His Master, Curious

Disclaimer: I not ownz Kuroshitsuji. I make no money writing this story, only pleasure. maahaahaa

Warnings: none, really.

Pairings: one sided Sebby/Ciel

Summary: Ciel has noticed Sebastian's change in behavior and tries to address his own insecurities concerning his butler.

Ciel watched as his butler left the office after having brought him his treat for the afternoon. Sebastian hadn't needed to, really. No matter what airs Ciel put on, Ciel rather enjoyed the demon's company. Sure, he acted like a brat and barked out orders, but he only did it to reassure himself that Sebastian was still loyal to him, would do anything he said no matter what. Sebastian had promised countless times that he'd remain by his bocchan's side until the end, but Ciel didn't know what "the end" meant. Was it tomorrow? Was it his death? Was it when Sebastian would get tired of him and leave him to fend for himself? Ciel was still an insecure child, afraid to be alone. Nothing in his life was consistent. The ones he loved had been taken away from him. As for Sebastian, well, Ciel didn't love him, but he did trust him and feel for him to some degree, and with the butler now in his life, he couldn't imagine what he'd do without him. Sebastian was a demon, yes, but he was Ciel's demon, and Ciel was always very possessive with his things.

However, lately, Sebastian had been acting strange. Ciel knew he could just demand an answer from his butler, but that would give himself away. He refused to let Sebastian know how much he thought about him, and he didn't want to see the self-satisfied smirk that would appear on his butler's face. Whenever Ciel did certain things, Sebastian would look at him in the same way his aunt and uncles used to look at him when he was younger. He didn't want to be 'cute' in Sebastian's eyes. He wanted to be a cruel, self-sufficient master. He wanted Sebastian to work hard in order to keep his soul.

It wasn't that Sebastian was neglecting his duties. Well, except for when it came to Ciel's person. Ciel wasn't stupid. He knew when Sebastian was deliberately trying to avoid him. During his lessons, Sebastian hadn't hesitated to get close to him in the past. Nowadays, Ciel had to sit at his desk or at the piano and glare until Sebastian would give in and stand behind him. Sebastian usually stooped low over his shoulder until Ciel could feel his breath on his cheek, but now he barely made any physical contact with him. Ciel didn't really mind the proximity change. Sebastian could carry out his duties in whatever way he wanted. What annoyed Ciel was why there had been a proximity change.

"Che," he said aloud, pushing his half eaten dessert away. Just thinking about Sebastian was making him moody.

Ten minutes later, Sebastian came in to collect the used china and inform him of his schedule. Ciel sat in his seat, his cheek resting on his hand, and not really paying attention to what the demon was saying. Sebastian finished reading off the list and looked at him with a small smile.

"Am I boring you, bocchan?"

Ciel simply stared at him. Sebastian's smile grew.

"I can't improve myself if bocchan doesn't say anything."

A minute passed in silence as they stared at each other, one with growing amusement and the other with growing aggravation. Ciel swore that Sebastian was being stupid on purpose. His butler certainly knew what was bothering him and yet refused to address it.

"If there is a question - ."

"I know, Sebastian," Ciel snapped impatiently. When Sebastian only nodded, still smiling, Ciel lost it. "What?!"

"Ne, bocchan, I think the stress is getting to you. Should I schedule a massage?"

"If you want me to get one so badly, then give me a massage yourself! Why are you avoiding me, Sebastian?" Ciel shouted suddenly, surprising himself and his butler. He took a deep breath and sat back in his seat, trying to calm his racing heartbeat. He still didn't know how to control his emotions. He'd almost hit Elizabeth because he hadn't been able to contain his anger. And now, with Sebastian, he'd yelled at him. He'd never done that before, and he was ashamed.

Sebastian must have known what he was feeling because he walked around Ciel's desk and stood beside him. His eyes were a bright, iridescent purple. It was an indicator for when Sebastian was feeling particularly demonic. Perhaps Ciel's yelling at him brought out his carnal side? No, why would it? Sebastian's eyes had been changing more frequently for about a month now, and Ciel had always done something different – sometimes doing nothing at all – when it happened.

Sebastian leaned forward, their faces mere inches apart. His expression was serious, his playful smile gone. "I'm avoiding you, bocchan, because I'm afraid to touch you."

Ciel's single, uncovered blue eye widened at the honesty of Sebastian's words. He watched, surprised, as the glow of Sebastian's eyes darkened.

