Alright, first chapter down, 45 to go! Yes, there are 46 chapters to this story. Not sure if it is actually longer than The Lost Son as the chapters may be shorter, but it has a lot of action and hurt and...well, I'll just let you read it. This chapter has...uh...it has first time sex, but not graphic in any way. Hope you like.

Cindy.

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Sam looked nervously over his shoulder as he rifled through the drawer in the nightstand that stood next to Dean's bed. His fingers ended their search when they closed over the small, flat packet that had been the subject of said search. Sam pulled the foil wrapper from the drawer, reading the small printed words that covered both sides.

"Ribbed? Whatever that means," Sam whispered to himself, stuffing the packet into his back pocket.

Sam closed the drawer of the nightstand and moved to stand in front of the mirror over his dresser. He looked over his image, critiquing every angle of his form. Normally he wasn't interested in his clothes or his hair, but ever since he started dating Alisa, he found himself more aware of his appearance. He had finally gained most of the weight back that he had lost after his nightmare from the summer before and had actually managed to build up his muscle mass during his Junior year. Tonight was a special night and he wanted to look perfect for Alisa. Sam's stomach fluttered as he thought about what the night held for him and his girl. After tonight, Dean would no longer be able to tease him about his lack of experience in what he felt was a very important aspect that made the Winchester men, well, men.

Sam thought about what would happen when his brothers found out that he had finally lost his virginity. Dean would smack him on the back and give him an atta boy, while Daniel would turn all serious and want to have a long discussion about love, respect, and protection. Well, Sam had all three of those taken care of, so he was feeling pretty confident. That didn't however stop the fear that pulsed through him. What if he did something wrong? What if he sucked? What if Alisa laughed at him?

Sam shook himself, telling himself he was being stupid. He loved Alisa and she loved him. What they had was special and when they made love for the first time it would be perfect. He grabbed his jacket and pulled it on before slipping out of the room. When he entered the livingroom, Dean and Daniel were perched on the couch watching some program with monster trucks. They both had beers in hand and gave loud whoops when Maximum Destruction caught huge air. Sam rolled his eyes and stepped up to the couch, waiting for his brothers to realize he was there. When neither one paid him any attention, Sam cleared his throat loudly. Daniel turned his attention to Sam and smiled.

"Um…I'm going to Alisa's now," Sam said sheepishly, his cheeks blushing a soft pink.

"Okay Sammy. Have fun," Daniel said in reply.

"I will. Thanks Dan," Sam said softly.

"Hey. Don't do anything I wouldn't do," Dean quipped as he pumped his eyebrows, his attention now on Sam.

"Uh…heh…yeah, I won't. See ya," Sam sputtered, his face reddening further.

Sam walked to the door and pushing the screen door open, he stepped out into the warm Spring night. Dean and Daniel stared after him before turning their attention back to their program. Grave Digger was now on the course and Dean and Daniel forgot about their younger brother. Sam hurried down the steps and began walking quickly down the sidewalk, eager to get to Alisa's house.

Once Sam reached Alisa's, he knocked on the door and within seconds the door opened and Sam was greeted with Alisa's smiling face. She stood to the side and held the door so Sam could come in. Once inside, Alisa grabbed Sam and kissed him lightly. She wrapped her arms around his waist and looked up into his hazel eyes.

"So…you wanna go to my room or do you want to watch TV first…or something?" Alisa asked nervously.

"Uh…I think maybe…uh…your room?" Sam replied, an embarrassed smile crossing his face.

"Okay…it's this way," Alisa said, taking Sam's hand and leading him down the hall until they reached the last door.

Alisa pushed the door open and tugged Sam into the bright colored room. Sam gazed about the room, smiling at the collection of teddy bears that graced one wall. In all the times Sam had been to Alisa's house, he had never been in her room, but it was exactly how he imagined it would be. Alisa pulled Sam to her bed and gently pushed him down until he was seated on the edge. She stood before him and started to take his jacket off of him.

Sam smiled nervously as he helped Alisa remove his jacket. Alisa sat on the bed beside him and gently cupped his face in her hands. She bent his head down slightly and kissed his forehead, then his nose and then his lips. Alisa's fingers moved to Sam's chest as she began to unbutton his shirt. She pushed his shirt down his arms then discarded it onto the floor. She leaned back and allowed Sam to lift her blouse over her head, then she reached behind her back and unclasped her bra, then tossed it onto the steadily growing pile of clothes.

Alisa smiled as Sam stared at her. They had never come this far before. There had been soft touches under shirts but never had they seen each other to this degree of nakedness. Alisa stood and slid her skirt and panties down her legs, stepping out of them slowly. Sam's eyes widened as he watched her and complied dutifully when she pulled him up from the bed and began to unbutton and unzip his jeans. Sam pushed his jeans and boxers down and stepped out of them.

Sam pulled Alisa to him and leant down, his lips capturing hers in a deep kiss. They fell back onto the bed, their hands exploring each others bodies, their touches tentative at first but becoming more heated as their excitement grew. Sam stopped suddenly and he pulled away from Alisa slightly.

"Are you okay baby?" Alisa whispered softly, her eyes filled with concern.

Sam shook his head, attempting to clear his thoughts as they unavoidably drifted to Michael Wilcox.

"I'm okay. S-sorry," Sam said a bit shakily.

"We don't have to do this if you aren't ready Sam," Alisa said, her hand gently caressing Sam's face.

"No…I'm fine. Just give me a minute," Sam replied.

Sam closed his eyes and after a few moments was able to push the images of Wilcox out of his mind. He opened his eyes and smiled sheepishly at Alisa. She smiled warmly in return and reached up to softly kiss Sam's cheek.

