Let it Go Chapter 2, a gakuen alice fanfic

Thank you to those who reviewed! I thougth this one was loads better,

and i had two people confused with the paragraph where she's getting out

of the car, Im sorry! I will go back and edit when I have time. So for now

enjoy chapter two and leave you thoughts and critiscism, it is deeply appreciated.

Disclaimer: I own nothing songs nor characters! the only characters I own, are

Kimiko and Kaitou Higushi, Katie Smith and some that will be introduced later! Ja ne!

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Let it go Chapter 2 [Remade]

"Ow, Ow, Owie!" Mikan whined gripping her hello kitty head shaped pillow and none to gently shoving it into her face as she was overcome with a pain to excruciating that she let out a terrifying scream into her pillow.

"Oh baka shut up, Nii-san would say it's a sprain." Hotaru said nonchantly while turning the ankle in her hand to and fro examining it as she seen her elder brother do countless times before. Mikan pouted and looked at the clock they had received their numbers as told on the wipe boards, Hotaru was number eleven, Kimiko was number 13, and Mikan was number 24. But,

"How am I suppose to sing and move with a sprained ankle?" She whined rather loudly, throwing her hands in the air. She crossed her arms across her chest as she contemplated her options.

"Just sit on a chair so something that is acoustic, that doesn't involve a lot of movement." Mikan let her songs run through her head, contemplating the different ones. Her head set on a song that was personal and a favorite. She felt a smile creep upon her face. It was a sad smile, but she shook her head and replaced it with a bright one.

"Okay I got the song but how am I suppose to get on and off stage?"

"I'll carry you." An expressionless voice said, as a disheveled Kaitou roamed into the living room rubbing the back of his neck.

"Are you sure Kai-kun?" Mikan asked sweetly playing with a ringlet of hair with her index finger. He shrugged nonchantly and quickly looked away when she shot him a grin. He turned curtly to hide the blush that flushed across his cheeks, and stomped his way back to the kitchen.

"Thanks Kai-kun." She shouted after him. She couldn't help but think how weird he was sometimes, yet it didn't matter to her cause when push comes to shove he is always there for her and he is such a dear friend.

"Well I guess I need help getting dressed." She looked over slyly at Hotaru only to see her best friend was no longer there. Mikan puffed out her cheeks and tried to get up off the couch without hurting her ankle and limped her way to her room. The dorm apartment that the three girls shared was huge, it had four bedrooms, two bathrooms, a kitchen, and a living room complete with a balcony. Their other roommate had to appear. Mikan the room closest on the left side of the hall, it was still a far walk for her sore ankle but she managed heavily breathing with sweat on her brow by the time she arrived to her bedroom. She sat on the edge of her bed, and ran her fingers through her tresses, the ringlets were naturally there and she decided to leave her hair down and limped her way to her closet flipping through her shirts till she came across a red black and white plaid shirt that rolled up to the elbows. She reached below for her favorite pair of high waist dark blue denim jean shorts. She slipped off here crème colored silk pajama top and her comfy gray shorts. Putting her arms through the plaid shirt and buttoning it up to her breasts giving what Kimiko would say a shot of modest cleavage. She slipped her tender ankle in the shorts first then the other ankle pulling it up and tucking in the shirt around her body. Pulling it out a little bit from the top of the shorts slipping her feet into some red flats. She smiled at her reflection and felt her smile fall,

'Oh mother, father how I wish you were here to witness my dreams coming true." She wiped the tear that escaped just as she hearda knock on her door. She faked a smile,

"Come in." She said gently, staring at the emerald eyes of Kaitou who gave her a wry smile.

"You ready Mikan?" He asked. Mikan felt the dip of the mattress as he sat down a few feet away scared that he'll see how distress she was feeling.

"Mikan." He said in a voice she wasn't willing to recognize, his hand crept up to her chin cupping it gently and pulling her face towards his. She refused to look him in the eye knowing what she would see, was something she didn't want to recognize it caused her heart to ache the slightest bit.

"Mikan look at me, please." His voice was husky and pleading, as his forehead leaned in to connect with her own, her eyes fluttered open staring deeply into emerald orbs, seeing how tender and caring they are… it caused her to ache.

"Don't look at me like that Kaitou." She pleaded her voice cracking, he pushed her hair behind her ear and let his hand linger and finally rest on the back of her neck.

"Mikan you know how I feel, you know I-" her abrupt movement caught him off guard, he was pushed back by the force of her petite body. Her hands over his mouth prevent him from uttering another word, her head in his chest prevented it from slowing his heart rate.

