I often found my eyes wondering to your empty table. You had a golden view of the ocean and I can only imagine your gaze drifted out to sea quite frequently. In the past, I only focused on what was in front of me. I had high expectations to uphold and needed to excel in everything I did. I still do but..I don't know why my mind keeps coming back to you. I barely interacted with you at school. We would both talk to Mari and she would equally divide her attention between us, trying to nudge us together at times. On the surface we were a trio but underneath it was nothing like that.

But maybe my feelings for you were deeper than I had thought previously. Whenever I saw you shower Mari with affection, I'd feel slightly envious. The reason as to why, is still unknown. Or maybe I just don't want to admit that I wanted you to embrace me too. Chika, You and even Ruby, were no strangers to your hugs.

So why was I?

I sighed as I looked out at your view of the ocean. The sparkling waves looked so inviting, I half expected to see you in them. As class went on, my eyes remained fixated on your view and all other thoughts were slowly swept away by the mesmerising current.

A week had passed since Mari left and it seemed like you had as well. I decided to go and visit you under the guise of giving you missed homework. As I was nearing closer to your house, I noticed the pier. I subconsciously walked over to where we were standing on that night. The cool breeze felt calming. I closed my eyes and listened to the waves for a while. I tried to think of what I would say to you. What could I even say to you? I didn't know how to make you feel better. Maybe I should've asked Mari after all..

"Dia?"

I opened my eyes and saw you floating in the water beneath me.

"Kanan?"

We looked at each other in bewilderment for a few seconds before you started to climb out of the water. As soon as your feet touched land, you started to unzip your diving suit. My gaze followed your zipper as it went lower and lower. Your hands then grabbed each side of your suit and you pulled it away from your chest revealing your striped bikini and..

I coughed and looked away.

I waited until you went inside and got properly dressed before giving you the homework. I wanted to ask you how you were but the words couldn't escape my mouth. You seemed fine but I knew inside you weren't. Your absence spoke louder than words ever could. I didn't want to reopen that wound, the image of you crying was ingrained in my mind and I couldn't bear seeing it again. So instead I said my goodbyes and left. But as I walked out your front door, I heard footsteps behind me and felt your hand on mine.

"Dia, wait."

I turned around and was enveloped by you. But before I could react, you quickly let go and abruptly closed the front door in my face.

I stood there for a few seconds trying to comprehend what had happened but my mind couldn't think of an answer.

Maybe Kanan just didn't like hugging me after all.

"..and that's what happened."

"Oh Dia-chan, if only you knew."

"Knew what?"

"You just have to figure that out yourself~ Ciao!"