Speechless
Clarke:
I couldn't contain my tears as I ran to Madi. "What's wrong? Are you hurt?" she questioned, concern and tension filled her face. She was so young but at this very moment she looked well beyond her years.
"Yes, I'm fine. It's them. They're back." I managed to get out, my voice cracking. Was I ready for this? Was Madi ready for this? Would they accept her? Had anything changed?
"Hurry up then let's go meet them! NOW!" she squealed. Amusement lighting up her face. "I've heard so much about these people I just want to meet them already." She yanked my arm in excitement. I didn't think she would be this excited. But why not, she listened to me tell stories about them almost every day. Her favorite stories were about Octavia and Bellamy.
"Let's go my little nightblood." I said as I began to gather some food, water, and other necessary supplies. Madi had already stocked up all our guns and packed them into the Rover.
Before we knew it, we were racing out to where they were. Bellamy looked so broken when he saw me, yet so relieved. Like the weight of the world had just been lifted. He looked the same way he did when he found me with Roan in the cave. I spent every day for the past 6 years imagining what I would do if I got to see him again but I didn't know what to do. An uncontrollable happiness consumed me.
"So, are you going to finally tell Bellamy the truth?" Madi whispered breaking my train of thought.
"What…what are you talking about?" I stuttered. I don't think I'm ready to even look him in the eyes let alone confess my feelings for him.
"You and I both know that you love him, you've been telling him every day on some broken radio. So, why not tell him now that he's actually going to be here with you?" she responded a look in her eyes I had never seen before. She was right. I knew I had to do it but I think I should let him settle in before I pledge my love to him.
"I was talking to myself, that doesn't count. Besides I can't just come out with my unspoken feelings for him right now he hasn't even been on earth for a day. Who knows what he'll do." I just felt so overwhelmed with this rush of feelings.
We reached the tree line at the bottom of the cliff just as we were about to head in we saw figures sprinting at us. Madi quickly jumped up without thought, peeking her head out of the sunroof. She pointed the rifle at the figured running. I grabbed my rifle aiming it out of the window.
Tears swelled up in my eyes. I felt a kick to my gut as I saw their faces. My family. The people who made up my dreams every day for the past 6 years. I couldn't control the tears as they fell down my cheeks.
"CLARKE" Raven yelled breaking my blank gaze. My face and my neck was covered in tears. She was limping behind everyone else. I quickly jumped out to greet them.
"MADI STAND DOWN IT'S THEM." I yelled as I jumped out of the Rover. I was rammed by strong muscular arms wrapping me into an embrace so tight it took my breath away. Finally. I was complete. I began my head into his long neck, taking in the familiar scent of Bellamy. His dark curly locks brushing against my forehead. Tears were streaming down my face and down his neck.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm sorry that we left you. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you," Bellamy cried into my ear his tears ran down his face dripping onto my shoulder. I squeezed him, I couldn't even find the strength to say anything so I just squeezed him the tears felt endless.
"Get a room" mumbled Murphy. I never would've thought that I would miss Murphy and his snarky comments.
Finally, we break free, Bellamy set me down. He took a step back and looked at me, drinking in every detail as if trying to commit me to memory. My heart dropped and the tears continued as he gave me that famous Bellamy smirk.
Raven cleared her throat, "Hi, Clarke we missed you too." My face became red. I grabbed Raven and pulled her into a tight embrace.
"I missed you too, I missed all of you. You have no idea how weird it felt to be here without you guys." I turned to everyone else, starting to greet everyone. I could feel Bellamy's eyes on me as I hugged everyone. Monty lined up behind Murphy and Emori. Soon pulling me into a hug, he quietly stepped back while holding my shoulders scanning me. "This feels so unreal. I'm glad you're alive," Monty sighed.
I quickly hugged Harper and Echo. I stepped back and just looked at them. They all looked familiar, but I knew they weren't the same people that had gone up to space 6 years ago. There was a lot of catching up to do.
Madi sat in the Rover quietly watching everyone. Clearly, she was nervous. I grabbed Madi's hand pulling her out, standing her in front of me. "This is Madi, she has been keeping me sane while you all were gone. She's a…"
"Nightblood, we know we got your messages" Bellamy smirked. Blood rushed to my face. I could feel my face blushing uncontrollably. I dropped my eyes down to the floor avoiding eye contact with everyone. A part of me always believed that they couldn't hear me.
"You…you heard all of them?" I stuttered avoiding eye contact.
"Well Bellamy hogged the radio when you were talking, but yes we heard them ALL." Raven laughed. I could feel my face beaming red. "Well let's leave the rest of our reunion talk for when we're somewhere safe, who knows if those people are coming after us."
"Okay hurry, everyone get in" I said scanning the area. There was no one in sight, but Raven is right better to be safe than to be sorry.
"Did you finally learn how to drive Clarke?" Bellamy laughed. Sitting in the passenger's seat beside me.
"Well without you here, I had to." I peeked over my shoulder, giving him a small smirk. Sitting next to him, I felt the electricity, that same spark we had always shared.
"Well you don't need to do that anymore because I'm not letting you out of my sight," he leaned over whispering in my ear, sending goosebumps all over my body. It was like a shock had taken over me.