"Don't say it, please don't say it, you don't feel it you don't feel anything like that your one of my closest friends, of course you care for me but that is all it is. I refuse to lose you like I lost-" Her voice trailed off as she felt the tightening in the back of her throat and heat behind her eyes as she remembered the memories she begged to forget. She needed, she was desperate for the both of them to believe the words she spouted. He lifted her up and removed her hands from his mouth, he nodded pulling her close into a tight embrace feeling his heart lurch at the visible movement of her body wincing in close contact. But that didn't stop him from kissing her forehead.

"Let's go then, you don't want to be late." He wrapped her arms around his neck and put his arm under her knees and lifted her up, carrying her out the apartment and to the auditorium, ignoring the ache in his heart and the hurt in her eyes.

When the two of them arrived the other performers set for the say were sitting in the audience talking amongst themselves. Mikan saw Hotaru and Kimiko talking to a bubble gum curly haired girl and a dark midnight blue pin straight haired girl. Kaitou eyed and pushed his way through the people to his sister who was sweet enough to save two seats. He sat Mikan down next to his sister gently and sat himself on Mikan's other side. Mikan gave both girls a smile.

"Oh Mikan you're here! Let me introdu-" the lights began to dim and a throat was cleared as a soft spotlight hit the principle who was adorned in a black business suit with a green tie. He waited till he had everyone's attention to be given towards him and the stage the spotlight made his silver hair glisten her so slightly.

"Good Morning all, I'm glad to see you all are prompt and received your number. Now let's begin with number one." He clapped politely and everyone soon followed suit respectively as a tall pale girl with short permed forest green hair stood with a violin case clutched in her hand. She swayed her way down the aisle her shimmery short black dress glimmered in the spotlight her tall ribbon stilettos that wrapped their way around her calves made clicking sounds as she made her away across the stage. She turned to the crowd piercing us with bright olive eyes.

"Good morning and thank you principle I will be playing Ave Maria by [Fill in]." She bowed gracefully and sat on the seat provided, crossing her ankles and removing her violin from its satin lined case. She took a deep breath and began to play. It was beautiful and left everyone either envious or in awe. When she stopped her eyes opened and she smiled a tentative smile, bowing once more as she departed.

Over the intercom you heard.

"Number two, to the stage please." The pink curly haired girl next to Hotaru got up and squealed grabbing her acoustic guitar. She walked confidently in her modest wedges her floral skirt swishing behind her bright yellow tank top with netted back was cute and received many whispers as she took the stage. Her deep ocean blue eyes gazed upon the crowd in a loving way,

"Hello everyone I hope you like this it's called 'Don't forget to remember me'" She stepped back from the podium and into the middle of the stage. She removed her guitar from it's case, and put the strap around her head, she strum the guitar and smiled as she began to sing.

18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they drug on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
'Baby don't forget

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way

The song was beautifully written, and Mikan could not help the pang in her chest as the feelings being conveyed were obviously that of being away from home and loved ones, something that.. her train of thought was interrupted from the squezze of her hand from Kaitou, she looked up at his worried face gave him a reassuring smile, returning her gaze to the girl on stage.

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me'

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Keep telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said
'Hey momma, don't forget to tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fall
And tell Memaw that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah, I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me'

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
'Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
Yeah, I know there are more important things,
But don't forget to remember me
But don't forget to remember me'

When she finished her eyes sparkled and her cotton candy hair was illuminating her face, she bowed and with a wave she exited the stage.

"Number three to the stage please." A tall slim girl stood gracefully and made her way towards the stage her every movement was as if she was gliding her long blue black straight hair swayed as if to her own beat. The single violet streak shined against her pale skin. You could tell she was a dancer from the pure white leotard she wore that dipped dangerously in the back she carried Pointe shoes in her left hand her bare feet made a light pitter patter sound as she made her way to the podium. She stared at her peers with light violet blue eyes.

"Hello I am Katie Smith a scholarship student from New York, America. I have danced ballet since I was two. Please enjoy my performance." She said in flawless Japanese she turned sharply and in the middle of the stage she sat herself down twisting her long hair into a flawless bun, and began to wrap her Pointe shoes around her feet and with the ribbons securely wrapped around her ankles she rose to her toes with her arms outstretched above her head her eyes facing down her body poised beautifully as the music began.

[A Beautiful Strength - Evan Rosenberg]

Mikan applauded loudly as the girl left the stage. Letting her hair out of it's bun and it falling majestically around her as she disappeared behind the curtain. Mikan watched the other performers, rappers, dancers, instrument players, and many great singers. Mikan began to get nervous, she felt her palms begin to sweat and trying to go over the words in her had she stumbled with the chords. She felt a gentle hand squeeze her hand and she looked to see Kaitou give her a small smile only meant for her to see, she smiled shyly back.

"Number ten to the stage please." Kaitou stood up with a sigh,

"That's us, be back soon." Mikan patted his hand and wished him luck.

