its been nine years since my dads death, i havent forgotten a single day from when he was with me.
my mind gas been stuck in the past and my body in the present,
this is hard to write but ive trued to kikk myself many times so i can be with him, most tunes failed but some of them succeeded but my sister found me when i did, she cut the rope from my neck before i could finish what i tried.
ive teued every year, my heart stopped fir to one and it caused me to go to the ICU in a hospital for a week after.
I have gone to where my dad rests a few times a year every year and i talk to him as if he was here. i tend to fall asleep when i go there because i feel safe there, more safe than i do with anyone else because i trusted him.
sometimes when I'm sat in my room i sometimes have hallucinations of my dad walking in my room and giving me a hug, these are often due to my antidepressants side affects, they dont help me though because the antidepressants cause these hallucinations which make me sad because how much i miss him and having seeing me in my room causes me to cry.