Thinking of You

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Summary: It's been four years since Tala the car accident. A view on how Julia feels as she watch the days of her life got spent on waiting for him to wake up from his coma.

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Chapter 2 – Hell Life

A month later after Hilary's conversation, I grew to learn hat opening up a little was a relief for myself...but harder on my face (Hilary's hand packs a punch...No wonder Tyson tries to avoid getting on her nerve.) Things was still the same except when I'm closer to my friends. Never thought I needed anyone to talk to that much...

I am currently inside the elevator of the hospital. I'm on my way to visit him, again. It's been a daily routine since the accident. I never miss a day not to come by the hospital and visit him. Ironic if I do say so...why? Who would ever thought that the great Ice King (Kai might as well be) would be visited by a mere clown. Sure, the whole world hated him before, but after his stand up on BEGA, he earned a great reputation as a great trainer in the BBA. He, alongside with his best friend Kai, decided to work at the BBA. In time, Mr. Dickenson decided to turn over his position to the both of them but seeing as the two were still underage, they given the position to Hiro, Tyson's older brother. It was the right decision...(What chose do they have? It was either Hiro or the "I'm the World Champion" blabber mouth Tyson).

Oh yeah...I forgot to mention, Raul is with me as well. He tags along while he can (Even being the younger child, he tends to care for me...no matter how hard I am on him). I had to admit, no matter what I did to him back then... it left an impression to his life. He is currently a dance instructor at a high school drama club. He really likes the job (At least one of us got a job that we actually like). Then again... maybe it was my pride for the regression of it... Romero was actually proud of him, after all that non-stop lectures from the both of us...he actually followed his heart.

How I wish I followed mine...and shut my mouth for that.

(Normal POV...)

"Hey Sis..." Raul asked breaking the silent that had her sister wandering in her thoughts. "I hate to interrupted your little daydream but we need to get off..."

Julia snapped right out and looked at the floor number and the open elevator door. "Right... Sorry" as they got off.

"Glad to help yah sis..." Raul stated as they walked off to the hallway.

"Sorry Raul... I got a lot of things on my mind."

"I understand... Four years of crowded thoughts can definitely drive you crazy. " Raul said as they turn a left.

"Not yet crazy...just two more steps of that and I'm there..." she said.

"Well, Brooklyn never ceases to support you. He's been—"

"Finish that sentence and—"

"You know I'm right!" Raul pushed as they both stopped walking and face each other. "Julia as your brother I have the obligation to—"

Julia glared at her, daggers throwing everywhere. Raul gulped and shut up.

"I love you sister of mine... but are you not having thoughts on maybe trying to consider Brooklyn? I mean after all this time, he has been looking after you..."

Julia bit her lip. "He's good guy and all but... " her voice faded away.

"Brooklyn may not be Tala's alternative but he's the best chance you got to have a decent life. If Tala doesn't make it through, where are gonna go from here? We all know that the chances of him waking up is zero... I'm sorry for being flat on you but someone has to tell you this. And Hilary and I are the only chance to tell you that..." Raul told her clamly.

Julia looked away from him, he was right. She needed a life and living in the past wasn't the solution. She knew Tala will wake up but the chances of it was none. The machine was the only thing that kept him breathing and removing it would mean suicide for her but freedom for Tala. Come to think of it, keeping Tala in that ward was only making him suffer and she knew sooner or later the doctor would cut off his lifeline. Kai was paying for the bills but the decision was left to her. When Kai asked her about it, she simply said she was keeping him until he wakes up. But now, she wasn't so sure anymore...

"Brooklyn can give you a life that you wanted, he can change that... Tala isn't. He's as good as a vegetable..." Raul joked but stopped after Julia glared at him.

"I'll think about it..." Julia whispered as she walked on, Raul didn't follow. She didn't care...

As she reached room 1513 the nurse was coming out carrying a tray of medicines.

"Good Afternoon Ms. Fernandez.." she greeted as she walked away. Julia nodded and entered the room.

Slowly but surely, she walked in and there he was...

As the red head lay on the soft covers of the hospital bed, the machines beside him beep softly showing his vital signs. She hated those machines, she hated it because it was attached to him and it was doing no good. It was hurting him and she knew it. But she forced herself not to think of it right now.