'…Wait us?' She looked to the stage to see the band members of Silence, Kaitou's band, there sitting at their respective instruments. She couldn't help that her face lit up at all the familiar faces.

"Hello Alice Academy, I am Higushi Kaitou and this is my band Silence hope you enjoy us." He pulled away from the podium, giving the nearest guy with silver hair and green-yellows eyes a high five.

You walk into the room and I
I, I-I, I, I, I-I, I.
I wanna tell ya, tell ya, but I just can't speak.
This shouldn't be so difficult.
Why-y. why-y-y-y-y-y,
Tell me why I see you and I just can't breathe.

Kaitou couldn't keep his eyes from Mikan's trying to convey to her what she did not want to hear, his smoldering look was making her shift uncomfotably in her seat, and as much as she tried to pry her eyes away, his gaze would not let her, he wanted her to know this son was ment for her.

You're like a bullet, girl, to my heart,
You're like a very far shooting star,
The very thing that I need,
Look at how you get to me

I can never be myself,
How can I when I'm stuck in hell?
Stutterin, stutterin, stuttereh-ing
Stutterin, stutterin, stuttereh-ing
Wanna tell you how I feel inside
But every time I go and try
Mutterin, mutterin, muttereh-ing
Stutterin, stutterin, stuttereh-ing

Don't leave,
I know I effed it up,
That's my luck,
That's just my luh uh uck.
Here I go, Here I go and do it again

You're tut-,
And I'm just so tongue tuh-ied.
Why-y-y, why can't I get it right?
The words just wont come out,
They wanna take down
But I'm still around

You're like a bullet, girl, to my heart
Your like a very far shooting star,
The very thing that I need
Look at how you get to me...

She wasn't blind to his attraction but to know she caused him pain, in anyway made her flinch noticiably she knows what the pain of a broken heart felt like and it was not something wanted to inflict upon someone else, but what if the price was her own heart? She rubbed the bridge of her nose, and sighed aloud but could not drive herself to stop the smile that creeped its why across her face.

You're like a bullet, girl, to my heart
Your like a very far shooting star,
The very thing that I need
Look at how you get to me... [x2]

Muttereh-ing.
Stuttereh, stuttered, Stuttereh-ing

With the end of his song, his gaze became more intense and as the last note faded he nodded towards her and smirked in a way she new, he knew that he got to her and she did not appreciate his satisfied smirk.

Mikan felt a jolt as Kaitou's sand that last part with eyes burning into her own. She felt like she couldn't break the hold he held on her and that it was making it quite heart for her to breathe. But she stood up, with the help of Kimiko beside her and clapped and whooped with the rest of the crowd. The band goofballs waved and jumped off into the side wing with a whoop, while Kaitou bowed and exited with smirk along with the silver haired boy.

"Number 11 to the stage please." Hotaru stood up her sleek black dress clutched her from her neck to her hips,

"Good luck Aru-Chi!" Mikan and Kimiko whispered squeezing Hotaru hand encouragingly, as she walked her legs moved freely through the mid thigh slits on both sides making the dress elegant yet risqué as Kimiko put it. The black pumps at the end of her feet halted as she walked passed the piano which was rolled on stage and towards the podium, her amethyst eyes hard as she stared at crowd.

"Hello I am Imai Hotaru, I will be playing Claire de Lune, enjoy." Her voice rang clear and strong. The aura around was nothing but calm and confident. She sat down at the piano and flexed her fingers as soon as she descended her first finger upon the key she was a whole different being. Her fingers flew without single twitch her eyes closed, her face no emotion but contempt. With the stroke of the last key she opened her eyes. Mikan was the first to applaud with a humongous grin plastered upon her face. Hotaru bowed politely and walked out towards the wing.

"Number 12 to the stage please." Four boys stood up from the front. A blonde haired boy with pale skin and deep cerulean eyes walked up to podium.

"Hello we are Abyss." Was all he said and it sent the crowd into whispers. The blonde boy took his place at the bass guitar and a grinning guy got on the drums with a loud whoop. Then Mikan noticed Crimson patting a fox eyed boy who gave him a thumbs up as he grabbed his electric guitar. Then Crimson took his place at the microphone and then, he began.

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

His voice was rasphy and so smooth, Mikan could not help her eyes from suddenly widening at the way his voice carried, and how it silenced the crowd in front, she have never heard him talk but if it was as good as his singing voice she might just melt.

[Chorus]

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joking look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

[Chorus]

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

As his voice carried on, she noticed the slight tinge of emotions seeping out, she caught pain and something else she just could not put a finger on, but just closing her eyes and letting his voice embrace her was enough to feel something and that is what all singers want to achieve.

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Mikan felt her jaw slacking as he finished his song. She clapped along with the others and noticed how instead of Crimson talking it was the blonde boy to talk again.

