Where The Heart Is

by Fayefayemomma13

Trisha returns to Charming after she had left the town and only family she knew behind the morning after graduation 4 years ago. Upon her arrival Trisha is confronted with her past flame, the reason she left Charming in the first place. Can she pick up the pieces where she left off, or will her past and new issues come back to destroy her all over again?

2. Chapter 2: First Date Again

Thank you who added my story to your alerts/favorites. Means a lot to me to know you took the time to read my first chapter. I had only got one review which was a guest, so I would like to say thank you to whoever that was for taking the time to review and am glad you liked the first chapter. If you read it, please please review for me, I want to know if it's good, bad, ideas you may have, etc so please review :). I hope you like this second chapter and am so glad I was able to give it to you the day after the first. I have a lot of ideas as I have said as to where I can take this story and am planning out the rest of the chapters and possibly a second book and prequel to the Jax/Trisha love story. Thank you and let me know how you like chapter 2.

Chapter Two

It was about 9:30 am when Trish finally awoke. She woke up alone, so for a minute she thought she had dreamed of everything that had went on between her and Jax. She actually was sad for a minute unsure of why though. She knew Jax, and there would probably never be anything between them again, maybe just a fling but nothing would get serious. Instead of moping she decided to go ahead and get dressed, she took off her clothes and went to her drawer to see if there was anything in there she could still fit and look good on her. She was so preoccupied that she didn't even hear her bedroom door open. Jax was standing there holding a tray of food, and just about dropped it when he saw the sight in front of him. "Damn" Jax meant to say it in his head but accidentally said it out loud causing Trisha to jump out of her skin nearly. "Jesus Jax, you damn near scared the shit out of me, you ever heard of knocking" she said kind of harshly towards him. He set the tray down on her dresser and grabbed her hands and put over his heart and started to pout at her, "Why so grumpy, was I really that bad last night" Jax had jokingly questioned her. She pulled her hand away and playfully punched him, "You're funny Teller, that's the one thing you know your king of" she said laughing while she pulled out a few different outfit choices that were her high school favorites. "That's not all I use to be king of", Jax smirked but was also serious. Suddenly Trisha stopped dead in her tracks and looked up at him. "Jax, please let's not do this right now" her eyes pleading with him. Her eyes was enough to bring that feeling of shame upon him again, he hated himself every time wishing he could turn back the hands of time and fix everything but he knew he couldn't, all he could do was wait. "I'm sorry, like I said I'm going to make this right", Jax said while he started to feel his pre-pay vibrate in his pocket. Trisha had looked back down, as if she was this lost teenage girl. It killed Jax, but he couldn't say anything, do nothing but look down too. He pulled the pre pay from his pocket realizing it was Big Otto he answered it "Yea".

Trisha looked back up towards the wall and then stood up. She examined her outfits and finally chose one for the day. She put it on and headed straight for the bathroom and started fixing her hair and applying her makeup. "Ok see you then", Jax said as he hung up the phone and went and leaned against the wall and watched her carefully apply her makeup. Trisha had started to walk out of the bathroom, when she caught Jax staring at her, "What are you staring at"? Jax sighed and stood up slowly "you…you are beautiful darlin". To Jax, she was more than beautiful, there were no words that could describe her, and when she wore, what he considered, her regular clothes she could still capture any man's attention. He glanced over her, she was wearing her jean shorts that were old and faded but still clung to her every curve and a black off the shoulder top that loosely flowed over her but still highlighted her assets. She had pulled her hair in a bun and let just a few strands free to shape her face. Trish threw him a small smile, I hate when he knows just what to say. "So who was that" she asked while she went and sat on the edge of her bed and ate her, going cold, breakfast. "It was Otto, we have church at 12, club business, so I'm going to jump in the shower and get dressed, be ready to go when I get out, I'll drop you off at the clubhouse for your car, then we both have to head over to Ma's, she wants to see you". Trisha nodded her head and finished getting ready. 20 minutes later, she and Jax were out the door and on the way to the clubhouse.

