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A/N: thank you to everyone that has been reading and reviewing! I love it. Here is another chapter.
She sat in her car. In the dark, in the silence, only she could hear her heart race. Her heart was still pounding as she recalled exactly what just happened.
"It's not so ridiculous that I would have feelings for you." She said in a whisper. Her voice wouldn't go any louder due to the lump that grew in her throat…. "She said that she could see it in your eyes that you have feelings for Me." she said. "Is that true? Elliot do you have feelings for me? Because if you do, then maybe," tears were falling fast and hard, "just maybe, I can stop feeling so guilty for loving a married man."
She pushed her tears away.
"Liv," he said in a whisper laced with sympathy.
She stood up. "That's all I needed to know." She barely verbalized, walking towards the door….
"Liv," he said chasing her. He grabbed her wrist before she could leave.
She turned around, "Elliot call your wife. So you can go home to your family." she said….
Before she could turn to leave his lips met hers….
Her lips still tingled from his kiss.
He pulled her closer, wrapping his arms around the small of her back.
She moved her hands up his chest. She felt his muscles through his shirt. He felt so good against her. She slid her arms up and around his neck, leaving no room between them.
She could still feel him all over her. Everywhere he touched was on fire.
He parted his lips to allow her access to his mouth.
That was all the invitation she needed. She slipped her tongue in his mouth.
She could still taste him. He was her new favorite flavor.
"This is wrong Elliot. I can't, I just can't do this. I want to, I want to so bad, but I can't do this." She said pushing him away.
Her words echoed in her head.
"I was afraid that you didn't love me. If I would have known then…."
"Then what, El?..."
"Then I wouldn't have fought to save a marriage I didn't want to be in."
Her heart was about to pop out of her chest, it was pounding so hard. She waited so long to hear those words. She wanted him to want her. She knew it was wrong. She knew that this man made a commitment to another woman. She shouldn't even be there she needs to leave. "I've got to go." She said turning and walking out the door, closing it behind her. She walked a couple feet down the hallway and stopped. She began to sob.
Why? Why did he have to be married? Why did she have to be so in love with him?
She felt in her pocket for her keys. They weren't there. They must have fallen out of her pocket. She can't go back in there. She can't let him see her like this.
She tried to gather her thoughts and calm down. She wiped her face. She took a deep breath. And walked back to his door.
She thought to herself, 'should I knock? Or just walk in? I didn't hear him lock the door yet.'
She took another deep breath hoping it would give her the strength she needed to just walk right passed him and grab her keys and make it back out of the apartment. She was going to have to make sure she didn't make eye contact. If she were to make eye contact it would be over. She wouldn't be able to resist him. She had to just grab her keys and leave.
She walked in, he was still standing by the door she walked right passed him and over to the couch where she had been sitting and grabbed her keys and went to walk out when stopped her.
He picked her up of her feet and spun her around. He slammed the door and carried her off to his bed room.
"We can't Elliot. We can't do this."
She chuckled remembering her words.
"Yes we can." He said, laying her on his bed.
"Elliot I really can't." she tried to deny him knowing that even though her mouth was saying 'no' her heart was screaming 'YES!'
He began to kiss her neck. "Olivia you can do this."
"No Elliot I can't." she said pushing him up.
He lifted himself over her. "You look me in the eyes and you tell me you're not supposed to be here. You tell me that this isn't meant to be. And I will stop. You tell me that you don't want this and I will stop right now. But if you know that this is as real as I do, then stay. Then stay and know that this is right. Know that this is what we are meant to be. Olivia I love you. I love you so much I wish I had the courage to tell you before now."
She grabbed his face and pulled him to her. Her kiss silenced him. She slid her hands down his chest to his stomach. She grabbed his shirt and pulled his shirt up, only breaking the kiss to pull his shirt over his head. Then they met once more.
She pulled back slightly, breaking the kiss, and looking him in the eyes. "Make love to me El." She kissed him again, just to break it again, "I want you to make love to me." she said softly.
She looked at herself in the rearview mirror. She wiped the tears from her face. She studied herself. Her hair was still a mess; she had mascara running down her face.
He collapsed on top of her breathing heavily.
Her whole body was spinning. She was in complete ecstasy. She couldn't move.
Her body was still coming down from her climax. Her knees still weak, she wasn't sure she trusted herself to drive.
"Elliot," she said looking at him. "I can't stay you know that right."
He rolled off of her. "You don't have to go."
"Elliot I can't stay. I have to go I have to have time to process this whole ordeal." She said sitting up, holding the sheet to cover her exposed body.
He shifted his weight and leaned on his elbow. He began trailing kisses up her arm. "You really don't have to go."
She let out a soft moan. "I really don't want to but I can't think straight while I'm around you. I have a lot that I have to work through. And there is no way that I will be able to do that as long as I'm here." She laid back down on the bed next to him. "I want to make sure that I'm ready for this. I want to make sure that I am ready for everything that comes with whatever this is. I love you Elliot but the reason I wanted to let the feelings go is I wasn't sure if I was ready for all the responsibilities that were going to come with it." She kissed him, "I know that I love you. I know that you love me. But we have to think about all aspects of this. And I am going to have to do that before this becomes any more than what just happened."
"What other aspects?"
"Elliot, I may love you but my job is my life. We haven't thought about how this is going to affect that. We haven't thought about how this is going to affect anything. You are still married. I just need to sort this out. I will see you in the morning at work." She said getting out of bed and finding her clothes.
Now here she was still sitting outside of his apartment. She still had jelly legs. But she had to leave. She needed to get home. It was already midnight. She had to get to work early. She needed her rest. Plus, there was still a lot of thinking she had to do.
A/N: I know this is a really short chapter but I promise the next chapter will be a lot longer... I hate posting short chapters but I think that this is a nice stop….. thank you and as always reviews keep it going.