Chapter 1
(Jasper's point of view)
Fifty years ago when Alice found me in that Diner in Pittsburg, my life was filled with endless damnation, I felt all their pain as I fed and so I fed less growing even more despondent. But there had never been another way for me. After Maria all the death and destruction had left me a shell of my former self, I no longer knew who I was, I was as faceless as all those newborns I had created, commanded and destroyed. She gave me hope and a family.
My 'twin' Rosalie, confident with a hard exterior but loves like the best of them and is fiercely loyal; Emmet the big goof, who feels completely; Edward the more intense of my siblings and the other one who is as unattached as I am; Carlisle, my ever patient father in this life and his wife Alice, my mother and my salvation- if it weren't for her seeing me quite literally, I am sure I would have found a way to end my existence. Imagine that- from the 'God of War' to a suicidal wreck. Her energy and her patience helped me to choose this life.
We had moved to Forks in time for the beginning of the school year and Carlisle had made sure to tell the Quileute's of our arrival as well as to add both me and Alice to the treaty as we weren't there the first time they passed through this area. We were all going to high school as juniors, and Alice was managing her clothing company remotely as well as coming up with new designs, Carlisle had already been hired as the local hospital's chief of surgery. Emmet and I had the games room stocked with the flat screen, the x-box, and shelves of our favorite games. That night we went on a hunt in preparation for our first day, and as the sun rose over the mountainous green expanse, not really shining through but leaving it looking light grey - the perfect light not to keep us stranded indoors but also not to give away the sparkly mess that our skin was. I had been pensive. I had finally realized that it would maybe be impossible for me to find that person, who would complete me? In this century my preferences were not held in contempt, and my family knew and understood- but where would I find someone willing to love me, a soulless monster. I was once the greatest evil to walk the planet and I have the potential to be that again, who would risk that? I rode my Ducati to school so that I wouldn't project my current mood onto my siblings and by the time we arrived I was in control enough to smile and act normal even if I felt sad at a loss of something that I had never experienced- love.
The wolves' scent stuck out like a sore thumb all over the school, but it was underplayed with the scent of freshly cut pine- which for some reason made my unbeating heart ache. At lunch I felt more despondent than ever as I sat with my siblings, I was the last to arrive. The emotions around the room were consistent mainly of curiosity, as well as large amounts of lust thrown in both mine and Edwards' way, and then there was that scent again coming from the table with three wolves. The gorgeous boy turned his body and as our eyes met I felt the most intense emotions directed at me, and the one emotion that I had resigned to never feel directed at me was rolling off in waves so strong I was stunned.
Stormy grey eyes left mine as he stood and left the cafeteria. I suddenly felt as if my heart had been torn out of my chest. I had both found and seemingly lost my forever in under s minute.' No Jasper,' said Edward,' his thoughts echo yours you must talk to him before you both commit yourselves to this though.
(Paul's Point Of View)
I had to force myself to go to school the next day. I had barely slept and my inner wolf was causing the most uncomfortable pain in the pit of my stomach. I barely spoke a word to Leah and that alone had her worried about me but she didn't push. Sue just smiled softly and wished us luck.