AN: Hey sorry this is kind of late because our internet has been down I didn't get to upload this and then I got writers block. =(This chapter was inspired by Demi Lovato; I love her so I might be using her songs often. Oh and btw Jesse didn't know who he's going to work with he just thought L.A. = Beca.
It's Always Been You – Chapter 2
Beca Mitchell was the next big thing in L.A. after 3 years of slaving for an indie company and getting nowhere she finally made the choice to quit and do her own thing. She called up Fat Amy who she found out was completely loaded and had contacts everywhere they decided to make their own record label. They were like the people from Ace of Cakes, Amy was the one doing the talking and Beca was producing. Later they were joined by Stacie, who choreographed the music videos, Chloe and Aubrey doing all the business stuff and Cynthia-Rose who wrote the songs. Together they were unstoppable. To top it all off they were teaming up with a company who did movie scores and wanted to "widen their horizons."
She was finally happy. And that was a lie.
Who was she kidding? She just called Amy to cry her balls out and she came to New York the day after to pick her up from the floor where she was curled up into a ball and dragged her of to L.A. for a fresh start. She blamed herself for keeping her walls down and being so vulnerable around him. This is what she gets for believing she could be happy, for believing in fairytales and believing that he was her forever. Apparently, she was wrong, boy was she wrong.
But, leaving was the right thing to do. She wasn't happy anymore, she felt like she was only up for display, like one of those dolls that you hide in your closet that you only bring out to boast to your friends and putting it back never giving it even a thought. Worst of all she felt like a fuck buddy. He would spend the night with her but only the night. When she woke up it was as if she never mattered to him.
At times he wouldn't come home and all she got were drunken phone calls. At those times she didn't know who he was anymore. He was no longer the Jesse she fell in love with.
In real life I'm waking up alone And one more night you didn't make it home
And one more time you won't pick up the phone
She was never happy in New York, she only moved there because of Jesse. At first it was great, they both got jobs as interns, Beca was sure she hit the jackpot but it went downhill from there, on the other hand Jesse was getting his name out there and being mister-big shot.
When he had his big break, he got more busy and went to parties he would never even bother to ask her to come with. She felt neglected, forgotten and left-behind. While he was climbing the ladder to success she was stuck in the mud of disappointment and failure.
When this started she taught this was only jealousy but she realized that it was over when he stopped moviecations, the thing that brought them together, he even stopped looking and taking care of his precious movie collection. He was different. He changed.
In real life you never bring me flowers
When you're here it's only for an hour
I'm getting used to being on my own
He would only come home for like seems like just a minute to get changed or take a shower he wouldn't even look at me. I would just get the usual "Hey" before it was "Honey! I'm home!" or just go up to me and kiss me and he would tell me how much he missed me. And every time I ask him something he'll just say "Sure, babe"
"You got sure babed?" Stacie aid almost knocking over her wine glass. It was girls' night and somehow everything that I felt came out.
"Oh my god, this is bad!" chimed in Aubrey.
"Yeah first its 'sure babe,' then its 'whatever,' and we all know where that leads to!" Fat Amy said knowingly. The whole night made Beca realized her relationship was falling to pieces.
"Don't listen to them Beca," Chloe said as she glared at the three girls who were just adding insult to the injury. "Jesse loves you and I'm sure everything will be fine," the red-head said comfortingly.
That night she came home to an empty loft, Jesse-less.
Because in real life
You're not what I thought
This isn't what I want
He wasn't the same Jesse that made her heart skip a beat. He was now the Jesse that made her heart ache. He used to be the guy who would bring Beca flowers even though she hated them. (read: loved)He was the one that showered her with love and affection. He made her feel like a princess and make her feel so beautiful. He was her knight and shinning armour. He was her forever.
Guess things aren't always
What they seem
She never thought he would make her feel ignored, feel unwanted and feel useless. He wasn't supposed to be just a dream. He wasn't supposed to be a fairytale. He used to make her happy not miserable. They were each other's missing pieces not the ones who caused those pieces to be lost. She didn't know he was going to be her past.
In real life it doesn't always work out
People fall in love
And then they fall out
Hearts can break and never make a sound
Love blinded her to see the reality. It blinded her to see that everything had fallen out of place and there is nothing she can do to fix it. And Beca was just tired, tired of trying to fix everything and tired of pretending like everything was fine. Love blinded her to see that he was no longer happy. But hope told her to give her one last try, to give Jesse one last chance.
But when she got the drunken phone call, she knew that there was no more chance of making things work. So she ended it. She felt like a huge weight was lifted from her shoulders. She felt free. But that didn't stop her from crying like a baby and lying on the floor and curling into a ball.
She had finally accepted the fact that he was no longer her forever.
"Shawshank come on, we've got a meeting with Mr. Divine about the new department." Amy called out which caused Beca to snap out of her thoughts. She promised herself that would be the last time she would think about Jesse Swanson.
A/N: Again sorry for the delayed update. And heads up I don't know how long it will take for me to update again because in my country school is starting.
Songs used: In Real Life by Demi Lovato
Fun Fact: Beca's audition for the Bella's was supposed to be "I'm A Little Teacup" but instead the producers let her do "Cups"
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Love lots,
~Kate