An hour had passed, and the guys were still in the chapel while Trisha was sitting at the bar talking to one of the prospects named Half-Sack. He seemed like a nice, young man but judging by the way he had went on about the club, Half-Sack was that type of guy who would be a huge gain to the club. He was head strong and smart but wasn't afraid to step in to the bad side when needed. She was in the middle of talking to Half Sack when she barley heard the noise level start to rise. One minute her and Half Sack was laughing, having a good conversation the next she had looked at Half Sack when she noticed he went pale and quickly had stopped talking. She happened to look over and seen the guys filing out of the church with Jax standing there leaning up against the door with an unlit cigarette dangling from his mouth and his facial expression looked of a mix with anger and sadness. Before she was able to get up and confront him, he looked away and walked out of the clubhouse. She dropped her head in her hands before she heard footsteps approach her from behind and a hand on her shoulder. "T, come on in the kitchen with me, I made something special for you", Bobby said to Trisha and wrapped his arm around her shoulder as she stood up and walked to the kitchen. As Bobby was grabbing something in the cabinet, he spoke to her in a more hushed tone so no one else could hear "Listen baby girl, don't get upset over Jax's reaction he honestly is stuck in a hard place right". Trisha looked up at who she considered her favorite "uncle" and was having a hard time understanding. "Why though Uncle Bobby, Jax turned on me, left me for Tara so why is it he is the one who is having a hard time right now, I'm the one who came back, back to a family I left behind because of him only to be confronted with the past again" Trisha stated with anger in her voice. Bobby smiled and threw her the bag that he retrieved from the cabinet, as soon as she opened it and saw before her homemade chocolate chip muffins she couldn't refuse to smile at him, as she bit in to one. "I've missed these so much" Trish said while stuffing her face. "What just happened in there, is how I know that Jax still loves you, Jax seeing you laugh and be yourself for really the first time with another man, brother or not, I saw it rip Jax open today, is he jealous, yes but it's more because deep down he knows that you can have your pick of any man you wanted, and that they would throw themselves at your feet and that is what scares him the most" A long silence entered the room, as Bobby watched his beloved goddaughter try to fight the urge to cry. Bobby sat down beside her and put his finger on her chin and lifted it up so she would look at him, and it broke even his heart to see the pain this girl was hiding behind those beautiful blue eyes of hers. He grabbed her hand and placed it in his and softly spoke "He may have, in your opinion, thrown you away once, but he realizes that was his biggest mistake and when you left I watched a part of him leave with you, and since you returned yesterday I saw the determination enter his eyes again, he doesn't want to lose you again T, he may not have you back exactly but by the way he has been in the past 24 hours with you nobody can mistake that Jax Teller is still in love with you, and that look out there is a look of discomfort and lost, because he knows he can lose you before he has even gotten you back and with the look you had in your eyes when you saw him yesterday showed that deep down you still love him too, so take it easy sweetheart, don't get worked up and just remember he may have left you, but in a way you left him too and that you both are suffering with torments from the past and if you two plan on fixing it, then there will be a lot more to overcome and I can't promise you it will all turn out the way you want, but if you still love him give him that chance to prove his love for you too, you're a smart, beautiful and very strong woman Trisha so I'm not saying make it easy for him, make him fight for you but right now he is going to need time to cool off so just take it easy on him sweetheart". Trish let a few tears fall down her cheek as she looked at her uncle. Deep down, she knew he was stating the truth, which is why Trisha loved him because Bobby was always there for her especially when it came to Jax and he called it exactly how he saw it. Bobby stood up and pulled Trisha in to his arms "I love you baby girl, I will be here for you just like I was the first time". She leaned up and planted a kiss on his cheek "Thank you Uncle Bobby, you always know what to say, I'm going to go to Gemma's I haven't got to see or talk to her yet". He smiled and shooed her away and as she was walking out the kitchen she turned around to ask a favor of him. "I know this may be too much but tomorrow morning you think you could whip me up your famous pancakes and sausage, I've missed your food too much" she smiled at him. "Of course baby girl, I'll be heading to the store here in a bit to grab stuff for tomorrows dinner so I will be sure to grab that too, be here by 10" and with that she smiled and walked her way out of the clubhouse.

