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Chapter 2 – The Applause.
Remus work up the night morning, his body aching and his eyes tired, almost like he just went through a full moon. He sat up and yawned, making sure his pyjama sleeves were covering his cuts. He cut pretty badly last night and several deep cuts were etched into his already scarred skin. He stood out of bed and shivered as his feet came in contact with the cold stone floors, he never did fully understand why the floor was stone in the dorm rooms, carpet would have been far more suitable.
"Morning Moony, fuck your face still looks like you had a fight with a hippogriff" Sirius spoke in a concerned tone. Remus stuck out his tongue and walked to the bathroom. After a considerable amount of time trying to cover the bruises on his face Remus went down into the common room, he waved as he saw Lilly Evans in the corner of the room, a book in her hands.
"Remus over here" She called, her green eyes full of worry. Remus walked over trying to ignore the whispers of 'what's up with Lupin's face?' and took a seat next to her.
Lilly Evans is a beautiful girl, her long fiery red hair, her bright green eyes and her curvaceous shaped body. Remus understood why James chased her for all them years, thankfully for him he wouldn't have to hear James complain to him anymore as they have been dating for some months now.
"What is wrong with your face Rem, it looks sore" Lilly spoke softly, her voice etched with concern.
"Haha, urm a bludger, nothing to worry about" Remus laughed as he rubbed his hair.
Lilly didn't look satisfied with the answer but decided not to press the issue any further. They sat on the sofa talking until James, Sirius and Peter appeared. James walked over to Lilly and kissed her on the cheek.
"Morning baby, I see you have seen the state of Remus' face" James laughed, rubbing Remus' hair with his hand. Remus shoot him a glare and continued to read his book. Sirius walked over and sat next to him.
"You feeling better today Rem?" Sirius asked kindly, his grey eyes twinkling. Remus looked up from his book and smiled, he nodded his head and said "Yes, thank you Siri".
"Was wondering if you wanted to do something today, get you out for a bit" Sirius asked, looking thoughtfully at Remus. Remus shut his book and rubbed his chin, standing up and stretching he said "Yeah, where should be go? Let's ask Peter".
Sirius stood up and grabbed Remus by the arm before he could make it to Peter, pulling him into the corner of the room. Remus hissed in pain as Sirius pulled on his cuts, trying hard to not show it was hurting him.
"What was that for Padfoot, for Christ sake" Remus whispered angrily, pulling his arm out of Sirius' grip.
Sirius shoot him a worried glance and asked "Why did you make a pain sound, did that bludger get your arm too?". Remus stuttered and started to bite his nails, walking away from Sirius in a rush. Sirius ran after him and grabbed his arm again just as Remus reached the boys dorm room.
"Ow, for fuck sake Sirius, get off" Remus shouted, trying to push the dark haired man off.
"Show me your arm.." Sirius demanded, his eyes dark with anger and fear.
Remus walked completely into the dorm and sat on the bed, Sirius following after putting a locking charm on the door. Remus crossed his legs and lent his head in his hands, and that's when it happened. He started to cry, first a few tears which then turned into loud sobs. Sirius wrapped his arms around the crying boy and soothed him the best he could, running his hands through the smaller boys hair.
"Rem, tell me what's wrong, please trust me" Sirius spoke calmly, as he moved away from Remus so he could see his face. Remus stopped crying and looked up at Sirius. Sirius really is very beautiful, his perfectly sculptured face, chiselled jaw bone and distinctive cheek bones. His lips are full and kissable and his light grey eyes held so much mystery. He towered over Remus height wise and was more muscular too. Remus couldn't help but feel at ease with Sirius, so he said it.
"Where to start? I'm gay, and I know this for sure as I have been meeting up with some guys occasionally in Hogsmead" Remus spoke quickly.
Sirius jumped away from Remus and stood up, pacing around the room with a face of shock.
"So your gay, right, so what? Doesn't bother me Rem.. But meeting up with guys, what do you mean by that?" Sirius asked, walking towards Remus and sitting on the bed opposite.
Remus bit his lip and sighed. "You promise me this will stay between us?".
"Yes, of course it will Moony" Sirius replied. Remus took a deep breath and brushed his hair back from his face.
"So, urm.. On Wednesday nights I go to the Hogshead and rent a room. Urm, fuck this is awkward.. Okay I get fucked by random guys for fun, happy?" Remus blurted out. His eyes darting to anywhere in the room that wasn't Sirius. Sirius looked at him and then stood up angrily, walking to the door and back he punched the wall next to Remus' bed. Remus jerked back a little and shakily stood up, walking towards Sirius.
"I'm sorry, don't hate me" Remus spoke softly, his voice trembling.
Sirius stared into Remus' amber eyes and whispered "I don't hate you, but I'm a little fucking annoyed, you could have been killed for Merlins sake".
Remus bit his lip and pulled on his sleeves, walking back towards his bed he sat down with a sigh.
"I know, it's careless and stupid, I'm stupid" Remus sighed and pulled up his sleeves, revealing lines of deep cuts in his wrist. Sirius gasped and walked towards Remus, sitting on the bed and pulling him into his arms.
"You're not stupid Remus John Lupin, you could never be that" Sirius spoke, rubbing Remus' back and pulling him in closer to his chest.
"How long?" Sirius asked, his eyes full of pain and guilt. Remus pulled away a little and wiped a few stray tears away from his eyes. "A while, well a few years but only this bad recently" Remus replied.
"So, why do you do it? It's not good for you" Sirius asked, his hand grabbing Remus' wrist and examining the cuts closely. Remus looked up into Sirius' eyes, and he felt something. A twinge in his heart that made him feel guilty. Guilty for what? Hurting Sirius, but why would he feel that way?
"I don't know, I just do it" Remus whispered and then lent in and pressed his lips against Sirius's. Sirius's eyes went wide and he pushed Remus away, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand he ran out the room.
"Fuck" Remus shouted as he laid down onto his bed. I've really fucked things up now…
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