'JD!' Elliot screamed as she ran over to help her friend. 'Oh my god are you OK?'

'Not exactly.' JD croaked out, 'God I feel dizzy, this hurts.'

'Come on JD. Focus. I can't lose you.' Elliot whispered through tears, which, no matter how hard she tried to hold back, came fast. 'Can we get a gurney in here now!' she screeched.

Soon a gurney arrived being pushed by a nurse who looked terrified at what was happening. Elliot helped lift JD onto it and started to push it towards to OR. She knew he needed emergency surgery to get the bullet out, and to put some blood in, as his scrubs for turning bright red at an alarming rate.

'JD stay with us, don't go unconscious. You have to focus.' She could hear her voice breaking as she spoke.

'I'm tired.' JD said simply.

'No. JD stay awake. You have to stay awake.' Elliot yelled at him but as his eyes closed she screamed, 'No! JD focus!'

Elliot continued to run the gurney towards the OR, paging them to prep it for surgery at the same time.

As soon as he arrived they began the surgery to remove the bullet and do a blood transfusion. Elliot collapsed in the watching area; her body shook with violent sobs.

I must look a wreck right now, but I don't care. I just need JD to be OK.

She got out her pager, Dr. Cox, Carla and Turk needed to know what had happened.

A few seconds after she had paged Dr. Cox telling him to come to the OR he paged back.

'Barbie. I am very busy, this had better be very good.'

A couple of minutes later Dr. Cox entered looking very angry.

'Barbie I swear to god if you paged me because your boyfriend dumped you and you needed a shoulder to cry on I will kill you.'

'Dr. Cox.' Elliot interrupted, not wanting to hear a Dr. Cox rant right now.

'What Barbie? Go on, what pathetic reason do you have for crying so much.' He barked

'Look at who's on the operating table.'

Dr. Cox frowned slightly before turning around. His eyes widened at the person lying there.

'Newbie? What happened?'

'He was shot.' Saying it out loud brought on another batch of tears. 'And it's my fault.'

Dr. Cox collapsed against the wall and slid down to sit next to Elliot.

'How is it your fault?'

'I had a little girl who died. I was talking to her father and he got angry saying it was my fault. And then he got out a gun.'

'So why did he shoot Newbie?'

'He was going to shoot me. JD just jumped in front and took the bullet for me.'

'Stupid kid.' Dr. Cox muttered but Elliot glared at him for this remark.

'He just wanted to save me and ended up getting shot himself. It's all my fault.'

'No Barbie. It's not your fault, you couldn't help the fact that that man is a psycho, or that Newbie feels the need to help people so much that he ends up hurting himself. Have you called Carla and Gandhi?'

Elliot nodded slightly, 'They're coming now.'

Just at the moment Carla and Turk burst through the door.

'Elliot, what's happening?' Carla asked.

'Newbie was shot.' Dr. Cox replied for her so she wouldn't have to say it again.

Turk's eyes widened and he stood staring at JD on the operating table, eyes brimming with tears as Carla crouched down and hugged Elliot while crying at the same time.

'It's my fault.' Elliot said again, 'He was trying to shoot me and JD jumped in front of me. I should be in there not him.'

'No it's not. JD wouldn't want you to blame yourself either.' Carla said comfortingly.

'I just can't lose him. I've relied on him every day since we were interns, I don't know what I'd do if he died. I need him.' Elliot was now struggling to speak through her tears, which had already soaked through Carla's clothes.

'I know. None of us could. Especially you and Turk.' Carla said through her own tears and then turned to face Turk who was still stood there silently, 'Turk are you OK?'

Turk simply shook his head. 'I can't believe he's been shot. Who would do that to him?'

Carla moved over and hugged Turk as well. Dr. Cox got up and left,

'Page me when he's out of surgery.' He said just as he walked out.

An hour later Dr. Wen walked out of the OR and began to wash his hands.

'Is he OK?' Elliot asked, terrified of the answer.

'Well. He's lost a lot of blood so he could be unconscious for a while but we managed to get the bullet out and it didn't touch his heart. So he should be OK, but I'm not promising anything.'

Elliot breathed a small sigh of relief, he should be OK now, she just had to hope the small chance he wouldn't be wasn't what happened.

Elliot, Turk and Carla followed JD into his room and put him onto his bed, attaching him to a morphine drip and an IV.

'Guys could I be alone with him a minute?' Elliot asked.

Turk and Carla nodded and walked out as Elliot sat down in the chair next to JD's bed.

She looked at him there, sleeping so peacefully; she hadn't seen him like this since, well, since they were dating. But that's not the time to think about that. She took hold of his hand and was shocked at how cold it felt; she also noticed how pale he looked.

'Hi JD. God you scared me then. Dr. Wen says that you're going to be OK though. Please be OK. I don't know what I'd do without you, I've lent on you every day for seven years and you can't just die and take that away. I know we've had our ups and downs but I can't tell you how happy I am that we stayed friends, just friends. Do you think we are really just friends? Great now I'm trying to have a conversation with someone who's unconscious! You have to be OK JD, make sure you live for all of us. If you could have seen Dr. Cox's face when he saw you. It would have made your life.' She said with a small laugh. She lent over and gently kissed him on the lips before getting up and leaving.

She walked into the doctor's lounge, her minding buzzing with thoughts, and sat down hard on the sofa.

It's typical, now is exactly the wrong time to be thinking about it but I can't help it. I can feel the old feelings towards JD starting to stir again when I've worked so hard to put them to rest. What about the question I asked JD, were we ever just friends? Probably not, there has always been something more between us. Sexual tension we call it. But somehow it's more than that. Old feelings between us that have never died, that will never die.

Making sure JD is OK is the most important thing though, my feelings towards him will have to wait. I owe him that; after all he almost died for me. Why did he do that? People always say they would die for someone but it's rare to meet a person who will actually do it if they are put in that position.

But that's just JD, he always puts other people before himself. Even when you're the worst friend to him he sticks by you. Even when he dumped me and broke my heart he only really wanted the best, he didn't want to lead me on any more. Make me hope anymore.

And he tried so desperately to make things right again, stuck by me even when I was being cruel to him.

Did the right thing for me when I slept with him and dumped him again when Sean showed up.

Sacrificed his own happiness. All for me.

And now risking his life. All for me.

How could I not be in love with him?

Chapter 2! That's quick updated for me! The fact I'd already written it and just had to check it aside. Oh and I think seeing as I killed her in the last chapter she deserves a mention, thanks Emily! Killing you was my pleasure. No just kidding. And she said this to me when I told her I was killing her and her dad was shooting JD 'But my Dad loves JD!'

I already have chapter 3 written so I will probably do that after school tomorrow. After that it might be a bit longer between updates because I haven't written chapter 4 yet.