Jax was sitting on the picnic bench when she came out, he glanced over at her and quickly retreated back to looking at the lot. He couldn't bring himself to look at her, his mind was buzzing with a million things and he honestly didn't want to really confront his thoughts right now. He pulled the joint he currently was hitting back to his lips when he felt her warm body crawl up to next to him and the joint being pulled from his lips into hers. As she took a couple of hits, she handed it back to him and stood up in front of him. She grabbed his hand soft and tenderly and pulled him up to face her. The look she gave him sent shivers down his spine as it had been a really long time since she had looked at him with eyes that spoke of love and care. Just as she was about to say something, Gemma had pulled in to the lot along with Clay, Chibs, Opie and Otto with him. Gemma had got out of her car and her heart melted as she saw the sight in front of her and proceeded to meet the guys at their bikes where she was welcomed with a hug from her old man Clay. They all stood there, taking in the sight under the clubhouse. "First loves never really die" Gemma spoke loud enough for the men to hear. Otto turned and smiled at Gemma "No it doesn't, that's a match made in MC heaven, my little girl is just going to be too hard headed and stubborn like me to stop fighting the urge, and Jax is going to have a lot of work to do to win her back". Everyone chuckled. "Lil luvvie will come around, her face shows it all she still head over heels for that man, she'll find her way back" Chibs spoke out loud. As they sat there and watched the two lost in deep thought together Clay turned to Gemma hoping too gather everyone's attention and to let Jax and Trish have their moment alone, "So what brings you here baby, couldn't get enough of me this morning", Gemma smirked at her husband, "Actually, it seemed like it was you who couldn't get enough of me" which let out a burst of laughter from the boys around her and Clay to actually blush, "but I came here to see if she was here, was going to go and take her shopping, a present from us for her graduating with her bachelors degree plus I'm sure she could use a different set of wardrobe choice as the one's I saw where either screaming I'm a whore or I'm a nun". "Let me guess, you went through her suitcase last night when she left" Clay asked clearly not surprised. "I had to check what her style was and clearly she was trying to take after her other mother and her career choice", Gemma jokingly said as she glared at Otto who was quietly laughing to himself. Just then, they heard a bark, followed by a growl, "What the hell was that" Clay asked in a serious tone and before anybody responded to him, Clay watched as he saw Trisha run in the direction the noise was coming from which was behind them in the garage. Next thing he saw was Trisha drop to her knees and a huge ass dog come running from behind him straight in to her arms. Clay turned and glared at Tig who was running out of the garage then stopped short, for not alerting them about the huge monster roaming around the TM lot. Trisha started walking up to them, with Jax standing where he was left watching Trisha's every move, and the dog hot on her heels. "Hi, Daddy" she smiled at Otto while she gave him a hug and planted a kiss on his cheek. Otto had missed those moments with her but he was also wondering what the big mutt behind her was so as he leaned over to look at it then looked at her she giggled, the same innocent, evil giggle she use to give him just when she was about to find a way to get her way, "Sorry everyone, this here is Blaze he is a pit bull, and I've raised him since he was 7 weeks old, I couldn't just leave him behind, we are too attached to each other" as the dog sat calm and still next to his owners feet, Otto of course couldn't deny her to keep her dog, he didn't mind dogs but he didn't want her to leave again either. "Of course he can stay" Otto smiled at his daughter as she started shrieking with joy.

