Considering how productive I'm being today (aka waking up before noon), I'm finally going to update. Hooray! But it's short.

"What?"

"Gay… I-I'm a lesbian."

"No. No. You're dating that guy uh Josh yeah"

"We don't go out anymore and I'm dating this girl. Her name's Lauren."

"Liar! Stop fucking lying!"

"I'm telling the truth!" Tears spilled down my face and I remember trying to wipe them away but my shaking hands couldn't move fast enough.

"Sara listen to me," my stepfather held me by my shoulders, "you are not gay. You're just confused that's all. You are not to see this Lauren girl understand?" I understood. I understood everything my parents were saying.

"I just don't know where I went wrong." My mother held her head in her hands.

"It's not your fault. It's just who I am. It's natural."

"You're sick that's what. I can't believe you insist that's natural."

"Um-" it wasn't until then that I realized my sister was in the room.

"Tegan go to your room now." Tegan kept her head down as she walked out. What a pushover. My stepfather turned his attention towards me again.

"I'm giving you one last chance, either acknowledge that you are wrong or leave. I don't need this shit in my house." An ultimatum, yeah I played his game.

I shielded my eyes with my hair and gave a nod. Smack. My head fell to the side. "Don't ever try to pull a stunt like that again and wipe that smirk off your face." My mind was racing with hundreds of ideas for what I was going to do. I didn't have time to be concerned with my parents anymore.

Back in my room I grabbed my backpack and started stuffing it with clothes. They would have kicked me out anyway. A picture of Tegan and I caught my eye and I threw that in too. I was packed but it wasn't time to leave just yet. A can of black spray paint was stashed in my closet. Perfect. I placed my guitar in its case and left my room for the last time. Leaving my mark in huge dripping black letters on my wall, PROUD.

I slipped in Tegan's room and silently closed her door behind me. My guitar and backpack fell to the floor. Tegan laid on her bed facing out her window. A ray of moonlight silhouetted her body. I kicked my shoes off and lay next to her.

"I'm sorry….I should have stood up for you. I'm just not strong like you are." It killed me to know I was leaving her.

"It's fine, really. That was my fight." I shifted so I could reach her hands and place my head on her shoulder. "I'm leaving."

"Yeah I know. I'll miss you…so much."

"I know but it's not like we won't ever see each other again." I hoped off the bed.

"And I'm taking your shoes" I pushed my own shoes under her bed and put her hi tops on. I stood and got ready to say goodbye. I walked in front of Tegan and opened her window. "I love you" I turned to look at a watery eyed Tegan staring back at me. I kissed her cheek and whispered in her ear, "Love you too babe, always." With that I quickly and quietly jumped out her window.

I left my house without looking back. Close by was a gas station where I planned to call my girlfriend. She had been emancipated and was living somewhere downtown. I leaned my guitar against the payphone and put the money in.

"Hey sweetie it's me, listen I need you to pick me up. I'll explain later."

Tegan always thought she was the weaker one. She couldn't have been more wrong.

Going out in about 5 minutes so I'm ending it here. Might update later.