I continued driving. We all sat in silence, everyone was one guard. Paranoid of what could happen. Life on Earth was never easy.
I focused my attention on a sleeping Bellamy sitting next to me. He was clearly exhausted. Bags formed under his eyes over the years, he looked like had aged so much since I last saw him. But he was still such a beautiful sight. Bellamy's nice square jaw, his bone structure still well defined, soft plump lips. I just wanted to take in every detail of his being. He knows how I feel about him, but did he feel the same way?
I slowly pulled up to the lab's garage. Closing the door behind me. "Okay guys we're home" I said while nudging Bellamy. He abruptly jumped up and clenched his hands into fists. He was damaged and I understood completely, I was the same way. I set my hand on his fist trying to calm him, he instantly released.
He looked over at me, his eyes glowing even through the darkness. The corners of his shifting to a soft smirk. "Thank you for saving us. Again."
"You're my people, my family. I would do anything for you." I felt tears burning in my eyes, but I held them back as I stared at him.
"Let's get out of here." Bellamy gave my hand a squeeze before turning to get out. I hadn't felt this relieved in so long. I didn't have much to worry about since Madi and I were the only two people walking on the ground for the past 6 years, but a part of me was always worried. Worried about Bellamy, worried about my mom, worried that I'd never see them again.
Bellamy:
Waking up I felt Clarke's hand on my shoulder, immediately making me jump. I had been dreaming of what it would feel like to wake up to her beautiful face for so many years, but this was so much better. No dream could ever compare to the feeling of actually being with her.
I felt so grateful, Clarke was always there for us. She always put everyone before she put herself. "Thank you for saving us. Again."
Her eyes lit up. Her pale blue eyes locked into mine. "You're my people, my family. I would do anything for you." I couldn't help but smile, she always had that effect on me.
I leaned over squeezing her hand. "Let's get out of here."
We jumped out of the Rover, everyone went inside but I stayed and helped Clarke take everything back inside. She was thinner than I had last seen her. Her face was more defined. She had red streaks in her hair complimenting the golden strands that fell on her face.
"Are you just going to stand there and gawk or are you going to come in?" Clarke laughed. She looked so young when she laughed. I hadn't even realized I was staring at her.
"I-I'm coming, I guess I'm still in shock." I stuttered. She scanned my face, smiling even bigger than before. I flashed her a smirk and followed her up to the office. The same office we had last been alone together. Following her up the stairs, taking in every stride she made. Watching her hips sway from left to right as she took each step. I was mesmerized. As soon as she reached the room she looked back at me her eyes widening as she quickly turns to gather up some drawings.
"I see you've been keeping yourself busy" I say resting my hand on hers stopping her from hiding her work. I looked into her bright eyes, they looked scared maybe a little embarrassed her face was becoming pinker by the second. I looked down and noticed she was covering one specific drawing. It was of me. I was smiling. The type of smile I could only ever give her. "Let me see" I say reaching out for all the papers in her hand. I had slept in her cell while I was on the Ark, admiring her artwork. I never would've thought that she would be down here drawing me.
She lets go of the papers revealing multiple drawings of me. "So, I'm your muse, now aren't I?" I tried to hide my sarcasm behind a smirk.
She avoided making eye contact, I grabbed her chin lifting her eyes up to meet mine. It was clear she didn't expect me to make it down let alone see that she had been drawing me for the past 6 years.
"I've missed you Bell." Those 4 words hit me like acid rain. I felt myself melting in her gaze. Tears began to pool in her eyes, they looked as deep as the ocean.
"I've missed you so much more," I say pulling her head into my chest. She could probably hear my heart breaking through my chest. I could feel my shirt clinging to my body as it soaked up Clarke's tears.
"It's okay Clarke, everything's fine now. We're all safe." I whispered in her ear. Stepping back, I looked at her up and down she was a changed woman. She had been strong for so long she needed to let it all out. "How about you set up the bed and we can figure everything out?"
She nodded and quickly moved to pull the bed out of the couch. I stood and watched her swiftly move around the room. Before I knew it, she had set up all the pillows and blankets. Once she finished she rushed out of the room, I followed her until the doorway. She was searching through the drawers in the hallway. "Can I help you?" I asked.
Glancing over her shoulder she responded, "No I just think I should get you some fresh clothes so you can shower." Yes. A shower. I hadn't taken one in so long.
I flashed her a smile before she turned back. Pulling out black pants and a grey shirt she handed them to me. My cheeks were hurting from smiling so much, I guess I wasn't used to it. I can't remember the last time I had smiled this much in one day.
Suddenly she grabbed my hand and guiding me out of the office and into a bathroom. "Here's the shower, I'll go make you some food and then we can talk okay?"
"Okay" I said. She turned around but as she was about to walk out the door, I grabbed her arm, pulling her into me. "I just want you to know I thought about you every day too."
Her mouth parted as if she were to respond but she was speechless. Her face flushed. She quickly got herself together smiled, pulling away from me. Before leaving she whispered, "We can talk about it all after you shower." Flashing me a small smile before turning to leave.
I couldn't get enough of her. She made me feel things no other girl had ever given me. She loved me unconditionally. She was the only person who understood me. Fully flawed Bellamy Blake.