that's when I heard the sounds of keys being played. Karin's hand left mine I was standing alone when I heard the notes being struck out on the piano's beauty. Each note sounded so hopeful and cheery. Like there was some time of reason to go on and have a life. Or at least go looking for something that meant for life. As the music came to a sudden close I looked around everyone was crying, including mom, they probably thought it was a sad piece, what a misinterpretation. I found Madeline looking at me from the center, she was holding Karin's hand. I was the only woman in the room apparently who wasn't crying. This was another fatal piece to the puzzle. As the bench was closed I saw the master behind the music. And by god did my head hurt after that.

He was tall six foot seven almost, caramel honey dew hair that was semi short. He had it slicked back, very presentable, a black suit on with matching black shoes, he didn't look to happy, his face was dare I say it rushed and confused? I didn't know what to make of it much. But he made eye contact with me for a few seconds my stomach felt like it was turning to knots when I looked away. I felt something in that gaze.

"Ladies and Gentlemen, My Son, Erin Destler." Everyone clapped. I looked away after that, but little Karin's hand grasped my own again, letting me know it was time for dinner. She led me to the table I sat next to her and who sat next to me was Erin Destler himself. Wondering what would become of me in the morning didn't matter I was here now and I needed to make an impression on the fellow people here. Even if I wasn't going to be around much.

Mom and dad deserved that much. That is until I felt the uneasiness in my stomach begin again,

"Brother, this is Lilith, the girl I told you about."

"Indeed, a pleasure." He said. Lowly in tone.

"Likewise." I said in a mere point. "I liked your piece very much, a musician with such hope and love is one that is needed more in this life." I said at least. Before the dinner was carried out.

He just starred into my hazel eyes, like I wasn't suppose to know that. I wondered what else I wasn't suppose to pick up on as Madeline stood up to make a toast.