"If I do, I will be forced to end our contract prematurely. That is the last thing I want for you." Sebastian straightened, the look in his eyes fading but still vibrant. "I will announce our guest's arrival when it is time." He bowed low. "As always, call for me when you need something, whatever it is."

Ciel regained his composure just as Sebastian was leaving but couldn't think properly until a minute later. What was Sebastian talking about? Why would he be forced to end their contract prematurely? Sebastian had to wait until Ciel had exacted his revenge, and not a moment sooner! Had he been deceived? No, that was impossible. But then again, Ciel didn't know anything about demons. The contract could have been pretense and nothing else. Or maybe more like guidelines. In either case, Ciel was going to get his answers.

"Ne, Ciel-sama, is this a good idea?"

Maylene squirmed and twisted her skirt with shaking hands. She and Ciel were in the forest surrounding the Phantomhive estate. It had just rained and the dirt patches were damp, making large puddles of mud. Ciel stood before her with a disgruntled look on his face.

"Yes, now hurry up and undress me." Ciel would have done so himself, but that was why he had her.

The maid walked over to him and starting undoing the buttons with shaky fingers, her cheeks bright red. After five minutes, she'd barely gotten Ciel's jacket off when he decided to do it himself. He stripped down to his shorts and stood with his back to the mud.

"Push me in."

"Bo-bocchan?"

"I'm cold. Get on with it."

Maylene bit her lip and looked away as she flung her arms out. She felt herself falling forward and then flailed just as she hit something wet, thick, and lumpy. She pushed herself up and sputtered, mud covering her entire body. She wiped her glasses clean with her fingers and looked for Ciel, who was in the protective embrace of Sebastian.

"Ne, bocchan, you shouldn't be playing in the dirt," Sebastian was saying. "You'll get very dirty. And please put your clothes back on. You'll catch a cold." He fixed Maylene with a soft but reprimanding look. "Maylene, please don't indulge bocchan's every whim. It may be dangerous for his health."

"Y-yes!" Maylene cried, standing up and saluting. Ciel rolled his eyes as Sebastian starting putting his shirt back on him. He stared impassively as Sebastian got on one knee before him and started fastening the buttons.

"I was wondering where you were. It's dinner time. I made lobster with a butter and cream sauce. I'm hoping it will be to your satisfaction."

"Hn," Ciel mumbled disinterestedly.

Sebastian finished buttoning up his jacket and stood. "Now then, shall we go back?"

"Carry me."

Sebastian hesitated for a split second before nodding and squatting down with his back to Ciel. Ciel climbed on and Sebastian hooked his elbows underneath Ciel's knees, standing once he was sure his bocchan was secured. Ciel wrapped his arms around Sebastian's neck once Sebastian started walking.

"Will you ever leave me, Sebastian?" Ciel asked, his cheek pressed against the warmth of the demon's back. He didn't know where the question had come from, or why he was asking it. He supposed he just needed to know.

The butler was quick to reply. "Of course not, bocchan."

"Will you ever lie to me?"

Again, a quick response. "No."

Ciel's grip unconsciously tightened. "Have you ever lied to me?"

Sebastian was quiet for a moment, then, "Never, bocchan."

As they made their way back to the mansion, Ciel tried to think of other questions he should ask Sebastian, like what he'd meant when he'd said that he would be forced to end their contract early. What did that have anything to do with being close to each other?

"Anything on your mind, bocchan?"

"How do I know that what you tell me is true?" Ciel asked softly. He felt Sebastian's elbows shift, bringing them closer together.

"You're the only one I want, and I will do anything to keep you." Sebastian turned his head so that he could address Ciel more directly, his purple eyes alighting on the top of Ciel's head. "If you have faith in nothing else, just believe in that."

Ciel's grip tightened, and he nodded in understanding. Having satisfied his bocchan, Sebastian faced forward once more.

"Sebastian?"

"Bocchan."

"Don't ever avoid me again." Ciel's tone was commanding and serious, nothing like what it was just moments before. Now that his insecurities were abated, even if just for that moment, he was the demon's master again. "No excuses. Even if the contract ends early, do whatever I say until then." He felt Sebastian shift.

When the demon replied, his voice was deep. "Yes, my lord."

Short. Sorry if it sux. Promise that the next two chapters will be better. I've already finished the third chapter and the fourth will be the last one.

Thanks so much for all your review on the first chapter! I didn't think that people would really like it. I hope I keep you all happy! =3