Prologue
Happiness. Everyone hopes to be happy at least once in their entire life and most of them did experience it. Except for me. I tried to accept my flaws and imperfections, I tried to be happy at least but I know I could not hide from my inner feelings. I was not at all. There were times I just want to cry and shout aloud, asking God why does he want all these things to happen to me. My mother always tells me 'God does things for a reason'. But half of the time I wanted to ask 'But why me?' Didn't God say he wants all of his children to experience prosperity and happiness? But why not me?
Everyone has probably gone through something hoping that 'everything happens for a reason'. No matter if it's someone that has gone through a hard time, or someone that had something great happen to them.
I live in Lake Munroe for my whole life. I live right outside town in the remote area by the lake where my mother opens a Frozen Yoghurt Shop right in front of our house. Although it is very remote here, many people still come down here to buy frozen yoghurt. I do not have a father neither did my mother mention anything about my father. To me, my mother is a part of my dad. Somehow, I really hope one day, I get to meet my dad.
One thing you should know about me is that I am HIV positive. Many people assume that I got HIV because I have a hectic sexual relationship or I take drugs. I got it from a nurse who made a mistake by using a needle used by a HIV positive person and used it on me. From then on, my life is ruin. Who is this girl?
It is me. Carter Tressiak. I am born on 7 August 1992. I study in Lake Munroe High School. I never experience happiness or love in my whole life neither did I ever have real friendship apart from Zon. Everyone left once they heard I had a sickness, Zon is the only one who stood by me.
However, I try not feel sad about why God made me this way. I know he has a reason for this…