Thank you for the reviews, followings and favorite, hope you continue to enjoy it. Don't worry it won't be focusing on Olivia and a drinking problem I needed that to draw into part of the problems they are having, it might still be there but not as much it is more focused on Bensidy working out and staying together

This chapter is what I would of loved one scene to be on the show, other than Internal Affair there wasn't much.

Hope you continue to enjoy it, still a few more chapters to go

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Hearing the front door open turning around a smile on her face as he walks in "hi Babe" feeling his lips on top of her head her feet up on the table "you ok Liv" nodding "yeah I'm fine, how about we get takeout" walking over to his girlfriend "sure you're ok" nodding trying to smile at him "just tired, didn't realize how much extra work being Sergeant and taking over from Captain would be" starting to get up "hey" moving over to her sitting next to her kissing the top of her head "hard day then" nodding her head "think I could just sleep" his arms around her pulling her close to him, his lips finding the top of her head "want me to run a warm bath for you" nodding unable to move away from him "mmm this feels good" his fingers moving down her arms and around them "I love you Liv" looking up at him "yeah, me too" snuggling against his chest he smelt and felt good her hands against his chest "I didn't think I would get this worn out from it all, I don't know how the Captain did it"

His fingers running through her hair "he didn't go out on the job, and try running SVU by himself, you need to slow down Liv" her arms around his waist "I'm fine Bri, its just the team is like kids, you ask them to do something and have to keep an eyes on them, don't know if it is because I became sergeant or what" kissing the top of her head "maybe they are just testing you, you need to take it easy Liv, try not to do so many things, you'll burn yourself out, you need to use your team more, step back from it all, you need to take care of yourself babe" looking up at his face seeing the love in his eyes "that's what I have you for" snuggling against his chest she didn't know how she would of got through it all without him the thought that she could of lost him, her voice soft barely audible "please don't ever leave me" moving his head slightly away from her "what was that" looking up at him before wrapping her arms around his chest "I just want to be here with you to hug me"

Kissing the top of her head before moving away from her "I'll run you a bath and call in some takeaway, then we'll go to bed"

Walking into the kitchen he wanted to take care of her, tried to be here, he was worried about her in more ways than one they were starting to get their relationship back on track looking at her through the kitchen grabbing her a drink walking into the bathroom, coming out a short time later "Liv" seeing her eyes closed bringing over the blanket wrapping it around her kissing her on top of the head seeing her eyes open a smile on her face looking up at him "the bath is ready" his hand on hers helping her there a seductive smile on her face "going to join me"

Standing in the bathroom her eyes fixed on Brian her hand going up undoing her top her eyes fixed on him as her top slips off her down to the ground "Liv you won't relax with me in the bath" her tongue moving around her lips as her hands move down to her jeans undoing the zipper slowly as they slowly fall off her trying not to smile as Brian's eyes widen, she had missed this the passion in their relationship they had hit a wall "I'm sure you can make me relax Bri"

his eyes not moving as her bra slides down as she stretches "shit Liv, what are you trying to do to me" a small smile on her lips he was not able to resist her she knew him better than he knew himself this was the Brian and the way they were before all of this happened walking slowly over to him her body nearly naked her toned body seeing him not able to move as she walks slowly over to him her hands moving over his body under his shirt lifting his shirt over his body.

Unable to resist her "give me a second and I'll be back" a smile on her face as her undies fall to the ground "better hurry"

Turning of the stove his hands on the bench there was a time when they couldn't keep their hands off each other taking a deep breath she was gorgeous and she was his walking inside the bathroom seeing Liv lying in the bath bubbles surrounding her seeing her leg up over the edge a smile on his face seeing her eyes on him as he takes off his clothes hopping in the bath feeling her body lying against his skin his hand moving down her arm and leg, he was totally in love with this woman and had been since the moment he met her again it had taken him so long to say the words, too long that he nearly lost her they nearly lost each other kissing the top of her head. Feeling her hand in his taking it off her arm and leg putting it where she wants it to go, it isn't long before her body starts to give in to him and him to her.

Watching Olivia hop out of the bath the water dripping off her body dropping her head to put her towel around her hair as the towels slowly dries her body each movement deliberate before the towel drops to the floor her bum and legs moving as she walks out the door, he had never got out of the bath that quickly before.

Watching Brian enter the bedroom his eyes upon her naked body still she could see the hunger in them, the bath the beginning of what she hoped lay ahead of them she had missed the inimate physical contact between them, falling asleep with his arm draped over her but they hardly had sex seeing the longing in his eyes, she craved his touch their eyes not moving from each other as he slowly walks towards her his eyes scanning every inch of her naked body unable to control his desire and longing anymore his hand grasping her head his lips finding hers kissing her hard and feverently moving centimetres away from her lips "oh god Liv, I want you so badly" her answer pulling his mouth roughly towards hers before putting her legs around his body there kissing becoming more and more feverent and passionate with each breath they take.

Rolling over hours later feeling Brian's fingers moving around her stomach she hadn't felt this good in ages, turning back on her side to face him leaning on her elbow stroking his face "I'm sorry Bri" seeing his eyes look at her in confusion as she continues "you never got your dinner"

A smile on his face seeing Olivia lying on her side her eyes not moving from his, her touch sending shivers through his body he could look at her all day and night never growing tired of it, he had never felt this way before, he had wanted her 15 years ago and now here she was with him "dessert is always better, I've worked up an appetite" her fingers moving down his arm "thought you had stamina Cassidy" seeing his eyes light up at the thought of a challenge "your on Benson" rolling her over onto her back pinning her arms down as his mouth finds her both of them losing themselves to each other again.