"Do you have…protection?" she whispered in his ear.

"Uh…yeah. P-pocket of my jeans," he stammered.

Alisa rose from the bed then crouched down. She pulled Sam's jeans up from the floor and rifled through his pockets until she found the foil packet in his back pocket. She sat back on the bed and handed the packet to Sam.

"So…do you know what to do with it?" she asked.

"N-not really. I guess we'll figure it out," Sam replied, tearing the packet and putting it on the nightstand.

Alisa pulled the covers back on her bed then offered her hand to Sam, pulling him up then pushing him gently back down onto the exposed sheets. She crawled across him and settled herself at his side. Sam pulled the covers up over them and they were soon wrapped around each other, their kisses gentle at first, but growing deeper.

"Oh God Alisa…I'm so ready. Are you…?" Sam stammered before Alisa covered his mouth with hers once more.

Alisa bit Sam's lower lip gently as her hand moved to the nightstand to retrieve the condom. She pulled the condom from the wrapper and soon both teenagers were giggling uncontrollably as they attempted to put it on.

"Oh Sam…we are so lame!" Alisa quipped, chuckling at their inexperience.

Finally, after several attempts and many laughter induced tears, the condom was in place. The two teenagers continued to kiss and caress each others bodies and before long they were lost in the throes of ecstasy as the two became one.

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Sam awoke slowly, smiling as he glanced at Alisa as she slept nestled up to his side. He reached over and softly brushed aside some strands of hair that had fallen over the girl's face. Alisa stirred, her eyes opening and immediately staring up at Sam. She smiled warmly then reached up and gently cupped Sam's cheek with her warm hand. She lifted her head and softly brushed her lips over Sam's. She pulled away and gazed at Sam's smiling face.

"Hey…" she whispered.

"Hey…" Sam answered, reaching his hand out to caress Alisa's shoulder.

"Are you hungry baby?" Alisa queried.

"No, I'm fine. Are you though?" Sam replied.

"No, not really,' Alisa said as she lay back down, cuddling under Sam's arm.

"So, are you okay and everything?" Sam queried as he turned onto his side, facing the sleepy girl.

"I'm…wonderful. Are you okay? I mean…well…you know," Alisa replied, concern in her sapphire eyes.

"I'm fine Alisa. I didn't know if I would be, but…I am. That was the most amazing thing. We definitely need to do that again. We need to do that a lot before I leave," Sam said, smiling warmly.

"I don't want to think about you leaving. I…I can't imagine my life without you," Alisa whispered, tears beginning to fall from her suddenly sad eyes.

"Hey…hey. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry. Please don't cry Alisa…" Sam pled, reaching over and gently wiping Alisa's tears away with his fingers.

"I c-can't help it Sam. I love you so much and you're leaving soon!"

Sam pulled Alisa tightly into his arms. He brushed his fingers through her hair soothingly as he whispered comfortingly into her ear.

"It's going to be okay Alisa. We'll call each other all the time and who knows, maybe my family will be back through here again. We'll see each other."

"Oh Sam…what if we never see each other again?"

"We will Alisa. I've already decided that when I graduate, I'm going to college. There's plenty of colleges near here. Hey, maybe I'll even make it into Stanford! It'll be hard until then, but we'll be together all of the time then," Sam said, kissing Alisa's forehead softly.

"Really?" Alisa whispered.

"Yeah. Everything will be fine Alisa. You'll see."

"Okay Sam. I love you so much."

"I love you too Alisa."

The two teenagers began to kiss again, their hands once again exploring each other. Alisa sat up from the bed and moved herself over Sam, her legs straddling Sam's hips. She leant over, kissing Sam's mouth greedily. She moved to Sam's throat, her warm lips sending excited shivers through Sam's body. Sam moaned softly, but then gently pushed Alisa up. She stared at him quizzically.

"What's wrong Sam? Did I do something wrong?" she asked nervously.

"Oh God no. It's just…well…I don't have another condom. And, I really should get home. Dean and Daniel are gonna go ballistic as it is. I'm way past my curfew," Sam explained as he sat up and wrapped his arms around his girl.

"Oh…are you going to be in trouble?" Alisa asked worriedly.

"No…it'll be okay. My family is just a bit protective of me is all. Now if my dad were home, it'd be a whole different story," Sam said in reply.

Alisa reluctantly climbed off Sam, pulling the covers around herself. Sam pulled himself up from the bed and began to dress. When he was fully clothed, he leaned over the bed and kissed Alisa softly. He bowed his head, resting his face in the slope of Alisa's neck and kissed her lovingly. He pulled away, feeling weak in the knees as she stared at him with love in her eyes.

"I'll call you later. Get some sleep baby," Sam said softly.

"Bye Sam. I love you," Alisa whispered.

Sam smiled before turning and walking to the door. "I love you too baby," he said as he walked through the door.

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The man stood across the street, hidden in the trees as he watched the house intently. The boy had been there several hours and the man knew what he and the girl who lived there were probably up to. He smiled to himself sadistically. He imagined the boy, his hands wrapped around his throat, the boy's eyes wide with fear and pain. The boy would pay for what he had done, for what he had stolen.

The man stood straighter as the door opened and the boy stepped out into the night. He kept as still as possible until the boy was a block down the street, then carefully exited his hiding place, following the boy as he hurried down the street toward his home. The boy reached his house and leapt up the stairs, then disappeared into the house. The man stood on the sidewalk watching the house for sometime before whispering to the night.

"Soon Sam. Soon you will pay for what you have done. Soon you will pay for your sins."

The man laughed cruelly then walked away into the darkness.

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Well, that's it for now. I hope you all enjoyed Sam's first time. More to come tonight. Remember, reviews are love.

Cindy.