Okay, I admit it is difficult to make this subject an interesting read. I guess this is just an outlet for me to daydream coz I had so much fun writing this with a smile on my face. I hope that Jaejoong's fans would enjoy day dreaming along with me.

"Ok, let's take a break, everyone! Jaejoong, can we talk?" Director Park call up to Jae discreetly during the break.

"Yes, Hyung"

"Guenchana?"

"Dae, Hyung. wae yo?

"You seem a little... distracted. Is there any problem?"

" Ah, no, I'm okay."

"Are you sure? You seemed restless. And you are making mistakes that you usually don't. The concert is tomorrow" Director Park is genuinely worried about Jae. Jae tends to keep his feelings bottled up inside and rarely likes to talk about his problem or stress until it explodes. Luckily, he has his music as his outlet. But sometimes everything just gets too overwhelming for him and he overworks himself to the point of exhaustion.

"It's nothing. I'm sorry. I just need a little air to straighten my thoughts out." turning to his manager, Jae asked "When am I due for the next rehearsal?"

"Ermm in 3 hours" said his manager after looking at the schedule.

" Make it 5 hours. I will push up the technical team slot. You go and get your rest." said Director Park.

"Thank you. And sorry again Hyung."

"Are you going out alone again?" Ask his manager. Sometimes, to his absolute woe, Jae would run off on his own for hours with no news. This made him really nervous as the manager especially when he could not get in contact with his artist.

"Dae, just for a while. Don't worry I will keep my phone on. Call me if there's anything." Jae feels sorry for his manager everytime he needs some time alone. That's why at other times he tries his best to stay out of trouble, to make up for the times that he knows his manager will be anxious when he goes off on his own.

"Alright. and Jae, please be careful" nothing he could say that would make Jae change his mind. The best he could hope for is for Jae to stay safe.

Jae walks out from the side entrance of the hall. The front and back entrance are filled with fans and anti-fans who is waiting for him. Lately his anti-fans had been rather aggressive. It is one thing to hurt him, but it becomes a problem when others get hurt too. They have been posting up bad remarks about him and recently even putting up a gay-porn depiction image of him and his ex-group member Yunho at his concert venue. And this enrage his fans and had caused a bit of brawls between them.

I'm not sure if they are actually fans or anti-fans. But no one should get hurt on the accounts of me.

He threaded carefully along a hidden path. As soon as he pass the group gathered together, he should be in the clear. He just passed the main group and was about the breathe a sigh of relief when he bumped into someone.

"Oppa. Jaejoong oppa?" She said looking up on him.

He quickly hid his face and excuse himself. But a few fans overheard the exchange and started to approach him. He walks as fast as he could and soon broke into a run when the group is closing on him.

Just a little more at that corner.

After he passed a corner of the walls, he saw an opening for an alley which he quickly duck in to hide from the coming crowd. He bumped into someone who almost screamed in surprise but he quickly put his hand on her mouth and pin her to the wall to keep her from shouting. The alley was narrow. Just a little wider space for 1 person to walk through. He quickly whispers to the girl

"Sorry about this. but don't scream. I'll let you go in a while." he waited a little for the crowd to pass the area before letting the hands on her mouth drop.

"You didn't need to do that you know. I wouldn't have screamed or run." said a familiar voice.

He turned to look at the girl that is still in between of him and the wall. She smiled to him. There was something mischievous in her smile plus the position they are in that made him have a sudden urge to just kiss her.

"So we meet again. Running again are we?" Nana said after a while. Jae was obviously shocked to see her. But his gaze was so intense it rattled her a little. "Do you mind?" she said indicating to his hand that is still holding her shoulders.

"Ah, sorry. What are you doing here?" Jae said after composing himself and letting her go.

"Exploring. Are you looking for a safe path away from the mob? " Jae give a nod to this. "Follow me" Nana said with a wink and a smile.

She lead him through a maze of alleys for a while until they reach a clearing. Somehow they have managed to come to a park. She continue walking until they reach a shaded area where they can clearly see the park and sit down without being interrupted.

"How did you know of this place? I am supposed to be the local here but I feel like a tourist." Jae said as he sits down next to Nana.

"I told you that I have been exploring."

"Usually people don't explore alleys and hidden area"

Nana laugh at this statement.

"True. I guess I am just unusual." She said looking at his teasing face.

"That explains it." Jae said laughing.

"Actually, I was bored. My friends were joining the rest of the crowd waiting to catch a glimpse of you. The first hour, I was there too. But then, I decided to imagine of ways to leave the hall undetected if I were you. And three hours later, I have the route mapped out perfectly. I didn't think I would actually bump into you like that... Now I feel sorry for my friends."

She is so animated. Jae thought as she is relaying the story. Watching her talking with ease like this makes him feel calm.

"Are you here for my concert tomorrow?" Jae ask

"Well, yes and no." Jae raised an eyebrow to this waiting for her to explain.

"Yes, we are here because we know you will be having a concert tomorrow. But, no we are not going for it."

"Why not?"

"One because the tickets are a little above what we can afford. We need to survive for another week here. and two, even if we can somehow get the funds, your tickets are sold out."

"Oh yeah..." Remembering the excited shouts from his marketing team a last week when the tickets were completely sold out "Bianne." Jae replied with a smile.

Again that smile. Does he know just what that smile does to my poor heart?

"You know what, I read this sometime ago in one of your interview, and I know you don't like it, but really, you are seriously beautiful. Good looking or handsome is really not enough to describe you. Guy or not."