"Thanks everyone." He took a slight bow before following his band mates into the wing. A couple of nearby girls began to whisper about him.

"Number 13 to the stage please."

"My lucky number! Here I go!" Kimiko said in her sing- song voice, brushing back her pin straight black brown hair and running her fingers to the bobby pins holding her slightly poofed bangs. She walked down the aisle checking over her black loose shirt that cut at midriff her toned stomach shining in the light, her ripped jeans with red lace leggings underneath tucked into her favorite pair of combat boots stomping their way down .

"Good Luck Kimi-Chi!" Mikan hollered, Kimi turned around with a smile and shot Mikan a victory sign before clomping her way across the stage.

"Hello everyone! I'm Higushi Kimiko, twin sister to Higushi Kaitou, big difference ne?" She giggled and with a wink stood at the microphone making it her perfect for her short height. Once the music began people whooped and clapped to the banging beat.

I could stick around and get along with you
Hello oh-oh-oh-oh
It doesn't really mean that I'm into you
Hello oh-oh-oh-oh

You're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party
Don't get too excited cause that's all you'll get from me

Hey

Yeah I think you're cute but really you should know
I just came to say hello
Hello
Hello
Hello oh oh oh oh!

Mikan was amazed at well Kimi worked the stage she was flirty and professional in all levels really reacting to crowds energy, her outfit was always the best kick off to her songs, but Mikan could not help but feel the swell of pride at her important friend.

I'm not the kinda girl who'd get messed up with you
Hello ho-ho-ho-ho
I'ma let you try to convince me too
Hello oh oh oh oh

It's alright I'm getting dizzy just enjoy the party
It's OK with me if you don't have that much to say
Hey

Kinda like this game but there's something you should know
I just came to say
Hello

Hey

I could stick around and get along with you
Hello oh oh oh oh
It doesn't really mean that I'm into you
Hello oh oh oh oh

(you're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party)
(you're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party)
(you're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party)
(you're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party)
(you're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party)
(you're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party)
(you're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party)

Hey

I just came to say hello
Hello
Hello
Hello oh-oh-oh-oh

I'm not the kinda girl who'd get messed up with you
Hello oh-oh-oh-oh
I'ma let you try to convince me to
Hello ho-ho-ho-ho

It's alright I'm getting dizzy just enjoy the partyyyy
It's OK with me if you don't have that much to say
Hey

Kinda like this thing but there's something you should know
I just came to say hello

With a wink directed to me she got ready for the final...

Hey

When Kimiko finished the crowd roared in approval, whops and whistles were heard through out the auditorium as her friend left the stage. Mikan giggled to herself and smiled proudly at the reaction her friend received, you could say Kimiko was born for the limelight it always followed her and the reaction received was evidence that she was good enough to deserve it.

Mikan sat patiently through the other performers her resolve slowly crumbling with every passing performer.

"Number 23 to the stage." A haughty looking red head stood up with a sassy sashay she walked towards the stage her tight royal blue dress flattered her noticeable curves. Mikan stood and whimpered at the pressure applied to her throbbing ankle, as she tried to make her way out of the auditorium before she herself crumbled. She was abruptly tossed over a pair of strong shoulders.

"I should have known Imai was right, your not trying to escape are you?" A familiar husky voice said. Mikan pounded the back of Kaitou as he carried her back stage.

"…Koizumi Luna." The beat dropped and the last thing Mikan saw before she was completely behind stage was the red head working that stage. Kaitou tossed Mikan none too gently on the couch where the other teens who had already performed were all lounging about.

"You haven't performed yet." The blonde boy from Abyss said, Mikan shook her head in response.

"Idiot, where do you think your going?" Hotaru stood in front of her with her arms crossed and her eyes boring into Mikan's own. Mikan gulped and looked at her suddenly interesting lap as she subconsciously began to play with her hair, she softly replied," Well Aru-Chi, I just don't think I'm good enough." She finished in an almost whisper. Hotaru rolled her eyes, and yanked her best friend up by the wrist despite the whine that escaped the girl's lips.

"Listen Mikan, you know your good, the song isn't it that one? It's one of your best pieces. It is your heart in words now when that bimbo on stage is finished Kaitou is going to carry you in stage and sit there to babysit you and play guitar since your acting childish and dependent. Think of your parents Mikan." Mikan felt her eyes mist over and she smiled hugging her best friend.

"Weird friendship if you ask me." The grinning guy from Abyss said. Hotaru swiftly threw her pump at him.

"No one asked you." She said her eyebrow raised in challenge. The poor boy got smack right dab in the face with the heel and was now clutching his nose.

"Idiot Koko." The fox eyed boy mumbled shaking his head.

"Lets go Mikan." Kaitou stood up with his guitar strapped to his back she nodded and gently laced her fingers behind his neck as he swept her up.

"Number 24 to the stage please."