"Tala?" she whispered, leaning closer. She reached out and picked up one of his hands. The skin was cool, his fingers limp as he squeezed them. "It's me." she lifted his hand to her face and pressed her lips to his fingers, holding them there for a long moment. "You're okay," she said, the words muffled against his knuckles. She couldn't seem to let go of his hand, or even lower it away from her face. She held it there and stroked his forearm with her other hand. "You're okay," she repeated. She wished she could think of something better to say to him, something deep and meaningful and profound that would inspire him into a quick recovery, but she was too overwhelmed just to be sitting here and feeling his pulse running through her fingers to have much brain power left over to use coming up with heartfelt speeches.

She leaned closer and looked at his face. She had spent a significant portion of her life looking at this face and yets he still didn't feel she had a complete appreciation of it. She could spend the rest of her life looking at it and never see all of it. His face was so changeable with his mood and expression that now, completely slack and relaxed, it almost didn't look like him. It wasn't Tala's face without that little arch of his eyebrow when she was telling him off, that curl of his lips when she was feeling flirty, that line in his forehead when he was concentrating on his beybattles. She put a hand on his brow, smoothing back the little curly wisps that lived at his hairline. Sse felt tears welling behind her eyes again but she didn't want to cry, not here, not with him. He might somehow sense it and think that it was hopeless, that he was doomed. So she sat there and watched the regular rise and fall of his chest.

He may have spoken when the words came to him. He may have told her he was sorry. He may have told her he loved her, and that all the other people who loved her were here and couldn't wait to see her.

Or perhaps she just held his hand and waited to speak until he could answer her.

"Tell me you will wake up eventually..." she whispered, "Please...Don't let me go and free you. You always kept telling me to fight what my hearts says. And it keep telling me to free you, to end the misery of keeping you from freedom. Tell me what to do..."

Silence...

"Raul and Hilary has been bringing Brooklyn up lately. They want me to consider him. They want me to bring up some colors in my life" she said as she stroke his pale cheek. "But I turn him down for Months..." she looked at his closed eyes...

"I'm beginning to consider him...just now..."she said. "Tell me I'm wrong and that he isn't right...tell me that I am insane and that you will wake up from this coma and say that you are the only man that I should marry!" She said exuberantly.

Nothing...

"God Damn you! Wake up already... Please" she cried as she leaned her forehead on his. "Don't do this to me...Don't force me to do the right thing."

As her tears flowed from her cheeks down to his, Kai entered the room carrying a basket filled with chocolates. He saw her and silently set the basket on the counter of the hospital room.

"I talked to the Doctor's earlier... They're planning on cutting the lifeline. I said it was your decision..." he said as he sat on the couch.

Julia wiped off her tears and sat back on the chair besides the bed. "I don't know... You make the decision. It would be better—"

"I won't cut off his lifeline" Kai said flatly as he crossed his arms in front of his chest. "He's a fighter...." he lied to himself.

"I'm making a decision... a decision that will make a better good for everyone. But a hell life for me..." she announced to him. Kai listened carefully.

"I'm planning on considering Brooklyn..."

Kai stared at her, his expression blank. Julia curse in her mind for his attitude.

"Your decision... Your call" Kai said as he crossed his legs. Julia blinked at him.

"What? That's all you're gonna say?" Julia asked.

"If you want a longer pep talk, talk to Tyson...Not me"

"Some help you are..." she thought

"But I can tell you this: Tala will accept whatever decision you will make. Tala may not know a lot of decision making because he spent half of his life being ordered around but that doesn't mean he doesn't know the difference from what's wrong and what's right. He wants you to be happy and if he thinks that moving on can help you...He will accept it. That way it would be a lot easier for the both of you..." Kai said.

"On second thought...Nevermind the pep talk...Tyson's a better adviser than this guy" Julia thought.

"It's time for you to get that life..." Kai said and he closed his eyes. His old habit never dies...

Hell life...Here I come...

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A/N: This is another chapter of drama... BB's on its way for as long as the hard drive is delivered to me as soon as possible.