"Gemma, I was just on my way to come see you", Trisha said as Jax had approached the group and leaned on his bike. "Well, I came to see you last night but I think you were too drunk to notice me pull up so I figured we could spent some quality together again and go shopping" Gemma smiled knowing that was one of Trish and hers favorite past times. "Duh, it's long overdue, but I'm also sure knowing you that you went through my stuff and didn't like anything you saw" she said with a smile on her face and her hand on her hip. Everyone busted out laughing and including Gemma. "Let's say that they will never make my top ten favorite outfits of the year" Gemma sarcastically joked back. Just then Half-Sack had come out of the clubhouse and Blaze had barked and took off at the speed of lightning to be greeted by the arms of his newly and only friend outside of Trisha. "Seems my dog has actually taken a liking to you which is not normal" Trisha smirked at Half-Sack as he approached carrying the heavy dog in his arms. "Honestly, he didn't like me at first last night, but I may have given him a nice juicy steak and a bowl of tequila to go with it and after that, he never left my side besides to snoop your presence out than to pass out with me on the couch", Half-Sack laughed but tried to keep it short in case she would rip his head off. "You got my dog wasted, what kind of babysitter are you" she jokingly said to him causing him to smile, and as she turned around she caught a glimpse of Jax with a look of anger flash over his face before he turned his head and lit a cigarette. "Well what are we going to do with him while we're gone" Gemma spoke as she too caught Jaxs face and wanted to hit the road before her son killed the prospect. "I'll have to take him back to the house and lock him up in my…" before she could finish Half-Sack spoke up "I'll watch him while you all are gone, everybody's leaving anyways so it will keep me company and he can run in my backyard, we can meet back here at the clubhouse tonight, I'll go get him some food and all". Seeing the rage building in Jax's eyes, Otto exchanged a look to Clay who then whispered to Gemma to start getting ready to go before her son ends up in jail tonight for murder. "It's settled then, we'll give you a call when we are on our way back". "Before you ladies go, we will be packing up for a 4 day run to Indian Hills, got a call from Jury who is hosting an epic fight night tomorrow and has a lot of money riding on it and wants us to get in on it so we will be leaving early in the morning and will be back Thursday evening" Clay called out.

Gemma had walked up to her husband, and planted a kiss on him before she turned around and hugged her son. Trisha was in the process of hugging everyone bye when she came up to Jax. He smiled his wolfish smile at her that let her know she was in for it later, which she couldn't lie slightly excited her. As she hugged him, he wrapped his hand around her waist and then slid something in her pocket and proceeded to hug her which he noticed out of the corner of his eye that Otto had saw what he did and just smiled. Before she broke away from their hug she whispered in his ear "Please don't kill the prospect, we are just friends" and with that she kissed his cheek and walked away. When she and Gemma got in the car she pulled out what Jax had slipped in her pocket. It was $500 dollars and a neatly folded up piece of paper that had her and Gemma hanging on to their seats before they even read it. Trisha read out loud what was wrote on it, "Trishey, the money was part one of your late graduation gift, I know I probably came off too strong since you got home yesterday but last night was the best night of my life in a long time and I hope I can turn all this around and make more memories with you darlin, spend the money on what you WANT not what you need, meet me at Gemma's tonight around 8 for dinner and your other surprise. Love, Jax." Trisha's jaw dropped and looked over at Gemma who was smirking in her seat. "Is this why your taking me with you today", "No sweetheart, I really have missed you and brought it up to Jax this morning when I called to check on you, he came up with the idea of dinner said it would help so he could get ready". Trisha smiled at her, then looked over to Jax who was still leaning on his bike looking dead at her with that grin on his face before he got up and started walking to the garage. She grinned to herself, what does he have planned in that pretty blonde head of his she questioned in her mind. With that thought she peeled out of the lot and headed towards the mall.

