It was the middle of the day, twelve o clock to be exact, as the sun beam through the window I placed my head down on my desk and started to think

*flashback*

"Jose!"

I turn around and saw Amy running up to me, she grabbed my arm and refused to let go

"Let go!"

I jerked my arm away from her looked at her in the eye's, She was filled with confusion I could see that but what can she do, she can't help, she can't take this pain away.

"Jose, please tell me what's wrong I want to help"

*sigh*

I looked down, I didn't know what to do, she I tell her….no…I can't get hurt…not again

"Its nothing Amy just…leave me alone"

At that moment her face started to bloat up as she puffed her cheeks, she started stomping with one foot

"Jose I'm not going to leave you alone until you tell me what's wrong!"

Amy ran in front of me trying to block my entrance to the school, I laughed at her attempt

"Fine, Looks like I don't have to go to school today, matter of fact I don't have to come back after today then"

I turn around and walked the opposite direction of the school

"Oh no you don't"

I felt Amy grab my arm, she tugged and dragged me into the school, I put up quiet a fight to break free but she did not let go

"Let go Amy"

"No!"

God damn, just let me go, you don't know what I'm going through. Why do you care? You can't help, you don't know what I'm going through or been. Your still in a "relationship" with Sonic, how can you help someone who's in heartache if you're blinded by love?

I yanked my arm away from Amy's

"I can take myself to class"

"You better!"

I walked in the hall's looking at all of the students, all of them living there so called "happy" lives, living in no regret, no pain, anguish, nothing all happy.

Look at them, acting so happy, as if live can't get any better…

The warning bell interrupted my train of thought, sighing I walked down the hallway making a left and entering the first class

"Alright class today in Crafts1 were going to finishing up our jewelry project"

*sigh*

I looked at the teacher with such disgust, she was a Worm eater with red hair, she was around her mid thirty's and had a voice that sound like nails to a chalk board. As everyone in the class started to work on their project I placed my head down on the desk

"Jose"

Argh, what the hell does she want now

I looked up at the teacher who was hovering over me

"Jose I'm glad to see that your back you must have been sick to have missed nine days"

I looked at her and grunted

"Are you done?"

She looked at me with quiet shock

"I don't think you should be talking to me like that"

"Whatever"

I placed my head down waiting for her to leave, after a couple of minutes she gave up and went to another table. I looked around seeing if anyone was looking, so far the coast was clear. I reached into my book bag and pulled out a black stapler

Finally….relief…

I placed the stapler against my arm and pounded it down. I gasped at first in the pain but smiled dreadfully.

Ah…yes…pain…it feels so good….

I continue to staple my arm for another fifth teen minutes, I looked down at my arm that was now covered in staples, I liked what I did, spelling hate with the staples seem to please the sadness that burrowed in me. I placed the stapler back into my book and pulled out a medical band.

I have to wrap this around my arm…so nobody see's….they wouldn't understand this pain…this is the only way to satisfy it

I wrapped the medical bandage around my arm and rested till the end of the period.

*end flashback*

I looked down at my arm that was covered in medical bandage, it started to pulse as the skin formed around the staples, I could tell by now that these were going to be a beautiful when I rip them out and watch them bleed

"Ok class were going to be working in pairs in this assignment"

I looked up and gazed at the falcon teacher, of course since he was the world studies teacher he looked like he belong as a tour guy to a museum of world history. His feathers were dark blue; his shirt was a bright white long sleeve dress shirt with a blue tie tan dress pants and formal brown shoes.

"Ok we're going to chose partners by the cards"

Ugh how I hate those cards, always jipping people of their grades when we don't have a homework assignment done

"Ok first pair is….Amy and Sonic"

I looked at the head of the class and saw Amy squealing in joy as she heard her name called with Sonic. Sonic gazed back at her and smiled. He wore a dark blue shirt that matched his fur color with black jeans. His green emerald eye's gazed back into as Amy moved her seat next to his and leaned against him

Ugh, puke feast, god damn I hate it when people show PDA, look at them it makes me sick

As the teacher continue to name partners I reached into my book bag and pulled out my Mp3 player and listen to some music

I felt someone tap my shoulder, I removed my headphones and looked up

"Um…hey the class is over"

I placed my hand on my forehead, I must have dazed off during class, and meh won't be the first time. I picked up my stuff and walked toward the door.

"Hey wait"

I stopped and looked back, it was a lavender cat, and she wore a black long sleeve tee-shirt with blue jeans. She had a belt choker around her neck. Her hair was pointed upward like if it represented a crown, it was held by a red band. This cat girl walked to me and extended her hand

"I'm Blaze, Blaze the cat and I'm your partner"

Blaze….isn't she in my other classes?

