WHAT IF...CHAPTER 2

Ever since the first time Sonny kissed me, I have been in heaven. Each day we spend together is like our first. We loved spending time with each other, but it's getting to be very difficult. My parents don't know about me being gay... Only Sonny knows about it, and it's our secret for now. He is being very patient with me, supporting me, but I know he needs more from me, not just the person that I am when we are alone, but the real me with no secrets and sneaking around. He needs to be able to hold my hand in public, to kiss me hello when I go meet him at the coffee-house, what if I choose not to tell my family and friends about the real me? Would I loose the only person I ever truly loved? Would I loose my best friend? How would my family react? Guess we are about to find out... What if...

Will was sitting on the bench outside Common Grounds, lost in his thoughts. Trying to figure out what he was about to do next. He sees his mother walking across HTS and decides it was time she knew about his secret. He truly loved Sonny and wanted to be with him more than anything, so he decided enough was enough, it was time...

Will: Mom, wait up! Do you have a few minutes?

Sami: Hey Will, sure what's up?

Will: I need to talk to you about something.

Sami: You look serious, should I be worried?

Will: No, not really, but there is something I want to share with you.

Sami: O.k., go for it.

Will: Well, these past few weeks, I have been seeing someone.

Sami: Oh really! Wow, I had no idea you had a girl friend Will, that's great.

Will: Well, mom, this is the reason I wanted to talk to you. You see, I'm not really seeing a...a girl.

Sami: What is that supposed to mean?

Will: Mom, I'm seeing a guy.

Sami: Will, stop messing with me here, this is not funny.

Will: I'm serious mom.

Sami was lost for words. Never in a million years did she expect her son to tell her this out of the blue. It took her a few minutes to gather her thoughts on what to say next.

Sami: Will, I'm sorry. You surprised me.

Will: Yeah, sorry for the shocker.

Sami: No, it's alright, just not what I was expecting this morning.

Will: So are you mad?

Sami: Mad? Why would I be mad?

Will: Maybe because you feel disappointed in me now that you know I'm gay.

Sami: Will, I could never be disappointed in you. O.k., this might take some getting use to, but we will be here for you, always.

Will: Wow, this is going better than I ever expected. Am I dreaming?

Sami: (laughing) No, you're not. So who is this lucky guy you're seeing?

Will: Well. if you don't mind, I would rather tell him first before we go public if that's o.k..

Will: He has no idea, I was going to tell you today. I don't want to scare him off either.

Sami: Sure Will, but promise me you will tell me soon, I'm not a very patient person.

Will: Oh trust me, I know.

They both laughed and had a great conversation. After parting ways, Will decided it was time to tell his friends. This was the one thing that scared him the most. How would they react to the news? Would they hate him for keeping a secret this long?

As I walked into Common Grounds, I saw this beautiful young man standing there before me. His eyes were dark brown, with a hint of twinkle. His smile lite up the room as I walked in. I saw my friends as well sitting in the corner booth. I felt trapped in my body. There was nothing I wanted more than to go and kiss Sonny hello, but my friends were waiting on me to hang out. What If I go to Sonny, what will my friends think after seeing me in a lip lock with a guy? Would they be shocked? Or do they already know? And what if I choose to go hang with my friends, What will Sonny think? Would he be disappointed that I walked right passed him? Would he feel like I am ashamed of him? I don't ever want to imagine hurting Sonny. I now know what I need to do, this is it. I can do this...

Will decided today the he was done with all the hiding. He took a deep breath and walked over to Sonny. He waved at his friends and advised them he would be there in a minute. He was in a joyful mood and wanted to share with Sonny, but before he did, he had just one more surprise in store. He pulled Sonny in a gave him a sweet gentle kiss. Sonny was speechless.

Sonny: What was that for? Everyone is looking.

Will: I don't care if people are looking. There are going to have to get used to it, It because I wanted to kiss you, and I missed you, and because I...I

Sonny: I what?

Will: I love you.

Sonny was blown away by Will's revelation.

Sonny: You love me?

Will: Yes I do. I told my mom a while ago I was gay.

Sonny: You told your mother about us?

Will: Not about us, but that I'm gay, and that I'm seeing someone. I wanted to tell you first before I told her who this wonderful guy was.

Sonny: You have no idea what this means to me, I love you so much Will.

They both kissed again, but this time, the kiss was deeper and had more meaning to it. After finally breaking the kiss and taking a deep breath, Will turned to face his friends. He walked up to them...

Will: Hey, what's up?

T.: Hey yourself. So what's up with you kissing that dude?

Will: That dude, is my boyfriend.

T.: Since when?

Will: Since I feel in love with him, you have a problem with that?

T.: No, man, it's cool.

Will: Good, because he means the world to me.

T.: But Will, why haven't you said anything before?

Will: I was afraid of how you guys would react to me being, you know, gay...

T.: Well to be honest, it's kinda weird, but hey, I'll get use to it.

Will: Thank you.

T.: So when are you going to introduce him to us?

As I heard those words coming from my friends mouth, I felt a sense of relief. That I didn't have to hide who I was anymore, that I could finally be my own person...I felt whole. As I turned and waived of to Sonny to come meet my friends, I found myself happy, As my friend T. always says, "Happy is good", in fact, happy is really great. It's a wonderful feeling to experience. And that's how I'm feeling today, happy to have a great family, happy to have great friends and happy to have Sonny. As I'm sitting here having fun, laughing at T. not so funny jokes, I realize how different things could be if I decided not to tell my mom, or to choose to tell everyone about Sonny, I came to the conclusion that we don't always make the right choices in life, sometimes we follow the paths that others choose for ourselves, because of fear, hate, being judged... But one thing is for sure, I'm really glad I followed my heart...