It had just turned 6 when Gemma and Trisha had pulled back in to TM's parking lot with Clay and the rest of the boys sitting outside smoking a blunt as they watched the girls exit the car and headed to the back of the trunk to pull out their bags. Judging by the way the two women were hysterically laughing and trying to grab ahold of the bags, they had probably just got done smoking a blunt themselves. "Aw shit, nothing good comes of two women laughing and whispering together" Otto said out loud as him, Clay, Tig, and Jax approached Gemma's caddy to help grab all of the bags out of the car. Otto squeezed his daughter in a hug, it felt so good to him to see his baby girl smiling more today "you enjoy your day baby girl" "yes I did dad, it was exactly what I needed a shopping day with my favorite old lady". Trisha smiled up at her dad with her bright blue eyes. "Jesus, please tell me you didn't max out my credit card ladies" Clay joked with them both while he started grabbing a handful of bags with Chibs and started to take them inside to the clubhouse. Trisha called out "I love you too Uncle Clay but you should have remembered we are dangerous when we go to the mall". Clay glanced back at her and smirked "I'm sure this next bill will be a reminder of why I stopped letting you two go as often". Everyone started laughing, and Jax had approached the back of the car and seen the bags that were left were from Victoria's Secret and Spencers. Trisha blushed as Otto looked at Jax, then Gemma then turned towards Trisha. "Jax that is all you brother" he laughed as he shook his head and walked away, knowing all too well that it was Gemma who had talked Trisha in to getting whatever was in those bags to torture her poor son with. "Those are all Trisha's so if you could go place them in the back room so she could have more privacy sorting them out" Gemma said to her son as he picked up the bags and glanced over at Trisha who was desperately trying to hold her laugh in. He flashed her his wolfish grin that had her almost buckle at the knees again.

An hour and a half later, she was just about finished getting ready for her dinner with Jax in a half an hour. She didn't know what to expect but she wanted to make sure he knew what he had missed out on in favor for that Tara chick. With the help of Gemma, she was wearing a strapless dark blue mini dress that was laced up on the sides leaving some skin exposed between the laces, dark blue wedges heels to match. She had curls that cascaded down over her shoulders and with the help of her favorite, and the only, croweater she would actually say she liked Cherry, her make up looked flawless and had really brought out her blue eyes. Gemma and Cherry were quite pleased with the way she looked and Cherry couldn't wait for Trisha to come back and fill her in on all the juicy details of Jax's reaction and plans for the night. Cherry and Trisha had hit it off the minute she arrived back home last night, with Cherry quickly realizing that Jax had eyes only for this girl, she never bothered to even try with Jax but instead started to talk to Trisha and gain a new friend instead of an enemy. Cherry was a short girl with long red hair and brown eyes. She looked stunning in Trisha's eyes, more stunning than to be a croweater. As Trisha walked out of the bedroom with the other two ladies, she was meant by a bunch of gazing eyes and jaws dropped as she walked her way through the clubhouse. She could see her dad try his best to not stand up and start beating majority of the men there to death. The girls walked out of the clubhouse with a smirk and kept retreating to the car outside. Jax was already at his moms finishing the final preparations for his dinner tonight with Trish. He was nervous but knew this night could make all the difference in the world for them too so it had to be perfect. As she started to get in the car she quickly turned around "Oh shit, I forgot Half-Sack has Blaze, I have to go get him first" "Relax Trisha, I took care of that, he was more than happy and willing to take Blaze for the night, he was in the process of grilling them some chicken for dinner so needless to say your dog is more than being spoiled as we speak" Gemma said to Trisha sarcastically. Trisha smiled "Thanks Gemma, well guess I'm going to head over there". "Have fun baby, and remember stay strong he is trying". "I know he is, it's just not that easy". With that, she got in the car and left.