"Yes I am in your other class"

I gave her a shocked looked in amazement

"How—"

"Well the look on your face was actually the key, you looked like you were studying me as if we met, yes we have first period together, and you know crafts"

"Whatever"

I walked out of the class room and into the hallway, I heard her footsteps following me, I quicken my pace and she did the same.

What the fuck does she want, god, I want to be alone so I can rip these staples out

I stop in my tracks, unfortanually for her she crashed into me causing both of us to fall down.

"Argh, why the hell are you following me?"

I pushed her off slightly; she sat on the floor picking up her papers as I stood up brushing myself off

"Well for one, we're partners for history, Mr. Talon paired us up, and two"

She cut herself off as she stood up and brushed her pants off with her open hand

"Two, you need the papers so you can do your half of the project, don't think I like this as much as you do, I notice that you changed, and don't say you have, I'm friends with Amy and she tells me everything"

I growled at her statement, of course she's friends with Amy, everyone is to top it all off Amy is spreading shit saying that I changed.

"Hey…Hey!"

I snapped out of thought and saw Blaze waving papers in my face. I lashed the papers out of her hand and folded them putting them in my pocket. I started walking I heard her in the background shouting "gee thanks for, not even a thank you, damn jerk"

Heh, you have no idea what a jerk is, and nor do you want to know

I heard the second bell ring as I continue walking down the hallway, there was running since it was last lunch of the day, mostly seniors and juniors, my lunch.

"Hey Jose!"

Not again, Jesus Christ

I turned around and saw Amy running my way; she was dragging Sonic by his hand as they headed for the lunch room.

"I'm not going to lunch Amy"

I saw her face twist from happy to angry. She stopped in front of me, giving me a mean glare

"Oh come on Jose, you haven't been in school for nine days, don't you want to see the gang?"

"No"

Simply putted I turned around and walked away, I heard her having one of her usual temper, I also her Sonic telling her to calm down that it was no big deal….something around those lines. As I past students in the hall way I walked up the stairs toward the lockers were there were no teachers most of the time.

Perfect, no one in sight

I leaned against one of the lockers and slumped down until I was sitting on the floor; I unwrapped the medical bandage and looked at the staples, they started to black in blue in which I was happy, more pain to seep out, more…satisfaction….

I took out a pencil from my pocket and placed it under one staple

Alright…lets do this…got to do it quick so it bleeds more

I yanked the staple up causing pain to course through my arm, the halls echo slightly with my groans as I continue to pull out the staples in my arm

"Argh….ahhhhhhh……grrrraahhhh"

I started to pant heavily as blood dripped from my arm to the school's carpet as I looked at the last staple I looked at the blood running quickly down my arm, those words…they kept ringing in my ears. Even when my ear's fold back I could still hear those words.

The wounds are too deep…I need to keep the scars…to prove there was a time…When I loved something more than life

I looked at the last staple that was hiding in blood, its dark red color with the steel tint color was almost memorizing, I stab the pencil tip underneath the staple and yelled closing my eyes.

"ARRRRRRGHHHHH!!!.....AHHHHHHRRRGRRRRAGG"

I open my eyes and smiled in amazement, I started to chuckle lightly looking at the big rip that caused blood to flow out like a river. At that moment I heard a gasp; I turn my head and looked at a terrified purple cat

"Jo…Jose…"

I smiled at her weakly and stood up. There were small puddles of blood on the floor and as more blood dripped from my hand you could hear the blood making water droplets sounds as they hit the small pools.

The cat walked back slowly, terrified at what she has just saw

"What…are you doing here Blaze?"

"What do you mean what am I doing here?! My locker is here I forgot my gym shorts for next period but then I heard faint yelps, I came rushing to the sound and found you….MY GOD JOSE WE NEED TO GET YOU TO THE NURSE"

"NO!"

My yell seem to have frighten her, she backed away slowly

"Don't you dare take me to the nurse she can't help me, she doesn't understand, nobody does"

"O…o…ok wait here then, I got an old shirt to cover up your arm so it stops bleeding"

Blaze ran the opposite direction stumbling at first, while I stood there with my eye's turning heavy and weak smiling weakly

Finally….relief for this pain….it feels so good….watching the blood of a worthless life bleed out…finally….this will answer my question…this will quench the pain….

Yes this chapter was pretty gruesome toward the end but sorry, its….an actual event that happen during my depression…cutting didn't seem to fill the need for relief so…that…did….either way….chapter 2 is finished as you just read…as of chapter 3 idk when that will b done since I am grounded from the computer and I have to sneak on to do ff now either way, if any questions just leave a message or review