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Walking inside the apartment trying to leave work at a reasonable hour, the problems still there slightly between them but working on them not letting it simmer between them but something is different despite it all they were back on track the spark back in their relationship, she wants this to work out, she can't imagine her life without him in it, the smell waffing through as soon as she opened the door "mmm something smells great" walking into the kitchen as her lips find his "it won't be long, time to have a shower if you want, 15 minutes or so or just relax" walking over to the fridge pouring a glass of wine handing Brian a beer before standing on the other side of the bench, watching Brian a smile on her face they were both making an effort and reconnecting again he had been there through her darkest moments and without him she wondered if she would of come through as much as she didn't want to admit it she had turned to the wine drinking more and more, it had helped block out the memories when Brian wasn't home help them fade for a short period of time, she didn't want to be like her mother but it was her coping mechanism, she was now determined to build on what they had together they had reconnected.

Facing Olivia whilst finishing off dinner her hair pulled back in a ponytail her clothes casual despite it all he was more in love with her he didn't want to lose her but had been so worried about her he didn't want to push her away but he had tried to get through to her he knew he wasn't around as much as he should "Liv" seeing her head tilt slightly sideways "I've given my notice to Tucker no more UC for me"

Looking at Brian the surprise on her face "but you love doing UC Bri you've done it for so long" taking a sip of his beer his eyes not moving from hers "Yeah, but I love you Liv and you were right, I haven't been around as much either with IA or UC and it isn't fair on us, on you"

Walking around into the kitchen her arms around his waist "you need to think about this Bri" looking down at her brown eyes looking up at him concern in them "I have Liv, I still might do the occasional UC like I did with the 12th but I can't put you in danger or here by yourself, hey I miss you when I'm not here" kissing the top of her head

Her eyes moving around part of her was happy but the concern "as long as you're sure, do you really want to be in IA though?"

Moving away from her back to the stove "it's a start Liv, they gave me my shield back" looking at Brian walking around to the table setting it she didn't want him to regret this or resent her "they took it away to start with" glancing at Olivia he thought she'd be happy about his decision spending more time together "you're confusing me here Liv, I thought you'd be happy about this" walking back into the kitchen up to her boyfriend putting her hands under his shirt "I am but I want YOU to be happy" facing her his arms around her body "as long as I am with you Liv, I am happy IA is a start, anything is better than those nights at the Bronx" looking up at him her eyes full of love for her boyfriend "just as long as your're ok with it all" looking down at her finding her lips briefly "I am"

Sitting on the couch her legs curled up underneath her Brian's arms wrapped around her feeling his fingers run up and down her arm, she was finally relaxing the past few months had taken the toll with the trial and taking over from Cragen even knowing Lewis was behind bars for 25 years she would never forget what happened no matter how hard she tried the images would enter her head, she couldn't even open up to Brian she wanted to she really did but she just didn't want him to think of her any differently he had to see the cigarette burns on her chest and arms all over her body but he hadn't asked any questions and she hadn't given him any answers but after the fight the other night she realized how much it was hurting him too but in a different way.

Feeling his lips on top of her head looking up at him a smile on her face as his lips meet hers so soft and gentle snuggling even closer to him "don't ever Leave me" tilting her head up to face him "I won't Liv, I love you and can't imagine my life without you in it"

Her head against his chest her voice soft "Bri it isn't that I didn't want to tell you what happened its" not interrupting her his head tilted his hands running through her hair "its….. just I didn't know how to tell you, then the trial it all came out then, I felt so humiliated" tilting her face to look at him "Liv, I'd never judge you no one believed Lewis, all those things he said, how many times has that happened to other people, you are so strong and have come through it all, it will take time Liv but I'm not going anywhere" her hands around his waist "I didn't want you to look at me any different, Lewis … " moving her head against his chest "I had cigarette burns over my chest, my breasts, arms everywhere I didn't want you to see them the physical scars were a constant reminder of what he did to me"

Stroking her hair "I had never been more scared Liv than when I heard he had you knowing what he had done to his previous victims I felt so helpless it was then I realized that what we had wasn't just some casual thing, I know what people thought, I think we even thought that we wouldn't last but it was then that I couldn't imagine my life without you in it, that I wanted you in it, it was when you stayed at my place that I realized that I didn't want you not in it" turning to look at him "I love you Brian Cassidy" his lips close to hers "I love you too Liv" his lips meeting her soft and gentle at first before becoming more and more passionate.

Lying in bed feeling Brian's arms around her pulling her towards him a smile on her face as her fingers outline his face staring into his eyes feeling his lips upon hers, she was happy, the happiest she had been for a while Brian was here for her, she had to stop pushing him away the past few months had taken the toll on her feeling Brian's lips move down her body letting her body go feeling each touch he made before giving into him. Lying back afterwards it had been months that they were drifting apart but now the passion there the desire and want lying on her side feeling one of his arms wrapped around her the other running down her arm closing her eyes she didn't want this feeling to ever stop she was in love with Brian like she had never been in love before.