Chapter II

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It was already morning when I woke up. Groaning, I rolled over to feel for Kaoru.

Typical, He was already up. Kaoru is such an early riser, you know? Then again, I guess he doesn't stay out on extremely long dates like I do. I don't wanna do it, I hate leaving him alone like that. Especially on the weekends when there isn't anything interesting to do, he must get really lonely.

Guilt took hold of my stomach as I thought of Kaoru lost and alone. I knew it wasn't right, but I had to do it. It's because I am a sick person. I'm in love with my brother, my very own flesh and being. It was hard enough to act as the "Brotherly love" in the host club. I wanted him to be mine, ALL mine. To feel the warmth of his perfect body on mine, to have him kiss me with those perfect lips as he so 'innocently' let his hand wander down my spine all the way to the-
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Immediately I shook the thought out of my head. Nonononono! It was wrong to think of my brother this way…. Even if it felt so right. I'm dating Haruhi, and that's that.

"He's going to find a lover someday, and it CAN'T be you! Dumbass." I muttered to myself as I climbed out of bed and put a simple tee over my bare chest. Even if I can't make Kaoru mine, I can at least treat myself to being close to his body almost naked. Not that he would actually notice…

"GRRAAAH!" I banged my head against the wall nearby, why must this be so complicated? Why can't I just love Kaoru? But I do love Haruhi don't I? What about her?

Forcing pictures of Haruhi into my head to replace the forbidden Kaoru ones, I meandered down the stairs towards the kitchen. The feeling of holding Haruhi during the movie we went to, how I kissed her cheek and she stole a kiss from my lips. The soft sweet smell of her hair….

"Maybe I should check on Kaoru, I mean, spend the day with him for once. One day can't do much harm, can it?" I longed for alone time with Kaoru, even with thoughts of Haruhi filling my head.

Suddenly a Buzzbuzzz went off in my pocket. I reached in and pulled out the small square device, flipped it open, and answered "Hello?"
I heard a frantic voice in response, one that could none other than be Tamaki-senpai's. 'Dear…. what does this feudal lord want now!'

"HIKARU? Hikaru, right?"

"Yeah? Whadya ya want?" I replied slightly annoyed. He had cut into my Haruhi fantasy!

"I NEED HELP!"

"Don't you always?" I muttered
"I ASKED KYOUYA OUT! What do I do? WHAT DO I DO? He's probably thinking I'm insane!"

"I doubt that's the case, besides aren't you already mommy and daddy?" I sighed; it was too early in the morning.

"BUT THAT'S DIFFERENT! What if he doesn't say yes?"

"What do you mean, 'what if he doesn't say yes?', he didn't respond?" I ranted, this was really interesting.
"I DON'T KNOW! I ASKED AND THEN HUNG UP IMMEDIATELY!" he screamed.

"Hold on—'

THUD

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"-KAORU! THE BOSS IS ON THE PHO-WOahwoah WOAAHHH! WHAT is going on here?"

COMPLETELY unaware that I had caused the entire scene I tripped into the kitchen, finding Kaoru forcefully pinning down a maid whose ticker seemed to have stopped ticking.

"K-Kaoru… I thought you played for the OTHER team…" my face burned from embarrassment and anger. 'Shit! I can't believe I just said that! Stupid stupid STUPID!' I thought, I had said that on a whim. In hope maybe, I don't know. But I have to cover up fast! "B-BUT THIS IS OKAY TOO! I mean… she's cute … but is she even ALIVE?"I stuttered. I had glanced at the fainted girl, trying to lighten the tension, and draw his gorgeous eyes away from my burning face. This was all to much, I thought that my own heart might burst. All of his innocence swiped away by some maid, and not by me. My heart started to cry out in pain, not just pain but agony, torture, and I had to use all of my focus to not let my heart break and burst there and then.
So focused on trying to keep myself quiet in the heart and composed in front of my Kaoru, that I didn't notice anything going on until I heard a crash. Kaoru was dented into the wall, forehead streaming crimson blood down and spoiling his uniform. I COMPLETELY freaked, I ran to Kaoru so fast that I almost tripped on the maid.
"KAORU! Are you alright! Kaoru! SPEAK TO ME!" I spoke as fast as my heart beat pounded against my chest. I instinctively thrust my face close to his to inspect him closer. It would've been my entire fault if he was scarred, I didn't want his perfect skin blemished by scars or injuries. I looked from his bright amber hair, to his beautifully shaped brow. My gaze slowly made its way down to his shoulders, and taking a quick glance down to where I shouldn't, I concluded that my Kaoru wasn't harmed. His slender body and his broad shoulders remained same, as were his feet, thighs, and…
I couldn't suppress the relief. There was no way that his bright blushing face, and sparkling eyes would let me. I hugged him, with one of the most passionate embraces I've ever given to him. I even remember when we were first years in Ouran. Kaoru scared me half to death in Karuizawa, when that flower pot spiraled out from a windowsill and nearly cracked open his head. He could've been hurt. If he was, he would be… different. Scarring, pain, he might've even gone into a coma!

"BACK OFF!" Growled my Kaoru, "WHERE THE HELL AM I? WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?" my brother's eyes were filled with nothing but confusion and pain as he continued to scream. I've never seen such pain in a person before, and… he didn't want me. He doesn't even remember me.

Instantly I fell over in shock. My legs froze and refused to let me move as the love of my life ran out the door. My worst nightmare come true, he hates me. He MUST hate me in order to yell at me like that. My little Kaoru must have forced himself to forget me because I bring him so much pain.

"Go after him." I mutter to the maid, but she just stood there in silence, "GO AFTER HIM. Someone needs to be with him! He could get… hurt. GO!"

The maid rushed off in the direction of Kaoru, leaving me to scramble on the floor picking up what must have been my broken heart.

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Author's note: OMG, half of you probably want to kill me by now. I've spent almost a year getting this next piece up. I'm so sorry! Please continue to read and be faithful readers! The more reviews the more I'll be guilt-ed into working on the next chapter! 3 thanks guys!