"Wow, you are really straightforward. Never had anyone throw that to my face before. hahah. Thank You."

"You are welcome. You should believe your fans. When they say something to you in front of you, most likely they are telling the truth."

"Are you saying you are a fan?"

"of course I am." Nana gives a small laugh. "Why?"

"You don't act like one..."

"What? you mean like following you to places I know you will appear? or trying to get close to you and take pictures with you? or fawning over your looks? oh wait, I already did all those..." Nana replied with a twinkle in her eyes.

Jae laughs heartily to her mischievous reply.

"You know what I meant..."

Nana chuckled before replying "Yes. The word 'fan' is derived from the word 'fanatic' which means excessive enthusiasm or intense uncritical devotion to someone. Well, I guess, my attitude hasn't exactly show that. But in the modern sense of the word I think I can be considered as one. There are many fans who would go through lengths to support you by going to your concerts and appearances, buying your albums and follow your every news. These are the fans that you will see and come to meet you, your active fans. Of course there is also the aggressive ones like you sesaeng fans." Nana gives a little shudder at the thought."But I believe there are fans like me too. We are there in the background supporting you but we might not take initiatives to put ourselves there."

"A passive fan?" Jae asked

"Well, more like realistic fans." Nana said with a grin. "We realize that well, our finances are not at it's best to go for your concerts. And even when we do have the extra dough to go, we realize there is little to no chance for us to actually meet you in person or for you to notice us at all unless we get the VVIP package that allows us to go for you signing sessions - which unfortunately brings us back to our finances issues. And realistically speaking, we can't get close to you under normal circumstances anyway. So we opt to admire you from far, and buying your albums or singles to support you." she look at him for a moment. Enjoying the view that is in front of her.

"The main thing about us your fans is that we like your work. be it your song, your music, your acting and we would always be there to support you and wishing for your success." She added after a while.

"Maybe I don't know all of your songs or memorize the lyrics by heart. Maybe I don't follow every other news that came out about you and maybe because of my reality, I have not been going to your concerts. But, I have followed your career for 10 years now. I think that is a devotion in itself don't you agree?" She turns her head to see Jae looking straight at her.

"Thank You for supporting me all these years." He said with a little bow.

"Hahha... now you're just making it awkward. I am just telling you this so you'd realize that there are all sorts of fan. I believe, your anti-fans are also a kind of your fan."

"What makes you think so?"

"They know news about you as fast as if not faster than us, they are at every appearance you make and they care to listen and watch your work. Sure they say smack about you, but why bother following someone you hate at all? Wouldn't it be easier to just ignore? If they have no interest in you, they would not have done that. People say love and hate is separated by only a thin line."

"I guess that makes sense." Jae said while having a mix emotion on his face an looking faraway to the park. "But sometimes, it gets too much. Other people get hurt. And that makes it more difficult"

"I can't even begin to understand your situation. I can't say anything about the people that get hurt. That just shows that you are more than desrving to be loved." She smiled at him, trying to make him feel better. "Ermmmm... maybe, you can just think of it as a tough love that these anti-fans are showing you? I believe, one simply cannot hate someone so much if there is no love."

Jae look at the girl next to him. She was looking at him earnestly and is obviously trying to cheer him up.

"or you can just say, TO HELL WITH THEM!" Nana suddenly screamed. Which took him such surprise. When he look at her she was giving him a big grin.

"Come on try it. The park is empty. Bet you will feel better."

On normal circumstances when he is in his normal state he would have realized that this is a foolish thing to do in public and as a well known figure he should not do this at the risk of jeopardizing his image..

"TO HELL WITH THEM!" he finds himself screaming before he could stop himself.

"WHO CARES ABOUT YOU!" Nana chimed

"YEAH WHO CARES!"

both of them take turns shouting a few times sometimes cursing out to the sky.

Suddenly from the distance they heard

"OH SHUT UP!"

which made both of them laugh so hard that they were laying on the ground.

"That is so much better" Nana said

"What is?" Jae asked

"Your laughing face." Nana answered with a smile.

"Thank You for making me feel better."

"Nnn. I didn't do much. I was having as much fun."

"Let me repay you." Jae said looking serious

"No you don't have to. Being with you here, is a present itself." Nana answered sincerely

"Please, I insist."

"Then, hmmmm... sing for me. No, sing with me. I'll record it for my keepsakes."

"But that is not even anything..."

"for you maybe. not for me." Nana replied while looking at him earnestly.

"Okay you start"

"Any song? Any key?"

"Yes"

"I might be out of tune though"

"It's okay" Jae smiled at her encouragingly

Nana:

Barami momun gu shigan jocha
(Even that time when the wind stays)

Naege neomu mojaranggol
(For me, it is not enough)

Hanbone miso majimak insa
(I smiled once, and give my final greeting)

Saranghamnida geudel
(I love you)

Jae:

Shigane jicheodo sarang-e apado
(I am tired now and love hurts)

Gu shigan jocha chuogigo
(But that time is just a memory)

Majimak Insa haneyo
(I'll have to say my last greetings)

Saranghamnida Saranghamnida
(I love you, I love you)

Both (Nana harmonize)

Fly away, fly away love

Fly away, fly away love

Fly away, fly away love

Naeseng-e dan hanbone sarang-a annyeong.
(In the afterlife I'll greet you again my love)

- Kim Jaejoong / DBSK "Insa" (Greeting)