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These chapter updates will be sort of short and slow for now, apologies; trying to finish Insignia.
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! NOT NARUTO, NOT THE CHARACTERS, NADA!
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'January 19, 2010.
Dear Naruto, you suck. No seriously, you do. I want my pen back; you know, the one you're sucking on right now.
Dear Sasuke, you're an asshole. I do that with all the pens in my hand, it's not my fault!
Dobe, I fail to see how it is not your fault. I dot even want the pen back now.
Teme! How many times do I have to tell you not to call me dobe?
As many times as it takes until you stop being one. Teme's not so nice either, dobe.
Sasuke, stoppppp! I'm angry-writing and the paper is looking ugly!
Hm. Who's fault is that?'
I put the piece of paper to the side, smiling softly to myself at the simplicity of the note. I turned back to the metal box full of wrinkled and aged notes. I took a deep breathe and closed my eyes, letting the air out shakily as I began to weep.
It's all because of you.
It wasn't the type of weep when you just find out that your husband is dead and you collapse and just lie in your own tears. No, it was the soft and quiet kind, the one that says 'I'm dying on the inside but I'm okay on the outside'.
Truth be told, I was dying. Or it felt like it. These notes, these little reminders, are the only things I have left to remind me of why I still cry. People will tell others to suck it up, but it honestly isn't that easy. I can't just lock my soul away and smelt the key into another heart, or pretend that it never happened, the we never happened.
I grabbed another note from the box, unfolding it slowly.
'Febuary 5, 2010.
I want to try and get back in contact with my brother.
Itachi?
He would be my only brother.
I thought you said that there was no way that you two would ever speak again. Or at least you said that you didn't want to. What happened?
I miss him. I don't know what to do. It's so hard, being in this big home by yourself. It was bad enough after my parents died and we had to live alone together, but it's even worse now that I really don't have anyone there with me. I want him to come back, but I'm not sure how...
Sasuke, you're never alone. I'm always here if you need me, ya know. I wouldn't mind coming over at times, since I don't have anyone at home most of the time anyway.
It's not the same.'
I frowned at the familiar note, remembering the exact class I had been writing it in.
I threw that one aside and selected one note that had multiple colors of highlighter scribbled along it's creased edges.
What could this be...?
'May 15, 2010.
Sasukeeeeeee~
Yes, Naruto?
Thank you.
For...?
Giving me the chance to begin to eventually love you.
Love is a very strong word.
My feelings for you are getting pretty strong.
We've only been dating for a month.
Sasuke, what's wrong? Don't even try to tell me that there is nothing wrong because I know that you're not normally this cold to me if there is nothing bothering you.
My brother is back.
Is everything okay?
Just fine.
Obviously not.
Get out of my business.
I think I have a right to know. I am this thing that you call a boyfriend, ya know?
Well maybe you shouldn't be.'
I stared at the lined piece of paper, my face still and frozen with a flush of memories. I recalled this day, the emptiness in my heart when he slammed the paper down right as the bell rang, leaving me to read his last sentence with sorrow. He didn't speak to me for two whole weeks afterwards, until I had finally pinned him against a row of lockers to force some words out of him.
I will never forget the empty, the nothing I saw on his face that day.
I shook my head violently and shoved all of the old notes back into their shiny container, placing the hunk of metal in it's proper place on the mahogany shelf in my closet.
I stretched and wiped my eyes, my ears perking up at the ring of my house phone.
Who would be calling me at this hour?
I walked over to the kitchen area and snatched the phone off of it's hook. "Hello?"
"How is my big idiot doing?" I smiled softly.
"Hey granny. It's like...midnight, what are you doing up?"
"Aren't I the one supposed to be taking care of you, brat? I'm an adult, I can stay up to whatever hour I please. Besides, it's only six a.m. here. The question is, why are you up?" I could hear the concern underneath the sass in her tone, my eyes watering at her mother-like instincts.
I cleared my throat in order to stop my tears for sprouting. "I was just watching a movie, that's all. I was actually about to go to sleep when I caught your call."
There was a pause in her response, and I knew she was questioning me. "Hmm, alright. Well, I called just to let you know that I have to go to Amsterdam tomorrow, so I won't be coming home just yet. Naruto, I got a call from your neighbor saying that you haven't been out of the house in almost a week. I don't know what's happened, and you clearly will not tell me, but you better get your ass out into the real world soon. By soon, I mean tomorrow morning. Do you understand?"
I frowned. "Whatever you say, granny."
"Okay. I'll see you soon, brat. Love you." The call ended there, my hand moving without my recognition and setting it back onto it's hook.
I stared off into the distance for a while, my mind somewhere far far away from my body. Eventually I managed to come back to focus, my mind deciding that it was time for rest.
Sasuke...
Bang, bang, bang!
I slowly opened my eyes, annoyed by the light flooding in through my open blinds. I looked to my left, my clock showing me that it was ten in the morning. I groaned, quite literally rolling out of bed.
I continued on with my morning routine that consisted of getting up, undressing, showering, dressing, eating, brushing my teeth, brushing my hair, and checking my mail box or cell phone.
Granny Tsunade said she will kill me if I don't step outside of my house, so I might as well…
I grabbed my mail, tossing the junk into my now full trashbin and snatching my phone off of the counter.
'Ten missed calls from: Kiba Inuzuka, Hinata Hyuuga, Neji Hyuuga, and Gaara Sabaku.'
Shit.
I clicked on Kiba's name, jamming the smartphone up against my ear hastily.
"Naruto, are you okay?"
I smiled softly. "I'm just fine. Hey man, I'm sorry I missed your guys' calls. I've been sort of sleeping, heh." He snorted.
"Sleeping my ass. Neji and I were planning on going to see a movie this afternoon. What'cha say; you down?" I took a moment to think about it.
"Sure."
I could practically feel his excitement. "Alright! See you at AMC at three!"
I shook my head.
Gotta love my friends.
"Maaaa, that movie was great! What was it called again?"
"Pacific Rim." Neji answered nonchalantly. We were walking down the steps to the first floor of the mall, a cup of hot chocolate necessary for all of us at the moment. "I agree that it was fairly good."
I saw the Starbucks ahead of us, smiling at the thought of a long-needed, hot beverage with my friends.
"Hey guys, I'll pay for the three of us. It's only fair since- ah!" I turned to my left, about to apologize for my clumsiness when I felt two coal gems trap me in a cage, my body at a halt.
"Well if it isn't Naruto."
"Sa...Sasuke." My throat throbbed, along with my heart, not used to spewing that name for such a long time.
He locked gazes with me for a while, nothing shown on his features.
"Hn."
He walked off, leaving the three of us all dumbfounded and saddened.
Damn hot chocolate.
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