Jax heard her pull up, thanking god he just finished getting everything ready, when he heard the car door shut. He walked to the door and opened it for her just as she was about to knock. Jax became speechless, standing before him was too beautiful of a woman for him, just like she was when they were dating in high school. "Hey darlin, you are stunning" was all Jax could say. "Hello Jax, can I come in now" she said with a smile on her face. She was in complete awh of him as he was wearing a nice dark set of jeans, clean white shoes, and for the second time in her life that she had seen a white, long sleeved button up shirt, his semi long blonde hair slicked back unlike normal. He smiled and placed her hand on his arm as he guided her in to the house and out through the back door. She had looked up and before her was a beautiful display of white lights hanging every where and a table set out in the yard that had candles, and her dinner set before them. Her mouth had dropped as she took in the beautiful scene before her, she didn't expect it too look so, fancy. Jax couldn't stop grinning at her expression, knowing that she was liking what she saw, but most of all what he saw. Jax lead her over to the table and sat her down while he sat in his chair, "Let's eat before its cold". Jax kept staring at Trisha while she ate, it was her favorite dish that he remembered, Fettuccini Alfredo, and he had made it with help from Bobby of course. When she was done she looked up to see Jax staring at her. "What is it Jax" she questioned him, trying to hide her smile. Jax kept staring at her and then shook his head "Nothing darlin, just taking you in". They both went silent for a little bit until Jax spoke again "I had this made for you today" pulling out a CD case and handing it to her. "When mom called me earlier this morning, I had her go and pull out every picture she had kept of us from her album, and came over here with Bobby when you all left to sort through them and had one of my connections make this while you guys were gone, I hope you will like it, I know I seem to be hard pressed on you but I thought since you loved our pictures as memories that you would like this". Jax said with a nervous look on his face. Trisha had ran her fingers over the case before getting up and walking over towards Jax who had took his eyes off his plate and looked up at her. "Can we watch it now, Jax", Trisha wasn't expecting to do that and she wasn't sure it was a good idea but the thought of this cd that contained special memories of what she and Jax used to be had moved her. She didn't want to relive these moments alone, but relive them with the person who helped create them with her. It took Jax a minute to register that she really had just asked to watch them with him. He stood up and took her hand in his and led her inside to the living room. She sat down as he put the disc in and grabbed the remote, he turned around and started walking to sit down on the couch when she tapped her hand on the spot next to her and without hesitation he sat down next to her. As he hit play, Trisha had put her hand on his thigh where he quickly grabbed it and squeezed. The video was about 15 minutes long and Trisha had watched as tears started spilling from her eyes breaking Jax's heart as she tried to muffle her crying and sniffling.

There were pictures from their time at the streams with Opie and Donna when she and Donna were 16. Pictures of throughout the few years they had dated of them two holding each other, at the pep rallies where Jax, Opie and Donna had posed in the same cheer pose Trisha had did. Some from the clubhouse, on Jax's bike, and many from her prom with Jax. Her favorites were the casual ones of them from being in the hallways at school, lunch time, and a few from classes they all had together, even football games they had attended together. "Seems like this all was just going on yesterday, we were together and happy, planning our futures together, amazes me how stuff can change so quick" Trisha said silenty as the video was done. One of her favorite songs that her and Jax danced to at prom came on and Jax stood up and pulled her up with him. He wiped the tears from her eyes and he gently placed his hand on her hip and grabbed the other and started dancing with her. Trish could feel the tears forming in her eyes again as she felt Jax grab her close, just like he did the last time they danced.

And we danced

Like no one else had ever danced before

I can't explain what happened on that floor

But the music played

And we held each other close

And we danced

Trish felt an overwhelming feeling rush over her. She missed this, she missed Jax and she could feel the love radiating off of him. She wanted to kiss him, wanted to tell him it would all be ok and run back in to his life, be his old lady and live a happy life like they planned but she couldn't. Trisha remembered the pain, and how it felt to watch Jax make love to another woman and she didn't want to feel that pain again. Just then Jax lifted her chin up and kissed her. It was soft and gentle but with enough force to show her that he wanted more of her, he wanted all of her. When he let go, he stared in her eyes and held her close to him. Trisha couldn't process what had just happened, she wanted it but at the same time she was falling too quickly for him again and she couldn't let that happen. Tears started falling down her face and before Jax could even say anything she pushed out of his arms, "I have to go Jax, I'm sorry this shouldn't have happened and I can't do this, I did enjoy dinner though" and just like that she walked right out of the house, got in her car and drove off as Jax watched from the front door, speechless as he watched his girl walk out of his life again.